2023- The New era in Life ..

 2023  The New Era in Life ... 

     Hi everyone its been a long ,long time since I even attempted writing or blogging... its been a tough couple of years.. at times I was very upset at myself and the world.. I mean,, I lost a home , I lost friend's , family through the evolution of life.. Life can be cruel.. Like Mother nature and father time.. They wait on no one. But I survived the hardships.. I learned that no one , and I mean no one can help you get out of our funk then yourself,, Yes,, I lost my mama at a very young age and even though its been a lifetime.. I still get sad  when I hear certain songs , like Led Zeppelins all of my love,, for some reason she loved that song and I still get misty when I i eat a jack in the box  breakfast , we used to eat those every Sunday after church.. that's why when she passed i was losing my life. But my wife and my career in the navy took me away from my home town San Diego and i got to see how the other side of the world lives. I learned to be humble and modest and be thankful for my family , because after long reflection I realized ,, Family is first and everything , but it took many losses in my life to finally come to grips with that.. They say life is a journey , its a process, but when I was young , younger I thought I was the process I was the journey,, oh how I was wrong... 

     I found out that life goes on with you or with out and when sad things happen you have to adjust or it will take you away.. And no matter how rich you  are or famous , sadness and mental anguish hits al of us... It takes family to say I'm there for you,, But we have to learn that on our own.. 

    Lets be good to one another and share your wisdom with family and friends because life is so fragile and fast.. At times to painful to understand , but we have to be strong because thats just the evolution of it all.. 

     Please look into my blogs and see the changes in my writing from years ago till today,, Mellow in old age or wisdom,, ? Whose knows,, but if anything enjoy life and be kind to one another always!!

Until next blog be safe !!

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2021 THE NEW YEAR TO ... RESTART..

2021 THE NEW YEAR TO ..RESTART//

  Hi everyone its been a long time I posted.. Writers block,, or just rethiking things. 2020 was a tough year for everyone.. I had one of the worst years of my life.. I lost quite a few classmates , breast cancer, lost some shipmates.. natural causes.. covid related .. ? I lost loved ones.. old age.. One thing I learned from all of this I', still standing strong.. I'm one of those types that doesnt give up on anything , love , friendships.. etc.. Sometimes I think I torture myslef , trying to hold on to things or people in my life that serve no purpose.. 

   Well in a nutshell, I believe this upcoming year I'm focusing on bettering myself,. Not only physically , but emotionally , spiritually , intellectually , just become a more patient and understanding person.. I mean that's easier said than done.. Until that person cuts you off in traffic , or is rude to you at the grocery store or your made to wait in long lines.. Its human nature to get upset especially during these rough times.. BUT WE HAVE TOO, the world , the people need to think about others pain instead of your own.. I had a falling out with a close friend about the fact I'm so selfish and only think about myself.. ON reflection , she's right I am selfish and I do think about myself alot,., But its because I have a strong ego and I pride in myself in being independent , strong minded and decisive about what I like or want. But in that case I came off being too selfish , if that's true than I'm sorry about that and I will take into account how I treat people especially close friends.. My best friend tells me that I still act like its high school where you drop people with a wink of an eye.. Today being much older and wiser , I should be  more patient and look at dropping friendship when you have a misunderstanding.. Another lesson about myself,, I need to swallow my pride at times and just look at the facts or actions and react to that , But in the past I would overthink thigs , get annoyed or pissed of if things didn't go my way.. Its a fast moving world today,, You have to adapt to fast changes and you have to let things go,, everyday.. by holding on to grudges or emotional baggage your creating stress for yourselves and you loved ones.. In todays world too many of us look for instant gratifcation with twitter , with face book , with google hangout.. or whatever to satisfy our urges to be loved and liked, We should look to help people in need and be there for family and friends,. But don't be too needy or too helpful , we all have our issues and lives to attend to,, I learned the hard way that my life is just like anyone else's, even though I lived a pretty adventurous life , its still only one life,. I do like sharing my journeys , but its still one life to the billons of people on earth,. I will take that into account and be thankful for those that take the time to read my blogs.. Thank you,.\

 Lastly , please take time this year to restart your life, look at what's important and take of of those things,. including close friendships.. This is not high school anymore we have to take time to cherish the friendships or connections you have and learn everyday to be a better person this year.. We will overcome this Covid era and become better people.. WE need to,.. We have too!! For societies sake for mankind.. May all of you have a wonderful day and thank you for supporting my blogs!!\

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Why I love working out ?

Why I love working out ?
    Ok guys and gals , working out I know for some people it’s a chore but for others it’s an addiction..
For me.. Its an release of energy. I'm a very hyper person even at my age.. Its just who I am.. BUT BACK TO working out.. When I work out I'm able to release this pent up energy I have.. Its a natural high, its really hard to explain.. For those of u that work out on a daily basis.. you know my feelings.. I guess its like people tat can play video games all day.. I like to work out, either its.. doing boxing karate moves.. or even dance moves.. I enjoy moving around.. When it comes to weightlifting.. I like the pump and how you feel afterwards,.., Its really a head rush.. But you have to do it.. Once you get into a routine,, you don't even think about all the time your wasting working out.. haha..No but for reals working out for me is like medicine. its like therapy.. I just feel so good after  a workout.. That's why I look forward to the next workout.. Yea,, its an addiction.. Its like love.. once you feel it once in your life. you cat wait to feel it again..  But the main reason I enjoy working out because I feel good I feel young .. and I feel strong.. I really think the body is made to be active.. I feel the moment you feel your old. ..You have sucummed to that thinking// It really turns me off when People say I'm too old. or I have too many injurie's.. People I have broken my hand. I have seperated my shoulder have torn my calf muscles. torn up my knees.. but guess what I still work out every day... To me.. excuses are like ass holes.. everyone has one and they all stink.. Yea.. I feel people are the ones that put limitations.. on themselves.. Life is meant to be lived and not be afraid how you feel. I feel in life your going to meet people your going to be attracted to ,, and whether you act on it , is up to you.. But I do feel some people fulfill your needs , whether its spiritual . or emotional. Some people just click. with you.. ok.. enough of that..
   My final thoughts about working out.. I do it because it makes me feel younger and I believe it makes you look younger I mean when your fit.. People assume your younger.. To me that's how you fight off father time.. I know its inevitable . But if you take care of yourself, Like eat and drink well and of course get plenty of rest.. When your older.. the body needs time to recover.. But its really a love affair when you enjoy working out.. I really enjoy the natural high I get running , walking or punching and kicking a bag.. Its a great feeling and I believe that's the reason I still feel young and look young.. The body loves movement and I give my body what it wants and I get attention from both sexes.. I know that sounds gay. But a compliment from a female or male pumps up my ego,, If that's gay.. then I'm gay.. But I think most guys.. want to impress the guys.. but wont admit it.. Sure we love the attention we get from girls. But when our peers pay you compliments.. Its a ego boost.. So in a nut shell .. I love working out for the health benefits. BUT its the EGO boost from male peers that I yearn.. for.. so with that. Go out there and work out and be happy.. Every day is a lifetime.. enjoy each day.. !!
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AMERICA - sad but true Civil War 2- Inspired by current Events

America - sad but true Civil War 2 - Inspired by current events.. 
  Hello Everyone , I hope all is well with everyone.!!  America is more divided morally ,ideologically , politically than the first Civil war. The neglect the Government has done to the homeless and the poor has given rise to such hatred towards authority. Yes, and if you think its gonna anytime soon is ridiculous.. I have seen such hatred and discontent with anyone wearing a uniform with a badge.. I have been called pig, I have been flicked off and just today a idiot was doing weird driving at the casino parking lot I was patrolling. I also notice I see lots of hate towards anyone on uniform. Its really sad that there is so many people out there that have such disrespect not only for the police , but anyone in uniform.. I'm proud of my military service , but  I see so many people who could care less you fought for this country. To be honest its scary when you see so many haters out there! No matter what THE civilians out number the ones in uniform. That's why we need the law abiding citizens to assist the law enforcement team. I'm not saying go out and be street vigilante . But do protect your house and streets because we are in a sad but true Civil War 2 and I don't see it any of this ending anytime soon. I mean the prisons and jails are over crowded, the court systems are  too. The streets are filled with so many people that have disrespect for anyone in authority.  I see some people that are showing respect , but the majority .. just hate the police. Its really a sad reality we a watching as these thug protesters are making headlines. Killing people for no reason. I mean.. What's the point killing anyone over holding a sign. Its makes no sense to deface historical markings and showing total disregard for public places. Its really a shame, that at one time , we were looking to help one another during this Covid 19.. Now we are really fighting an enemy , these young Americans that think destroying property and looting stores , is an expression of social injustice. Its no wonder the police feel so disconnected with these people. Its tough to protect people that hate you , but that's the job of Law Enforcement and Security personnel and we often don't get the attention we don't really want but it seems when things go bad. They are looking for us, and when things are great. We are the invisible protector. Its really a hard job to go to work and enforce the rules , only to hear people call us fucken pigs.. Nigger.. ass holes.. Yea,, we are called so much things in our face ,especially when alcohol is involved.. I have seen people take pictures of me and then these folks laugh and drive off. But .. its the sad reality when you have such divide in the country.. The people I see on the streets look so disconnected and frustrated with authority, but like I said, you neglect and let the poor and middle class fend for them selves . Its tough to find a truce. How do you resolve the many years of police brutality , the many years of seeing injustice for all races, but it seems if its a white and black thing..            Its war. The media embraces it..They promote this lawlessness and offer lots of rhetorical statements , but have no solutions. They rather tear down a president  hasn't been perfect , but he's honest and I believe he believes in this country..
  How to bring peace ? Well those incident those 4 police officers be put on trial and prosecuted quickly and then Police chiefs creating a plan..that would bring peace to the crew and society. This hatred and pain will not fade away anytime soo,. We need to get the children back into schools and learning to be with each other and have town meetings with members of society and the Law enforcement officers , need to be approachable to those that receptive and have some better tolerance that don't care for you. Like I said these issues  will not go away over night. Like I said defacing and vandalizing historical markings is not only sad but disturbing .. With the social media in full force , it so easy to create a following or create a story by just posting things on face book. As citiznes of America, if your looking for factual things , don't look to face bool. A lot of us.. Play games , including myself, We are looking for attention.. By posting half truths , or half lies. Its a battle in todays society .. This generation I'm so proud of you standing and fight the prejudice society , the older generation like mine.. There was so much racism when I was going through life, whether it was on the streets or in the military. Racism and hatred is learned and its time that kind of thinking .. stops.. Sometimes you have to be cruel to be kind.. Its time America, that those criminal cops get served with justice and those bad apples leave the force and may the new force be smarter , wiser and be more communicative .. That's the issue.. Lack of understanding and communication. If you just talked and got to know one another , we can overcome so much. Because based on my own experience..  People hate things they don't understand.. So the key is to communicate and understand each other plight.. Its called respect.. 
  Final thoughts .. Its really simple treat everyone with respect.. we are all very different people with different cultures.. If anything.. just let people pray they want to . let people be whatever they want to be ,, gay , lesbian, tranny.. whatever,, if it doesn't impede with your life.. what should you care.. ? If people own guns.. so be it.. if you don't and you hate guns. so be it.. its your freedom of choice and your pursuit of happiness.. In other words, to each as own..  Let it be.. as the ...would sing about.. These are troubled times and I see people acting out , but whats important is give people space and give people the ability to figure things out. I know I'm a tempermental emotional guy that sometimes yells at loved ones.. But if you know  me well.. I yell at you one minute and kissing and hugging you the next.. haha.. Its the Italian in me.. But anyways.. like I say,.,. Let people say what they want as long as it doesn't affect your pursuit in happiness. That's why I follow the rule of don't discuss religion , sexual exploits and government  issues ,, they all lead to arguments.. Hell talking about sports leads to fights.. so.. Just chill everyone.. May everyone have a great day and be good to one another especially your family and friends.. 
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MY FAVORITE 3 GUNS FOR HOME DEFENSE! INSPIRED BY TODAYS EVENTS..

My favorite 3 guns for HOME DEFENSE.. INSPIRED BY TODAYS EVENTS..
  Hi everyone , its been a while,, so welcome Back.. MY BLOG IS ABOUT MY TOP 3 HOME DEFENSE WEAPONS..
1) Rock Islands VR 80 semi automatic shotgun... This gun is amazing to look at and hold, Its under the Ar15- platform. but its a shotgun.. MY nickname is a shotgun on steroids.. I mean,.it has the range of a regular shotgun but is heavier and looks intimidating.. if a shotgun is not already .. But this gun takes the shotgun to the next level.,. Think about it.. YOU CAN shoot off shotgun shells in rapid succession without pumping the gun.. Just replace the magazine.. But In California.. you have to take it down before reloading.. but with practice you can fire off rounds quickly.. But expect the Liberals and democrats to put this weapon on the California ,banned listing of weapons,,that's what sucks in California so many restrictions.,. BUT .. my advice keep buying your guns,, and especially this one.. I really like it and for home protection.. Its a winner in my book..

2) Smith and Wesson MP15 .. AR15 RIFLE,,, This is a favorite because of the size and weight of rifle , you can maneuver so quickly with this weapon and its easy to reload.. Its sucks to have to 10 round capacity , but buy several magazines, you can have 40-50 rounds in your disposal,, and with practice, can be a effective weapon.. But again folks,, I suggest you buy these up, before the California politicians,, place this one on the banned list.. But like I said I like this weapon because it can be carried easily around the house and having a red dot scope with a light and sling. this has become my home defense favorite. It my go to weapon right off the rack.. 

3) SIG SAUER SP 2022.. 9MM.. This is my back up side arm I have a holster and light that I carry when traveling around the house.. Its my side arm.. while I'm carrying my Ar-15.. oh by the way guys and gals I wear a tactical vest with my phone and extra magazines for my AR 15 and sig Sauer.. Once again,. I like this weapon because its single and double action release and has the proper weight distribution to make it a effective and accurate weapon. I love shooting this at the range and its a very reliable side arm for home defense.. MY BIGGEST CON.. the accessories for this gun is very expensive. so buyer beware,, its looks awesome , but the magazines can run anywhere from 30-50 dollars a piece and thus makes this a elite gun. But like I said its my home defense side arm... because I love the feel and the power I feel when shooting.. I do have a Glock 17 , that has a Ruger carbine as a companion. but under intense situations... I'm going with these big 3.. weapons.. 

So ...just imagine ...I hear something in the night or my German Shephard starts barking I reach for my tactical vest and my tactical weapons belt with the Sig attached and I then grab my AR -15 , place it over my shoulder and finally break out my VR  80..yea,, three weapons.. over kill maybe .. But that's how I roll.. You come to my house ,, your gonna get shotgun shells , Ar15 rounds and 9 mm rounds in your ass,, But the VR 80 will probably finish you if your alone.. BUT IF THEIRS multiple intruders..then .. seeing your buddy blown to pieces by the shotgun.. doesn't make you leave. then.. The ar15 will .. I know .. it easy to say you will do it.. But I served in the military,, trained in security forces by Marines in Japan.. and I have seen people die around me.. I guess you can say I have survivors guilt.. I feel like I'm blessed I lived.. through those times.. and I'm not going to let low life thugs harm my family or myself,.., Especially under these times. if these protesters are taking over police stations.. you think ?? They are not afraid to attack a home.. Just putting it out there.. These are different times we live in.. Just based on what I see or don't see at gun stores.. People are buying weapons at a record breaking pace , the same with ammo.. I'm not trying to scare , but just be aware what's going around in the world and especially the USA.. the protest.. the riots, the vandals, the disrespect .. it just maddening.. These are the craziest times , we have ever witnessed and to be honest I don't see things getting better anytime soon. People are fed up , frustrated and armed.. 
  Final thoughts.. Whatever weapons system you have, be sure to have a safe to protect from theft and fire .. and also from other people in the house,.It's important to be aware of all your weapons and have then securely placed and ready.. I also suggest you get some sort of weapons system.. these days are so unstable and having a weapon at your disposal could save your life and your loved ones.. Shotguns can be bought a lower prices but the recoil may scare people.. By getting a semi automatic pistol.. Like a a Glock ,, is a great choice, reasonably priced and easy to accessorize and buy cheaper magazines.. But if you can get a AR 15 , they are still reasonably priced and they are light and easy to use once you learn the weapon system.. Its Americans favorite rifle for a reason.. Many parts and accessories and they look intimidating.. They do require a more high maintenance approach. I keep it oiled up and in my safe most of the time.. But Its really a weapon I trust.. and you should look into it. before such weapons become part of the ever growing list.. California.. banned weapons list..  so there is my list.. I hope it helps you decide what you want.. Take care and be safe always.. Every day is a lifetime..

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DPS= DEPT OF PUBLIC SAFETY - THE NEW ERA OF LAW ENFORCEMENT-INSPIRED BY LIFE!!

DPS = DEPT OF PUBLIC SAFETY - THE NEW ERA OF LAW ENFORCEMENT- 

 Hello everyone I hope everyone is enjoying life because life is so fast and fleeting. Enjoy what you have with family and friends.. 
   Department of Public Safety - to me just sounds better than Police Department or Security Departmenmt, it has a softer tone . To me, as a DPS officer in Riverside County , I feel our job is to serve and protect and also save lives. I mean, sure we have to use reasonable force  or deady force  when some drnnks male or female need to be escorted off property or in some cases arrested for assault , or pubic drunkeness. People need to understand that , theres nothing wrong drinking , and having fun, and even talking loud , but when it intereferes with others in enjoying thier GOOD times, then THE DPS officers need to intervene, with out judgement or prejidice. When I'm patrolling the Casino grounds I look to assist people , whether its jump starting your car , or finding where they  parked  , or if they simply need escort after a large jack pot winning. Word to the wise.. if you win big, keep it on the low,, not everyone in the Casino is your friend and not everyone there is gambling, you have people casing the establishment for victims.. Thats why..? Dress simple and dont advertise your wealth.. !!People get jealous.. people,,,are looking for a quick buck.. I'm not tring to scare you , but to warn you,, that life is fleeting and fast and some people are so drugged up or drunk they are not thinking about what they do. !Just a word of advice in these times.. But back to my blog.. DPS officer should be approacable ,should be likeable and should be looking to deescalate a situation.. I know it doesnt sound like a law enforecment or security minded person, but lets face it !!, we are all people, we all want to love , and be loved, we want special friends in our lives and we want to share good times with people of like nature.. We all have our ups and downs, no one is better than anyone else, regardless of how much you have or dont have , or who you know.,, But humans think otherwise.?? .. But This generation of youths.!!. I'm very proud of you for protesting and letting the world and THE USA , that enough is enough,,!! needless death over little trivial crimes should never be tolerated .. I mean. Even if a person , vanadlizes your car,, thats what insurance is for, or if someone trepasses, or even curses you out and doesnt lsiten to you.. over a misdemeanor crime. is not a death sentemce.. Am I right?
        As a DPS officer  I make myself accessible, I make contact with people and I assure them I there to protect you , not to scare or intimidate you,, I'm there to escort you to your car or assist and elderly person to his hotel room, or better yet just give you peace of mind.. Its time in USA ,that law enforcement needs to retrain their officers not only in deadly force and weapons training , but they need to help them deal with people , all walks of life. I see a big disconnect with law enforcement , you have people that have never dealt with people of color..!! IN THE hood of Oakland , Long Beach , San Diego.. one of the prevailing issues is how the cops treat minorities. If you have short hair and have tats with gold chains.. The cops profile you as a gangster,,!! I know first hand because I just describe myself when In out of uniform..I look like a Asian gang banger.!!. And to be honest it hurts that in This country that I served in the Milirary for over 20 years,, I get profiled and stereotyped. But its so true perception is reality..Even going to Miramar Air show, my own kid gets the same treatment , and its was upsetting,!! but its just the facts of life in the USA , theres profiling theres prjudice and racism.. on Minorities that fit the profile. But alot of whites,, just dont get it? Why because you have never been profiled , or asked to asume the position or ask for your id , even though youc chilling in the park.. If you have tatoos, you wear the hip hop clothing style and listening to rap music.. Its automatically gets you the attention of the police. But like I said, just because somone look gangster doesnt mean he is? Or if youe playing your music too loud , be a sentemce of police brutality? Am I right??  , thats why change ..is needed and changing the names of departments is a start , but America is hurting and broken and its gonna take time!!, in fact I may not even see the day the we all can just walk hand and hand and be equal.. !! But  I know ,, the racism, I know I feel it.. I know we are all different and we all have views and ideas and we all like to around people we find similar..For me.. I like hip hop and like dressing that way and I also chilling with people that think the same.. But there are others like to to say I can party or hang with all races.. Yea right.. We all have our likes and dislikes and we all are careful who we hang out.. As much I want to be understanding , I'm not going to hang with racist groups.. I wouldnt feel confrotable and I'm sure they wouldnt, but everyone is entitle to their on points of view..Just because you disagree with a person or group , doesnt make them criminal or they should be labeled for punishment. Thats there way of pursuing their happiness. But like I said,, Changing the identity of Law Enforcement is a start and just listening to people of all walks of life,., I realize that everyone just wants to be happy!! As a DPS officer , I try my best to give  everyone that opportunity to pursue , life , liberty and the pursuit of happiness , as long as you obey the laws and rules that ensure everyonecan enjoy the scene and the vibe you wish to engage in.. 
  Final words. To this class of 2020 graduates of High school , College, Graduate or trade schools,, You are the most important generation, you are the future., its time that hate , its time that racim, police brutality , is ended once in for all.!! Because my generation has not done it.!! We let too much go unnoticed and thats why we have a divided country with such hatred and no respect for authority.. I know this is a long road to recovery , but I see changes in society and who knows maybe in my life time??  I will see the equal treartment for all. Maybe because of this new generation , or the fact the old racist hateful generation is dying off and not teaching their hateful ways to thier kids.. Hate and racism is a learned emotion and I have been witnessed and felt such racism,. Because I look different , because I speak different and because I am different , we all are, but we are all part of one race == The HUMAN RACE!!.. I'm rooting for this generation to finally stop this lifelong issue I have seen since being a teenager in California.. Its time for a change .. Its the New Era of Law Enforcement...

THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @2020

Congratulations to class of 2020. Inspired by all Graduation Ceremonies..