What kind of Girl can hang with me? Inspired by life...
What kind of girl can hang with me.. To be honest I really think theres very few girls that can be with me. I'm a laid back guy, but also a guy who is a social butterfly. I love to meet all kinds of people. I'm the type of guy when you first meet me,I make you feel I've know you forever.. But some girls and guys take it as a hit , or flirting? A curse? A blessing ! Or just a guy who feels he needs to meet people and make an impression. I'm sensitive and overly proud. I feel like I'm a King , like my Zodiac sign Leo the Lion. I feel like I'm King of the Jungle. The life of the party.. If your a girl that can handle that challenge.. then your in.. One thing you cant be,,is be too quiet , or too old fashioned. You have to be with it, You have to be able to handle all situation.. You can be possessive , or too jealous, because I'm a flirt ? A friendly person, but it just harmless fun. But if you cant handle the attention I get or desire , then you cant be with me.. Am I afraid of being alone? Hell yeah, But I rather be a owner of a lonely heart than owners of broken hearts. Believe me I have had my heart broken by lesbians, quiet girls , loud and mean girls, white , black , Latin , Asian.. you name it, I have been hurt. But if anything I'm honest , maybe too honest.. But its the way I am.. and to the many women I have hurt or the ones that I have hurt. Its all good and I forgive you..Because life is a journey , we are all looking or searching for happiness. At times we feel , we found it and other times we are just fooled but infatuation or the sense of a new relationship. Am I right.. Anything new always feels good, A new Car , new clothes.. But as time goes by... You realize the girl isn't what you thought? To me..I;m happy with my Friends males and females, Its hard sometimes to deal with life , but I know that just be yourself and enjoy life,, Because time flies by so fast.
Back to the blog. The girl in my life has to be spiritual , needs to believe in destiny and faith, the girl I want has to be happy to her herself..If shes flirty, if she's happy then show it.. What about the bad moods, or the bipolar events? To me.. If you really love and care for a person, you accept them for what they are. If they are social,, you let the be.Because I learned that trying to change someone, or changing for someone is not only fake , but insincere, and besides why be something your not. Like Me.. I have to be the life of the party the talker ,, the gift of gab .. Its me. For anyone, wife, girl friend , whatever , tries to change you, Is a waste of time, because your denying your true self, I learned that the best way to be happy is to be authentic, be real. That way your not surprising anyone and no one feels faked out. As life goes on. I now know I will be myself, and be Mele Mel.. even if it means a end to relationships , friendships,, I don't need people that are angry and resentful towards me. Because, no one is perfect. God knows,,, How I am. but if he can forgive me.. Why cant the others in my life,, do the same? But I'm good now , I'm not afraid of anything anymore,, I want to be happy , because happiness or true happiness is really hard to find and finding that special someone is really a treasure hunt. I hope that everyone reading this blog finds it,, Because its rare and I hope and pray I find that happiness I deserve, because to be honest its tough living life right knowing I'm just living each day .. wondering about things. But I put on my happy face and do my job and pray that God is guiding me , because its tough to live life alone? But if there is a girl that has the sparking personality and is not jealous and not envious or resentful about things I cant take back .. Then I welcome that girl in my life and God knows I will treat you like a queen.. Because being hated and resented has been the hardest thing to deal with. The pain and misery I'm feeling is unfair and I deserve better. But I will take care of boys and hope and pray the pain I'm going through Will soon fade away, and I will find true happiness, and if this gets back to that special someone,,, I just want to say. Its time to move on and I'm ready to let you go. if that's whats best for us.. Because living in limbo has been the most degrading , disgusting and painful thing I have felt.?
My lesson is this, Don't let anyone dictate how you live your life if they hate you or break you down, why bother with that bitch or asshole.. The best thing is move on and find someone that will not hold grudges or resent you and make you happy.. Because life is too short to try to change someones mind.. One thing is true girls know what they want and once they decided on you its over.. The problem Nice guys with egos and sensitive personality think they can resolve things. Because I have most of my life,, But its hard to fix something that has been broken too many times.. Yes, there is a point of no return, when the heart has been hurt or broken into too many pieces. A wide person, learns that .. you have to know how to walk away and start over.. May God Bless everyone and please be good to everyone , even your ex's because no one should hold hate or grudges in your heart. It just makes you a bitter old man or woman.
THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @2017,
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Friday, April 28, 2017
Wednesday, April 26, 2017
LA CHARGERS 2017 DRAFT PICKS..
LA CHARGERS 2017 DRAFT PICKS/
Well the Draft is coming , that is the NFL draft. The LA CHARGERS have the seventh pick. Who Do they select ? Personally I really Like Jabril Peppers , a hybrid line backer / safety and the chargers need both of those positions. To be honest.. The chargers have too many needs at this time. So my take is take the best player available.. The Chargers really need to fix the o-line.. here are the top linemen in the draft.
Well the Draft is coming , that is the NFL draft. The LA CHARGERS have the seventh pick. Who Do they select ? Personally I really Like Jabril Peppers , a hybrid line backer / safety and the chargers need both of those positions. To be honest.. The chargers have too many needs at this time. So my take is take the best player available.. The Chargers really need to fix the o-line.. here are the top linemen in the draft.
| RANK | PLAYER | SCHOOL | MEASURABLES |
| 1 | Cam Robinson | Alabama | 6' 6", 322 lbs. |
| 2 | Ryan Ramczyk | Wisconsin | 6' 6", 310 lbs. |
| 3 | Forrest Lamp | Western Kentucky | 6' 4", 309 lbs. |
| 4 | Garett Bolles | Utah | 6' 5", 297 lbs. |
| 5 | Taylor Moton | Western Michigan | 6' 5", 319 lbs. |
| 6 | Antonio Garcia | Troy | 6' 6", 302 lbs. |
| 7 | Roderick Johnson | Florida State | 6' 7", 299 lbs. |
| 8 | Avery Gennesy | Texas A&M | 6' 3", 318 lbs. |
| 9 | Chad Wheeler | USC | 6' 6", 306 lbs. |
| 10 | Julien Davenport | Bucknell |
The Chargers also need to consider a qb, Maybe not this draft but next year and beyond. As great as Philip Rivers has been , father time is marching on.. The Chargers have a very tough schedule .. The Raiders , Chiefs still are loaded as well as the Broncos. The Chargers will be hard pressed to have a winning season. I see them finishing 6-10 ..or worse. The Chargers have the worst line in the AFC and have average wide outs , or should I say undersized injury prone.. Keenan Allen had one great year but the past couple of seasons have been disappointing. Lets hope gives this year. Like I said the Chargers need to take the best player available regardless of position. They have too many needs to be contenders this year or the next. But they will be exciting , but a New head coach , a new defense scheme , could be too much to ask a young team to be consistent. But the Future does look bright for the chargers , by the time they move in to their new venue , they might be competitive, but not contenders. But for now , I'm looking forward to seeing what players they draft and wonder how some of my favorite College players .. turn out.. Like Juju Smith and Adore Jackson of USC and my home town favorite Filipino American Donnel Pumphreys.. I'm really excited fro him.. Its my sons Idol and hopes to break into the NFL ,. as the other Filipino American NFL football player. Hey it might be a crazy dream. But its what life is about.. Go after things that are important to you.. To the San Diego Chargers, I know its hard . But its hard to let go of the chargers . even though the owner screwed the fans.. I know I was upset months ago.. But now.. to be honest I'm excited to see the team play and do well.. Well perform better than last year. May you have a great night and Be happy!!
THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @2017
Monday, April 24, 2017
My disappointment.. Inspired by life experiences,
My disappointment.. Inspired by life experiences..
Well I have been through alot in my life, Not getting hired at the police dept until I joined the Navy. Not making rank the first time out.. Or struggling with life.. It never ends.. I mean we all face adversities in life.. Sometimes I wonder if its just me. But its life.. If you want something bad enough , you fight for it. You learn from it.. MY latest one is disappointing,. Devastating.. I was butt hurt. because I thought the people around me.. Were supported of me.. But to be honest. I realize real life its all about who you know and who you blow.. Maybe because I was in the military.. I thought civilian life would be more fair.. Yea right, its not true,, The 5 years since I retired,, Yes 5 long years I realized that nepotism , favoritism applies. BUT WHAT CAN I DO? Do I get angry ? Perhaps, I can be,, I'm allowed to feel any of that. But I realize,. that in today's job market its about doing your job and doing it well and don't expect friendship or whether or not you get along with people,,, I mean sometimes obvious , seems so simple.. In my case I applied for a job and for months. I thought I had in the bag.. But I should of know,, That other people are applying for positions, especially if they already in the company.. No hard feelings. II know my time will come. I need to be patient and pray and hope things work out.. I mean.. I have only been working at this company for barely 3 months so what do I expect ? I mean.. I now know I need to be more patient and less dramatic or flamboyant.. Its tough because I think even at my age I'm a attention seeker . I love the drama that follows me,, Maybe that's why it does? I mean It seems I handle well, because I have so many dramatic things happen to me the past years.. I always wondered why it happens? Will I ever learn ? Or maybe I should just relax and do my job. I know the pain and hurt feelings I have will take time.. But to be honest I have felt this pain many times over.. So I should have a strategy plan huh?
Well here I handle disappointment...
1) Own the feelings.. write down how you feel, what did you learn and how will I go from this point..
2) Question your expectations. ? Did you really feel you are ready for the job or position.
Take note on what needs to be done next time or interview..
3)Take time to learn from experience.. In my case I write down what did I learn ,, Perhaps a better sales pitch , more serious at interview..
4) Take personal notes,, Like have a better resume, show more certificates, have a stronger intro and conclusion..
5)Adjust your expectations or make modifications.. In other words,, Take note what needs to be done next time,, Learn more about the job keep a journal,,or a STANDARD OPERATIONS GUIDE. Be vigilant !! Don't give up.. Be positive!!
6) Calm your self down, take a nap , a walk,, or read a book , talk to close friends and or write your feelings down.. Have faith things will be better,, Tomorrow is another day,, Look forward to it..
7) Distract your self.. Same as above.. pretty much. Just think about other thing,, time does heal all wounds.. Think about the future and how Life is beautiful.. Nothing bad stays with you.. Be positive.. ad be proactive. Think about good things.. Its not easy to over come disappointment , but times does heal all wounds..
Disappointment is only temporary. Let it go..
What did I learn ? In this case I realize today's world is a business and that other people are applying for jobs too, Never discount that.
Everything happens for a reason. IN this case, I need to think about the next opening ,or chance to get hired. Perhaps a better suited positron is just around the corner.. Like maybe the warehouse fits better than a office setting , or maybe another position will open up , just be patient. People come and go and you just have to wait your turn.. Sometimes destiny and fate are just moments away..
Take a look around.. Perhaps another opportunity will happen for you. Apply for other jobs or job sites or just be patient. because only time can tell if another position is about to open up. Take stock of what your looking for and be focused on that. By doing your best always,, Expect great things to come your way. Be positive and keep trying. I have been hurt many times in my life , but I now know I have to be mentally and emotionally strong.. People will respect and love you if you show strength//
I hope this helps you and despite my recent disappointment, I'm ready to press on and Go on. I will get a good nights sleep and come back tomorrow refreshed and ready to work.. Be strong! Have a great day and fight on!!
THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @2017...
Well I have been through alot in my life, Not getting hired at the police dept until I joined the Navy. Not making rank the first time out.. Or struggling with life.. It never ends.. I mean we all face adversities in life.. Sometimes I wonder if its just me. But its life.. If you want something bad enough , you fight for it. You learn from it.. MY latest one is disappointing,. Devastating.. I was butt hurt. because I thought the people around me.. Were supported of me.. But to be honest. I realize real life its all about who you know and who you blow.. Maybe because I was in the military.. I thought civilian life would be more fair.. Yea right, its not true,, The 5 years since I retired,, Yes 5 long years I realized that nepotism , favoritism applies. BUT WHAT CAN I DO? Do I get angry ? Perhaps, I can be,, I'm allowed to feel any of that. But I realize,. that in today's job market its about doing your job and doing it well and don't expect friendship or whether or not you get along with people,,, I mean sometimes obvious , seems so simple.. In my case I applied for a job and for months. I thought I had in the bag.. But I should of know,, That other people are applying for positions, especially if they already in the company.. No hard feelings. II know my time will come. I need to be patient and pray and hope things work out.. I mean.. I have only been working at this company for barely 3 months so what do I expect ? I mean.. I now know I need to be more patient and less dramatic or flamboyant.. Its tough because I think even at my age I'm a attention seeker . I love the drama that follows me,, Maybe that's why it does? I mean It seems I handle well, because I have so many dramatic things happen to me the past years.. I always wondered why it happens? Will I ever learn ? Or maybe I should just relax and do my job. I know the pain and hurt feelings I have will take time.. But to be honest I have felt this pain many times over.. So I should have a strategy plan huh?
Well here I handle disappointment...
1) Own the feelings.. write down how you feel, what did you learn and how will I go from this point..
2) Question your expectations. ? Did you really feel you are ready for the job or position.
Take note on what needs to be done next time or interview..
3)Take time to learn from experience.. In my case I write down what did I learn ,, Perhaps a better sales pitch , more serious at interview..
4) Take personal notes,, Like have a better resume, show more certificates, have a stronger intro and conclusion..
5)Adjust your expectations or make modifications.. In other words,, Take note what needs to be done next time,, Learn more about the job keep a journal,,or a STANDARD OPERATIONS GUIDE. Be vigilant !! Don't give up.. Be positive!!
6) Calm your self down, take a nap , a walk,, or read a book , talk to close friends and or write your feelings down.. Have faith things will be better,, Tomorrow is another day,, Look forward to it..
7) Distract your self.. Same as above.. pretty much. Just think about other thing,, time does heal all wounds.. Think about the future and how Life is beautiful.. Nothing bad stays with you.. Be positive.. ad be proactive. Think about good things.. Its not easy to over come disappointment , but times does heal all wounds..
Disappointment is only temporary. Let it go..
What did I learn ? In this case I realize today's world is a business and that other people are applying for jobs too, Never discount that.
Everything happens for a reason. IN this case, I need to think about the next opening ,or chance to get hired. Perhaps a better suited positron is just around the corner.. Like maybe the warehouse fits better than a office setting , or maybe another position will open up , just be patient. People come and go and you just have to wait your turn.. Sometimes destiny and fate are just moments away..
Take a look around.. Perhaps another opportunity will happen for you. Apply for other jobs or job sites or just be patient. because only time can tell if another position is about to open up. Take stock of what your looking for and be focused on that. By doing your best always,, Expect great things to come your way. Be positive and keep trying. I have been hurt many times in my life , but I now know I have to be mentally and emotionally strong.. People will respect and love you if you show strength//
I hope this helps you and despite my recent disappointment, I'm ready to press on and Go on. I will get a good nights sleep and come back tomorrow refreshed and ready to work.. Be strong! Have a great day and fight on!!
THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @2017...
Sunday, April 23, 2017
Tavern at the Beach - MY CRAZY SECURITY NIGHT.. Inspired by Greg...
TAVERN AT THE BEACH - SAN DIEGO- MY CRAZY SECURITY NIGHT
INSPIRED BY GREG..
Well this is my second night of security work,, before I get going with this story you have to remember I served over 20 years and retired honorably from the Navy , during that time I received training by Navy Seals and marine Corps Drill Instructors.. plus I have many family in the Marines and Navy , so I have alot of security experience.
Now to the night.. It was interesting to see what people do for a good time, I stood watch outside the club..crowd control.. One dude wanted to dance with me... ha.. do I give off a gay vibe?Makes me wonder? Well another girl or girls said I was cute , and said you want to join us? Once again I give off a bisexual vibe.. who knows,, ? Well anyways , it was crazy seeing the drunks stumble around outsde and girls almost getting hit by speeding cars.. Its crazy how people think its cool to speed along a beach front with people around.. Well anyways, the night really got crazy when I was posted inside to close out the night. At one point a very sexy and pretty tall white girl was dirty dancing or doing a lap dance right in front of my post , in fact I was holding her head up so she wouldn't fall of the chair.. Did I get to see boobs.. yup.. they were bouncing and dangling in front of me.. I was watching her so she wouldn't get hurt? Yea right,, whats funny the boy friend didn't mind a stranger holding her body or staring at her goods.. What surprised even more no one at the club minded it or .. me? Well after that they high fived me,, But the next girl comes up does a even more sexy dancing and her top nearly comes off , of course I.m watching her so she doesn't get hurt.. Once again the boy friend smiles at me and they both give me high fives.. And the dirty dancing continues another white girl high fives me and holds onto my hand, and does it again when I see her outside,, She was very pretty , but she was either drunk or high or both ..I mean I could smell the wacky tabacky.. it was cool experience.. But I stood my post as the night progressed another young pretty girl high fives me, a a bunch of times and tells me she just turned 21 .. oh I remember those days,, But I was drinking well before that age.. Maybe not a good idea,, But i started young.. As the night was winding down.. It was a night to remember,,because,, I noticed when your cool , but firm you get alot of compliments.. Or maybe its true I have friendly and flirty eyes.. My buddy Greg.. had a good time , but it seems he never gets that kinda of attention.. Perhaps he knows how to turn off the charm and be professional..
Lesson of the night..I saw alot of crazy things, guys and girls screaming outside ad jumping and running around. did i do that when i was younger.. I think at times I may have,, I mean I have that white boy craziness in me.. because I did run around with surfers... My pinoy brothers called me " coconut.. Brown on the outside , but white in the inside.. It was moniker that bothered me until I kinda learned tagalog.I mean its not the best but I can carry on a broken conversation,, Taglish,, haha.. well anyways.. If anything I learned that the youth are the same when I was young we just want to have fun.. and enjoy life, Because its different when your married , engaged or what.. The fun times are over.. KNOWING.. that my kids,. are grown up and almost ready to leave the nest,, I'm looking forward to being on my own and enjoy the final chapter in my life.. That's why I lift weights and do cardio and eat better.. Because this is it.. Will I still be in shape when I'm 63? 0r 73,,,or what,, I will try to to.. But I also know father time is marching on and mother nature is mean.. So I will continue to work out and stay fit,, until the body says,, its over.. So Enjoy life my friends and keep fit,, I'm proof you can stay fit when you hit the middle age years. but you have to be consistent and dedicated. Its a mind set and way of life you have to adhere to.. Basically just start.. 30 minutes a day.. I go to the Gym.. and even if it a 30 minute workout,, I do it.. to get those chemicals going.. the endorphins. its like a runners high or weight lifters pump.. But you cant get that feeling unless you start,, and once you do.. Life and you mind will benefit.. Have a great day and enjoy your life,, Time is so fast on this earth.. Life begins now..
THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS.. @2017
INSPIRED BY GREG..
Well this is my second night of security work,, before I get going with this story you have to remember I served over 20 years and retired honorably from the Navy , during that time I received training by Navy Seals and marine Corps Drill Instructors.. plus I have many family in the Marines and Navy , so I have alot of security experience.
Now to the night.. It was interesting to see what people do for a good time, I stood watch outside the club..crowd control.. One dude wanted to dance with me... ha.. do I give off a gay vibe?Makes me wonder? Well another girl or girls said I was cute , and said you want to join us? Once again I give off a bisexual vibe.. who knows,, ? Well anyways , it was crazy seeing the drunks stumble around outsde and girls almost getting hit by speeding cars.. Its crazy how people think its cool to speed along a beach front with people around.. Well anyways, the night really got crazy when I was posted inside to close out the night. At one point a very sexy and pretty tall white girl was dirty dancing or doing a lap dance right in front of my post , in fact I was holding her head up so she wouldn't fall of the chair.. Did I get to see boobs.. yup.. they were bouncing and dangling in front of me.. I was watching her so she wouldn't get hurt? Yea right,, whats funny the boy friend didn't mind a stranger holding her body or staring at her goods.. What surprised even more no one at the club minded it or .. me? Well after that they high fived me,, But the next girl comes up does a even more sexy dancing and her top nearly comes off , of course I.m watching her so she doesn't get hurt.. Once again the boy friend smiles at me and they both give me high fives.. And the dirty dancing continues another white girl high fives me and holds onto my hand, and does it again when I see her outside,, She was very pretty , but she was either drunk or high or both ..I mean I could smell the wacky tabacky.. it was cool experience.. But I stood my post as the night progressed another young pretty girl high fives me, a a bunch of times and tells me she just turned 21 .. oh I remember those days,, But I was drinking well before that age.. Maybe not a good idea,, But i started young.. As the night was winding down.. It was a night to remember,,because,, I noticed when your cool , but firm you get alot of compliments.. Or maybe its true I have friendly and flirty eyes.. My buddy Greg.. had a good time , but it seems he never gets that kinda of attention.. Perhaps he knows how to turn off the charm and be professional..
Lesson of the night..I saw alot of crazy things, guys and girls screaming outside ad jumping and running around. did i do that when i was younger.. I think at times I may have,, I mean I have that white boy craziness in me.. because I did run around with surfers... My pinoy brothers called me " coconut.. Brown on the outside , but white in the inside.. It was moniker that bothered me until I kinda learned tagalog.I mean its not the best but I can carry on a broken conversation,, Taglish,, haha.. well anyways.. If anything I learned that the youth are the same when I was young we just want to have fun.. and enjoy life, Because its different when your married , engaged or what.. The fun times are over.. KNOWING.. that my kids,. are grown up and almost ready to leave the nest,, I'm looking forward to being on my own and enjoy the final chapter in my life.. That's why I lift weights and do cardio and eat better.. Because this is it.. Will I still be in shape when I'm 63? 0r 73,,,or what,, I will try to to.. But I also know father time is marching on and mother nature is mean.. So I will continue to work out and stay fit,, until the body says,, its over.. So Enjoy life my friends and keep fit,, I'm proof you can stay fit when you hit the middle age years. but you have to be consistent and dedicated. Its a mind set and way of life you have to adhere to.. Basically just start.. 30 minutes a day.. I go to the Gym.. and even if it a 30 minute workout,, I do it.. to get those chemicals going.. the endorphins. its like a runners high or weight lifters pump.. But you cant get that feeling unless you start,, and once you do.. Life and you mind will benefit.. Have a great day and enjoy your life,, Time is so fast on this earth.. Life begins now..
THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS.. @2017
Sunday, April 16, 2017
The tragedy of life.. Not letting go. Based on life experiences..
The tragedy of Life . Not letting go.. Based on life...
One of the things I have found hard to do is let go.. Whether is girl Friends, pets, things , cars. It seems I get too attached to things.. Sentimental , foolish or just a dreamer. All I know I have lived and loved and been to many places around the world, I loved seeing the friendly people Hong Kong or Singapore or Australia, I have seen the world and I have experienced the best and the worst life has to offer But one of the things I have issues with is letting go.. I'm a prideful , stubborn , hard headed man that often cant let things go.. Whether its material things or relationships and friendships that aren't meant to be? ok What do I mean? Well I'm sure everyone has friends and some are better than others and others seem to be troublesome, needy , hard to understand. For me, I tend to keep them in my life, even though it may affect my professional or private lives.. To me a true friend doesn't try to harm you or cause pain joking or not? I mean , sometimes sarcasm or jokes are just ways to show their real feelings or dislike of you without being straight forward. But then again everyone has their own way to apologize and say sorry. But it still troublesome when some friends seem to know how to make you feel bad. Now that I'm older , wiser, and lets face it time is running down. It seems each day goes faster , each week, month and years seem to fly faster than the next. So , my point is is,, I want to surround myself I can feel comfortable with, where I can share my thoughts and feeling in an authentic and real way. I do things because I want to expecting nothing in return except respect and love. I don't do things to gain favors , kiss ass or brown nose,, I do it out of the kindness of my heart. Its something I learned from my beloved mother. I was raised by My Grandma and Mama, and I admit I have female qualities, sometimes I think like a women,, maybe that's why women like hanging with me, I understand them? In some cases I do,, I know they want to have connections , and they want to feel love,, Buying gifts and such are fine, But without the feeling it means nothing to them.. I learned that the hard way,,When I courted women in the past,, That Flowers , cards candy are fine, but if I don't even know you well, it means nothing. NOW,, I realize when I Buy something for a friend , its done because I want to , I feel a need to,, its like a inner sense that I need to get this for her, shes gonna love it,, because I know them.. Its mutual respect , its mutual understanding its unconditional love.. Its hard to find that connection in life, I know Many times i thought I had it only to find out it was just infatuation? I mean ,, we are going to meet alot of people in life , and connect with them. some for awhile maybe even more forever. But I realize now,, that You can force things,, you can people to like or love you,, It just happens,, like a lightening strike,, hits you out of now where? You can plan everything else in life,, work , school, career, kids,, but Love is special and it can start and grow when you least expect it? Make any sense? Well , the moral to this blog is this,, Learn to enjoy people in your life and if they leave by choice , by death or by other means, Don't take it personal.. Life is too short to analyze whatever you did or said the right things to them. Life is meant to be lived and looking back and not forgiving yourself is only killing yourself.. I know now that I have faith in GOD, he has been there many times in my life when I said,, oh boy ,, I need your help. Having faith and no fear of the future is the only way to live these days. If someone comes into your life and then leaves,, Take that as a life lesson. That's cherish every moment with anyone in your life and be thankful they are there, because true friends stay with you and want to be part of you're life, if not daily but in other ways by keeping in touch via face book , snap chat , etc.. Cherish and take care of your family and be thankful the friends you have really care , because life is fleeting and fast. That's why I enjoy every day with smiles and laughter and treat everyone with respect and love. Nothing in life comes easy , especially things that are worth it.!!! Its like a garden.. YOU plant seeds, your fertilize it you water it, etc and it can be beautiful. The same goes with friendship's , relationships. you have to build a solid base of trust , faith and understanding. before anything else. Once that's established then Love just comes easily.. Well Have a great day and always love yourself, your family , your friends and your life.. A smile can open up so many doors for you because it shows you are happy with oneself and and your life. So go out and smile at people , it will make a difference!!
THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @2017
One of the things I have found hard to do is let go.. Whether is girl Friends, pets, things , cars. It seems I get too attached to things.. Sentimental , foolish or just a dreamer. All I know I have lived and loved and been to many places around the world, I loved seeing the friendly people Hong Kong or Singapore or Australia, I have seen the world and I have experienced the best and the worst life has to offer But one of the things I have issues with is letting go.. I'm a prideful , stubborn , hard headed man that often cant let things go.. Whether its material things or relationships and friendships that aren't meant to be? ok What do I mean? Well I'm sure everyone has friends and some are better than others and others seem to be troublesome, needy , hard to understand. For me, I tend to keep them in my life, even though it may affect my professional or private lives.. To me a true friend doesn't try to harm you or cause pain joking or not? I mean , sometimes sarcasm or jokes are just ways to show their real feelings or dislike of you without being straight forward. But then again everyone has their own way to apologize and say sorry. But it still troublesome when some friends seem to know how to make you feel bad. Now that I'm older , wiser, and lets face it time is running down. It seems each day goes faster , each week, month and years seem to fly faster than the next. So , my point is is,, I want to surround myself I can feel comfortable with, where I can share my thoughts and feeling in an authentic and real way. I do things because I want to expecting nothing in return except respect and love. I don't do things to gain favors , kiss ass or brown nose,, I do it out of the kindness of my heart. Its something I learned from my beloved mother. I was raised by My Grandma and Mama, and I admit I have female qualities, sometimes I think like a women,, maybe that's why women like hanging with me, I understand them? In some cases I do,, I know they want to have connections , and they want to feel love,, Buying gifts and such are fine, But without the feeling it means nothing to them.. I learned that the hard way,,When I courted women in the past,, That Flowers , cards candy are fine, but if I don't even know you well, it means nothing. NOW,, I realize when I Buy something for a friend , its done because I want to , I feel a need to,, its like a inner sense that I need to get this for her, shes gonna love it,, because I know them.. Its mutual respect , its mutual understanding its unconditional love.. Its hard to find that connection in life, I know Many times i thought I had it only to find out it was just infatuation? I mean ,, we are going to meet alot of people in life , and connect with them. some for awhile maybe even more forever. But I realize now,, that You can force things,, you can people to like or love you,, It just happens,, like a lightening strike,, hits you out of now where? You can plan everything else in life,, work , school, career, kids,, but Love is special and it can start and grow when you least expect it? Make any sense? Well , the moral to this blog is this,, Learn to enjoy people in your life and if they leave by choice , by death or by other means, Don't take it personal.. Life is too short to analyze whatever you did or said the right things to them. Life is meant to be lived and looking back and not forgiving yourself is only killing yourself.. I know now that I have faith in GOD, he has been there many times in my life when I said,, oh boy ,, I need your help. Having faith and no fear of the future is the only way to live these days. If someone comes into your life and then leaves,, Take that as a life lesson. That's cherish every moment with anyone in your life and be thankful they are there, because true friends stay with you and want to be part of you're life, if not daily but in other ways by keeping in touch via face book , snap chat , etc.. Cherish and take care of your family and be thankful the friends you have really care , because life is fleeting and fast. That's why I enjoy every day with smiles and laughter and treat everyone with respect and love. Nothing in life comes easy , especially things that are worth it.!!! Its like a garden.. YOU plant seeds, your fertilize it you water it, etc and it can be beautiful. The same goes with friendship's , relationships. you have to build a solid base of trust , faith and understanding. before anything else. Once that's established then Love just comes easily.. Well Have a great day and always love yourself, your family , your friends and your life.. A smile can open up so many doors for you because it shows you are happy with oneself and and your life. So go out and smile at people , it will make a difference!!
THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @2017
Friday, April 14, 2017
Life Lessons .. Inspired by my new friends..
Life Lessons . Inspired by my new friends...
The past 3 months I have found 2 of the best friends , connections I have ever had in my life,, Forget about the separation of ages between us we just connect. For whatever reason , we get along.. Despite the goofiness and strange behaviour. One thing is certain .. We have unconditional love , respect , and patience with one another. I mean at times we may get frustrated with one another and say mean or off the wall comments. But guess what? We laugh it off. We are two of kind.. how about 3 of a kind. Yes, its possible to be so connected to 2 people. Why because we just let ourselves go.. We make jokes , we laugh with each other instead of at each other. Its a special bond. Its nice to be able to say or do anything without feeling any shame or doubt. Its a cool feeling to have and I love it. But I noticed at the work place , not everyone is rooting for you. Its like the old saying everyone wants you to do well, but not better than them. But those are haters and to be honest I don't have the time or inclination to deal with those people,, They was i see it they are miserable because they choose to be. They are insecure because they let the be that way. Its hard to stop a mind set if you let it sink in. For Me, I like to be positive like my blood type.. Because people feed off and love motivating and inspiring people, well people that are secure in their lives and striving to be their best. For me, happiness is striving and improving and being your best. Anytime all the time. I always look forward to each day because I have seen death and destruction I have been on ships were people have died or killed themselves, its not a good vibe , but I survived and kept going... Am I sad for their families , of course I am.. But I also realize its not my fault , for many years I had survivors guilt.. because it could of been me or should of been ME? It should of been me? But I realize everything happens for a reason , the pain , the misery , the happiness , the joy.. It has a purpose and I let each day and each event play itself out. I used to stress out about meeting people,, I have this feeling that they will tire of me ,, Guess what? Its a self fulfilling prophecy. If you think anything.. You can make it happened,, The mind follows what your body or heart wants. One thing is for sure my friends have taught me to stay positive and stay focused on your goals and aspirations. True friends let each other be themselves, no pretending or acting , like I said unconditional love.. Unselfish , deep respect and unlimited patience and understanding. It a rare deal to see that in friendship. That's why I feel blessed to have found these two cool friends. I feel good and appreciated. I learned that when your open and hones with people , most will return the favor, and those that don't, good riddance. I'm too old to deal with negativity or jealous people.I don't want it and I don't want to be around that vibe. Life is getting shorter for me.I'm looking for happiness ans togetherness with people that are positive and help me be my best. I know life is hard enough not to deal with such people. I found that when your around positive people you feel happy and inspired to do things and that energy is fantastic to feel. That's why I love my friends G and B.. They are one of a kind.. which makes us 3 of a kind..
My moral is this, be yourself, be real and honest and you will receive the respect and love you deserve. and want.. Be true to those that are true to you.. Have a great day and smile, its amazing how thing will change in your life and how people will treat you.. Try it .. It will change your mood and how people treat you back..
The SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @2017..
The past 3 months I have found 2 of the best friends , connections I have ever had in my life,, Forget about the separation of ages between us we just connect. For whatever reason , we get along.. Despite the goofiness and strange behaviour. One thing is certain .. We have unconditional love , respect , and patience with one another. I mean at times we may get frustrated with one another and say mean or off the wall comments. But guess what? We laugh it off. We are two of kind.. how about 3 of a kind. Yes, its possible to be so connected to 2 people. Why because we just let ourselves go.. We make jokes , we laugh with each other instead of at each other. Its a special bond. Its nice to be able to say or do anything without feeling any shame or doubt. Its a cool feeling to have and I love it. But I noticed at the work place , not everyone is rooting for you. Its like the old saying everyone wants you to do well, but not better than them. But those are haters and to be honest I don't have the time or inclination to deal with those people,, They was i see it they are miserable because they choose to be. They are insecure because they let the be that way. Its hard to stop a mind set if you let it sink in. For Me, I like to be positive like my blood type.. Because people feed off and love motivating and inspiring people, well people that are secure in their lives and striving to be their best. For me, happiness is striving and improving and being your best. Anytime all the time. I always look forward to each day because I have seen death and destruction I have been on ships were people have died or killed themselves, its not a good vibe , but I survived and kept going... Am I sad for their families , of course I am.. But I also realize its not my fault , for many years I had survivors guilt.. because it could of been me or should of been ME? It should of been me? But I realize everything happens for a reason , the pain , the misery , the happiness , the joy.. It has a purpose and I let each day and each event play itself out. I used to stress out about meeting people,, I have this feeling that they will tire of me ,, Guess what? Its a self fulfilling prophecy. If you think anything.. You can make it happened,, The mind follows what your body or heart wants. One thing is for sure my friends have taught me to stay positive and stay focused on your goals and aspirations. True friends let each other be themselves, no pretending or acting , like I said unconditional love.. Unselfish , deep respect and unlimited patience and understanding. It a rare deal to see that in friendship. That's why I feel blessed to have found these two cool friends. I feel good and appreciated. I learned that when your open and hones with people , most will return the favor, and those that don't, good riddance. I'm too old to deal with negativity or jealous people.I don't want it and I don't want to be around that vibe. Life is getting shorter for me.I'm looking for happiness ans togetherness with people that are positive and help me be my best. I know life is hard enough not to deal with such people. I found that when your around positive people you feel happy and inspired to do things and that energy is fantastic to feel. That's why I love my friends G and B.. They are one of a kind.. which makes us 3 of a kind..
My moral is this, be yourself, be real and honest and you will receive the respect and love you deserve. and want.. Be true to those that are true to you.. Have a great day and smile, its amazing how thing will change in your life and how people will treat you.. Try it .. It will change your mood and how people treat you back..
The SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @2017..
Monday, April 10, 2017
TWIN FLAMES ? BASED ON LIFE EXPERIENCES..
TWIN FLAMES ? BASED ON LIFE EXPERIENCES ..
First of all . A twin flame relationship is a divine union with a divine purpose. Many people proscribe to the belief that a twin flame is the other half of your soul. I thought I found it what ? 3 times in my life... and it seems all three times.. It all crashed and burned,. Is it love? or just bull shit illusions woman or a man can do to another person. I mean when i felt like no other when I met my twin flames. We connected with everything we said and did. The connection was so close and special.. I mean the journals , the timeless talks about nothing is like no other , but like always in my life it seems it fades away,, Am i mad.. No not really just disillusioned with people .I mean people shouldn't play with peoples emotions,, But who am I to say that? I mean when i was hurt many years ago,, I went on a man whore rage,, Hurting every female I could connect with. Was it wrong,, Of course it was. Will I pay for it .. I think now , I am.. With the hardships and pain and misery I have felt in my life... From the child hood relations to have girls dump me , or cheat on me..Those thoughts or images never go away, I mean.. how can you trust anyone , when at a young age I was betrayed and lied to.. It seems the nice guys get screwed over or vice versa.. You open your heart and soul and trust your life of dreams and ideas with that person. Only to find out they are too scared to share the same ideas and thoughts with you.. Maybe a foolish heart or foolish man that trust people too much. Who knows if the pain and suffering I have gone through , the deaths in my whole family , from murder ,suicide , aids, you name it My family has seen the horrors of life,, and yet I continue to smile and spread my happiness to people.. When My mama died , that really changed me forever , I was angry , hurt , devastated , I felt the only person that loved me and understood was gone for forever.. I cant tell how many times I prayed to God to take me to my mama..I did reckless things after my mama passed. driving a cray speeds making dangerous moves.. I skidded off the free way once only to survive,, I nearly fell of the ship when dancing near the rails drunk as hell, I was hurt and still am. to be honest.. MY mama was my twin flame.. we thought alike, we acted alike , we loved people, with all our hearts..We didn't care if the love was returned,, We did things because we love people . Too see people smile and laugh was a gift . We wanted people to be happy. Despite the horrors and tragedies in our life.. We continue.. to smile and bring happiness to people. But it seems many people in our lives took us for granted , and treated us badly. If anything we were guilty of being caring in this world. We knew the world can be scary and cold and many people don't care. But my mama and I were like angels sent down to earth to bring joy and happiness.Even though we have been hurt and misunderstood, we kept our spirits up ..Its like a curse to be so loving , because people expect you to always be happy , no matter what.. Believe me it has happened a few times in my life where I wanted to be like everyone else. But because I'm perceived as the ultimate positive thinker.. Oh if you really knew me? I mean theres no one on earth that Can be happy all the time.. So why me? I mean .. I miss one day at work and people go crazy!!
But who said life is fair. Some people are destined , ordained .. perhaps cursed with having that ability to make people smile and be happy. Its a tough responsibility , but I'm for it.. Its just very lonely to please everyone.. Because its false reality. But that's the life i live. I have to happy and jolly all the time.. I have to crack jokes, I have to sing and dance,, I'm the entertainer in my family , work , anywhere. I have the light that fire that never burns out.. Maybe you see that personality at work. where .. theres that one person that never seems to be affected by life, He or she is the light in the office or work place,, and everyone depends on that person to bring them out!!
Now tothe twin flame,,, they are supposed to be your mirror, but if one is loud and proud , the other side is shy , tentative , timid.. its the yin and yang perspective.. Its revolving its something that cosmic , spiritual to have found someone you connect on all levels. its the most amazing thing to feel if ever you find that person or persons.. But like anything in life,, everything can fade and dies.. I mean I feel Ike My life has died many times over knowing that the person I had connection with.. is gone, or given up on me? Its a tough realization to feel left out? To feel abandoned. I mean how can something feel so right , be so wrong? How can the love or respect or feelings we had , be turned off just like that. Is it jealousy ? Is it fear , is it betrayal. Whatever it is,. It makes me wonder if Love is really true. If its worth to take a chance just to be hurt.Its like,, whats worse than a broken heart , another one.. .. What happens if your heart is broken so many times.. It can be fixed.. Its so tattered and destroyed and that nothing can mend it.. Maybe it time for this dreamer , this broken hearted clown, to join the true angels in heaven , because the devils on earth , the demons continue tempt this angel.. Its like even an angle cant be attacked often and expect to survive without any help. Its like watching a animal being attacked by vultures and despite his efforts finally succumbs to the many devils or demons attacking him. Its the way I feel, the pain and suffering i have survived , has taken its toll on me.. I mean how many close friends have to die in my life ? How many shipmates have to take their lives because of survivor guilt,, Which I feel , because why didn't I die with them. Its a guilt only a veteran of foreign wars can feel. I thank God I have special friends like Joe , and Tony , Colin , Annie and now LONG LOST BROTHER GREG.. AND JOJO.. with out them ,, What can a misery would be drowning myself.. I mean I;m a very positive person.. But the pains and sorrows,, has taken its toll .. But with the Help of Prayers and my few true friends. I'm living life to the fullest and when its over .. All can I say is that I want people to remember Mel as that guy who had unconditional , respectful and undemanding love that is so rare in the world. I know i was different ever since I was young.. I knew my purpose was to bring peace , joy and happiness to those around me. By preaching and living that way. I know I affected , influenced people to follow my lead. Because My true flame is out there , and I will love you with unconditional love and respect and when we reunite ,, I know I will treat you like the queen you deserve .. Because its been so lonely without my flame.. But I will let time , go and let the destiny of our passions , come to realization.. They say if you let something go and they come back,, then its meant to be.. Sometimes we learn to miss someone , to wish for them .. long for them to really feel the love you have for them. So to my flame ., Lets the time pass and may we find ourselves and find true self realization.. Because that's what life is all about , finding oneself.. Once that happens you have found true happens.. and for many sometimes we never reach that point in our lives,. Because 'm not sure if I will face or realize my full potential, But as long as Live I'm going to give it my best shot. That is face up to my fears and insecurities and man up so to speak , because true self reflection occurs when you let ego , pride and neediness to the side and be one in yourself and find that inner peace we all aspire for.. May God be with you and thank you for your support. The source has 32000 hits since 2010,,
THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @2017
First of all . A twin flame relationship is a divine union with a divine purpose. Many people proscribe to the belief that a twin flame is the other half of your soul. I thought I found it what ? 3 times in my life... and it seems all three times.. It all crashed and burned,. Is it love? or just bull shit illusions woman or a man can do to another person. I mean when i felt like no other when I met my twin flames. We connected with everything we said and did. The connection was so close and special.. I mean the journals , the timeless talks about nothing is like no other , but like always in my life it seems it fades away,, Am i mad.. No not really just disillusioned with people .I mean people shouldn't play with peoples emotions,, But who am I to say that? I mean when i was hurt many years ago,, I went on a man whore rage,, Hurting every female I could connect with. Was it wrong,, Of course it was. Will I pay for it .. I think now , I am.. With the hardships and pain and misery I have felt in my life... From the child hood relations to have girls dump me , or cheat on me..Those thoughts or images never go away, I mean.. how can you trust anyone , when at a young age I was betrayed and lied to.. It seems the nice guys get screwed over or vice versa.. You open your heart and soul and trust your life of dreams and ideas with that person. Only to find out they are too scared to share the same ideas and thoughts with you.. Maybe a foolish heart or foolish man that trust people too much. Who knows if the pain and suffering I have gone through , the deaths in my whole family , from murder ,suicide , aids, you name it My family has seen the horrors of life,, and yet I continue to smile and spread my happiness to people.. When My mama died , that really changed me forever , I was angry , hurt , devastated , I felt the only person that loved me and understood was gone for forever.. I cant tell how many times I prayed to God to take me to my mama..I did reckless things after my mama passed. driving a cray speeds making dangerous moves.. I skidded off the free way once only to survive,, I nearly fell of the ship when dancing near the rails drunk as hell, I was hurt and still am. to be honest.. MY mama was my twin flame.. we thought alike, we acted alike , we loved people, with all our hearts..We didn't care if the love was returned,, We did things because we love people . Too see people smile and laugh was a gift . We wanted people to be happy. Despite the horrors and tragedies in our life.. We continue.. to smile and bring happiness to people. But it seems many people in our lives took us for granted , and treated us badly. If anything we were guilty of being caring in this world. We knew the world can be scary and cold and many people don't care. But my mama and I were like angels sent down to earth to bring joy and happiness.Even though we have been hurt and misunderstood, we kept our spirits up ..Its like a curse to be so loving , because people expect you to always be happy , no matter what.. Believe me it has happened a few times in my life where I wanted to be like everyone else. But because I'm perceived as the ultimate positive thinker.. Oh if you really knew me? I mean theres no one on earth that Can be happy all the time.. So why me? I mean .. I miss one day at work and people go crazy!!
But who said life is fair. Some people are destined , ordained .. perhaps cursed with having that ability to make people smile and be happy. Its a tough responsibility , but I'm for it.. Its just very lonely to please everyone.. Because its false reality. But that's the life i live. I have to happy and jolly all the time.. I have to crack jokes, I have to sing and dance,, I'm the entertainer in my family , work , anywhere. I have the light that fire that never burns out.. Maybe you see that personality at work. where .. theres that one person that never seems to be affected by life, He or she is the light in the office or work place,, and everyone depends on that person to bring them out!!
Now tothe twin flame,,, they are supposed to be your mirror, but if one is loud and proud , the other side is shy , tentative , timid.. its the yin and yang perspective.. Its revolving its something that cosmic , spiritual to have found someone you connect on all levels. its the most amazing thing to feel if ever you find that person or persons.. But like anything in life,, everything can fade and dies.. I mean I feel Ike My life has died many times over knowing that the person I had connection with.. is gone, or given up on me? Its a tough realization to feel left out? To feel abandoned. I mean how can something feel so right , be so wrong? How can the love or respect or feelings we had , be turned off just like that. Is it jealousy ? Is it fear , is it betrayal. Whatever it is,. It makes me wonder if Love is really true. If its worth to take a chance just to be hurt.Its like,, whats worse than a broken heart , another one.. .. What happens if your heart is broken so many times.. It can be fixed.. Its so tattered and destroyed and that nothing can mend it.. Maybe it time for this dreamer , this broken hearted clown, to join the true angels in heaven , because the devils on earth , the demons continue tempt this angel.. Its like even an angle cant be attacked often and expect to survive without any help. Its like watching a animal being attacked by vultures and despite his efforts finally succumbs to the many devils or demons attacking him. Its the way I feel, the pain and suffering i have survived , has taken its toll on me.. I mean how many close friends have to die in my life ? How many shipmates have to take their lives because of survivor guilt,, Which I feel , because why didn't I die with them. Its a guilt only a veteran of foreign wars can feel. I thank God I have special friends like Joe , and Tony , Colin , Annie and now LONG LOST BROTHER GREG.. AND JOJO.. with out them ,, What can a misery would be drowning myself.. I mean I;m a very positive person.. But the pains and sorrows,, has taken its toll .. But with the Help of Prayers and my few true friends. I'm living life to the fullest and when its over .. All can I say is that I want people to remember Mel as that guy who had unconditional , respectful and undemanding love that is so rare in the world. I know i was different ever since I was young.. I knew my purpose was to bring peace , joy and happiness to those around me. By preaching and living that way. I know I affected , influenced people to follow my lead. Because My true flame is out there , and I will love you with unconditional love and respect and when we reunite ,, I know I will treat you like the queen you deserve .. Because its been so lonely without my flame.. But I will let time , go and let the destiny of our passions , come to realization.. They say if you let something go and they come back,, then its meant to be.. Sometimes we learn to miss someone , to wish for them .. long for them to really feel the love you have for them. So to my flame ., Lets the time pass and may we find ourselves and find true self realization.. Because that's what life is all about , finding oneself.. Once that happens you have found true happens.. and for many sometimes we never reach that point in our lives,. Because 'm not sure if I will face or realize my full potential, But as long as Live I'm going to give it my best shot. That is face up to my fears and insecurities and man up so to speak , because true self reflection occurs when you let ego , pride and neediness to the side and be one in yourself and find that inner peace we all aspire for.. May God be with you and thank you for your support. The source has 32000 hits since 2010,,
THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @2017
Sunday, April 9, 2017
GREEN DAY CONCERT - APRIL 8,2017.. SD SPORTS ARENA!!
GREEN DAY CONCERT APRIL 8,2017..
Hello Everyone , welcome to the world Mele Mel.. wich means anything can and will happen.. Ok.. Well I had dinner in Old town with new found friends,, G and J.. and his son M.. Man.. it was great. Ate great food,, made jokes, and had some deep convo,, but it got to comfy.. I was late to my gig well almost,,
Now the gig.... I was put around the barricade.. Meaning.. I had the job of relieving people for breaks and acting as back up for the Supervisor,, it was funny.. He said I was too loud and aggressive when I barked orders,then he laters tell me I need to be more aggressive? Hahha.. when anyways.. Many pretty girls and characters ,, I was assigned to the floor and it was crazy .. I had one girl lady,, drunk off her ass. refused to leave the unauthorized area,, So then she nearly falls down or faints I pick her up and carry her to the side lines,, where she faints again. I was asked to get medical staff.. Yea, this lady was really out of it,, as well as the other people in theres I could smell smell the beer, or the weed,, it was a party scene for sure,, Well as I return to staff wit the lady,, Supervisor tells me to return to rounds.. And it just keeps going pretty girls asking me where the bath room is or where the trash is , or one frantic girl, looking for her friends? I was lost for words,, I mean you should be the one looking out for one another , but it seems when people party they are so slefish,, they want to enjoy the moment forgetting about a friend,, and you really think police and secuirty can help you when theres is thousands of people in theres,, well i never saw that girl again that night and I pray and hope she reconnected with her friend.. I did see one girl leave the floor and she looked like she was about to throw up.. I follow her until the bathroom.. after that God only knows what happen to her.. Maybe that was her friend.. ?/
Now like I said I had one girl throw up in front of me,, pretty girl until she did that haha. Then the many girls that came up for directions , hugging me and asking various questions,, One pretty girl asked me to walk her to her seat but that seat wasn't near my post. Shucks huh? haha. Overall I had a great time, Green day can get the crowd going. I think they played over 2 hours and they played their asses off. The few times I glanced up to watch them.. they were rocking it for sure,, It was great experience.. I'm looking forward to more events in San Diego and elsewhere,, But It was tiring, I mean standing on your feet and walking the floor,, Its funny I gave breaks , but I didn't really take a break, other a pee break..
I know I will do better next time and be more relaxed,, I think it me awhile before I settled down. I look forward to more events and I will do my best to provide great security and ensuring are enjoying the event.. just follow the rules,, ! Well as I walk out of the arena and fight traffic home and finally home, I was dead tired,, I basically took off my clothes and went to sleep,. Now MY legs and feet are sore, standing on them the whole night after a full wee of work doing the same, did wear me out?
Well that was my crazy time as security at my first security event year!
Have a great day .
THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @2017
Hello Everyone , welcome to the world Mele Mel.. wich means anything can and will happen.. Ok.. Well I had dinner in Old town with new found friends,, G and J.. and his son M.. Man.. it was great. Ate great food,, made jokes, and had some deep convo,, but it got to comfy.. I was late to my gig well almost,,
Now the gig.... I was put around the barricade.. Meaning.. I had the job of relieving people for breaks and acting as back up for the Supervisor,, it was funny.. He said I was too loud and aggressive when I barked orders,then he laters tell me I need to be more aggressive? Hahha.. when anyways.. Many pretty girls and characters ,, I was assigned to the floor and it was crazy .. I had one girl lady,, drunk off her ass. refused to leave the unauthorized area,, So then she nearly falls down or faints I pick her up and carry her to the side lines,, where she faints again. I was asked to get medical staff.. Yea, this lady was really out of it,, as well as the other people in theres I could smell smell the beer, or the weed,, it was a party scene for sure,, Well as I return to staff wit the lady,, Supervisor tells me to return to rounds.. And it just keeps going pretty girls asking me where the bath room is or where the trash is , or one frantic girl, looking for her friends? I was lost for words,, I mean you should be the one looking out for one another , but it seems when people party they are so slefish,, they want to enjoy the moment forgetting about a friend,, and you really think police and secuirty can help you when theres is thousands of people in theres,, well i never saw that girl again that night and I pray and hope she reconnected with her friend.. I did see one girl leave the floor and she looked like she was about to throw up.. I follow her until the bathroom.. after that God only knows what happen to her.. Maybe that was her friend.. ?/
Now like I said I had one girl throw up in front of me,, pretty girl until she did that haha. Then the many girls that came up for directions , hugging me and asking various questions,, One pretty girl asked me to walk her to her seat but that seat wasn't near my post. Shucks huh? haha. Overall I had a great time, Green day can get the crowd going. I think they played over 2 hours and they played their asses off. The few times I glanced up to watch them.. they were rocking it for sure,, It was great experience.. I'm looking forward to more events in San Diego and elsewhere,, But It was tiring, I mean standing on your feet and walking the floor,, Its funny I gave breaks , but I didn't really take a break, other a pee break..
I know I will do better next time and be more relaxed,, I think it me awhile before I settled down. I look forward to more events and I will do my best to provide great security and ensuring are enjoying the event.. just follow the rules,, ! Well as I walk out of the arena and fight traffic home and finally home, I was dead tired,, I basically took off my clothes and went to sleep,. Now MY legs and feet are sore, standing on them the whole night after a full wee of work doing the same, did wear me out?
Well that was my crazy time as security at my first security event year!
Have a great day .
THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @2017
True Friends are ? Inspired by life events..
True Friends are ? Inspired by life events..
My life continues to be a story book, some are like fairy tales and other times its A horror film or tragic comedy.. Once upon a time MY new found friends . G, K , E , B etc were tail gate buddies at work.. What is that? Well it all started when K would listen to music with his expensive ass sitting chair. This chair can be a back pack m a mini storage , a table,, Its expensive , but hey to each is own.. Then we had G , my best friend now? My brother from another mother. Man, we are 2 peas in the pod.. We just clicked,, we laugh , we know the same songs,, the same movies,, Its like we grew up in different lives but we experienced the same damn things,, from hard ships , to break ups to losing friends. I love that guy,, not in a gay way , more like a brother.. We had it all , we were laughing , telling stories,, sitting out in the sun.. and just chilling.. watching everyone drive by or walk by ,, was always a trip.. we would see happy smiles,, or joyful laughter. I mean grown ass muscle building, military vets.. sharing time together. That's one thing I really miss about my military days,, I miss those steel beach picnics,, the parties,, the talks.. we bonded because we had too. Our lives depended on it,, I haven't had that feeling since I retired,,??/
Until now,, I finally Home, I like where I'm at.. Its a great feeling ... to be somewhere where you feel such love and respect .. I mean I can see it in many workers eyes.. When I decided to buy treats on Friday.... Lets see Donuts, Bagels , Pastries, Muscle Drinks , Peanuts, They love me.. and I love my co workers.I Talk to everyone,, even the ones that maybe bitter or angry.. I don't know I like to see all people happy whether or not people like me or not.. Its a curse I guess. I like happiness in the work place,, But having that " Curse" can be troublesome.. explain.. Well One morning ,, I was really tired in fact my car pool buddy called me to say I'm not coming in.. I said cool,, I actually just woke up and I was tired myself I said I need a break.. But... it seems too many people need me to be at work? I never ever missed a day,, I miss one day,, the whole place goes crazy,,I mean.. I can get sick , I cant get tired , depressed.. Its the Curse I have,, because ever day no what or how I'm feeling I put on my smile, my laughs the jokes , the singing,.!1 Does it get old, Yup,, I am the most unselfish , most unconditional person you can meet. I will go way out of my way to help people.. To please people, even though I haven't slept for days , or I'm worried about things in life,, I get to work,, since whenever I have to be this Magical guy that spreads joy and energy,,,
Now True friends,, based on what has happened in my life. True friends,, don't fight over petty things, they don't dis respect you or think things that aren't true,, like copy cat. or copying me,, really ??friend,? . I was damn tired!! ,, you knew I was tired!!, but like I said.. Most people really just think of themselves.like you did !!!. Take care of their needs,, in other words, use people,, But to be honest we all use people for something.. Like for attention , for love, for support , comfort,, especially if your not getting it from your loved ones? I mean its funny how the closest ones in our lives hurts us the worst.. Why? Because we have opened our hearts and minds to them and they know how to make us happy , but they also know how to hurt you too.. That's why,, true friends are rare to find. I have maybe a handful of friends in my life. Jo, Tony , Colin , Greg.. Annie , and maybe another one? I believe she is , because I opened my heart and wrote my life story to her.. But I guess like the other girls I opened up my life story to them.. They did it for entertainment , or attention , or as one girl said,, I felt sorry for you,, Really is any of that is true??, I don't want your friendship.. That may hurt , but playing with peoples emotions, or only leaving oneself available when you need it? To me is not true friendship.. Like I have found,,, True friends . have unconditional , unselfish , and unlimited love for you. They don't get jealous , or feel pressured to do things for you because they owe it to you,, True friends do it because they feel it , they want to and they know their efforts will not go unnoticed.. That's why those names I mentioned are my true friends, they don't judge me, or make fun of me,, they feel with me..they laugh with you , not at you.. I know maybe I'm too harsh on people, I just like to give all my love and affection to people, Anyone that knows me.. I go full throttle,, I know that has scared many people, and so be it.. Its just the way I am... ? Maybe in time my friendship with that special friend will recover or what? But you know life is too short to deal with friends that don't want to share things with me. I will be there for them if they want it, I mean ,, why did I do to cause anyone to run away from me.. I know I'm loud , proud ,, even embarrassing , but its me.. Its what I am..anything else would not be me..Maybe what we had was just a foolish dream , a foolish time in our lives,, well it felt like real.. the tears I cried , the laughs , we shared those were real.. But like I said,, some people are scared to get close to anyone because they are afraid to open up their failures in their life.. or insecurities... Its ok... Like I said ,, I have faith in God,, and I look to him to guide me and point me in the right direction,, Because IT seems at work,, i haven so many disappointments , misunderstandings.. and broken friendships , over rumor, gossip , perception etc.. But hey , I'm not worried about what people think.. I'm living my life and I will share my love , affection and friendship with those that are cool with me.. ?
Bottom line.. I will be more careful with people that seem too good to be true ,, because I found out the hard way , If its too good to be true,, it is,, ? If something feels good , in time it fades away if its not based on true friendship.. I mean who am I kidding? How close can you get with anyone? for 2 weeks and 1 hour talk.. its just a dream ride , like my best friend said ,, So true my friend.. Its like will I ever learn.. Perhaps , this is time to live and learn and protect your heart , because some people could care less and it hurts only you,, and believe me. I have hurt too may times,, I know my time on earth is ending.. I mean. this is the final chapter in life, I don't need to be around people that are negative and don't really feel happy for my accomplishments.. I realize that now,, The ones you though had your back, ends up being your betrayer. I hope my betrayer doesn't kill me.. ?? Emotionally?because ,, I cant take anymore heart aches in my life.. right? I mean..we are only human. strong as we think we are.. We need to be around people that loves us unconditionally with no unselfish or jealous thoughts .. and of course unlimited Patience and care that your rarely find.. True friends are patient and let things be..
But based on what I have seen.. The True friendships at work have aligned and the losers, betrayers, the jealous ,and haters are hating on me. But sometimes,,you have to say "Its mind over matter I don't mind , because they don't matter!! Until my next Blog.. Be happy and be with those are true to you!
THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @2017
My life continues to be a story book, some are like fairy tales and other times its A horror film or tragic comedy.. Once upon a time MY new found friends . G, K , E , B etc were tail gate buddies at work.. What is that? Well it all started when K would listen to music with his expensive ass sitting chair. This chair can be a back pack m a mini storage , a table,, Its expensive , but hey to each is own.. Then we had G , my best friend now? My brother from another mother. Man, we are 2 peas in the pod.. We just clicked,, we laugh , we know the same songs,, the same movies,, Its like we grew up in different lives but we experienced the same damn things,, from hard ships , to break ups to losing friends. I love that guy,, not in a gay way , more like a brother.. We had it all , we were laughing , telling stories,, sitting out in the sun.. and just chilling.. watching everyone drive by or walk by ,, was always a trip.. we would see happy smiles,, or joyful laughter. I mean grown ass muscle building, military vets.. sharing time together. That's one thing I really miss about my military days,, I miss those steel beach picnics,, the parties,, the talks.. we bonded because we had too. Our lives depended on it,, I haven't had that feeling since I retired,,??/
Until now,, I finally Home, I like where I'm at.. Its a great feeling ... to be somewhere where you feel such love and respect .. I mean I can see it in many workers eyes.. When I decided to buy treats on Friday.... Lets see Donuts, Bagels , Pastries, Muscle Drinks , Peanuts, They love me.. and I love my co workers.I Talk to everyone,, even the ones that maybe bitter or angry.. I don't know I like to see all people happy whether or not people like me or not.. Its a curse I guess. I like happiness in the work place,, But having that " Curse" can be troublesome.. explain.. Well One morning ,, I was really tired in fact my car pool buddy called me to say I'm not coming in.. I said cool,, I actually just woke up and I was tired myself I said I need a break.. But... it seems too many people need me to be at work? I never ever missed a day,, I miss one day,, the whole place goes crazy,,I mean.. I can get sick , I cant get tired , depressed.. Its the Curse I have,, because ever day no what or how I'm feeling I put on my smile, my laughs the jokes , the singing,.!1 Does it get old, Yup,, I am the most unselfish , most unconditional person you can meet. I will go way out of my way to help people.. To please people, even though I haven't slept for days , or I'm worried about things in life,, I get to work,, since whenever I have to be this Magical guy that spreads joy and energy,,,
Now True friends,, based on what has happened in my life. True friends,, don't fight over petty things, they don't dis respect you or think things that aren't true,, like copy cat. or copying me,, really ??friend,? . I was damn tired!! ,, you knew I was tired!!, but like I said.. Most people really just think of themselves.like you did !!!. Take care of their needs,, in other words, use people,, But to be honest we all use people for something.. Like for attention , for love, for support , comfort,, especially if your not getting it from your loved ones? I mean its funny how the closest ones in our lives hurts us the worst.. Why? Because we have opened our hearts and minds to them and they know how to make us happy , but they also know how to hurt you too.. That's why,, true friends are rare to find. I have maybe a handful of friends in my life. Jo, Tony , Colin , Greg.. Annie , and maybe another one? I believe she is , because I opened my heart and wrote my life story to her.. But I guess like the other girls I opened up my life story to them.. They did it for entertainment , or attention , or as one girl said,, I felt sorry for you,, Really is any of that is true??, I don't want your friendship.. That may hurt , but playing with peoples emotions, or only leaving oneself available when you need it? To me is not true friendship.. Like I have found,,, True friends . have unconditional , unselfish , and unlimited love for you. They don't get jealous , or feel pressured to do things for you because they owe it to you,, True friends do it because they feel it , they want to and they know their efforts will not go unnoticed.. That's why those names I mentioned are my true friends, they don't judge me, or make fun of me,, they feel with me..they laugh with you , not at you.. I know maybe I'm too harsh on people, I just like to give all my love and affection to people, Anyone that knows me.. I go full throttle,, I know that has scared many people, and so be it.. Its just the way I am... ? Maybe in time my friendship with that special friend will recover or what? But you know life is too short to deal with friends that don't want to share things with me. I will be there for them if they want it, I mean ,, why did I do to cause anyone to run away from me.. I know I'm loud , proud ,, even embarrassing , but its me.. Its what I am..anything else would not be me..Maybe what we had was just a foolish dream , a foolish time in our lives,, well it felt like real.. the tears I cried , the laughs , we shared those were real.. But like I said,, some people are scared to get close to anyone because they are afraid to open up their failures in their life.. or insecurities... Its ok... Like I said ,, I have faith in God,, and I look to him to guide me and point me in the right direction,, Because IT seems at work,, i haven so many disappointments , misunderstandings.. and broken friendships , over rumor, gossip , perception etc.. But hey , I'm not worried about what people think.. I'm living my life and I will share my love , affection and friendship with those that are cool with me.. ?
Bottom line.. I will be more careful with people that seem too good to be true ,, because I found out the hard way , If its too good to be true,, it is,, ? If something feels good , in time it fades away if its not based on true friendship.. I mean who am I kidding? How close can you get with anyone? for 2 weeks and 1 hour talk.. its just a dream ride , like my best friend said ,, So true my friend.. Its like will I ever learn.. Perhaps , this is time to live and learn and protect your heart , because some people could care less and it hurts only you,, and believe me. I have hurt too may times,, I know my time on earth is ending.. I mean. this is the final chapter in life, I don't need to be around people that are negative and don't really feel happy for my accomplishments.. I realize that now,, The ones you though had your back, ends up being your betrayer. I hope my betrayer doesn't kill me.. ?? Emotionally?because ,, I cant take anymore heart aches in my life.. right? I mean..we are only human. strong as we think we are.. We need to be around people that loves us unconditionally with no unselfish or jealous thoughts .. and of course unlimited Patience and care that your rarely find.. True friends are patient and let things be..
But based on what I have seen.. The True friendships at work have aligned and the losers, betrayers, the jealous ,and haters are hating on me. But sometimes,,you have to say "Its mind over matter I don't mind , because they don't matter!! Until my next Blog.. Be happy and be with those are true to you!
THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @2017
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