THE SOURCES NFL WEEK 12 picks.. Picks in bold print>
Bucs (4-6) at Falcons (6-4) The Falcons have figured out what works on offense , the falcs defense is playing better and looking to enter Superbowl tournament. The Bucs without Winston is a shadow of a good team. Expect a close game until the end when the Falcons pull away with big plays and strong defense.
Browns(0-10) at Bengals (4-6) The battle of Ohio ? Well if cleveland had a team and a solid quarterback. The Bengals are playing better and fighting for that last spot for the wild card. It will be close because the browns will be fired up but as time goes by and better play by the Bengals , the bengals pull away and win easily at home.
TITANS (6-4) at COLTS ( 3-7) The Titans have a solid running game and a quarterback that is figuring out to pass and through when needed. Mariota is a beast when playing well and the Titans are hard to come back on once they get that lead and start running the ball to dominate the time of possesion game. The Colts are good when they have a solid quarterback , but don't trust that defense and they dont have the weapons to compete with the Titans.. Hard hitting game but Titans have too many weapons on offense for the Colts to worry about. Its that time of the year players decide to make business decisions, ???not get hurt , think about staying healthy and whats left to play for.
??Everything rides with Titans..
BILLS (5-6) at CHIEFS (6-4) The bills return to Tyrod Taylor , its too bad he cant play defense, the chiefs have struggled why? Simple trick plays dont last a whole season and Alex Smith factor, he cant or wont throw in tight coverage and thus teams are playing tighter on the run game and pass game, the chiefs are nervous because the chargers are playing alot better than me. The pressure is on.. it will be a close game but its hard to win at KC if you dont have a good defense. But the bills have the upset of the week because the chiefs offense is awful..
DOLPHINS(4-6) at PATRIOTS (8-2) The dolphins lost cutler to concussion and so does their season, the Pats , love them or hate them have Captain America in Tom Brady , despite his age and injury issues , the Pats usually dont lose at home , if the fins could score , I would give them a chance but they dont have the weapons to compete..
PANTHERS (7-3) at JETS (4-6) When Cam Newton is happy the panthers are unbeatable , I know the jets have lost close games , but the Panthers have a better defense and offense and have something to play for.. The jets are in the hunt but they have to play perfect to win this game I dont see it happening. Panthers win easliy..
BEARS (3-7) at EAGLES ( 9-1) The bears finally have their qb , but they are facing the leagues best team , The eagles are playing at a higher level and Carson Wentz is my choise for MVP for this year. Plus the double trouble beast at running backs is unmatched. The dynamic duo of Blount and Ajayi could be the X factor that runs them to the Superbowl !!
SEAHAWKS (6-4) at 49ers(1-9) The hawks are hurting on defense and now relying on Russel Wilson 88 % of the offense to win. I dont think he needs to do that in this game , just play steady and mistake free and get a solid victory to get back on track. As for the niners, They have a good qb in garrapalo, but are holding him back. Doesnt make sense ? But its been that kind of year for the nfl ,,no figure league and the 49ers trading for qb in a losing year?
BRONCOS(3-7) at RAIDERS (4-6) These two teams are a mess , they both fire coordinators! They need to fire some of these players. Its too late to fix the issues both teams have. I'm sure this has caused turmoil. So which team overcomes them? Its hard to pick raiders because they make bone headed decisions like flying in a day before the game in high altitude. Then firing a coach that cant fix the limits on defense.. This will be a low scoring ugly game and I'm picking the Broncos with the ex raider coordinator finding and picking apart the raider defense. The broncos defense will be fired up and play better,,
SAINTS (8-2) at RAMS (7-3) The best match up this week, two teams that can run , can pass and play defense, In a shoot out it goes to the saints and brees, in a ball control low scoring game I like the Rams.. but I see a combination of both with the Rams pulling a late win with the Gurley show being too much for the saints defense. Brees will make it fun , but the Rams will win this home game /!!
JAGUARS (7-3) at CARDINALS (4-6) this could be a low scoring slug fest , both teams like to run and both teams have good defenses, the Jags are good when the defense gets turnovers. I dont see many in this game. The cards have a better offense and they will win this home game and expose the average quarterback play of Bortles.. he doesn't or have shown the ability to win games late on his own... upset special.....
SUNDAY NIGHT "
PACKERS (5-5) at STEELERS (8-2) The pack is in trouble , Hundley will be overwhelmed by the steelers defense especially if they get a lead and force hundley to throw.. To beat steelers you have to score and have to play defense, the pack do neither. Its a lousy Sunday night game , but it will be fun to warch leveon bell and Big Ben throw to Antonio brown, expect a lopsided beat down on the flawed packers..
MONDAY NIGHT
TEXANS (4-6) at RAVENS (5-5) The ravens are relying on their defense to win games , the Texans have a better run and pass game and they will play a solid game and simply pass to take lead and run late to protect lead. Joe flacco has not been impressive and makes foolish decisions like running and sliding late. It wont be exciting , but it wont be a blow out, it will be close but the texans will play better and creep back into the play off hunt while the ravens with no offense begin to fall back with the other teams in the afc with no offense, dolphins , jets,, bills ?
These are my picks based on qb play or lack of and other intangibles, like i said changing coaches this late in the season wont change play on the field but will make it exciting with players being confused and trying to play through a dreadful season. Paxton Lynch vs lousy raiders defense is my upset special.. Having Musgrave former raider coach will help lynch pick apart a disorganized and hurt defense , the raiders are a emotional team and firing their beloved coach is a minor mutiny on defense , like the o line has done to Derek Carr.
Well enjoy this weeks games and watch for some upsets and some weird happenings. But the true good teams will win and the losers are making business decisions to stay healthy and not get hurt!
THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS@2017..
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Friday, November 24, 2017
Los Angeles Chargers dominate the Dallas Cowboys Thanksgiving day 2017..
Chargers dominate Cowboys Thanksgiving day 2017..
Happy Thanksgiving day to everyone!
Well the San Diego opps LA Chargers dominate , humiliate , embarrass the boys in the Palace in Dallas. Its was crazy how the announcers Tony Romo , the referee and the Dallas public announcer keep saying the San Diego Chargers, but it is what it is. But back to the game. '
First off it was the least competitive game of the day , and had some unreal events like missed field goals , missed extra points , the chargers had a punter even miss the the punting net on the sidelines , no wonder the chargers went on it 4th and 13 yards,, I mean it was kind of scary for Bolt fans when Rivers three for almost 200 yards in the first half and only have a 3-0 lead. But the cowboys is a team that got blown out by the Redskins , Eagles and that's division rivals , you expect closer scores because you play them all the time? But the boys since losing their superstar running back Zeke Elliot, its crazy how one great athlete can make a difference but he has?
Why ? is the simple question , but My humble observations is that Zeke masked or hid the many flaws the boys had even last year when they went 13-3..
with the running ability of zeke. the boys could run the clock down, they can control the tempo of the game and dak could do play action and have simpler reads down the field because defenses were so scared of the run game , it set them up for so many easy reads and big plays. Just like the Raiders of last year . Now take away run games and teams know how to press coverage the boys and raiders and we have two teams that are struggling. Both teams need time of possession leads and leads in a game to maintain their defense. The boys defense needed less time on the field to play with passion and emotion, but losing Sean Lee took away the heart and soul of the defense. Just like zeke not dak is the heart and soul of the offense. Its clear their back up running backs are not elliot and dez bryant is a jump and leap catcher not a good route runner , like keenan allen ,, stats don't lie,, Allen outplayed and out did the cowboys on his own.. But for charger fans it was fun to watch,,
Now Can this Charger team make the playoff?
Playoffs? I know this team hasn't done that since the first year of the Mike Mcoy era.. some 4-5 years ago,, But this team has lost so many close games, never been blown out. They have played great defense and the offense has played steady with less turnovers and mistakes. The Issues this year has been special teams ,missed field goals against broncos and dolphins and failure to close out game against jaguars , could of made this 5-6 team a 8-3 team? But enough of what if?
The Bolts have a easy schedule the next five games . win less Browns and mediocre and beat up Redskins at home then travel to the suddenly average Chiefs with a bad pass defense , then play the no identity jets at new york and finish with the feisty and Raiders with the worst pass defense in the league. Let me say this the Bolts have a great shot at winning out . 10-6 is good enough for a wild card spot and even a division crown with help from other division teams beating the chiefs down the stretch... Anything is possible in today's NFL , the no figure league. I mean The Patriots have lost twice at home and the Chiefs looked like killers earlier the season , only to be leading by 2 games with five to play? Never to say never in this league, we have seen blown leads late in games , we have seen bad teams beat good teams and we have seen an 0-4 team , fight back to be 5-6 and in the hunt for a division title and or wild card spot? Go figure?
Last words, the Chargers made their only Dallas thanksgiving invite a dominating and explosive showcase, and I think no more invites for another 50 years , at least not from the cowboys, maybe the lions will invite the chargers or redskins , but I doubt the boys want to beat down by the surfer beach boys from SOCAL!! Nice efforts by the Chargers , Rivers and Allen were amazing , almost like watching Montana to rice back in the day.. and watching that defense pressure and dominate the boys was amazing to watch. Maybe just maybe the Chargers will make the play offs and do something special..? lets see what happens , I know alot of the charger fans are hating on this team for leaving and still feel betrayed by the owner, but the players are still playing hard and if anything has taken the adversity at home games and have this US vs them mentality and its working, the defense looks like they are having fun and making things happen and the offense has finally found that formula of passing to set up the run game and taking a lead and protecting it with late game runs that run out the clock and protect the lead and the defense. In other words complimentary offense helps defense, by running the clock and resting the defense , you help both teams excel at their craft. At least that's what I see based on the last 5 games played. It has been a great blend of short passing with timely running to break down a defense and rest up their own to keep them rested , fresh and ready to dominate the opposing team. Now the Chargers need to maintain this formula of winning , stay healthy and keep the mistakes down and this team.. Can not only make the play offs but make some noise against the Patriots , Steelers , and Jaguars , Chiefs who I expect to be in the playoffs.
Have a great Holiday season and lets see if this December is a time to remember for the Los Angeles Chargers,, !!
THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @2017...
Saturday, November 11, 2017
Happy Veterans Day 2017,,,
Happy Veterans Day 2017.. Inspired by life..
I would Like to Say Happy Veterans Day to all living and not , who have fought and served this great country we call the United States of America. The one thing more than anything else about my 20 years plus of military service , that I miss is the friendships and comaraderie, I had with all my shipmates , Marines , Airman and Soldiers I served with , the multi service commands I was a part of the ships with Marines onboard , the Navy seals we took to dangerous lands. But we all enjoyed the idea we had a mission in life which was protect one another, no matter what! I know we often teased or talked shit about one another , but we are brothers when the enemy was concerned. I know the times we had to take dead or wounded members , it hurt every time we did this. We never took anyone's lives for granted,, I know publicly we were supermen, but inside , we cried and died each time we had to bring dead members on board, one thing is the smell of death is like no other smell in life,, Yea you can say it smells like shit , but its even deeper than that , but as Veterans of foreign wars we moved on and carried on , despite the death and misery we saw every day and every operation we partook in. I know many of you can never imagine or really want to. I wish i could forget , because many times at night I cant sleep because of the death and suffering I saw throughout my career. The suicides , the friendly fire , the accidents that happen will never leave my mind, and because of that everytime I hear the National Anthem and see the American Flag wave, I take honor for what that means to me. I have no arguments with protesters , but kneeling , or holding arms or not paying proper tribute really burns me up , Maybe I,n brain washed maybe I.m too patriotic, but I saw too many bad things happen in my life to give the flag the honor it deserves because not only military members die in conflict .. Remember 9/11 all those killed were innocent civilians who gave their life for this country and because of that day Everything changed for better or worse. So on this Veterans day take time to thank a Veteran , a retiree because we did it for love of this country and a purpose , only serving can provide, One of the greatest heroes is the Late Pat Tillman who played for the Arizona Cardinals and turned down millions to become a Army Ranger.. TO me,, he worthy of all the honor and pride a true hero deserves.. May God Bless our current military and those Veterans who have served this wonderful country we call The United States of America !!
Paras productions @2017
I would Like to Say Happy Veterans Day to all living and not , who have fought and served this great country we call the United States of America. The one thing more than anything else about my 20 years plus of military service , that I miss is the friendships and comaraderie, I had with all my shipmates , Marines , Airman and Soldiers I served with , the multi service commands I was a part of the ships with Marines onboard , the Navy seals we took to dangerous lands. But we all enjoyed the idea we had a mission in life which was protect one another, no matter what! I know we often teased or talked shit about one another , but we are brothers when the enemy was concerned. I know the times we had to take dead or wounded members , it hurt every time we did this. We never took anyone's lives for granted,, I know publicly we were supermen, but inside , we cried and died each time we had to bring dead members on board, one thing is the smell of death is like no other smell in life,, Yea you can say it smells like shit , but its even deeper than that , but as Veterans of foreign wars we moved on and carried on , despite the death and misery we saw every day and every operation we partook in. I know many of you can never imagine or really want to. I wish i could forget , because many times at night I cant sleep because of the death and suffering I saw throughout my career. The suicides , the friendly fire , the accidents that happen will never leave my mind, and because of that everytime I hear the National Anthem and see the American Flag wave, I take honor for what that means to me. I have no arguments with protesters , but kneeling , or holding arms or not paying proper tribute really burns me up , Maybe I,n brain washed maybe I.m too patriotic, but I saw too many bad things happen in my life to give the flag the honor it deserves because not only military members die in conflict .. Remember 9/11 all those killed were innocent civilians who gave their life for this country and because of that day Everything changed for better or worse. So on this Veterans day take time to thank a Veteran , a retiree because we did it for love of this country and a purpose , only serving can provide, One of the greatest heroes is the Late Pat Tillman who played for the Arizona Cardinals and turned down millions to become a Army Ranger.. TO me,, he worthy of all the honor and pride a true hero deserves.. May God Bless our current military and those Veterans who have served this wonderful country we call The United States of America !!
Paras productions @2017
Wednesday, May 17, 2017
What would you do? Based on life events..
What would you do? based on life events.
Hello everyone, I hope all is well in your life. Well tonight's blog is what would do? Ok.. Imagine you have been with some one forever , a lifetime, and then suddenly they leave you , first they curse you out , in person and with a voice mail, in a strange way you never saw. I mean when people get angry ,we say and do things that are hurtful. But if they way they say it is so bzarre, it just makes you wonder , working long hours or what , stress can make you act strange. Ok now imagine that same person accuses you of things that are far fetched and untrue,, I mean just because you go to a strip club doesn't mean you screwed those girls. We know in California , that's impossible in those clubs,, but guys no matter who you are, enjoy watching women strip ..I mean . we do Right. But anyways.. it doesn't mean you slept with them and besides that's prostitution and that's not allowed in California,,illegal .. Vegas,, yes,, But this is liberal state in California where you cant even drink a beer in front of strippers Go figure, ??but anyways this so called special someone accuses you of screwing girls, getting high on weed and getting drunk ..Now think about that if someone does that how can they get a security clearance job, stay employed and still raise his kid. Don't you think , if someone did those things,, neighbors, or the school officials would notice? Just a thought. I mean most men or women, would tolerate such accusations especially untrue or unfounded So what makes people jump t =conclusions, well from my own experience, its done by people that react before gathering any facts or evidence, but assuming things based on conjecture or bogus evidence is ridiculous, just because someone goes to strip club doesn't mean he had sex with the strippers. Or just because someone has a hookah. doesn't mean they use to smoke weed, or just because has a few beer doesn't mean they are drunk all the time.. ? Am I right.. I mean what would you do if someone you love and care for says those things,? First of all that's disRESPECTful , and not a kind of person I would like to be with am I right. What would you do.. I know.. for me,,as I have grown up and life is fleeting , I want to be around happy people I want to be around people that build you up and respect you.Someone that says these things are not on your side, instead they are a toxic person that needs to leave your universe. So why does anyone stay wit that person? One reason , kids, another reason is your a stubborn hard headed ego maniac that feels they can fix anyone or anything. Another reason, you don't want to fail at anything, marriage , relationships I mean no one wants to fail at marriage or love, its human nature, but when someone continues to belittle you and make you feel like shit. Why bother with that person right? I,m just saying what kind of person lets that happen to them? A insecure person that is scared to move on? A ego maniac that feels he or she can fix any issues in a relationship? A person that loves drama and pain? A person that wants things to work out regardless of the pain and misery he or she endures, A person that is a dreamer and even though the writing is on the wall, he or she cant pull the trigger so to speak, I mean .. If someone does that ,To me , thats grounds of leaving that relationship or marriage. If the person you love shows no remorse in what they say and your the one always trying to make it work.. The simple solution is to leave the relationship or marriage, am I right.. What would you do everyone? I say , no one deserves to be put int hat much misery in life. Its not healthy and it can make someone just go crazy,, I mean you hear the news people killing others over love or breakups. People getting even not mad with that person. I mean the human psyche can only take so much? Am I right.??. So what would do under this scenario.?? Yes, just leave, right? I mean even i the person is the best looking person ever, no one deserves such pain and misery , no matter what they did. We are supposed to be God's children and if you feel like a person is hurting you too much , you let them go.. So why does that person stay and why does that person place so much pain on someone? Its hate , its revenge, its evil? Whatever it is, I have to give props t that person to take it , year i and year out. That's takes strength and stamina,, but its also is very stupid, Wheres your dignity ? Wheres your self worth? I mean I 'm sure your kids are think why is he or she taking it ? Its just doesn't make sense to stay in a toxic relationship its not good for your mental or emotional health, so what would you do? Its simple right. But this person has taken it for years and continues because of love , because of memories, because of image , because of pride , because they are afraid? To be be alone , to be happy , to be free, I mean this seems like a alot of stress to deal with on a daily , weekly , monthly or yearly basis. But believe it or not this is a true event that is happening? So what you do.. Keep it together and try to make it happen even after years of nothing changing.. Or do you leave this scenario and learn to love oneself and be happy to be alive and Have God's power with you every day. It seems like a simple action to do.. But some people are dreamers , some people love drama or some people just believe in being loyal even though the person they love shits all over you.. What would you do? Because this person is a good person with a wonderful heart and enjoys making people happy. A pleaser,, But they fail to please themselves and that's what so sad about this true life scenario,, What would you do? Its seems simple , but this person is living in misery to please who? Everyone what would you do? It seems so simple but the person living it doesn't want to see it or simply is too afraid to see whats the truth. The saying , some people cant handle the truth, and in this case..Some people cant handle it but some people cant accept it.. What would you do? May God bless everyone and be true to yourself!
THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @2017
Hello everyone, I hope all is well in your life. Well tonight's blog is what would do? Ok.. Imagine you have been with some one forever , a lifetime, and then suddenly they leave you , first they curse you out , in person and with a voice mail, in a strange way you never saw. I mean when people get angry ,we say and do things that are hurtful. But if they way they say it is so bzarre, it just makes you wonder , working long hours or what , stress can make you act strange. Ok now imagine that same person accuses you of things that are far fetched and untrue,, I mean just because you go to a strip club doesn't mean you screwed those girls. We know in California , that's impossible in those clubs,, but guys no matter who you are, enjoy watching women strip ..I mean . we do Right. But anyways.. it doesn't mean you slept with them and besides that's prostitution and that's not allowed in California,,illegal .. Vegas,, yes,, But this is liberal state in California where you cant even drink a beer in front of strippers Go figure, ??but anyways this so called special someone accuses you of screwing girls, getting high on weed and getting drunk ..Now think about that if someone does that how can they get a security clearance job, stay employed and still raise his kid. Don't you think , if someone did those things,, neighbors, or the school officials would notice? Just a thought. I mean most men or women, would tolerate such accusations especially untrue or unfounded So what makes people jump t =conclusions, well from my own experience, its done by people that react before gathering any facts or evidence, but assuming things based on conjecture or bogus evidence is ridiculous, just because someone goes to strip club doesn't mean he had sex with the strippers. Or just because someone has a hookah. doesn't mean they use to smoke weed, or just because has a few beer doesn't mean they are drunk all the time.. ? Am I right.. I mean what would you do if someone you love and care for says those things,? First of all that's disRESPECTful , and not a kind of person I would like to be with am I right. What would you do.. I know.. for me,,as I have grown up and life is fleeting , I want to be around happy people I want to be around people that build you up and respect you.Someone that says these things are not on your side, instead they are a toxic person that needs to leave your universe. So why does anyone stay wit that person? One reason , kids, another reason is your a stubborn hard headed ego maniac that feels they can fix anyone or anything. Another reason, you don't want to fail at anything, marriage , relationships I mean no one wants to fail at marriage or love, its human nature, but when someone continues to belittle you and make you feel like shit. Why bother with that person right? I,m just saying what kind of person lets that happen to them? A insecure person that is scared to move on? A ego maniac that feels he or she can fix any issues in a relationship? A person that loves drama and pain? A person that wants things to work out regardless of the pain and misery he or she endures, A person that is a dreamer and even though the writing is on the wall, he or she cant pull the trigger so to speak, I mean .. If someone does that ,To me , thats grounds of leaving that relationship or marriage. If the person you love shows no remorse in what they say and your the one always trying to make it work.. The simple solution is to leave the relationship or marriage, am I right.. What would you do everyone? I say , no one deserves to be put int hat much misery in life. Its not healthy and it can make someone just go crazy,, I mean you hear the news people killing others over love or breakups. People getting even not mad with that person. I mean the human psyche can only take so much? Am I right.??. So what would do under this scenario.?? Yes, just leave, right? I mean even i the person is the best looking person ever, no one deserves such pain and misery , no matter what they did. We are supposed to be God's children and if you feel like a person is hurting you too much , you let them go.. So why does that person stay and why does that person place so much pain on someone? Its hate , its revenge, its evil? Whatever it is, I have to give props t that person to take it , year i and year out. That's takes strength and stamina,, but its also is very stupid, Wheres your dignity ? Wheres your self worth? I mean I 'm sure your kids are think why is he or she taking it ? Its just doesn't make sense to stay in a toxic relationship its not good for your mental or emotional health, so what would you do? Its simple right. But this person has taken it for years and continues because of love , because of memories, because of image , because of pride , because they are afraid? To be be alone , to be happy , to be free, I mean this seems like a alot of stress to deal with on a daily , weekly , monthly or yearly basis. But believe it or not this is a true event that is happening? So what you do.. Keep it together and try to make it happen even after years of nothing changing.. Or do you leave this scenario and learn to love oneself and be happy to be alive and Have God's power with you every day. It seems like a simple action to do.. But some people are dreamers , some people love drama or some people just believe in being loyal even though the person they love shits all over you.. What would you do? Because this person is a good person with a wonderful heart and enjoys making people happy. A pleaser,, But they fail to please themselves and that's what so sad about this true life scenario,, What would you do? Its seems simple , but this person is living in misery to please who? Everyone what would you do? It seems so simple but the person living it doesn't want to see it or simply is too afraid to see whats the truth. The saying , some people cant handle the truth, and in this case..Some people cant handle it but some people cant accept it.. What would you do? May God bless everyone and be true to yourself!
THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @2017
Tuesday, May 16, 2017
True love . based on life experiences..
True Love. Based on life experiences.
True Loves conquers all. It beats patience , it defeats boredom, it out runs jealousy , it out hustles ego and pride. Love is something not tangible or measurable by scientific standards, but its emotional feeling everyone yearns for and wants. At times it weakens ,or even fades in time,at times it even causes you to hate , to be angered to be vengeful. That's why they say theres a fine line between love and hate , or a fine line between good and evil.. So whats tempts the good to be bad or the loving to hating, its called true love, even though your tempted and it seems the tempted beats you, in the end its the true love feelings you have . for that person. I know it doesn't make rational sense , but love like emotional feelings don't make sense.. Its all about having that passionate feel , that so many never feel and so many have. To me its better to have loved than to have never loved at all. For many one great love affair , is good enough or all you have , and others have loved many times only to be heart broken many times. In other words so of us are not afraid to love regardless of the consequence.Because we know love is spiritual its passionate and its a treasure many never find in their lives. But true love is something many of us feel we have found. To me, true love is when that person , even how many times they hurt you or demean you or down right break your heart, your still there, its more than just a song you dedicate , its more than sweet words on texts or voice mails.. Its more than exchanging friendly smiles or loving eyes. True love conquers all, the evil thoughts or the mean words we say to love ones Because we all know we often say and do things that hurt the ones we love very much. That's where the fine line pays out. When we love someone, we often want affirmation ,, we want assurances that even if we say and do awful things to the ones we love, they will stick around. Its only when you test , or stress the one you love is when you feel true love? Make sense of course not, How can you purposely hurt the one you love and adore , how can you say and do hurtful things to someone you love and adore. Its easy because we can and because we want to know if they are real , id they are sincere about their intentions, Its easy to be around people when things are going well. Everyone loves happiness and togetherness, but what happens when the storm comes, when the bad vibes appear and the insecurities lash out, Are you still there, fighting , are you still there , even though many people would have left. That's true love, when you handle the fears you have , when you handle the bad ships of life and relationships, you are showcasing true love. Because the only way to know true love is to understand true hate, to appreciate heaven you need to have been through hell in order to appreciate the good things. Makes sense? In other words, we take things for granted , we think the good times will last forever and we expect or demand that honey moon phase to continue and when it doesn't , some , or many seek out that feeling they lost, ? They are not seeking permanent change , but a temporary pleasure to get them back on track .Some may say that;s cheating , an emotional affair, or what? But its awakening to some, because by seeing how someone views or feels for you, you learn that you can be loving and caring without , defying your loyalty to your loved ones? Makes sense? of course not ,like I said , you have to be a emotional , spiritual person that believes in true love?So in other words true love is exposing yourself to life and people. Its how you handle that time in your life it how you go on n life. ? I know that regardless of how someone has treated me, I never give up. That's my issue its hard for me to give up. Because I like or love closure , and if you cant do it, then I wont give up on you. To be honest , .. I stay attached to people even if they mistreat me,or shorten my life with their stress or drama. True love might be special if the other person returns it.But true love by yourself is a self inflicted torture i would never wish on anyone. True love by yourself, is as painful as it sounds. Think about it , imagine you love someone and they don't return it, it like loving yourself and getting nothing in return, because self love is unfulfilled. We all need someone to love, with out it, it will kill your heart and soul in time and make you sorrowful and sad. I know i have seen many people that are living that life and its sad and patheticYou want to help them, but some times people just want to be left alone and thus suffer months and years , and letting life drift away.
True love is blind to scientific methods, true loves tests people , true love is unconditional, true love can also be hurtful and scary because , it digs deep into someones heart and soul and for many we don't want to get to that level. Because of fear , because of insecurity , because looking at something that spiritual may be something they are not ready to see or learn. t each is own, we are destined to live our lives the way we want to live. We can listen to people and do what you feel , but at the end of the day.. Its up to you what true love is and how you deal with it.
True love is a feeling many yearn for and many misunderstand, true love is rare an sometimes it can be so rare that it can hurt so much too. True love is a unconditional feeling that truly lets people be free and open. When you can control your ego and pride and let true love grow, it is the most beautiful thing to feel. But if its not true love , the feelings the pain , at the misery can make you think , what the hell is going on. Because heartbreak, regardless if its true love or not. Its still hurts and it still places stress in someones heart and mind.. True love is feeling many seek and try to find , but its a rare find,. If you are in a true love affair, don't let it go.. Because true love is so rare, Life has many trials and tribulations and many have stumbled and quit, but the ones that fight and overcome their disaster or falls in life. Your seeking a true love scenario. If you love someone , don't be so possessive and demanding , but be free and open and unconditional about your love for them, meaning I love them even though they are hyper , or too flirty or has issues with money. I will help and guide them, which what true love does,? maybe true love is really rare and those who have been through it, its only our own experience . For those that don't believe or never felt love .. i understand your stand or take on this theory. True love is endless and its wonderful, but like I said , it can be hurtful and tear jerking because of the feelings you have for that person..
True love is a rare find so when you have it , fight for it no matter what, because its a feeling many dream about!! I'm a dreamer until the day I die, a hopeless romantic,, a foolish heart ? Its what I am and I embrace it and live it!!
THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @2017..
True Loves conquers all. It beats patience , it defeats boredom, it out runs jealousy , it out hustles ego and pride. Love is something not tangible or measurable by scientific standards, but its emotional feeling everyone yearns for and wants. At times it weakens ,or even fades in time,at times it even causes you to hate , to be angered to be vengeful. That's why they say theres a fine line between love and hate , or a fine line between good and evil.. So whats tempts the good to be bad or the loving to hating, its called true love, even though your tempted and it seems the tempted beats you, in the end its the true love feelings you have . for that person. I know it doesn't make rational sense , but love like emotional feelings don't make sense.. Its all about having that passionate feel , that so many never feel and so many have. To me its better to have loved than to have never loved at all. For many one great love affair , is good enough or all you have , and others have loved many times only to be heart broken many times. In other words so of us are not afraid to love regardless of the consequence.Because we know love is spiritual its passionate and its a treasure many never find in their lives. But true love is something many of us feel we have found. To me, true love is when that person , even how many times they hurt you or demean you or down right break your heart, your still there, its more than just a song you dedicate , its more than sweet words on texts or voice mails.. Its more than exchanging friendly smiles or loving eyes. True love conquers all, the evil thoughts or the mean words we say to love ones Because we all know we often say and do things that hurt the ones we love very much. That's where the fine line pays out. When we love someone, we often want affirmation ,, we want assurances that even if we say and do awful things to the ones we love, they will stick around. Its only when you test , or stress the one you love is when you feel true love? Make sense of course not, How can you purposely hurt the one you love and adore , how can you say and do hurtful things to someone you love and adore. Its easy because we can and because we want to know if they are real , id they are sincere about their intentions, Its easy to be around people when things are going well. Everyone loves happiness and togetherness, but what happens when the storm comes, when the bad vibes appear and the insecurities lash out, Are you still there, fighting , are you still there , even though many people would have left. That's true love, when you handle the fears you have , when you handle the bad ships of life and relationships, you are showcasing true love. Because the only way to know true love is to understand true hate, to appreciate heaven you need to have been through hell in order to appreciate the good things. Makes sense? In other words, we take things for granted , we think the good times will last forever and we expect or demand that honey moon phase to continue and when it doesn't , some , or many seek out that feeling they lost, ? They are not seeking permanent change , but a temporary pleasure to get them back on track .Some may say that;s cheating , an emotional affair, or what? But its awakening to some, because by seeing how someone views or feels for you, you learn that you can be loving and caring without , defying your loyalty to your loved ones? Makes sense? of course not ,like I said , you have to be a emotional , spiritual person that believes in true love?So in other words true love is exposing yourself to life and people. Its how you handle that time in your life it how you go on n life. ? I know that regardless of how someone has treated me, I never give up. That's my issue its hard for me to give up. Because I like or love closure , and if you cant do it, then I wont give up on you. To be honest , .. I stay attached to people even if they mistreat me,or shorten my life with their stress or drama. True love might be special if the other person returns it.But true love by yourself is a self inflicted torture i would never wish on anyone. True love by yourself, is as painful as it sounds. Think about it , imagine you love someone and they don't return it, it like loving yourself and getting nothing in return, because self love is unfulfilled. We all need someone to love, with out it, it will kill your heart and soul in time and make you sorrowful and sad. I know i have seen many people that are living that life and its sad and patheticYou want to help them, but some times people just want to be left alone and thus suffer months and years , and letting life drift away.
True love is blind to scientific methods, true loves tests people , true love is unconditional, true love can also be hurtful and scary because , it digs deep into someones heart and soul and for many we don't want to get to that level. Because of fear , because of insecurity , because looking at something that spiritual may be something they are not ready to see or learn. t each is own, we are destined to live our lives the way we want to live. We can listen to people and do what you feel , but at the end of the day.. Its up to you what true love is and how you deal with it.
True love is a feeling many yearn for and many misunderstand, true love is rare an sometimes it can be so rare that it can hurt so much too. True love is a unconditional feeling that truly lets people be free and open. When you can control your ego and pride and let true love grow, it is the most beautiful thing to feel. But if its not true love , the feelings the pain , at the misery can make you think , what the hell is going on. Because heartbreak, regardless if its true love or not. Its still hurts and it still places stress in someones heart and mind.. True love is feeling many seek and try to find , but its a rare find,. If you are in a true love affair, don't let it go.. Because true love is so rare, Life has many trials and tribulations and many have stumbled and quit, but the ones that fight and overcome their disaster or falls in life. Your seeking a true love scenario. If you love someone , don't be so possessive and demanding , but be free and open and unconditional about your love for them, meaning I love them even though they are hyper , or too flirty or has issues with money. I will help and guide them, which what true love does,? maybe true love is really rare and those who have been through it, its only our own experience . For those that don't believe or never felt love .. i understand your stand or take on this theory. True love is endless and its wonderful, but like I said , it can be hurtful and tear jerking because of the feelings you have for that person..
True love is a rare find so when you have it , fight for it no matter what, because its a feeling many dream about!! I'm a dreamer until the day I die, a hopeless romantic,, a foolish heart ? Its what I am and I embrace it and live it!!
THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @2017..
Sunday, May 14, 2017
THE SOURCES TAKE ON 2017 LA CHARGERS DRAFT PICKS..
THE SOURCES TAKE ON 2017 LA CHARGERS DRAFT PICKS ..
Hello everyone its that time again to gear up for football talk ,, its been awhile since I have done a sports / football blog. so here we go..
The first round selection of Mike Williams was a pleasant surprise the talk was drafting a quarterback to replace the aging and very average play of Rivers, he threw so many picks last year because he had too. The weakest and worst line in the NFL. made rivers make horrible mistakes and because he has no running ability , many plays were wasted by him getting sacked or rivers simply dumping it to the ground, One of my pet peeves, and the reason , the Chargers need to select a new breed quarterback that can elude pass rush and run for first downs ala , Derek Carr , Alex Smith, the two quarterbacks that managed their teams to winning records last year and I predict will do it again,
Ok,, Mike Williams is a tall physically demanding wide out ala Dez Bryant, he will also help gates and hunter get less attention and if Allen or Williams can stay healthy and productive will get less coverage because teams have to pay attention to a Vincent Jackson type receiver. Which should help Melvin Gordon , and company with the running game. Pass to take the lead, run to protect the lead late in the games.. A formula the Raiders will adopt now they have a unretired Beast Mode..
Day 2, was just as impressive with offensives line help with the drafting of Forrst Lamp and Dan Freeney , the 2 best line men in the draft and the chargers upgraded that line which will suffer growing pains next year because they are rookies , but at least have youth and enthusiasm to help Rivers have Little bit more time, But I see the running game being much improved and helping Rivers with play action and surprising defenses with a more balanced attack,, The Chargers were too predictable last year especially when they got behind and had to throw the ball, if you look back the games they did win, they had solid run games to go along with their passing attack,,
The selection of Desmond King Jim thorpe trophy winner will help the chargers with another slot corner or a safety in training to replace addae or lowery. Lowery is a wink link at safety and addae as good as he is with the run , lacks the closing speed to help heyward and verret on long passes.
Rayshawn Jenkins is a work in progress on defense , but he is faster than any of the linebackers on the team and Will help on passing downs, but his tackling could relegate him to passing downs early , which is ok for the Chargers new installed 4-3 defense. where having faster line backers is a must and the chargers are lacking. But its one great draft after 2 bad ones in my opinion..
My overall grade is a A- grade , They fill their needs and got the best players available which should be a A grade, but now lets see of all these picks pan out. Like I said the Oline got better but with a New Head Coach , new players on the line and a New Defensive scheme and coach, expect alot of growing pains and inconsistent play , and being in the AFC BEST DIVISION,, and being anointed the second hardest schedule in the NFL, WITH tough games against the Cowboys , Giants , Redskins and Patriots , along with the Raiders , Chiefs and Broncos, it will be tough to improve on their 5-11 record last year. Too many new faces and new schemes to expect a instant turn around. Too many unknown variables like unproven and young line, a new defense under a new coach and a new head coach with unproven skills .. It will be exciting to watch but too many changes , not to include playing in a new venue, maybe a ingredient for another losing season. But changes were made and will take a season or two before we see actual growth, I know the Charger brass is pumping up this team , but after years of neglect and not having a sense of direction, One great draft cant or wont make a complete turn around. But Its nice to see the team pointing in the right direction , but the raiders , Chiefs and Broncos are still better talented and balanced and coached , while the chargers may have talent on paper, but as chargers fans we all know .. health , injuries and poor coaching has doomed this team and based on the moves the spanos family has made , I don't expect any dramatic changes on the season record. But theres hope , like the other 56 years prior, the Chargers will look good in the uniforms and make some great plays , but will that lead to a winning record or a playoff berth.? A 9-7 , or a 10-6 record might not be good enough with a very talented AFC conference with teams like The Steelers, Ravens , Bengals , Raiders , Cheifs , Broncos , Patriots, Bills, the chargers are a team looking in to get into the dance. It depends on being healthy and team chemistry and the Play of Rivers.. If they have to depend on Rivers to win games, don't expect it, But a balanced running attack.. with a suffocating defense might sneak in, but that's asking alot for a team that only won 9 games in 2 seasons and haven't made the playoffs in while.Just being a realist!! But right now all teams are hopeful until that first week and we will see what this team stands or fall?
WHAT DO YOU THINK?
THE SOURCE PRODCUTIONS @2017
Hello everyone its that time again to gear up for football talk ,, its been awhile since I have done a sports / football blog. so here we go..
The first round selection of Mike Williams was a pleasant surprise the talk was drafting a quarterback to replace the aging and very average play of Rivers, he threw so many picks last year because he had too. The weakest and worst line in the NFL. made rivers make horrible mistakes and because he has no running ability , many plays were wasted by him getting sacked or rivers simply dumping it to the ground, One of my pet peeves, and the reason , the Chargers need to select a new breed quarterback that can elude pass rush and run for first downs ala , Derek Carr , Alex Smith, the two quarterbacks that managed their teams to winning records last year and I predict will do it again,
Ok,, Mike Williams is a tall physically demanding wide out ala Dez Bryant, he will also help gates and hunter get less attention and if Allen or Williams can stay healthy and productive will get less coverage because teams have to pay attention to a Vincent Jackson type receiver. Which should help Melvin Gordon , and company with the running game. Pass to take the lead, run to protect the lead late in the games.. A formula the Raiders will adopt now they have a unretired Beast Mode..
Day 2, was just as impressive with offensives line help with the drafting of Forrst Lamp and Dan Freeney , the 2 best line men in the draft and the chargers upgraded that line which will suffer growing pains next year because they are rookies , but at least have youth and enthusiasm to help Rivers have Little bit more time, But I see the running game being much improved and helping Rivers with play action and surprising defenses with a more balanced attack,, The Chargers were too predictable last year especially when they got behind and had to throw the ball, if you look back the games they did win, they had solid run games to go along with their passing attack,,
The selection of Desmond King Jim thorpe trophy winner will help the chargers with another slot corner or a safety in training to replace addae or lowery. Lowery is a wink link at safety and addae as good as he is with the run , lacks the closing speed to help heyward and verret on long passes.
Rayshawn Jenkins is a work in progress on defense , but he is faster than any of the linebackers on the team and Will help on passing downs, but his tackling could relegate him to passing downs early , which is ok for the Chargers new installed 4-3 defense. where having faster line backers is a must and the chargers are lacking. But its one great draft after 2 bad ones in my opinion..
My overall grade is a A- grade , They fill their needs and got the best players available which should be a A grade, but now lets see of all these picks pan out. Like I said the Oline got better but with a New Head Coach , new players on the line and a New Defensive scheme and coach, expect alot of growing pains and inconsistent play , and being in the AFC BEST DIVISION,, and being anointed the second hardest schedule in the NFL, WITH tough games against the Cowboys , Giants , Redskins and Patriots , along with the Raiders , Chiefs and Broncos, it will be tough to improve on their 5-11 record last year. Too many new faces and new schemes to expect a instant turn around. Too many unknown variables like unproven and young line, a new defense under a new coach and a new head coach with unproven skills .. It will be exciting to watch but too many changes , not to include playing in a new venue, maybe a ingredient for another losing season. But changes were made and will take a season or two before we see actual growth, I know the Charger brass is pumping up this team , but after years of neglect and not having a sense of direction, One great draft cant or wont make a complete turn around. But Its nice to see the team pointing in the right direction , but the raiders , Chiefs and Broncos are still better talented and balanced and coached , while the chargers may have talent on paper, but as chargers fans we all know .. health , injuries and poor coaching has doomed this team and based on the moves the spanos family has made , I don't expect any dramatic changes on the season record. But theres hope , like the other 56 years prior, the Chargers will look good in the uniforms and make some great plays , but will that lead to a winning record or a playoff berth.? A 9-7 , or a 10-6 record might not be good enough with a very talented AFC conference with teams like The Steelers, Ravens , Bengals , Raiders , Cheifs , Broncos , Patriots, Bills, the chargers are a team looking in to get into the dance. It depends on being healthy and team chemistry and the Play of Rivers.. If they have to depend on Rivers to win games, don't expect it, But a balanced running attack.. with a suffocating defense might sneak in, but that's asking alot for a team that only won 9 games in 2 seasons and haven't made the playoffs in while.Just being a realist!! But right now all teams are hopeful until that first week and we will see what this team stands or fall?
WHAT DO YOU THINK?
THE SOURCE PRODCUTIONS @2017
Saturday, May 13, 2017
Happy Mothers day - A tribute to my Mama who passed away many years ago!!
Happy Mothers day to All the wonderful Mothers. I love you and miss you Mama!!
Everyone that is mother your are truly special and I honor and respect everyone one of you!!
I want to thank my beloved mama that gave me the best years of her life, Guiding me , teaching me, lecturing me, advising me,, whipping me , I needed it I was a spoil ed brat. and still am. She molded and guided me into a loving and caring person, Except when I lose my temper and get out of character. What do I mean, Well I'm a sensitive and proud and stubborn person kind alike my male and female twin . We both are very vain, and we both think we are gorgeous and irresistible, we think we are the bomb to men and women, In other words we think everyone loves us and everyone wants us. What a way to think huh? Well anyways,, When i was younger mama and grandma would teach me about treating a women, be kind , be generous, be open,, but I think they forgot to teach me how to to be a man, because that side I learned from a Americanized , curse laden, beer drinking , I don't give a flying hoot who I offend or who I hurt. I'm the center of the universe and your all just puppets to me.
Well having such extremes teaching me, has been a battle in life, its lIke Ones the angel and the other is the demon or devil,, its been constant and exhausting. But when My mama passed away,, That is or was the saddest day of my life, because my mentor, my guide, my twin soul, my best friend , perished and it was hard because I spent 30 days with her before leaving for japan for my early navy career. But soon after I got the news mama was gravely sick.. I was shocked because I just spent 30 days and she seemed healthy and strong or at least she showed it to me,, so.. I spoke to her while she was in hospital bed, I said I coming back to see you.. She said I'm ok. but I said I want to see you , we both cried and off I went I had a one day delay in my trip,, and it upset me.. Because when I arrived my family didn't want me to go to the hospital they wanted me to come home first, But I took a cab with my wife Mona and I asked for my mama. I should of know by the looks on their face , it was good news.. But wife knew, and i cried and demanded to see my mama. they sent a priest and my family came, my baby brother Jerry hugged me and we cried our eyes out, and to this day that moment I knew my life would be forever changed. During the funeral arrangements , I took charge , Even though I was the youngest , but I felt I was the closest to her and the one that knew her the best,, In other words I was the mama boy.. I also learned that I was going to be like my mom, spread love and joy to everyone I see and touch, no matter what. I know some men and women took it wrong as being a flirt or what , but that's how my mama was so full of love. Now on Mothers day, I pay tribute to my mama , that took out for lunches , and we played bingo at St Charles Church, and we picnicked at Luck Waller park in South San Diego.. We shared many great times, helping sell her foods at the south bay drive in theatre in IB.. talking walks and catching grunion at Coronado beach or Imperial beach. We shared a lifetime of memories.. with my mom. High school and College graduation , navy boot camp. those are cherished times. I will always remember those times , because that's how she would of wanted it. Not the times of me crying my yes out at the viewings and funeral. I couldn't hold back or still cant hold back the tears rolling down my face when I think of how much she loved me, when I hurt myself , playing football, when she would cry and pray for me, while rubbing vapor rub or whatever to ease the pain. I wish she would take me to the Dr, but she was filipina , and they like curing their own family,,ha.. I didn't like that , but in hindsight I admired her for raising us and never hurting us emotionally ,, she always supported us even though she didn't understand why we wanted to d things? But she had unconditional love and support and I love her and miss her so much. When I pray I always look to hear and see if shes talking to me and many times I hear her saying , don't lose faith and never give up on anything or anyone ? Even the ones that shun you , disrespect you or hate you. I never understood those words until now. I realize we are all God's children, and shunning or denying other people your love or attention is cruel and un Godly, It makes God unhappy and I know I don't want to do that. But its hard with my ego and pride to lower myself and really humble myself to people who have ignored me or neglected or flat out act like I don't exist. It their way of coping I'm guessing , but to me, I want to live my life free and happy and be around people that love and respect me and also support those around me, A true friend supports and defend one another and helps you be a better person. They are real and tell it like it is, even if it hurts like hell. My mama was that way, she loved me , but when she had to, she let me know what was up,, Like why are you dating that girl. and how come you are always going out? Why do you look so tired ? How come you have so many girls in your life? etc.. It never ended, like Ma, I'm not courting all these girls, they are friend 's or what/ I think she never understood me on that part. ?But I did like bring my girls home, Mama didn't always approve,, but daddy did.. sometimes too much,, you know what I mean? Ha,one of my girls said your dad is perverted old man.. Hmm. ? really? The apple doesn't fall far from the tree? I hope not. ? well anyways, I want to say Mama I love you and I miss you so much and on this mothers day I will pay tribute to you by posting your picture and writing a heartfelt blog about you because you are the best lady I ever had a relationship with. The laughs , the jokes, the drinking and talking about life were always heartfelt and real, and I know God willing we will reunite and have a eternal life of joy and happiness , that we had with your brief but wonderful time on earth. I hope and pray to all the Mothers out there and those that have lost theirs. I want all of you to be happy and joyful and may all the blessings you desire come true!
THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @2017
Everyone that is mother your are truly special and I honor and respect everyone one of you!!
I want to thank my beloved mama that gave me the best years of her life, Guiding me , teaching me, lecturing me, advising me,, whipping me , I needed it I was a spoil ed brat. and still am. She molded and guided me into a loving and caring person, Except when I lose my temper and get out of character. What do I mean, Well I'm a sensitive and proud and stubborn person kind alike my male and female twin . We both are very vain, and we both think we are gorgeous and irresistible, we think we are the bomb to men and women, In other words we think everyone loves us and everyone wants us. What a way to think huh? Well anyways,, When i was younger mama and grandma would teach me about treating a women, be kind , be generous, be open,, but I think they forgot to teach me how to to be a man, because that side I learned from a Americanized , curse laden, beer drinking , I don't give a flying hoot who I offend or who I hurt. I'm the center of the universe and your all just puppets to me.
Well having such extremes teaching me, has been a battle in life, its lIke Ones the angel and the other is the demon or devil,, its been constant and exhausting. But when My mama passed away,, That is or was the saddest day of my life, because my mentor, my guide, my twin soul, my best friend , perished and it was hard because I spent 30 days with her before leaving for japan for my early navy career. But soon after I got the news mama was gravely sick.. I was shocked because I just spent 30 days and she seemed healthy and strong or at least she showed it to me,, so.. I spoke to her while she was in hospital bed, I said I coming back to see you.. She said I'm ok. but I said I want to see you , we both cried and off I went I had a one day delay in my trip,, and it upset me.. Because when I arrived my family didn't want me to go to the hospital they wanted me to come home first, But I took a cab with my wife Mona and I asked for my mama. I should of know by the looks on their face , it was good news.. But wife knew, and i cried and demanded to see my mama. they sent a priest and my family came, my baby brother Jerry hugged me and we cried our eyes out, and to this day that moment I knew my life would be forever changed. During the funeral arrangements , I took charge , Even though I was the youngest , but I felt I was the closest to her and the one that knew her the best,, In other words I was the mama boy.. I also learned that I was going to be like my mom, spread love and joy to everyone I see and touch, no matter what. I know some men and women took it wrong as being a flirt or what , but that's how my mama was so full of love. Now on Mothers day, I pay tribute to my mama , that took out for lunches , and we played bingo at St Charles Church, and we picnicked at Luck Waller park in South San Diego.. We shared many great times, helping sell her foods at the south bay drive in theatre in IB.. talking walks and catching grunion at Coronado beach or Imperial beach. We shared a lifetime of memories.. with my mom. High school and College graduation , navy boot camp. those are cherished times. I will always remember those times , because that's how she would of wanted it. Not the times of me crying my yes out at the viewings and funeral. I couldn't hold back or still cant hold back the tears rolling down my face when I think of how much she loved me, when I hurt myself , playing football, when she would cry and pray for me, while rubbing vapor rub or whatever to ease the pain. I wish she would take me to the Dr, but she was filipina , and they like curing their own family,,ha.. I didn't like that , but in hindsight I admired her for raising us and never hurting us emotionally ,, she always supported us even though she didn't understand why we wanted to d things? But she had unconditional love and support and I love her and miss her so much. When I pray I always look to hear and see if shes talking to me and many times I hear her saying , don't lose faith and never give up on anything or anyone ? Even the ones that shun you , disrespect you or hate you. I never understood those words until now. I realize we are all God's children, and shunning or denying other people your love or attention is cruel and un Godly, It makes God unhappy and I know I don't want to do that. But its hard with my ego and pride to lower myself and really humble myself to people who have ignored me or neglected or flat out act like I don't exist. It their way of coping I'm guessing , but to me, I want to live my life free and happy and be around people that love and respect me and also support those around me, A true friend supports and defend one another and helps you be a better person. They are real and tell it like it is, even if it hurts like hell. My mama was that way, she loved me , but when she had to, she let me know what was up,, Like why are you dating that girl. and how come you are always going out? Why do you look so tired ? How come you have so many girls in your life? etc.. It never ended, like Ma, I'm not courting all these girls, they are friend 's or what/ I think she never understood me on that part. ?But I did like bring my girls home, Mama didn't always approve,, but daddy did.. sometimes too much,, you know what I mean? Ha,one of my girls said your dad is perverted old man.. Hmm. ? really? The apple doesn't fall far from the tree? I hope not. ? well anyways, I want to say Mama I love you and I miss you so much and on this mothers day I will pay tribute to you by posting your picture and writing a heartfelt blog about you because you are the best lady I ever had a relationship with. The laughs , the jokes, the drinking and talking about life were always heartfelt and real, and I know God willing we will reunite and have a eternal life of joy and happiness , that we had with your brief but wonderful time on earth. I hope and pray to all the Mothers out there and those that have lost theirs. I want all of you to be happy and joyful and may all the blessings you desire come true!
THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @2017
Thursday, May 11, 2017
Dear Mona....My wife ,My life...
Dear Mona , MY wife , MY life,,
Well , my wife has been with me 24 years, that's amazing,, Anyone to be with me that long deserves a award or what. But she has been my rock , my advisor , my best friend , my critic. MY wife is a had working women who I admire her alot. I know I get upset when she says things , but that's my elevated ego getting in the way, The past few years through trial and error I have lowered my ego and develop humility based on life experiences. Hardships and trial and tribulations humble you , pluse I pray to God and look for my Mamas grace to guide me, its not east to do the right thing because we human we prone to sin, to list to urges, but through it all your true love always stays in your heart and mind. Even though my wife may have said and id harmful things to me, I'm not free form doing the same thing, its funny how the closest and dearest ones in your life know how to hurt you. Because they were hurt by you and they want to repay you, Its not a good feeling when your love foes that, but we shouldn't judge them or get rid of them Instead we should pray and be with them because they are screaming fro your attention and love and now I realize I want to be the man my wife fell in lve with. From this day on, I'm gonna try to be there for you , to listen to guide to comfort, it all I can do from this day out is to be there for you and protect you. I know I have a ego , pride and stubbornness interfere with fully loving you . I know I took you for granted and i don't blame you for hating me for that. Lessons learn ed i will never ever do that again, I will always pay attention to you and be that loving man you fell in love. I know at times I;m aloof and off in my own world. that's my fault, I should be focused on you and what you want in life. Its a tough road just to be alive , but don't give up I;m there for , I realize that its really hard to find someone you really love and trust and I pray and hope we can keep our love going because we have 2 wonderful boys that are so happy when we spend time together.. Its not easy to live , no doubt , but knowng that I'm there for you through thick and thin, is what I have to offer and I'm sorry for all the pains i did to you and I forgive you too, Because its what God says we must do. We must live our lives to the fullest and reach the potentials and dreams we want. I want to support and I''m cheer you on because that's what husband and wife do. We can overcame any misunderstanding ,, because of the many years we tolerated each other. True friends that we first were don't give up on one another. And I'm proclaiming to the world that I will always be there for you and i will give you the full attention and love you deserve. I know I'm too friendly , flirty with people, but one things is for sure, I do Love you Mons, s much as I have tried to walk away or say I'm dome with you, I cant or wont do it, unless you say it to my face, and I know deep down inside you wont or cant say it,, We have a special bond and we have been through much to quit on each other , I might be a dreamer , but its the way I feel and believe, Mona.. We are a special because we have seen the good and bad and survived. We know that despite our errors , we know we still need each other and we have boys that love each other and want us to share a lifetime of memories like graduations, wedding s, kids, Its the whole plate we all want , Its the dream we want to live. and I feel we can still make it happen. Mona with all my heart , I will be there and stay with you no matter what. I have learn ed from so many friends these past few months and I will use that experience to show you that Mel is the man for you and we will make this marriage wonderful and special, Because we are meant to be. My best friends Jo and Amne and My new found friends Greg and Joanny believe that i Must fight for our love and take care of you from now on, Because its destiny and we cant or should mess with that. To you Mona my wife of 24 years, ON mothers day I will hig and kiss you and have a special day together because we both deserve a nice break from stress and enjoy life. Ok Mons my love, Take Care and remember I want to be the man you first married,, I have been humbled and I'm ready for you to continue on with this wonderful journey,,ok babes.. I Love you..Mona. Always ..
THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @2017
Well , my wife has been with me 24 years, that's amazing,, Anyone to be with me that long deserves a award or what. But she has been my rock , my advisor , my best friend , my critic. MY wife is a had working women who I admire her alot. I know I get upset when she says things , but that's my elevated ego getting in the way, The past few years through trial and error I have lowered my ego and develop humility based on life experiences. Hardships and trial and tribulations humble you , pluse I pray to God and look for my Mamas grace to guide me, its not east to do the right thing because we human we prone to sin, to list to urges, but through it all your true love always stays in your heart and mind. Even though my wife may have said and id harmful things to me, I'm not free form doing the same thing, its funny how the closest and dearest ones in your life know how to hurt you. Because they were hurt by you and they want to repay you, Its not a good feeling when your love foes that, but we shouldn't judge them or get rid of them Instead we should pray and be with them because they are screaming fro your attention and love and now I realize I want to be the man my wife fell in lve with. From this day on, I'm gonna try to be there for you , to listen to guide to comfort, it all I can do from this day out is to be there for you and protect you. I know I have a ego , pride and stubbornness interfere with fully loving you . I know I took you for granted and i don't blame you for hating me for that. Lessons learn ed i will never ever do that again, I will always pay attention to you and be that loving man you fell in love. I know at times I;m aloof and off in my own world. that's my fault, I should be focused on you and what you want in life. Its a tough road just to be alive , but don't give up I;m there for , I realize that its really hard to find someone you really love and trust and I pray and hope we can keep our love going because we have 2 wonderful boys that are so happy when we spend time together.. Its not easy to live , no doubt , but knowng that I'm there for you through thick and thin, is what I have to offer and I'm sorry for all the pains i did to you and I forgive you too, Because its what God says we must do. We must live our lives to the fullest and reach the potentials and dreams we want. I want to support and I''m cheer you on because that's what husband and wife do. We can overcame any misunderstanding ,, because of the many years we tolerated each other. True friends that we first were don't give up on one another. And I'm proclaiming to the world that I will always be there for you and i will give you the full attention and love you deserve. I know I'm too friendly , flirty with people, but one things is for sure, I do Love you Mons, s much as I have tried to walk away or say I'm dome with you, I cant or wont do it, unless you say it to my face, and I know deep down inside you wont or cant say it,, We have a special bond and we have been through much to quit on each other , I might be a dreamer , but its the way I feel and believe, Mona.. We are a special because we have seen the good and bad and survived. We know that despite our errors , we know we still need each other and we have boys that love each other and want us to share a lifetime of memories like graduations, wedding s, kids, Its the whole plate we all want , Its the dream we want to live. and I feel we can still make it happen. Mona with all my heart , I will be there and stay with you no matter what. I have learn ed from so many friends these past few months and I will use that experience to show you that Mel is the man for you and we will make this marriage wonderful and special, Because we are meant to be. My best friends Jo and Amne and My new found friends Greg and Joanny believe that i Must fight for our love and take care of you from now on, Because its destiny and we cant or should mess with that. To you Mona my wife of 24 years, ON mothers day I will hig and kiss you and have a special day together because we both deserve a nice break from stress and enjoy life. Ok Mons my love, Take Care and remember I want to be the man you first married,, I have been humbled and I'm ready for you to continue on with this wonderful journey,,ok babes.. I Love you..Mona. Always ..
THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @2017
FAREWELL LUNCH WITH MY DEAR CO WORKERS GREG, RICARDO, GUS, AND BILLY ..
FAREWELL LUNCH WITH MY DEAR CO WORKERS .GREG, RICARDO , GUS , BILLY ..
I don't like good byes , but I thought it would be nice to say good bye to the guys, at the first break , Sammy, Jaime , Luis and Kai. and Art. It was funny running from across the street and greeting Ricardo and Greg. These guys the past 3 months have been my heart and soul.. I mean Greg, is me years ago,, and Ricardo is my pinoy side.. now.. It was to talk.. about nothing. that's what we do , just talk and laugh about silly things,, Its what buddies d to relieve stress and believe me I have been through alot of it,, of work and at work.. The past few months I have been through alot The rumors, the perceptions, the reality of the situation, I was like in tail spin about the work place, I mean I thought at one time my position at work was a sure thing,, But I should of know based on life, that nothing is a sure thing and being humble is important, Not just say t by practise it. . I had such a whirlwind time there I mean I thought I had true friends there , but in the end. My motto,,
Be true to those that are true to you,, I mean,, I thought that one friend I spent time with over the last few months would be my friend for life. Why ? because we shared so many things in common,, I mean we ha may great talks or at least I thought I did maybe its was me doing all the talking and the other person was just listening and Reading.. I mean , My fault for opening my heart and soul it was a big risk, But that's what I am. I'm a big risk taker,, I have been hurt many times by lovers and friends, Like My best friend JO ,,, he said I'm too eager to please people and too eager to trust,,Protect your heart . But like bull running through the streets I was full throttle ahead and once again, hurt and disappointed by the outcome,, But enough of that.. ..
Now to my dear co workers who I truly believe are my friends for life.. My dear Friend Ricardo, Man what can I say about you, you fought so hard for me and I respect you for that, you advise me on what to do , but because I was so insecure and fearful. I didn't follow through and because of it , I guess it will haunt me forever. But then again,, Maybe it was meant to be, you know what I mean, Yea, we spent times texting and talking to each other before e, after work , and at breaks, man he really cared about me. Why.? He said I could see that kind heart and spirit your rarely see in people in life, But because I was so open and transparent,, Its seems I always get burned,, and it happened again. But like all the disappointments I have had in life. I pick up my head and move on I have too, But I must admit , the stress the whole month drained me and he kept me happy and focused,, Same with Gus,, this guy really pays attention when he speaks to you and he listens to what you have to say, I didn't have alot of talks but each one I ad was special, like today sharing about his family member in serous health issues,, I know the feeling,, I lost My grandma , my mom, my mother in law, within years of each other and each of them affected me, Because I loved them so much, they molded me ,, when I was younger,, that why I had feminine qualities,, But I'm not ashamed, its what makes me a special person that people love, well alot of people who appreciate what I do.. Yea,, IT was a great lunch I mean I only knew Billy as short while but we clicked because of the similar back grounds and just living life.. Its too bad the younger cats in the warehouse and office ,, could of understood the pain and misery I went through ,, But they think they way they think because they walked different paths, and I doubt they could walk the same path I did . I mean the racism in my younger days before the navy and in the navy, the deaths I seen, the burials at sea, the tears for family members, the hundreds of flag draped coffins , it was like a living hell to see so may shipmates die, kill themselves or try to, or what, Its a deal I would not wish on anyone, But,, life went on and though I know I'm ok , It still hurts when certain songs come on or what just reminds me of shipmates or marines I knew in my navy times,like i said it was a lonely and scary life to live,, But I did..
Last but not least my male twin Greg, I have wrote so many great things abut him in so many blogs, So your probably thinking how can you have so much love and respect for someone in only 3 months,, Like I said we clicked from day 1. we joked and laughed like were brothers . Which I believe we are. I mean we like the same songs, the same movies, have the same twisted humor and love attention, We both take pride in looking good... We enjoy making each other laugh and others at work, Because we know life is hard, and we make the point to make people laugh well most of the time, Its funny , but I realize some people aren't just happy no matter what you do, and people are jealous and envious of you ,, So if anything stay humble because not everyone is on your side, It took me life time to realize that , but better late than never. But I now know that to really have true friends that you connect with is really rare and people that are authentic and real are rare. To really have true friends is rare so when I can call Greg, Ricardo , Jo , Colin , Tony ,Joanny as true friends that's a true treasure, Because I have heard that we will be friends forever and despite my mistakes or foolish words, I find out some people are bull shitters or maybe they are just afraid to be around people that really know them, I mean its scary to be around people that will call you out an Say don't do that ot stop being that way. But that's what true friends do. They keep you grounded , they kep it real and don't try to say what you want to hear. Instead they beg tou to stop or ask you to wake up and advise you to do whats right. Believe me I know I'm not a east friend to be with. MY moods, my attitude and my unpredictability can make anyone say that's enough. But I feel I have grown up and my dear friends that I mentioned are guiding me to be a better man. And for those that have given up or about to, I must say that I understand , and I realize some people are like tumble weeds, they come into your life for awhile and then go away and others stay forever LIKE my BESTIE joe, it has seen and felt the best and worst of times and is still there. He is truly a gift from God and I'm Thankful. and to my 2 new found friends Greg and Ricardo.. I love you guys , you made work fun and bearable. I wish you both the best of luck in career and life and I know we friends for life. We just have the chemistry and connection from the get go,,
The luncheon taught me that good Friends take time out to be with and support and and don't judge you or make fun you and accept you.I;m thankful for wonderful people in my life and I Thank God for watching over as well as my dearly departed mama who I miss very much , All of these people are my treasures in life and to the friends I have lost through death , suicide, or just walking away. I pray for you and May God be with you as you go through this journey we call life. We never who stays and go's in our life , but one thing is for sure I cherish the moments and lessons learned because every person that touches our lives do make an impression and its up to us to value their time with us. May all of yo find true treasures in your life and be kind to one another and understand that some people are just there for a moment and everyone has their own journey and agenda to follow..
Once again Thank you Ricardo , Gus , and Billy for spending time at lunch and I wish you all well and to my Brother form another Mother, you know how we feel about each other , respect , honor and care and love that most people would love to share but don't have, I know whatever our paths in life we will always have a bind for the times we had and the experiences we shared , because like I have said, its rare to find people that really click with you and I thank God the people in my life are making my life enjoyable,..
THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @2017
I don't like good byes , but I thought it would be nice to say good bye to the guys, at the first break , Sammy, Jaime , Luis and Kai. and Art. It was funny running from across the street and greeting Ricardo and Greg. These guys the past 3 months have been my heart and soul.. I mean Greg, is me years ago,, and Ricardo is my pinoy side.. now.. It was to talk.. about nothing. that's what we do , just talk and laugh about silly things,, Its what buddies d to relieve stress and believe me I have been through alot of it,, of work and at work.. The past few months I have been through alot The rumors, the perceptions, the reality of the situation, I was like in tail spin about the work place, I mean I thought at one time my position at work was a sure thing,, But I should of know based on life, that nothing is a sure thing and being humble is important, Not just say t by practise it. . I had such a whirlwind time there I mean I thought I had true friends there , but in the end. My motto,,
Be true to those that are true to you,, I mean,, I thought that one friend I spent time with over the last few months would be my friend for life. Why ? because we shared so many things in common,, I mean we ha may great talks or at least I thought I did maybe its was me doing all the talking and the other person was just listening and Reading.. I mean , My fault for opening my heart and soul it was a big risk, But that's what I am. I'm a big risk taker,, I have been hurt many times by lovers and friends, Like My best friend JO ,,, he said I'm too eager to please people and too eager to trust,,Protect your heart . But like bull running through the streets I was full throttle ahead and once again, hurt and disappointed by the outcome,, But enough of that.. ..
Now to my dear co workers who I truly believe are my friends for life.. My dear Friend Ricardo, Man what can I say about you, you fought so hard for me and I respect you for that, you advise me on what to do , but because I was so insecure and fearful. I didn't follow through and because of it , I guess it will haunt me forever. But then again,, Maybe it was meant to be, you know what I mean, Yea, we spent times texting and talking to each other before e, after work , and at breaks, man he really cared about me. Why.? He said I could see that kind heart and spirit your rarely see in people in life, But because I was so open and transparent,, Its seems I always get burned,, and it happened again. But like all the disappointments I have had in life. I pick up my head and move on I have too, But I must admit , the stress the whole month drained me and he kept me happy and focused,, Same with Gus,, this guy really pays attention when he speaks to you and he listens to what you have to say, I didn't have alot of talks but each one I ad was special, like today sharing about his family member in serous health issues,, I know the feeling,, I lost My grandma , my mom, my mother in law, within years of each other and each of them affected me, Because I loved them so much, they molded me ,, when I was younger,, that why I had feminine qualities,, But I'm not ashamed, its what makes me a special person that people love, well alot of people who appreciate what I do.. Yea,, IT was a great lunch I mean I only knew Billy as short while but we clicked because of the similar back grounds and just living life.. Its too bad the younger cats in the warehouse and office ,, could of understood the pain and misery I went through ,, But they think they way they think because they walked different paths, and I doubt they could walk the same path I did . I mean the racism in my younger days before the navy and in the navy, the deaths I seen, the burials at sea, the tears for family members, the hundreds of flag draped coffins , it was like a living hell to see so may shipmates die, kill themselves or try to, or what, Its a deal I would not wish on anyone, But,, life went on and though I know I'm ok , It still hurts when certain songs come on or what just reminds me of shipmates or marines I knew in my navy times,like i said it was a lonely and scary life to live,, But I did..
Last but not least my male twin Greg, I have wrote so many great things abut him in so many blogs, So your probably thinking how can you have so much love and respect for someone in only 3 months,, Like I said we clicked from day 1. we joked and laughed like were brothers . Which I believe we are. I mean we like the same songs, the same movies, have the same twisted humor and love attention, We both take pride in looking good... We enjoy making each other laugh and others at work, Because we know life is hard, and we make the point to make people laugh well most of the time, Its funny , but I realize some people aren't just happy no matter what you do, and people are jealous and envious of you ,, So if anything stay humble because not everyone is on your side, It took me life time to realize that , but better late than never. But I now know that to really have true friends that you connect with is really rare and people that are authentic and real are rare. To really have true friends is rare so when I can call Greg, Ricardo , Jo , Colin , Tony ,Joanny as true friends that's a true treasure, Because I have heard that we will be friends forever and despite my mistakes or foolish words, I find out some people are bull shitters or maybe they are just afraid to be around people that really know them, I mean its scary to be around people that will call you out an Say don't do that ot stop being that way. But that's what true friends do. They keep you grounded , they kep it real and don't try to say what you want to hear. Instead they beg tou to stop or ask you to wake up and advise you to do whats right. Believe me I know I'm not a east friend to be with. MY moods, my attitude and my unpredictability can make anyone say that's enough. But I feel I have grown up and my dear friends that I mentioned are guiding me to be a better man. And for those that have given up or about to, I must say that I understand , and I realize some people are like tumble weeds, they come into your life for awhile and then go away and others stay forever LIKE my BESTIE joe, it has seen and felt the best and worst of times and is still there. He is truly a gift from God and I'm Thankful. and to my 2 new found friends Greg and Ricardo.. I love you guys , you made work fun and bearable. I wish you both the best of luck in career and life and I know we friends for life. We just have the chemistry and connection from the get go,,
The luncheon taught me that good Friends take time out to be with and support and and don't judge you or make fun you and accept you.I;m thankful for wonderful people in my life and I Thank God for watching over as well as my dearly departed mama who I miss very much , All of these people are my treasures in life and to the friends I have lost through death , suicide, or just walking away. I pray for you and May God be with you as you go through this journey we call life. We never who stays and go's in our life , but one thing is for sure I cherish the moments and lessons learned because every person that touches our lives do make an impression and its up to us to value their time with us. May all of yo find true treasures in your life and be kind to one another and understand that some people are just there for a moment and everyone has their own journey and agenda to follow..
Once again Thank you Ricardo , Gus , and Billy for spending time at lunch and I wish you all well and to my Brother form another Mother, you know how we feel about each other , respect , honor and care and love that most people would love to share but don't have, I know whatever our paths in life we will always have a bind for the times we had and the experiences we shared , because like I have said, its rare to find people that really click with you and I thank God the people in my life are making my life enjoyable,..
THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @2017
Wednesday, May 10, 2017
Self - Revelation - based on life experiences..
Self - Revelation - Based on Life Experiences..
Well Hello everyone , Life is a struggle no doubt ,but we must go on, and I want to thank all my Source fans some 500+locally and the many thousands around the world.. , and the many around the world. As of today I have over 35,000 views and readers from all around the world. It has been a long road from the beginnings of the The Source , at first a angry in your face blog about anything and everything , to now a more critical and analytical view on life and its trials and tribulations. \
On thing is clear , I learn ed alot about myself lately or the past few months, I realized that true happiness comes from within and what your doing. You must do things because you want TO and not allow others or anyone to dictate your happiness. Its a tough thing ti do that is take a critical look of oneself, ? But I found out that I have a over inflated ego? Which means that you cant change people's minds about anything by writing , by talking , by singing by acting by anything, You just have to be yourself, and you cant be too sensitive about things, I mean everyone does dumb stuff right > Or say the wrong things, But if a person has your back , you should have theirs, but being older like I am.. I need to work on that. I mean when I was younger like teenage days, I would get upset when people mistreated me, or even told me truth,, I mean, the truth hurts when I blog or say something , so why should i be so judgemental on people. Lesson learned , I need to chill out and let people be what they are ? I mean now that i'm older like over a half century old, I have no time for games or what? I mean life i so fast guys,, I mean I retired in 2012 and it still feels like it was last year or what. I'm still struggling with the transition and still struggling in finding a work place I can settle down and be productive. But like anything else , you get up shut up and live on. We have too , God has not out us here for anything else or less. During these past few months I learned how to be happy and be appreciative of people, I was in a long funk , depressed and out of it before Meeting my dear friends at work that helped me mature and grow up they all showed me that I'm special and loved , and that I have alot to offer to people and the world. I'm not upset anymore abut anything, I went to my Mama;'s grave site and I prayed and asked about what to do .She said or I felt her thoughts in my mind that said " Be true to those that are true to you and love your family and dear friends.." Simple enough advice , but everytime I go there and I pray I feel my mind relaxes and those negative thoughts and ideas seem to fade away. But today really felt different because I'm calm right now and I feel good about myself, something I haven't felt in a long time. I know that God is with me just like the rest of us that believe or not believe in him.. In life your always going to have troubles that happen , like deaths to classmates or family. Heart breaks in career or relationships, or just struggling wiht the daily grinds of life. Life is not easy , but when you decide to be happy and don't let negative vibes bother you,,then life looks so much better. I know the people that pumped me up over the Months I wil always Cherish those times and I will never forget you. I know I have alot of work to do regarding dealing with people.but I know God and my family and dear friends will guide me and keep me focused. Its a great feeling knowing the people I meet or have meet will always feel special because I Made them feel that way. Am I right? Its like the old saying your as happy as you want to be,, I decided today that .. I will treat each day as a lifetime , because it is, we all never know when its over and we have to be happy and don't judge others so much..If you get hurt ,, absorb it and let it go,, because it doesn't do anyone good to keep sadness or anger in you, it eats you up and tires you out. I know I have had the feeling for months.. until I met the wonderful people at work. Thank you Greg , and Ricardo ,, and B,, you know who you are. They have been the best of the best and kept me going when at times I wanted to quit. But they kept me focused and positive , like My blood type, B positive.. like my twin, ,,oh well like I said , When you enjoy life and don't harbor bad thoughts , life and your mind feels better. I know I use writing to talk out things about sports , daily events and what but a blog about myself, and my inner self is something I know all of you enjoy too. I mean life is a journey and we all have to face obstacles and trials and its how we handle it and how we move on that makes us stronger and smarter. To open up to the world that I need to grow up a bit and learn how to control my ego and pride and think about whats important in my life,, Like Wife , boys family , friends my health , God's love. Its all there for me to appreciate and love Because life and love is fleeting , you should never take those things for granted and be happy every day,Because God loves us all and he know when and how to bring the right people in your life or back into your life. I have faith and trust in him and I know now from this day on.. to be appreciative of everything and Never take anything or anyone for granted, ? Life is too short my friends,, If you feel like calling someone do it, of you feel like texting someone , then do it..
My lesson learned is this, Be happy with what you do and if your not , then go out and do things that make you happy. I have met and developed great friendships with people and though I may have stumbled , and I need time and space to heal wounds, I know The friends I have found , are there forever and rooting for me, but most of all I need to love myself and root for myself,,, so I can share my love and affection with those that want it. I also know that I need to be careful about saying things or doing things for attention, At times those words or phrases can hurt people and to those that I have hurt lately. I'm sorry and I meant no real harm. Its just my in mature side,, which needs lecture , which needs tutoring , and self reflection.. I know its gonna be a lifetime journey of learning , but at least I realize i need to work on my inflated ego , and my attention seeking vibe so I can be the man , the father , the person that is productive and caring and setting the right examples for his family friends. IN other words, be a good man that I know I am. It took meeting people and finding out about my weaknesses and faults to help me grow up. Growing pains at my age, But everyone of us, has alot to learn about ourselves and it starts by self revelation ,self reflection and self discovery. For me ,it took a new friendship with cool similarities and traits that mirrored one another and often scared one another to see whats the real deal. Its scary to see how you really are under stress or under duress. Its the ones that over come those obstacles and learn from them , that has helped me grow as a person and man. I cherish those times wit my friends at work that helped me deal with disappointments, rumors, pressure and perception from people. I know now I cant please everyone " Pleaser" , you just have to be yourself, try your best and let your friends be who they are and let them reach their potential.. Its hard because we all are selfish and want our Friends to stay with us? But we all have our own path and roads to follow and to hinder or stop any ones growth , is not a true friend,, I found out that because I think a certain way, doesn't mean my thoughts are correct. Sometimes you need to step back and take a hard look at what you did or said and see if that action was real or not. Make sense? In other words slow down ,smell the roses and take a look around , keep your eyes open and don't get set in your ways. Because what seems to be the truth ,, at times is only a partial truth and what seems to be fake or phony , is really very true and beautiful.. I found out about how to love and how to be loved. I learned how to treat people right and how not to. I know we are only human and we say and do things out of anger , but jumping to conclusions and making assumptions about what people might be thinking is not only stupid but not healthy. I learned that hard way that if you have issues with someone , you talk it out and if they need space and time ,give it to them. But above all you need to give everyone respect and honor and unconditional love, if they are labeled a friend, Its easy to say or write it out, but actions do speak louder than words, and I learned about that the pas few months. I will talk to people if I have issues, I will resolve any conflicts then and there and most of all I will not come to quick assumptions without valid proof or what. Because all of those actions leads to anger , frustration and hatred , and believe me its not a good feeling to be that way.. So
Be good to everyone and help one another, I learned when I smile and help people I see happiness in peoples eyes, and that's the greatest feeling you can pass on to people, that is happiness and fun. I had had enough months dwelling in misery or feeling sorry about myself, I'm gonna be happy and share with those that love me.. My family , my friends and most of all myself, Love yourself and spread it around , many doors open when you smile and share your happiness.
HAVE A GREAT DAY AND OR NIGHT.
THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @2017
Well Hello everyone , Life is a struggle no doubt ,but we must go on, and I want to thank all my Source fans some 500+locally and the many thousands around the world.. , and the many around the world. As of today I have over 35,000 views and readers from all around the world. It has been a long road from the beginnings of the The Source , at first a angry in your face blog about anything and everything , to now a more critical and analytical view on life and its trials and tribulations. \
On thing is clear , I learn ed alot about myself lately or the past few months, I realized that true happiness comes from within and what your doing. You must do things because you want TO and not allow others or anyone to dictate your happiness. Its a tough thing ti do that is take a critical look of oneself, ? But I found out that I have a over inflated ego? Which means that you cant change people's minds about anything by writing , by talking , by singing by acting by anything, You just have to be yourself, and you cant be too sensitive about things, I mean everyone does dumb stuff right > Or say the wrong things, But if a person has your back , you should have theirs, but being older like I am.. I need to work on that. I mean when I was younger like teenage days, I would get upset when people mistreated me, or even told me truth,, I mean, the truth hurts when I blog or say something , so why should i be so judgemental on people. Lesson learned , I need to chill out and let people be what they are ? I mean now that i'm older like over a half century old, I have no time for games or what? I mean life i so fast guys,, I mean I retired in 2012 and it still feels like it was last year or what. I'm still struggling with the transition and still struggling in finding a work place I can settle down and be productive. But like anything else , you get up shut up and live on. We have too , God has not out us here for anything else or less. During these past few months I learned how to be happy and be appreciative of people, I was in a long funk , depressed and out of it before Meeting my dear friends at work that helped me mature and grow up they all showed me that I'm special and loved , and that I have alot to offer to people and the world. I'm not upset anymore abut anything, I went to my Mama;'s grave site and I prayed and asked about what to do .She said or I felt her thoughts in my mind that said " Be true to those that are true to you and love your family and dear friends.." Simple enough advice , but everytime I go there and I pray I feel my mind relaxes and those negative thoughts and ideas seem to fade away. But today really felt different because I'm calm right now and I feel good about myself, something I haven't felt in a long time. I know that God is with me just like the rest of us that believe or not believe in him.. In life your always going to have troubles that happen , like deaths to classmates or family. Heart breaks in career or relationships, or just struggling wiht the daily grinds of life. Life is not easy , but when you decide to be happy and don't let negative vibes bother you,,then life looks so much better. I know the people that pumped me up over the Months I wil always Cherish those times and I will never forget you. I know I have alot of work to do regarding dealing with people.but I know God and my family and dear friends will guide me and keep me focused. Its a great feeling knowing the people I meet or have meet will always feel special because I Made them feel that way. Am I right? Its like the old saying your as happy as you want to be,, I decided today that .. I will treat each day as a lifetime , because it is, we all never know when its over and we have to be happy and don't judge others so much..If you get hurt ,, absorb it and let it go,, because it doesn't do anyone good to keep sadness or anger in you, it eats you up and tires you out. I know I have had the feeling for months.. until I met the wonderful people at work. Thank you Greg , and Ricardo ,, and B,, you know who you are. They have been the best of the best and kept me going when at times I wanted to quit. But they kept me focused and positive , like My blood type, B positive.. like my twin, ,,oh well like I said , When you enjoy life and don't harbor bad thoughts , life and your mind feels better. I know I use writing to talk out things about sports , daily events and what but a blog about myself, and my inner self is something I know all of you enjoy too. I mean life is a journey and we all have to face obstacles and trials and its how we handle it and how we move on that makes us stronger and smarter. To open up to the world that I need to grow up a bit and learn how to control my ego and pride and think about whats important in my life,, Like Wife , boys family , friends my health , God's love. Its all there for me to appreciate and love Because life and love is fleeting , you should never take those things for granted and be happy every day,Because God loves us all and he know when and how to bring the right people in your life or back into your life. I have faith and trust in him and I know now from this day on.. to be appreciative of everything and Never take anything or anyone for granted, ? Life is too short my friends,, If you feel like calling someone do it, of you feel like texting someone , then do it..
My lesson learned is this, Be happy with what you do and if your not , then go out and do things that make you happy. I have met and developed great friendships with people and though I may have stumbled , and I need time and space to heal wounds, I know The friends I have found , are there forever and rooting for me, but most of all I need to love myself and root for myself,,, so I can share my love and affection with those that want it. I also know that I need to be careful about saying things or doing things for attention, At times those words or phrases can hurt people and to those that I have hurt lately. I'm sorry and I meant no real harm. Its just my in mature side,, which needs lecture , which needs tutoring , and self reflection.. I know its gonna be a lifetime journey of learning , but at least I realize i need to work on my inflated ego , and my attention seeking vibe so I can be the man , the father , the person that is productive and caring and setting the right examples for his family friends. IN other words, be a good man that I know I am. It took meeting people and finding out about my weaknesses and faults to help me grow up. Growing pains at my age, But everyone of us, has alot to learn about ourselves and it starts by self revelation ,self reflection and self discovery. For me ,it took a new friendship with cool similarities and traits that mirrored one another and often scared one another to see whats the real deal. Its scary to see how you really are under stress or under duress. Its the ones that over come those obstacles and learn from them , that has helped me grow as a person and man. I cherish those times wit my friends at work that helped me deal with disappointments, rumors, pressure and perception from people. I know now I cant please everyone " Pleaser" , you just have to be yourself, try your best and let your friends be who they are and let them reach their potential.. Its hard because we all are selfish and want our Friends to stay with us? But we all have our own path and roads to follow and to hinder or stop any ones growth , is not a true friend,, I found out that because I think a certain way, doesn't mean my thoughts are correct. Sometimes you need to step back and take a hard look at what you did or said and see if that action was real or not. Make sense? In other words slow down ,smell the roses and take a look around , keep your eyes open and don't get set in your ways. Because what seems to be the truth ,, at times is only a partial truth and what seems to be fake or phony , is really very true and beautiful.. I found out about how to love and how to be loved. I learned how to treat people right and how not to. I know we are only human and we say and do things out of anger , but jumping to conclusions and making assumptions about what people might be thinking is not only stupid but not healthy. I learned that hard way that if you have issues with someone , you talk it out and if they need space and time ,give it to them. But above all you need to give everyone respect and honor and unconditional love, if they are labeled a friend, Its easy to say or write it out, but actions do speak louder than words, and I learned about that the pas few months. I will talk to people if I have issues, I will resolve any conflicts then and there and most of all I will not come to quick assumptions without valid proof or what. Because all of those actions leads to anger , frustration and hatred , and believe me its not a good feeling to be that way.. So
Be good to everyone and help one another, I learned when I smile and help people I see happiness in peoples eyes, and that's the greatest feeling you can pass on to people, that is happiness and fun. I had had enough months dwelling in misery or feeling sorry about myself, I'm gonna be happy and share with those that love me.. My family , my friends and most of all myself, Love yourself and spread it around , many doors open when you smile and share your happiness.
HAVE A GREAT DAY AND OR NIGHT.
THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @2017
How to attract men.. Based on life experiences..
How to attract men.. Based on life experiences..
Ok , since I'm a man, this sounds weird but what I'm going to share with you , is what I have see women in my life have done to attract me..
Women are attracted to manly men, men that have that chiseled look , right? While men are easily attracted by looks and behavior,, If a women looks hot she must be hot,, Personality , emotional whatever..
Men are hunters and they are looking for women with healthy butts and curves in the right places, and of course breasts, But these day alot of women are getting implants, so men tend to look at curves in the right places and healthy butts.. Because those features take working out to get.. Get me>? But there are a small amount of men with less tester one , and less manly? Who are ok with a women thqt is less feminine and more decisive and controlling, that's where a man has more feminine qualities and wants a women to take charge of the relationship , which in many cases women don't want to do that? But there are guys like that?
The cute girls brings out the protective manly side of men , the ones that want to protect and conquer , almost I'm your daddy syndrome. When a cute girl shows her vulnerable side, Many men cant help be the protector the aggressor..Its the hunter in them that gets revealed...
But to a feminist , acting cute and vulnerable is a sign of weakness and those women will not show their female side to men, thus the conflict..
Here's the hook women use successfully to attract a mans attention..
1)Dress is softer tones of color , like pastels or earthy colors it makes you look healthier and make you appear attractive to men..
2)Smile often, nothing spells sexiness or appeal then a smile,,It automatically makes you feel friendly and warm.. and Men are suckers to that. Its their ego your touching and once you did that , everything falls into place..
3)Let your hair down, and run your hand through your hair, Its a instant come on and just projects your sex appeal..Its something about long hair a women waving it or whipping it around,, Just looks and feels sexy, and men are visual creatures, anything that looks good and sexy, they are prone to it , unless they are Gay , heart broken, or dead.. haha..
4)The head down , blushing or smiling at them will also catch their attention.. Men like being fLirted with and its a turn on when women do these things. >> I know it sounds so simple and high schoolish but men are like over aggressive teenagers that want to please, they like seeing sexy things , thats why porn is a multi billion business. Men enjoy having pleasure , especially visual wise. It makes them feel manly and wanted. When a man feels wanted , then the women has their way with men. Some men are harder to attract because they know these signs and know their status , so the dont be attracted to these women that have these traits down.. For men that are a harder attraction .
They prefer women that less attainable , feminine but knows how to exude cinfience and power, these women are head strong and not flirty, They want the man to pursue them and enjoy the games they play. On the other hand a man who likes to play games , will engage and play along. The other men who are less patient and more stable in their personality , will back off thus causing a friction with alot of women. Women in general. if you want to attract a man. having that sexiness , that flirtiness and that vulnerability , you Will get the protective man, While the other man wants a more dominating, controlling women in their life. You have to observe a mans personality,, If hes dresses manly and looks manly , he a alpha male with testerone ready for action. But if the man is a pretty boy or likes looking cute,, Then he has less testerone and more likely want a controlling and dominating women, For the other men. They want a balanced women that is both smart witty , and cute , but has the courage to tell a man, this is what I want , and if you do it,, we are good, if not, well,, you know whats up. You have to please a women , because if you don't ..the nest guy or man will..and there is plenty of men and women out there ready to play..
Bottomline ;You don't have to play dumb or weak to attract , if anything showcase your sexiness and be confident with men, that's a turn on. Because men do enjoy a challenge and do enjoy showing off their manliness, when a man feels you were worth the chase, they will hold you in higher regard and that's how it should be. Don't make it easy for us men, Because if anything ,, we men like to feel like we accomplished something when hooking up with a girl,, If you make it easy they will lose respect and you might be a one night stand. That alot of men may enjoy but not relationship material,.
Well I hope this helps women or men,, on how to attract men. May you find your own journeys and lessons in life, Because life is a journey and life flies by so fast. I know. I;m past the century mark and counting. and based on the first part of my life. I'm looking forward to many high and low's and joy and pains that come with life, No one is immune to pain and suffering. Treat each day as a lifetime , because you never know when you life is over. Be good to one another and love each other ! We are God's children...
THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @2017
Ok , since I'm a man, this sounds weird but what I'm going to share with you , is what I have see women in my life have done to attract me..
Women are attracted to manly men, men that have that chiseled look , right? While men are easily attracted by looks and behavior,, If a women looks hot she must be hot,, Personality , emotional whatever..
Men are hunters and they are looking for women with healthy butts and curves in the right places, and of course breasts, But these day alot of women are getting implants, so men tend to look at curves in the right places and healthy butts.. Because those features take working out to get.. Get me>? But there are a small amount of men with less tester one , and less manly? Who are ok with a women thqt is less feminine and more decisive and controlling, that's where a man has more feminine qualities and wants a women to take charge of the relationship , which in many cases women don't want to do that? But there are guys like that?
The cute girls brings out the protective manly side of men , the ones that want to protect and conquer , almost I'm your daddy syndrome. When a cute girl shows her vulnerable side, Many men cant help be the protector the aggressor..Its the hunter in them that gets revealed...
But to a feminist , acting cute and vulnerable is a sign of weakness and those women will not show their female side to men, thus the conflict..
Here's the hook women use successfully to attract a mans attention..
1)Dress is softer tones of color , like pastels or earthy colors it makes you look healthier and make you appear attractive to men..
2)Smile often, nothing spells sexiness or appeal then a smile,,It automatically makes you feel friendly and warm.. and Men are suckers to that. Its their ego your touching and once you did that , everything falls into place..
3)Let your hair down, and run your hand through your hair, Its a instant come on and just projects your sex appeal..Its something about long hair a women waving it or whipping it around,, Just looks and feels sexy, and men are visual creatures, anything that looks good and sexy, they are prone to it , unless they are Gay , heart broken, or dead.. haha..
4)The head down , blushing or smiling at them will also catch their attention.. Men like being fLirted with and its a turn on when women do these things. >> I know it sounds so simple and high schoolish but men are like over aggressive teenagers that want to please, they like seeing sexy things , thats why porn is a multi billion business. Men enjoy having pleasure , especially visual wise. It makes them feel manly and wanted. When a man feels wanted , then the women has their way with men. Some men are harder to attract because they know these signs and know their status , so the dont be attracted to these women that have these traits down.. For men that are a harder attraction .
They prefer women that less attainable , feminine but knows how to exude cinfience and power, these women are head strong and not flirty, They want the man to pursue them and enjoy the games they play. On the other hand a man who likes to play games , will engage and play along. The other men who are less patient and more stable in their personality , will back off thus causing a friction with alot of women. Women in general. if you want to attract a man. having that sexiness , that flirtiness and that vulnerability , you Will get the protective man, While the other man wants a more dominating, controlling women in their life. You have to observe a mans personality,, If hes dresses manly and looks manly , he a alpha male with testerone ready for action. But if the man is a pretty boy or likes looking cute,, Then he has less testerone and more likely want a controlling and dominating women, For the other men. They want a balanced women that is both smart witty , and cute , but has the courage to tell a man, this is what I want , and if you do it,, we are good, if not, well,, you know whats up. You have to please a women , because if you don't ..the nest guy or man will..and there is plenty of men and women out there ready to play..
Bottomline ;You don't have to play dumb or weak to attract , if anything showcase your sexiness and be confident with men, that's a turn on. Because men do enjoy a challenge and do enjoy showing off their manliness, when a man feels you were worth the chase, they will hold you in higher regard and that's how it should be. Don't make it easy for us men, Because if anything ,, we men like to feel like we accomplished something when hooking up with a girl,, If you make it easy they will lose respect and you might be a one night stand. That alot of men may enjoy but not relationship material,.
Well I hope this helps women or men,, on how to attract men. May you find your own journeys and lessons in life, Because life is a journey and life flies by so fast. I know. I;m past the century mark and counting. and based on the first part of my life. I'm looking forward to many high and low's and joy and pains that come with life, No one is immune to pain and suffering. Treat each day as a lifetime , because you never know when you life is over. Be good to one another and love each other ! We are God's children...
THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @2017
Tuesday, May 9, 2017
How to attract women . Based on life experiences..
How to attract women.. Based on life experiences..
First of all you have to comfortable with your self .What do I mean well you have to dress well , be comfortable in your clothes . How is that done, well you have to be fit and trim.. you have to be well kept with your hair and you have to be pleasant to look at. Not hard right?
Next smile,, it opens the doors to everything, believe, who wants to see a grouchy face or moody one, it calms people and makes them approachability to you, I use it when I go to coffee shops panera bread in fact I received fee coffee and bagels simply by smiling often and making them feel good,,
Which is the next step.. Compliment girls, nothing you can do more than say great things, i mean it must be true,, like I like what you did with your hair, or makeup , I like what your wearing etc.. A girl with vanity or lack of one,will eat it up,,
women are emotional they want to feel you, what do I mean they want to see if your sensitive , or you have thoughtful ideas and phrases, Its all emotional with women, if you can capture their emotion's and heart you own them.. and vice versa if they do that to you, But creating that emotional connection is half the bottle so create it , save it and do it,,
Next is touch them often, on the arm, on the shoulder , hands, the more the better , its showing them your are attracted and you like their touch,, touching just creates a emotional response , so do it often and keep the emotions flowing .. They feel you , they feel you ,compliment them, create that emotional energy,, its over they belong to you,, Just keep it going..
Slow it down huh? Your speech you speak lower and slower and look into their eyes,, its the hook they want. and always remember , always have something to say, they like to listen..and they like to see a confident person talk, it can be about nothing , but be passionate and vocal about it , because they like men that are passionate about what they love or like to do.. Be enthusiastic about your life and hers. Ask questions, if they have a different language learn a few phrases, that will tweak their interest into, well this guy took the time to research how to say phrases,, he is into me.. !!
Your shoes have to be clean and fits your wardrobe, and you hair needs to be fashionable and well kept.. as for coloring,, not too much,, because women are more into seeing well kept hair then seeing different shades of gray or brown..
when you approach them always smile , start small , . then gradually increase the closer you get, even smirks or cute eye contact, makes them flutter with excitement. They like looking into a mans eyes , and especially if you smile at them and speak slowly,, its amazing ow this works,, Try it,,
Always come in with energy , a flair and project your voice, dont mumble or whisper , talk slow but direct and make your point.Don't stutter and don't be unconfident. Women wants a man that has confidence and pride,, and Little cockiness , but they also enjoy a man that shows vulnerable traits as long its not done too much. Be energized and be confident,, Girls will be attracted..
Always have something to say and have fun with the, flirty eyes, smile , a laugh to get their attention,, its all works, I know I have seen it action,, Its a proven thing. Use al of these advices and tips and you will be able to attract all kinds of women , young , old, divorced , engaged confused,, etc. Its a proven system that has worked for me over the years for job interviews , for business meetings , for anything, Women like when they feel special , when they feel attraction to or attention to, Because its a lost art. So go out there, Smile , compliment them , touch their arms or hands, look into their eyes, always smile , small to large, talk slower and have things to say to them.. Come with energy and be playful and fun.. Be neat in appearance and be approachable, be strong and confident, and you will have no issues with women, You will attract a women that is strong minded , knows what she wants and has the desire to go after what she wants.
Last but no least if anything works , keep doing ,what do I mean , if joking alot , or making nice compliments then do it, one thing though don't be a phony, be real and authentic, say things you mean and it sounds sincere. It may take time to master these skills but once you do, speaking , picking up on women will be a easy task. They sound simple , and they are , and women like I said are emotional you have to tap into that emotional vibe, and use it to your advanatage.by using that emotional vibe, you can attract her and win her heart, because women want to be romanced, they want to courted, they want to feel wanted. When they feel that attraction, everything else will fall into place and you will have a=women flirting and wanting to talk to you and hear what you have to say.Its the art of flirting that many people have forgotten how to do because they are caught up with all the social media deals,,
Now you young bloods , or old bloods , go out and have some fun. but remember be comfortable , smile and have things to say and talk slow and smile always. If anything you will get a positive response if you do those things to girls, Because like I said they are emotional and they want to feel that love.. form your heart , your eyes, your touch. Its just the laws of love,, if you want love you have to throw it out there sometimes and let the chips fall .. let love work its wonders..
Until next time,, Have a great day and go out there and enjoy the tips i just gave you..
THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @2017
Monday, May 8, 2017
Farewell to Moreno Valley Warehouse.. Inspired by my dear friends ?...
Farewell to Moreno Valley warehouse . Inspired by my dear friends..?
Once upon a time on Jan 27, 2017 I was hired as a temporary worker , This place is a highly security facility , where customs border patrol agents check and sign the seizures that are confiscated. That first day I met Roger a retired master Chief and someone I respect very much, its funny he gave me a full tour of the place before the morning meeting. It just felt like home.. It really did,, and then I met Greg.. man, this guy is something else,, Even though he's alot younger than me , I respect him alot and to be honest that's a great honor because I don't respect too many people younger than me.Perhaps because of military experience or maybe because I'm a arrogant hard headed retired jerk.. ? Well it comes with the territory.. But anyways the first time I met him and kai, it was an instant attraction, not to sound gay,, But we just clicked,, Man .. we fools used to do tail gating in the parking lot,Whats that? Well its taking out our picnic chairs,.. and putting sun tan lotion on and sitting and talking about nothing. of course listening to country music... I'm not really into it, but like the Navy days,, I pretended.. hm.. I pretended alot in the navy.. It was fun times, we would see our other co workers like Brian.. hah he would look at us , Ike they are crazy ass vets.. I guess you have to be a retard to spend any amount of time in the armed forces,, Its not for everyone,, because it takes alot of dedication to be in an outfit that drains you.. physically emotionally. ok back to the blog.. yea watching gus and ricardo smile at us,, especially looking at roger he taught we were crazy,, oh that one day when Tracy went up to us., we all thought she was going to tell us to stop this ridiculous looking event. But instead she smiled and asked about my picnic rug.. She thought we were praying? Oh well,, then there was the other temps like Eddie spaghetti , quiet cool dude,, and Russell too , it was like one big party,, then there was B... she would stretch in front of us.. to be honest i was little uncomfortable seeing her do that? why. because I notice the other guys staring at her body,, .. but hey , I was too,, so no big deal,, but those were the good days when we got along.... It was cool place to work,, especially when Ivette had her farewell , it was really nice I created a slam book where I described everyone in the warehouse / office I told her not to share it , but she did ,, no hard feelings .. I remember Ricardo coming up to me and saying thanks .. and tried hugging me and I ran way saying I may act gay but I'm not,, I know it was cute ,, anyways? BUT THE HUGS AND KISSES I received from Ivette , man she hugged me tight and many times, in fact she would let go of me,, I didn't mind? Yea .. I'm a man for god' sake ,, hehe, But anyways,, It was nice how britney prepared a great meal,, Girl you can cook, I enjoyed it very much and your very pretty when you put on your pretty face, I think that one day I saw you in a football jersey and you put on that pretty face and I said you look good, I'm not playing you are pretty hot looking girl.. You had me paying afternoon .like I said . I'm a man for God;s sake,, Keep it up.. I really enjoyed the times you bitched about the fridge, I don't mean to laugh, but you can look so serious about that. I mean I feel ya, No one wants stinky food in there , i think I left some old thai food in there please take it out ,, sorry,, I forgot about it. !!
But anyways , Britney I'm gonna miss your quiet and strong demeanor , I wish I could be more like you, maybe in some ways I am.. but I got stereotyped in being the happy guy,, even though deep down inside , I was depressed? Yes.. its funny all of you guys thought he's happy go lucky , but only if you knew my pain,.. Greg , Ricardo and B.... were the few that heard my stories , heard about the heartbreaks , the misery I have been going through, they saw the tears and they all tried to comfort me.maybe I'm not a good friend depending on them to comfort me..Yea,, those 3 spoiled my ass. haha.. But I love them all , or at least I think I do? I mean you don't open to people unless you feel respect and love for them.. Even when they may have said or done bad things to me.. too sensitive,, I was but think we all are too some extent.. I know I'm way too sensitive and way too prideful for my own good. I always think , people need to bow to me. yup I think I'm so perfect, yeah right . My pride has lost many friendships,, I hope greg and ricardo don't lose touch with me because I love those two, they laughed at my dum jokes and weird impressions,, I wanted work to be like a fantasy land.. Because that's what I did .. Now for B.. what can I say,, every time I hurt or was insecure about things, this person stepped up big time. ! And now I realize I blew a good thing , by being too prideful , by being too attentive grabbing and being too dramatic,, I now know that you shouldn't do that to a friend that took time to make me smile , to make me special , to make me feel appreciated. It was real, it was wonderful, but my insecurity , my lack of patience and lack of maturity is why our friendship dissolved and died. ?! We let too many things go un said that finally it just exploded ,, or at least I let it explode,,but one thing is for sure , Thanks for the many hugs , and notes and of course cute smiles and flirty eye contact,, It was something everyone at work noticed and felt. I mean as hard we try to hide it , just look at our eyes. the love , the admiration and the respect was there.. I know you never disrespected me, its just my mind assuming things,, I should of asked you if something was wrong , or let you know certain things were bothering me? My fault, lessons learned for the future ? But anyways . I want to Thank Roger...For mentoring me and just being him, sharing Navy stories,, and gun stories I will always cherish,, we lived and stood the watch in the navy we had common ground and a bond that is unbreakable, I wish you well you deserve it Master Chief ,I respect you and I will miss you very much..
James-- man your a kind soul, a really laid back dude. I dug your vibe, To be honest I wish I could be laid back like you, But I'm too hyper.. But I loved you and Danny Boy,, reading the dear abby stories,, it was a daily ritual you did very well. I will miss you guys so much. I mean.. Its hard to duplicate things like that , but you two did make me feel special,,, The stories and the music knowledge Danny had was amazing. I will always Cherish those times, because its hard to find a place where you feel ..good,, It felt like home and whenever you leave something that was special its gonna hurt and believe me , I felt the love from you guys, Even if was only a few months I felt like I found a place I could finally stay and enjoy my life,, But like anything else in my life it seems nothing last forever, but it did feel like heaven,. I love you guys and always remember me in the good light , not the angry and upset one that left in frustration and confusion. It hurts me to write this , but like anything life, it seems the fondest things in life are hard to keep. Like the love i tried to spread to the office. I never tried to hurt anyone.But then again not everyone likes the Pleaser..
Carmen - Home girl. I really enjoyed singing the old school tunes,, Boys to men , New Edition, Switch.. and our talks about the old days,, remember ,, the garage parties, the pop lock ,, dances and the days when we used to talk to one another . not like now everyone is texting , or face booking or snap chatting, its a crazy world,, who are we? haha,, well I'm gonna miss your stylish dress up and how I would tease you about your clothes or hair, and its funny how we both colored our hair at the end.. I mean,, I know we both were very misunderstood people, but i think you knew better than alot of people in the office,, why? Because we grew up under tough times but we knew how to handle it, because we have the gift of gab, or just being real..I'm gonna miss you home girl.. I know you were misunderstood, but your kind of like me, we both feel things and we don't like to hide our emotions, but its funny how people think we always have to smile,, I know .. you should be professional, true , but when your passionate and emotional and sensitive, we get labeled,, but like you said to me many times,, FHuuyckyy%%^ them.. haha, your so peotic home slice,, Keep you head up and your dreams alive and if anything just think about mele mel and his silly looks or jokes and songs and dances,, If that doesn't make you laugh,, then just think about my silly ass arrogant upper lipped accent,, that would crack you up,, haha.
Tracy - What can I say , your a very good stickler to the rules and you have a great sense of how to run a warehouse and office. Once again I think misunderstood you , but I know how it is to be in charge in the Navy I had to assume a Officers positron because they was not around at the time, So I understand about having things being run properly ,checking data and ensuring safety and other concerns, plus the detail of handling work related issues,sexual harassment , hostile environment , complaints, mistakes , lost items, its a headache that always exist, Its a tough job to do but I can see you have under control. I admire you alot and it was tough to make alot decisions including my deal, Believe me , I hold no hard feelings , I understand its a business and everything has dollars and sense and business sense requirements. But nevertheless , it still was a blow to my ego and pride . Because I thought and everyone else for that matter telling me I got the position . But it was fun doing the interview, a bit strange because I knew you and Roger and you got to see another side of me , you didn't know existed,,My professional certificates and degrees and my experience was overwhelming. I just wish things could of worked out. Because I really loved the office staff.. you , Roger , darren, Gus < ricardo , Richard , carmen , brian .. Britney , Ivette. . it was wonderful, But if anything I want you all of you have fond memories of Mele mel or the Pleaser,,, I did love and care for everyone even it meant taking time away from my life. I worked late to help roger, I did it because I wanted too. thank you Tracy , thank you and if the an opening comes up, who knows right? Thank you and I wish you great success and happiness at the work place I miss already..!!
Ricardo- My pare ko. which mean home boy..friends .. in tagalog,, What can I say about my pare, except i enjoyed your passion for me,, God you tried so hard to get me hired, i should of listened, but I think I was too indecisive, kinda like my twin,, we both shared that quality,, its too bad I wasn't more decisive, but its ok.Perhaps something will come up,, Keep me updated,, ok, Well those talks about life and food, we did lobe those lunched at pinoy food place, and thanks for the buffet that was great I owe you big time,, You did make the office exciting . and I do love attention maybe too much,, I know Tracy didn't like that , I know I need to learn to be more office style, like more reserved,, Perhaps I will learn, pare,, But anyways,, Be cool and keep the office hopping. and stay out of the sun,, ha,,ha, Its a trip your from the islands and your afraid of the sun,, haha, kidding bro,, but I wish you well and I will never forget our talks in the parking lot in the warehouse the texts and phone calls believe me I appreciate it all, It helped me deal wit my issues, Your a great friend I will never foregt you ever..
who else? oh yea. Luis,, amigo the quiet advisor , your a great man, I respect you because you were focused on doing your job and being a family man, That's admirable and I know you think I'm loco loco, crazy ass vet , but you always paid me with great respect. I will always remember your sincere smile and your looks when you saw the crew tailgating in parking lot,, Pinche fools huh/? haha..\
Jaime - you always laughed at Greg and I . called us all the demeaning names , but I know you loved us,, in your own strange way,?? I will remember you always as the elder man that didn't give a shit,, !!Like me in some ways. ? because we lived the life and who the hell is going to tell us other wise, Yup hard headed stubborn old men,, Horny old men,, is what you called us? haha,,
Manny - dude , you a cool dude, I think you think about women too much,, not a good thing because I'm not sure alot of women know what they want? But they do know what they dont like? Well anyways, it was fun, listening to your stories,, You did make me laugh,!! I know I have a sick sense of humor, and at times I was quiet,, and you would say whats wrong? Sometimes CNNneeds to take a break.. But I wish you well,, Your gonna be alright just focus on the job more and improving yourself . You still young enough to achieve what you want to do, You just need to focus ..
Brian- dude you make me laugh especially when Greg and I would sing, you would make those rude comments,, its too bad we couldn't work together I think we would laugh our butts off with our twisted humor,, I still trip out that you have a muscle car , I love the color, we both had black beauty's,,I wish you well and keep the office happy you have a great demeanor that the office likes, I'm gonna miss you running to the warehouse bathroom i did it too,, haha. Good luck and enjoy your life,,always,,
BENZ-- TWIN.. Well what can I say that I havent already said and written, we both know made each other lives happier even for a brief time. it was cool , it was surreal , unreal.. I know everyone at work, tripped out on the two coolest and happiest , cutest , and most helpful and caring people,I know they sensed the love and trust and respect we had or still have? We always wanted the best for one another even though I think we were so insecure about what was happening? which was a special friendship that many at work were so envious and jealous of. I mean we made it look so easy and sweet , sure , It seemed to be too good to be true, and maybe it was, ? Fairy tale, dream like state, I mean how can anyone be so close and trusting of our thoughts , ideas ,our hopes and dreams. I will always cherish the many hugs and kisses and the many smiles and words of encouragement. It Will always be in my heart,, we didn't have to say it, because we felt the love and admiration we had, its was wonderful, and its too bad everything comes to end. I really hoped we would be assets to the office and show our smiles to everyone, But its ok.. everything happens for reason . Despite the quick end, I didn't get to hug and kiss everyone,, but then again I hate good byes,, and perhaps its better this way,,No not really, I wanted too see everyone smile and cry, ?!/ well take care of your family and special someone,, and always think of the great times we had, the laughs the jokes the high fives, the singing and dancing , the weird comments and of course the too many similar events? It was short lived but I will always cherish every moment and I thank God , whatever reason, you helped me grow up and get me back on track on focused and being Mele Mel, he was hidden for months until I got to this place, Thank you and may God Bless you and your family and never forget that we are twins, no matter how hard I try to forget or run away or think otherwise ?? Take care and if you get sad , think about my many jokes or lousy singing with Greg ,, haha, or the gay talk,, okaay,, haha Farewell and Take Care my friend, I believe our paths will cross again??!!
GREG- MY BROTHER FROM ANOTHER MOTHER,, what can I say about my male twin, we both did sports n high school ran cross country we wrestled, we attention seekers, we both love music, we both love to sing and dance, i bet tracy has many tapes of us doing weird stuff, yes we are buffoons ,but lovable, I will remember the long talks at lunch and at breaks, it was cool watching you hit the boxing mitts in the parking lot and listening to music, sitting in each others car going to lunch, i still remember paying for your car wash, or going to walmart to buy oil for your car. Man that was fun. I'm gonna miss you man, I know I kept saying it, but it finally happened and I didn't get a chance to say good bye to everyone, I so wanted to see everyone smile and cry ,, Because I wanted to make a final speech, but its ok, I will make a final blog to you guys, be sure to share with everyone.. Because I already miss you guys, The laughs the jokes , our silly comments, so funny? Some maybe not , I;m sorry to everyone had to endure it . We felt we had to make a statement every time we walked in the office , I know Roger tripped out on us.. Well brother from another brother, always cherish our moments because what we had or did cant be duplicated, we had a special bond and friendship that I know is life long and though our time at work was brief and fast I will always cherish the many great talks we had and the lessons we taught one another, man,, bro I'm gonna miss you alot, it might sound gay and I don't care,, but I love you man,, we shared s many great times I know we helped each other deal with the stress of life, we both helped us,, get through daily events, I wish you well in your fitness goals, go for it bro and I want to attend as many events possible before this old ass man kicks the bucket,, yea, this old guy is going to live forever, oh. I wish.. I don't eat enough or rest enough or sleep enough to live a long life, Plus I worry too much , to live a peaceful long life, just saying. Ok,,well I think that's everybody that mattered,, Take care bro,, Brothers for life!!
Well that's my farewell speech to my workers, I hope you all loved it and I will miss you and Love you guys forever! Mele mel goal is to spread happiness to God's children!!
THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS@2017..
Once upon a time on Jan 27, 2017 I was hired as a temporary worker , This place is a highly security facility , where customs border patrol agents check and sign the seizures that are confiscated. That first day I met Roger a retired master Chief and someone I respect very much, its funny he gave me a full tour of the place before the morning meeting. It just felt like home.. It really did,, and then I met Greg.. man, this guy is something else,, Even though he's alot younger than me , I respect him alot and to be honest that's a great honor because I don't respect too many people younger than me.Perhaps because of military experience or maybe because I'm a arrogant hard headed retired jerk.. ? Well it comes with the territory.. But anyways the first time I met him and kai, it was an instant attraction, not to sound gay,, But we just clicked,, Man .. we fools used to do tail gating in the parking lot,Whats that? Well its taking out our picnic chairs,.. and putting sun tan lotion on and sitting and talking about nothing. of course listening to country music... I'm not really into it, but like the Navy days,, I pretended.. hm.. I pretended alot in the navy.. It was fun times, we would see our other co workers like Brian.. hah he would look at us , Ike they are crazy ass vets.. I guess you have to be a retard to spend any amount of time in the armed forces,, Its not for everyone,, because it takes alot of dedication to be in an outfit that drains you.. physically emotionally. ok back to the blog.. yea watching gus and ricardo smile at us,, especially looking at roger he taught we were crazy,, oh that one day when Tracy went up to us., we all thought she was going to tell us to stop this ridiculous looking event. But instead she smiled and asked about my picnic rug.. She thought we were praying? Oh well,, then there was the other temps like Eddie spaghetti , quiet cool dude,, and Russell too , it was like one big party,, then there was B... she would stretch in front of us.. to be honest i was little uncomfortable seeing her do that? why. because I notice the other guys staring at her body,, .. but hey , I was too,, so no big deal,, but those were the good days when we got along.... It was cool place to work,, especially when Ivette had her farewell , it was really nice I created a slam book where I described everyone in the warehouse / office I told her not to share it , but she did ,, no hard feelings .. I remember Ricardo coming up to me and saying thanks .. and tried hugging me and I ran way saying I may act gay but I'm not,, I know it was cute ,, anyways? BUT THE HUGS AND KISSES I received from Ivette , man she hugged me tight and many times, in fact she would let go of me,, I didn't mind? Yea .. I'm a man for god' sake ,, hehe, But anyways,, It was nice how britney prepared a great meal,, Girl you can cook, I enjoyed it very much and your very pretty when you put on your pretty face, I think that one day I saw you in a football jersey and you put on that pretty face and I said you look good, I'm not playing you are pretty hot looking girl.. You had me paying afternoon .like I said . I'm a man for God;s sake,, Keep it up.. I really enjoyed the times you bitched about the fridge, I don't mean to laugh, but you can look so serious about that. I mean I feel ya, No one wants stinky food in there , i think I left some old thai food in there please take it out ,, sorry,, I forgot about it. !!
But anyways , Britney I'm gonna miss your quiet and strong demeanor , I wish I could be more like you, maybe in some ways I am.. but I got stereotyped in being the happy guy,, even though deep down inside , I was depressed? Yes.. its funny all of you guys thought he's happy go lucky , but only if you knew my pain,.. Greg , Ricardo and B.... were the few that heard my stories , heard about the heartbreaks , the misery I have been going through, they saw the tears and they all tried to comfort me.maybe I'm not a good friend depending on them to comfort me..Yea,, those 3 spoiled my ass. haha.. But I love them all , or at least I think I do? I mean you don't open to people unless you feel respect and love for them.. Even when they may have said or done bad things to me.. too sensitive,, I was but think we all are too some extent.. I know I'm way too sensitive and way too prideful for my own good. I always think , people need to bow to me. yup I think I'm so perfect, yeah right . My pride has lost many friendships,, I hope greg and ricardo don't lose touch with me because I love those two, they laughed at my dum jokes and weird impressions,, I wanted work to be like a fantasy land.. Because that's what I did .. Now for B.. what can I say,, every time I hurt or was insecure about things, this person stepped up big time. ! And now I realize I blew a good thing , by being too prideful , by being too attentive grabbing and being too dramatic,, I now know that you shouldn't do that to a friend that took time to make me smile , to make me special , to make me feel appreciated. It was real, it was wonderful, but my insecurity , my lack of patience and lack of maturity is why our friendship dissolved and died. ?! We let too many things go un said that finally it just exploded ,, or at least I let it explode,,but one thing is for sure , Thanks for the many hugs , and notes and of course cute smiles and flirty eye contact,, It was something everyone at work noticed and felt. I mean as hard we try to hide it , just look at our eyes. the love , the admiration and the respect was there.. I know you never disrespected me, its just my mind assuming things,, I should of asked you if something was wrong , or let you know certain things were bothering me? My fault, lessons learned for the future ? But anyways . I want to Thank Roger...For mentoring me and just being him, sharing Navy stories,, and gun stories I will always cherish,, we lived and stood the watch in the navy we had common ground and a bond that is unbreakable, I wish you well you deserve it Master Chief ,I respect you and I will miss you very much..
James-- man your a kind soul, a really laid back dude. I dug your vibe, To be honest I wish I could be laid back like you, But I'm too hyper.. But I loved you and Danny Boy,, reading the dear abby stories,, it was a daily ritual you did very well. I will miss you guys so much. I mean.. Its hard to duplicate things like that , but you two did make me feel special,,, The stories and the music knowledge Danny had was amazing. I will always Cherish those times, because its hard to find a place where you feel ..good,, It felt like home and whenever you leave something that was special its gonna hurt and believe me , I felt the love from you guys, Even if was only a few months I felt like I found a place I could finally stay and enjoy my life,, But like anything else in my life it seems nothing last forever, but it did feel like heaven,. I love you guys and always remember me in the good light , not the angry and upset one that left in frustration and confusion. It hurts me to write this , but like anything life, it seems the fondest things in life are hard to keep. Like the love i tried to spread to the office. I never tried to hurt anyone.But then again not everyone likes the Pleaser..
Carmen - Home girl. I really enjoyed singing the old school tunes,, Boys to men , New Edition, Switch.. and our talks about the old days,, remember ,, the garage parties, the pop lock ,, dances and the days when we used to talk to one another . not like now everyone is texting , or face booking or snap chatting, its a crazy world,, who are we? haha,, well I'm gonna miss your stylish dress up and how I would tease you about your clothes or hair, and its funny how we both colored our hair at the end.. I mean,, I know we both were very misunderstood people, but i think you knew better than alot of people in the office,, why? Because we grew up under tough times but we knew how to handle it, because we have the gift of gab, or just being real..I'm gonna miss you home girl.. I know you were misunderstood, but your kind of like me, we both feel things and we don't like to hide our emotions, but its funny how people think we always have to smile,, I know .. you should be professional, true , but when your passionate and emotional and sensitive, we get labeled,, but like you said to me many times,, FHuuyckyy%%^ them.. haha, your so peotic home slice,, Keep you head up and your dreams alive and if anything just think about mele mel and his silly looks or jokes and songs and dances,, If that doesn't make you laugh,, then just think about my silly ass arrogant upper lipped accent,, that would crack you up,, haha.
Tracy - What can I say , your a very good stickler to the rules and you have a great sense of how to run a warehouse and office. Once again I think misunderstood you , but I know how it is to be in charge in the Navy I had to assume a Officers positron because they was not around at the time, So I understand about having things being run properly ,checking data and ensuring safety and other concerns, plus the detail of handling work related issues,sexual harassment , hostile environment , complaints, mistakes , lost items, its a headache that always exist, Its a tough job to do but I can see you have under control. I admire you alot and it was tough to make alot decisions including my deal, Believe me , I hold no hard feelings , I understand its a business and everything has dollars and sense and business sense requirements. But nevertheless , it still was a blow to my ego and pride . Because I thought and everyone else for that matter telling me I got the position . But it was fun doing the interview, a bit strange because I knew you and Roger and you got to see another side of me , you didn't know existed,,My professional certificates and degrees and my experience was overwhelming. I just wish things could of worked out. Because I really loved the office staff.. you , Roger , darren, Gus < ricardo , Richard , carmen , brian .. Britney , Ivette. . it was wonderful, But if anything I want you all of you have fond memories of Mele mel or the Pleaser,,, I did love and care for everyone even it meant taking time away from my life. I worked late to help roger, I did it because I wanted too. thank you Tracy , thank you and if the an opening comes up, who knows right? Thank you and I wish you great success and happiness at the work place I miss already..!!
Ricardo- My pare ko. which mean home boy..friends .. in tagalog,, What can I say about my pare, except i enjoyed your passion for me,, God you tried so hard to get me hired, i should of listened, but I think I was too indecisive, kinda like my twin,, we both shared that quality,, its too bad I wasn't more decisive, but its ok.Perhaps something will come up,, Keep me updated,, ok, Well those talks about life and food, we did lobe those lunched at pinoy food place, and thanks for the buffet that was great I owe you big time,, You did make the office exciting . and I do love attention maybe too much,, I know Tracy didn't like that , I know I need to learn to be more office style, like more reserved,, Perhaps I will learn, pare,, But anyways,, Be cool and keep the office hopping. and stay out of the sun,, ha,,ha, Its a trip your from the islands and your afraid of the sun,, haha, kidding bro,, but I wish you well and I will never forget our talks in the parking lot in the warehouse the texts and phone calls believe me I appreciate it all, It helped me deal wit my issues, Your a great friend I will never foregt you ever..
who else? oh yea. Luis,, amigo the quiet advisor , your a great man, I respect you because you were focused on doing your job and being a family man, That's admirable and I know you think I'm loco loco, crazy ass vet , but you always paid me with great respect. I will always remember your sincere smile and your looks when you saw the crew tailgating in parking lot,, Pinche fools huh/? haha..\
Jaime - you always laughed at Greg and I . called us all the demeaning names , but I know you loved us,, in your own strange way,?? I will remember you always as the elder man that didn't give a shit,, !!Like me in some ways. ? because we lived the life and who the hell is going to tell us other wise, Yup hard headed stubborn old men,, Horny old men,, is what you called us? haha,,
Manny - dude , you a cool dude, I think you think about women too much,, not a good thing because I'm not sure alot of women know what they want? But they do know what they dont like? Well anyways, it was fun, listening to your stories,, You did make me laugh,!! I know I have a sick sense of humor, and at times I was quiet,, and you would say whats wrong? Sometimes CNNneeds to take a break.. But I wish you well,, Your gonna be alright just focus on the job more and improving yourself . You still young enough to achieve what you want to do, You just need to focus ..
Brian- dude you make me laugh especially when Greg and I would sing, you would make those rude comments,, its too bad we couldn't work together I think we would laugh our butts off with our twisted humor,, I still trip out that you have a muscle car , I love the color, we both had black beauty's,,I wish you well and keep the office happy you have a great demeanor that the office likes, I'm gonna miss you running to the warehouse bathroom i did it too,, haha. Good luck and enjoy your life,,always,,
BENZ-- TWIN.. Well what can I say that I havent already said and written, we both know made each other lives happier even for a brief time. it was cool , it was surreal , unreal.. I know everyone at work, tripped out on the two coolest and happiest , cutest , and most helpful and caring people,I know they sensed the love and trust and respect we had or still have? We always wanted the best for one another even though I think we were so insecure about what was happening? which was a special friendship that many at work were so envious and jealous of. I mean we made it look so easy and sweet , sure , It seemed to be too good to be true, and maybe it was, ? Fairy tale, dream like state, I mean how can anyone be so close and trusting of our thoughts , ideas ,our hopes and dreams. I will always cherish the many hugs and kisses and the many smiles and words of encouragement. It Will always be in my heart,, we didn't have to say it, because we felt the love and admiration we had, its was wonderful, and its too bad everything comes to end. I really hoped we would be assets to the office and show our smiles to everyone, But its ok.. everything happens for reason . Despite the quick end, I didn't get to hug and kiss everyone,, but then again I hate good byes,, and perhaps its better this way,,No not really, I wanted too see everyone smile and cry, ?!/ well take care of your family and special someone,, and always think of the great times we had, the laughs the jokes the high fives, the singing and dancing , the weird comments and of course the too many similar events? It was short lived but I will always cherish every moment and I thank God , whatever reason, you helped me grow up and get me back on track on focused and being Mele Mel, he was hidden for months until I got to this place, Thank you and may God Bless you and your family and never forget that we are twins, no matter how hard I try to forget or run away or think otherwise ?? Take care and if you get sad , think about my many jokes or lousy singing with Greg ,, haha, or the gay talk,, okaay,, haha Farewell and Take Care my friend, I believe our paths will cross again??!!
GREG- MY BROTHER FROM ANOTHER MOTHER,, what can I say about my male twin, we both did sports n high school ran cross country we wrestled, we attention seekers, we both love music, we both love to sing and dance, i bet tracy has many tapes of us doing weird stuff, yes we are buffoons ,but lovable, I will remember the long talks at lunch and at breaks, it was cool watching you hit the boxing mitts in the parking lot and listening to music, sitting in each others car going to lunch, i still remember paying for your car wash, or going to walmart to buy oil for your car. Man that was fun. I'm gonna miss you man, I know I kept saying it, but it finally happened and I didn't get a chance to say good bye to everyone, I so wanted to see everyone smile and cry ,, Because I wanted to make a final speech, but its ok, I will make a final blog to you guys, be sure to share with everyone.. Because I already miss you guys, The laughs the jokes , our silly comments, so funny? Some maybe not , I;m sorry to everyone had to endure it . We felt we had to make a statement every time we walked in the office , I know Roger tripped out on us.. Well brother from another brother, always cherish our moments because what we had or did cant be duplicated, we had a special bond and friendship that I know is life long and though our time at work was brief and fast I will always cherish the many great talks we had and the lessons we taught one another, man,, bro I'm gonna miss you alot, it might sound gay and I don't care,, but I love you man,, we shared s many great times I know we helped each other deal with the stress of life, we both helped us,, get through daily events, I wish you well in your fitness goals, go for it bro and I want to attend as many events possible before this old ass man kicks the bucket,, yea, this old guy is going to live forever, oh. I wish.. I don't eat enough or rest enough or sleep enough to live a long life, Plus I worry too much , to live a peaceful long life, just saying. Ok,,well I think that's everybody that mattered,, Take care bro,, Brothers for life!!
Well that's my farewell speech to my workers, I hope you all loved it and I will miss you and Love you guys forever! Mele mel goal is to spread happiness to God's children!!
THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS@2017..
Sunday, May 7, 2017
THE ROCK CHURCH TEMECULA VALLEY- INSPIRED BY GREG AND JOANNY!!
THE ROCK CHURCH TEMECULA VALLEY - INSPIRED BY GREG AND JOANNY!!
Well I want to thank you Greg and Joanny for inviting me to attend your church. I must admit , I was nervous and even scared to go? I mean , I have been going through alot.. ??But I took the big step and attended. It was great to see them in the parking lot , they greeted me with big smiles and hugs,, of course i was over dressed. I haven't figured out what to wear sometimes.. But anyways, we go in and I meet Greg's sister , and her husband and another family Friend.. So we went in and sat down at first , I was next to joannny but later switched to siting next to Greg.. Well anyways,, the church setting is very relaxed and you can feel the love.. The singing is what got me,, I felt the emotions and feelings of the songs they sang. I felt good and uplifted with their songs.. It was awesome,,
Now to the lessons learned. " The Power of Mercy - and that God can use anybody..."
Well it went something like this , Never forget its all because of God's Mercy! You have to be authentic. Remember its not about me! , so how true that was when I heard it.. and the 2 things that happen when you forget its not about you:
1) Going to get bitter from my problems ..
2) Going to get prideful from blessings..
In other word God is interested in your motivation than your methods, ok,, I got that , why did you do those things, did you do it because you want to famous , you want to be a celebrity? , did you do it because you want approval,, did you do it because your so insecure , that buying treats for the work place is your way to make you feel appreciated and love? Thats not a true motivation, you should do things because you want to share good feelings you have, you have God's love.. I mean we should do things because we want to share GOD'S love with his children.. We are all children of God.. We should love one another , but I know some people cant accept Gods love or kindness. so they shun you.. It hurts but I realize that some people just cant accept kindness or true love , because they have been hurt before or they fear they will be hurt. Make sense?
On humility.. Humility is not denying your strength.. My take , be prideful of your talents and if you do share them , be open and honest with them, for me I 'm very good at boxing martial arts an when I teach people I feel enlightened think about it m when you teach someone something they look at you different , they look to you as a teacher , preacher , its not ego boosting , but its tremendous fulfillment when your able to share your skills and talents.. am I right. False humility is when you say I'm not good at something , then you show off anyway,,That way people look at you as a faker , a teaser, and phony,, In other words you have to true , and be authentic.. Make sense?
Humility is being honest about your weakness.. My take is don't be afraid of talking about your weakness.. like for me , I have the tendency to hold things in instead of letting it out at the time of the events. That's why I freak out when I let these things stay bottled in,.. But I will learn how to speak out my mind when something happens.. I need to fix it now because its making me tired . when I keep holding things in,, It keeps me up when i keep things to myself,, Its a weakness I need to work on.
Another lessson I learned from today's sermon . is " Use my pain to help others." ,,how true that is, I used to help many young people in the navy when they hurt about being lonely , or being heart broken, or being disappointed, and every time I helped a shipmate or Marine, survive the moment,, it made me feel good.. Its god's way to help each other.. We are God's children.. We should help one another , but I also know ego's , and pride can interfere with relationships,.. and it shouldn't be that way? But I know that helping others is like releasing your own pain you had. your helping them know , that I feel your pain I was there and I got through it and I Will help you get through it.. That's a great feelimg to know that others have pain and we all have to deal with problems. For me, I always put on a smile and joke around, maybe too much and I know people must wonder how can this guy who has seen death , destruction , killings, accidents , misery and yet I still smile and be happy ! I know people enjoy that , like Greg,my brother from another mother, together at work, we laugh , we sing and dance and show happiness.. Sure it might look gay or awkward. But its our way to deal with the many issues and problem's we have dealt with. I really believe God works in mysterious ways,, and I cherish our bond and friendship,, and of course Joanny is a sweet heart , My goodness I appreciate what you do, I have bombarded you with all my stuff and to your credit , you held off judgment.. until you heard it all? But sometimes things just have to be played out.. ? Both of them have taught me .. that be kind to those that are true to you and be true to those that love you! I know God is great because I have 2 of the best friends I can ever have..
As the sermon went on I learned about the 3 kinds of suffering :
1) Suffering because of my poor choices ,,My take is that you knew the things you were getting into , was going to lead to heartbreak.. Am I right? Like you know that girl is bad for you , but because she is giving u attention , You go for it and then when it fails,, sure your hurt , but deep down inside you knew.. but regardless you suffered needlessly by engaging n that relationship? But we are suckers to attention or ego o=boosting.. ? Am I right?
2) Suffering because of someone else choices.. My take is here is when feel suffering based on other people choices you are empathizing with them , which is ok, but hen you let it affect your life too much. Its unhealthy suffering. Everyone makes choices and no matter how hard you try to help them , if they make the mistake,,, they must learn form it ,,But people like me, tend to feel guilty that I didn't do enough for them.. But I now know you cant feel guilt because someone suffered based on their poor choices,, We as a friend can only do so much which is true and something I learned today... Let things go and let people live their lives and if it hurts them. so be it..at least you tried.. You did your best!
3) Suffering where you chose to put up with pain and problems in order to help others ..When you put up with peoples actions or hurtful statements because we feel comfortable with one another.. that's why we dump on each other and because we love them or we think we do, we put up with the harsh treatment.. even though taking those hurtful words and actions is actually killing ourselves, emotionally and physically.. Don't allow anyone to do that. Pray for them and wish them well , but you need to let things go.. I know its hard to do, but sometimes people need time and space to heal themselves and recover. That's something that took a lifetime to finally understand,, ? At times letting people go is just a way for the both of you to heal and grow, and through time, if you guys return , it means it was meant to be..
Make sense? Ok.. as the sermon went on Stay focused on Eternity!! All the problems we have faced in our lives , is nothing compared to living in eternity. This is where I broke down, God places us or puts us in many trials and tribulations, because he knows you will become stronger and use each event as a growing pains as signs that you can survive anything. I know each test ..I have gone through it seems it gets tougher and tougher , and my faith gets tested . and though I want to quit. I never do, and each time I overcome the issues I feel closer to God, even though temptations are always around . Its takes tremendous strength to fight evil and to fight deceit and horrible thoughts, But I have survived and become stronger , even though it looks like I'm gonna fail.. The idea that heaven exist and that peace and harmony will be our by being patient.. Is a wonderful idea we all must think about? In other words don't dwell on the bad times , because they last a moment ,its the thought of eternal life, that should guide us to be happy and share happiness to others. My heart feels better when I share happiness instead of hate,and when i heard these words, I broke down crying, and the more I tried to control it or stop it ,, It became a waterfall .. of tears. MY god,, My dear friends Joanny and Greg are wonderful,, they patted my head and back and kept me somewhat composed, the church staff was so helpful and thoughtful they gave me tissues for my waterfall of tears,, But as hurting as it was to cry my eyes out, it was also soul searching and revealing that I have neglected God for so long and I was thinking I could deal with the issues by myself. But I now know I need people and support in my life..
The final lesson from the sermon.. " The key to staying focused : Small groups.. My take on this is that there is strength in number . when you have 2 people on your side , you can fight back to back , if you have 3 on your side.. you can fight even better. I know I have the best of friends in Greg and Joanny , they have been so supportive of me , and guiding me to be a better person. I know they have differing opinions about what I should do? But I respect them both very much, and they have encouraged me to better myself and focus on whats important in my life. Like my family , my dear friends , the job, my future,, I now know that I have true friends for life..I really believe that and my deal with twin flame connection.. We both know how we feel and we both know whats best , and I know God has a plan for everything and we meet people for reason. I feel blessed that I had connections with people.. and those that have helped me I love you very much and those that are still with me. I love you very much too..
I had a wonderful time and I thank God I was able to release my tears and feelings of guilt , and pain and misery I have been feeling and from this day on I want all of you to find time to talk to God and release your guilt or pain and also stay with people that make you feel good. Mind games, drama , or or insecure thoughts an actions is unhealthy and unproductive,Like I said , Pray for them , wish them well , but let them go,, Its for the best. If they recover .. maybe that friendship can come back together , but if not,, Then reach out to those that are true to you. have a great day and I hope you liked the lessons learned from the New church I call home now.!!
THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @2017
Well I want to thank you Greg and Joanny for inviting me to attend your church. I must admit , I was nervous and even scared to go? I mean , I have been going through alot.. ??But I took the big step and attended. It was great to see them in the parking lot , they greeted me with big smiles and hugs,, of course i was over dressed. I haven't figured out what to wear sometimes.. But anyways, we go in and I meet Greg's sister , and her husband and another family Friend.. So we went in and sat down at first , I was next to joannny but later switched to siting next to Greg.. Well anyways,, the church setting is very relaxed and you can feel the love.. The singing is what got me,, I felt the emotions and feelings of the songs they sang. I felt good and uplifted with their songs.. It was awesome,,
Now to the lessons learned. " The Power of Mercy - and that God can use anybody..."
Well it went something like this , Never forget its all because of God's Mercy! You have to be authentic. Remember its not about me! , so how true that was when I heard it.. and the 2 things that happen when you forget its not about you:
1) Going to get bitter from my problems ..
2) Going to get prideful from blessings..
In other word God is interested in your motivation than your methods, ok,, I got that , why did you do those things, did you do it because you want to famous , you want to be a celebrity? , did you do it because you want approval,, did you do it because your so insecure , that buying treats for the work place is your way to make you feel appreciated and love? Thats not a true motivation, you should do things because you want to share good feelings you have, you have God's love.. I mean we should do things because we want to share GOD'S love with his children.. We are all children of God.. We should love one another , but I know some people cant accept Gods love or kindness. so they shun you.. It hurts but I realize that some people just cant accept kindness or true love , because they have been hurt before or they fear they will be hurt. Make sense?
On humility.. Humility is not denying your strength.. My take , be prideful of your talents and if you do share them , be open and honest with them, for me I 'm very good at boxing martial arts an when I teach people I feel enlightened think about it m when you teach someone something they look at you different , they look to you as a teacher , preacher , its not ego boosting , but its tremendous fulfillment when your able to share your skills and talents.. am I right. False humility is when you say I'm not good at something , then you show off anyway,,That way people look at you as a faker , a teaser, and phony,, In other words you have to true , and be authentic.. Make sense?
Humility is being honest about your weakness.. My take is don't be afraid of talking about your weakness.. like for me , I have the tendency to hold things in instead of letting it out at the time of the events. That's why I freak out when I let these things stay bottled in,.. But I will learn how to speak out my mind when something happens.. I need to fix it now because its making me tired . when I keep holding things in,, It keeps me up when i keep things to myself,, Its a weakness I need to work on.
Another lessson I learned from today's sermon . is " Use my pain to help others." ,,how true that is, I used to help many young people in the navy when they hurt about being lonely , or being heart broken, or being disappointed, and every time I helped a shipmate or Marine, survive the moment,, it made me feel good.. Its god's way to help each other.. We are God's children.. We should help one another , but I also know ego's , and pride can interfere with relationships,.. and it shouldn't be that way? But I know that helping others is like releasing your own pain you had. your helping them know , that I feel your pain I was there and I got through it and I Will help you get through it.. That's a great feelimg to know that others have pain and we all have to deal with problems. For me, I always put on a smile and joke around, maybe too much and I know people must wonder how can this guy who has seen death , destruction , killings, accidents , misery and yet I still smile and be happy ! I know people enjoy that , like Greg,my brother from another mother, together at work, we laugh , we sing and dance and show happiness.. Sure it might look gay or awkward. But its our way to deal with the many issues and problem's we have dealt with. I really believe God works in mysterious ways,, and I cherish our bond and friendship,, and of course Joanny is a sweet heart , My goodness I appreciate what you do, I have bombarded you with all my stuff and to your credit , you held off judgment.. until you heard it all? But sometimes things just have to be played out.. ? Both of them have taught me .. that be kind to those that are true to you and be true to those that love you! I know God is great because I have 2 of the best friends I can ever have..
As the sermon went on I learned about the 3 kinds of suffering :
1) Suffering because of my poor choices ,,My take is that you knew the things you were getting into , was going to lead to heartbreak.. Am I right? Like you know that girl is bad for you , but because she is giving u attention , You go for it and then when it fails,, sure your hurt , but deep down inside you knew.. but regardless you suffered needlessly by engaging n that relationship? But we are suckers to attention or ego o=boosting.. ? Am I right?
2) Suffering because of someone else choices.. My take is here is when feel suffering based on other people choices you are empathizing with them , which is ok, but hen you let it affect your life too much. Its unhealthy suffering. Everyone makes choices and no matter how hard you try to help them , if they make the mistake,,, they must learn form it ,,But people like me, tend to feel guilty that I didn't do enough for them.. But I now know you cant feel guilt because someone suffered based on their poor choices,, We as a friend can only do so much which is true and something I learned today... Let things go and let people live their lives and if it hurts them. so be it..at least you tried.. You did your best!
3) Suffering where you chose to put up with pain and problems in order to help others ..When you put up with peoples actions or hurtful statements because we feel comfortable with one another.. that's why we dump on each other and because we love them or we think we do, we put up with the harsh treatment.. even though taking those hurtful words and actions is actually killing ourselves, emotionally and physically.. Don't allow anyone to do that. Pray for them and wish them well , but you need to let things go.. I know its hard to do, but sometimes people need time and space to heal themselves and recover. That's something that took a lifetime to finally understand,, ? At times letting people go is just a way for the both of you to heal and grow, and through time, if you guys return , it means it was meant to be..
Make sense? Ok.. as the sermon went on Stay focused on Eternity!! All the problems we have faced in our lives , is nothing compared to living in eternity. This is where I broke down, God places us or puts us in many trials and tribulations, because he knows you will become stronger and use each event as a growing pains as signs that you can survive anything. I know each test ..I have gone through it seems it gets tougher and tougher , and my faith gets tested . and though I want to quit. I never do, and each time I overcome the issues I feel closer to God, even though temptations are always around . Its takes tremendous strength to fight evil and to fight deceit and horrible thoughts, But I have survived and become stronger , even though it looks like I'm gonna fail.. The idea that heaven exist and that peace and harmony will be our by being patient.. Is a wonderful idea we all must think about? In other words don't dwell on the bad times , because they last a moment ,its the thought of eternal life, that should guide us to be happy and share happiness to others. My heart feels better when I share happiness instead of hate,and when i heard these words, I broke down crying, and the more I tried to control it or stop it ,, It became a waterfall .. of tears. MY god,, My dear friends Joanny and Greg are wonderful,, they patted my head and back and kept me somewhat composed, the church staff was so helpful and thoughtful they gave me tissues for my waterfall of tears,, But as hurting as it was to cry my eyes out, it was also soul searching and revealing that I have neglected God for so long and I was thinking I could deal with the issues by myself. But I now know I need people and support in my life..
The final lesson from the sermon.. " The key to staying focused : Small groups.. My take on this is that there is strength in number . when you have 2 people on your side , you can fight back to back , if you have 3 on your side.. you can fight even better. I know I have the best of friends in Greg and Joanny , they have been so supportive of me , and guiding me to be a better person. I know they have differing opinions about what I should do? But I respect them both very much, and they have encouraged me to better myself and focus on whats important in my life. Like my family , my dear friends , the job, my future,, I now know that I have true friends for life..I really believe that and my deal with twin flame connection.. We both know how we feel and we both know whats best , and I know God has a plan for everything and we meet people for reason. I feel blessed that I had connections with people.. and those that have helped me I love you very much and those that are still with me. I love you very much too..
I had a wonderful time and I thank God I was able to release my tears and feelings of guilt , and pain and misery I have been feeling and from this day on I want all of you to find time to talk to God and release your guilt or pain and also stay with people that make you feel good. Mind games, drama , or or insecure thoughts an actions is unhealthy and unproductive,Like I said , Pray for them , wish them well , but let them go,, Its for the best. If they recover .. maybe that friendship can come back together , but if not,, Then reach out to those that are true to you. have a great day and I hope you liked the lessons learned from the New church I call home now.!!
THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @2017
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