What would you do if you love and hate your job ?
Well imagine working at a place that’s full of gossip and rumors and people talking good and bad about the department you work for . Imagine a job where you go out of your way to make the place a safer place to be . Your asked to protect people from harm and you tasked to provide services that require time and effort , But people think your job is easy , well that’s a job of a public safety Officer your asked to be a escort when patrons are scared of being robbed . Your asked to be a judge when patrons argue so you have to be peace maker . But if you do too much Force you get talked to and if you dint do enough Force .. you get talked to .. in other words it’s a thankless job .. A lot of the days your wondering whose going complain about what your doing ! Imagine a place where if you talk too much you get written up and if you don’t talk enough your timid .. What gives ? Your Damned if you do and vice verse .. yes it’s a thankless job people curse you out call you nigger or jap or Hispanico whatever that is ..? I’m not sure if the words piss me off or Their attitude ., well anyways this is my plight one day your the hero by kicking out a drunk .. then the next day your fucked about stupid ass other shit .. it’s kind of a job most people would leave . Like I said I admire people that like doing this job .. the stress the bullshit is overwhelming at times .. but for some reason myself and fellow officers come back every day .. But it’s not easy .. then of course we have females that talk shit about you and you have to deal with it .. imagine being told the girls think
Your gay .. why because I chose not to talk to these bitches .. You act professional
Then they say shit like that .. but I laughed it up but it still affected me .. But one thing I learned about people and life ., People at work places size you up or judge you in the first weeks your there and some will change their minds ..and others will stick to their original feelings about you ..would you like working at a place like that .. Sounds frustrating and crazy .. The problem
With public safety your fighting boredom most of the time ! There’s so much walking around and standing around waiting for things to happen.. The thing Is when things go down you Have to be ready to go .. yea it’s a crazy place to work especially people says shit about you and have no idea who you are .. So the best thing to do is do your job and go home , but any work place is full of drama and gossip and just pisses me off when you’re cool with someone one day the next day your on their shit list .. I don’t know maybe guys just have friendships with guys because we don’t care about bull shit stuff unlike girls that worry about shit .. In other words bitch bitch bitch .. this and that !! Is there a Lesson in this ..? Not really you have to deal with people ..you can’t be in a plastic bubble immune to things ., life doesn’t work that way .. So we work out we watch movies or play video games or you take it out on patrons that get too drunk and you have to remove them .. It’s sounds bad but I did that In my military days and it’s doesn’t stop right now !! Just imagine a place like that , perhaps it describes work places around the world ..Maybe that’s why we have road rage issues or work place violence , people are emotional especially if someone accuses you of something or assuming your gay or what? What would do if you had to deal with shit things like this .. ? To be honest I’m freaking fed up and ready to work some place else .. !! But like my last blog I found some cool friends but I wonder now if they are truly friends or just setting me up
For dissapointment that seems to follow me at every workplace ,,is it karma or just the fact every workplace has its ups it downs and it’s up to to deal with it or leave .. its just life .. you live on you move on ., I choose to live on and move on ., which could mean should I stay or should i go
What would you under these conditions .. well it’s the weekend .. I’m gonna enjoy things I live to do work out 🏋️♀️ Play with my guns and just relax until
The next week where the same damn cycle rolls on by !
Until my next blog take care and be strong !
The Source Productions @ 2020
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Friday, February 28, 2020
Sunday, February 23, 2020
What would do ? If an intruder came to your home !?
What would you do if an intruder came to your home !? Inspired by Gun Control Activists !
Ok , what would I do if an intruder came to my house ? Well if I have no guns , I would not confront them because most likely they do and yelling or telling them get out of here is really not going to stop the threat ! My guess I would lock myself in my room grab my knife and call 911 and pray and hope the cops get there before the intruders rob my house , break or shoot open my door and probably shoot me down .. Because dead people can’t accuse you or point you out in a line up . I mean that’s what the gun activist are saying when they implement all these fuckrn laws the crooks don’t give a fuck about ! If anything your making the crooks more confident in doing home invasions or brazen robberies because they are not scared ! Why would they common citizens are required to go through extensive back ground checks to buy guns to buy ammo , they have to take extensive courses to get conceal carry licenses etc ,, So with no gun other then my knives and swords and bows and arrows I’m defenseless against a gun toting intruder or intruders ,, it’s a sty thought but for those who don’t own a gun or rifle it’s something you must think about ? Yea I know the news just hyped up the crimes that happen but guess what crimes are happening and I don’t know about you I don’t want to be a fbi stat , right !? So I take my precautions alarms , cameras , motion lights . Barking dog .. to keep my house safe .. But if your attacked at home with no weapons your only defense is call 911 and hope they can save your life ! Yea right , it only takes seconds to empty a pistol rifle or AR 15 in you .. so gun activists.. your theory is don’t haven weapons and call a already over burdened 911 system And cops that are overworked , undermanned and stressed out .. yea, Where I live there’s one city withn150 ,000 residents and another 150,000 people in that city and my city is at 60,000 and growing do your looking at 360,000 in just 3 cities yea the cops are going to get to you in time , not ! It’s funny the people that say you don’t need guns , have their gated communities and security with guns .. But for us common citizens it’s fend for yourself syndromes.. This real life in America , there’re bad people with bad intentions ,, The only way to deal with bad guys with guns is good guys or gals with guns ,, Some states in the US got it right with open carry and the right to carry at all times ,, because if you try something in Texas m, rest assured there’s others around you with guns to gun you down . But commie fornia wants you to be at the mercy of criminals ,, Yea what would you do if someone came into your house right now to do harm to you and your family .. Call 911.. lock your family in a safe room ? And wait .. for the inevitable ending .. ?? It’s scary to think of such a scenario would happen to you and your family and you have no gun ?
Now , what would I do ? Well my family is trained in martial arts and they know how to shoot all of my weapons .. So , if intruders make that mistake it’s gonna be hell fire shots fired at them.. I have no hesitation protecting myself and my family and my family feels the same way , that’s why we train monthly at the range and we go through scenarios of shooting positions so if or when someone or more people come into my uninvited ,,Well they will see the tactical light and flashes of fire from myVariety of weapons .. Yea , that’s my argument on why I buy own and train with guns because the life I save may be my own.. You only have one life to live so I choose to fight and take my chances then be a sitting duck hiding in my room calling 911 and hoping they get there !! Now you non gun owning people what would you do or what could you do if you have no guns in your house ! Until
My next blog , take care and be safe !
TheSourceProductions@2020 !
Ok , what would I do if an intruder came to my house ? Well if I have no guns , I would not confront them because most likely they do and yelling or telling them get out of here is really not going to stop the threat ! My guess I would lock myself in my room grab my knife and call 911 and pray and hope the cops get there before the intruders rob my house , break or shoot open my door and probably shoot me down .. Because dead people can’t accuse you or point you out in a line up . I mean that’s what the gun activist are saying when they implement all these fuckrn laws the crooks don’t give a fuck about ! If anything your making the crooks more confident in doing home invasions or brazen robberies because they are not scared ! Why would they common citizens are required to go through extensive back ground checks to buy guns to buy ammo , they have to take extensive courses to get conceal carry licenses etc ,, So with no gun other then my knives and swords and bows and arrows I’m defenseless against a gun toting intruder or intruders ,, it’s a sty thought but for those who don’t own a gun or rifle it’s something you must think about ? Yea I know the news just hyped up the crimes that happen but guess what crimes are happening and I don’t know about you I don’t want to be a fbi stat , right !? So I take my precautions alarms , cameras , motion lights . Barking dog .. to keep my house safe .. But if your attacked at home with no weapons your only defense is call 911 and hope they can save your life ! Yea right , it only takes seconds to empty a pistol rifle or AR 15 in you .. so gun activists.. your theory is don’t haven weapons and call a already over burdened 911 system And cops that are overworked , undermanned and stressed out .. yea, Where I live there’s one city withn150 ,000 residents and another 150,000 people in that city and my city is at 60,000 and growing do your looking at 360,000 in just 3 cities yea the cops are going to get to you in time , not ! It’s funny the people that say you don’t need guns , have their gated communities and security with guns .. But for us common citizens it’s fend for yourself syndromes.. This real life in America , there’re bad people with bad intentions ,, The only way to deal with bad guys with guns is good guys or gals with guns ,, Some states in the US got it right with open carry and the right to carry at all times ,, because if you try something in Texas m, rest assured there’s others around you with guns to gun you down . But commie fornia wants you to be at the mercy of criminals ,, Yea what would you do if someone came into your house right now to do harm to you and your family .. Call 911.. lock your family in a safe room ? And wait .. for the inevitable ending .. ?? It’s scary to think of such a scenario would happen to you and your family and you have no gun ?
Now , what would I do ? Well my family is trained in martial arts and they know how to shoot all of my weapons .. So , if intruders make that mistake it’s gonna be hell fire shots fired at them.. I have no hesitation protecting myself and my family and my family feels the same way , that’s why we train monthly at the range and we go through scenarios of shooting positions so if or when someone or more people come into my uninvited ,,Well they will see the tactical light and flashes of fire from myVariety of weapons .. Yea , that’s my argument on why I buy own and train with guns because the life I save may be my own.. You only have one life to live so I choose to fight and take my chances then be a sitting duck hiding in my room calling 911 and hoping they get there !! Now you non gun owning people what would you do or what could you do if you have no guns in your house ! Until
My next blog , take care and be safe !
TheSourceProductions@2020 !
True Friend .. Inspired by people I work with ..
True Friends . Inspired by people I work with ..
I’m a DPS Officer at a Riverside casino .. I have been there almost a year and I have met quite a few people . Some that are characters and annoying and others that have become friends ..My coworkers are something else I mean I Work with Cowboys that are gun toting
Anti establishment Trail Blazers that would be awesome to be with in a gun fight . I’ve learned so much from them about gun care , what kind of weapons they prefer and like to use . For me you should listen to all gun owners because they all have different perspectives about weapons systems and what to use under any conditions .
But I have met others that are not in my Dept like the dealers when times are slow I engage in talks and it’s interesting to hear about their life and times , one thing I found out is people like to talk . And if your a good listener and non judgement people will talk .. Some just like telling you things .one of my new found friend is a dealer no names because I realize people these days enjoy their privacy .but I will say this .. I have met good people and this one is really good . So generous and caring in fact maybe too caring .. because we all know people these days use one another if you let them but this person buys donuts for her coworkers . She’s invites them to eat dinner which included myself I mean I thought I was just a worker friend .. right just someone you talk to at work . But to consider someone to hang out is a cool desl because now your choosing to be with people .. But sometimes I’m life you just click with people , you know what i mean ? It’s like you say or think similar things without trying ..!well that’s a cool feeling to relate to people .. Noe that I’m older I’m kind of picky with who I hang out with .. I just don’t hang out to kill time . I chill with people relate to .. Makes sense ? I’m a busy person with full time hours and I enjoy working out and I love my muscle car and gun collection .. Which takes up a lot of my time .. plus doing gardening and house cleaning my days are busy.. But I’m one of those types that like to keep busy.. Having hobbies and things to do helps me deal with the stresses of life . I feel people should have hobbies and share your knowledge and times with people that may enjoy what you do !! That’s why I post videos of me dancing or doing martial arts or gun shooting .. I also enjoy posting my thoughts and experiences with my blogs..
So my definition of a true friend is someone that is honest and caring ., Some one that doesn’t judge you or make you feel pressured .. sometimes feeling comfortable with people is the biggest key you have a friendship .. one thing a true friend does is don’t take things for granted or don’t appreciate what friends do .. It sounds so simple .. but when you do the little things like ask How they are or how they are feeling .. Just makes the day .. u know what I mean ? It’s the little things that count it shows you care and your important to them ! I know this sounds to corny but that’s what people look for when it comes to friendships.. Some have their face book friends and other have their hang out friends and some have their true friends ., Those are the ones your not obligated to call or text them every day ., Don’t pressure you to do things .. You know you have a true friends when you can csall them for a ride or text them for something .. True friends do things because they want to not because they feel they have too. People do or say things because they feel like their love and caring will be returned ! Makes sense ? Well I feel like I found some good friends at the casino .. I try not to ask for help but if I did too I feel like the friends I would turn to would help me out .. Like I said earlier I’m picky about who I hang out with .. I have to feel comfortable and safe .. Finding true friends are hard to find .. But my advice when you find people you’re comfortable with I suggest you keep them as friends ..To me sharing your interest and spending time with friends is what makes life wonderful .. There’s too much sadness and depression in the world ..’To have true friends that make you feel good is the true gift in life .. So to my hand full of true friends I hang out I’m truly thankful and until my next blog .. Enjoy your life and be happy !
The Source Productions @2020!
I’m a DPS Officer at a Riverside casino .. I have been there almost a year and I have met quite a few people . Some that are characters and annoying and others that have become friends ..My coworkers are something else I mean I Work with Cowboys that are gun toting
Anti establishment Trail Blazers that would be awesome to be with in a gun fight . I’ve learned so much from them about gun care , what kind of weapons they prefer and like to use . For me you should listen to all gun owners because they all have different perspectives about weapons systems and what to use under any conditions .
But I have met others that are not in my Dept like the dealers when times are slow I engage in talks and it’s interesting to hear about their life and times , one thing I found out is people like to talk . And if your a good listener and non judgement people will talk .. Some just like telling you things .one of my new found friend is a dealer no names because I realize people these days enjoy their privacy .but I will say this .. I have met good people and this one is really good . So generous and caring in fact maybe too caring .. because we all know people these days use one another if you let them but this person buys donuts for her coworkers . She’s invites them to eat dinner which included myself I mean I thought I was just a worker friend .. right just someone you talk to at work . But to consider someone to hang out is a cool desl because now your choosing to be with people .. But sometimes I’m life you just click with people , you know what i mean ? It’s like you say or think similar things without trying ..!well that’s a cool feeling to relate to people .. Noe that I’m older I’m kind of picky with who I hang out with .. I just don’t hang out to kill time . I chill with people relate to .. Makes sense ? I’m a busy person with full time hours and I enjoy working out and I love my muscle car and gun collection .. Which takes up a lot of my time .. plus doing gardening and house cleaning my days are busy.. But I’m one of those types that like to keep busy.. Having hobbies and things to do helps me deal with the stresses of life . I feel people should have hobbies and share your knowledge and times with people that may enjoy what you do !! That’s why I post videos of me dancing or doing martial arts or gun shooting .. I also enjoy posting my thoughts and experiences with my blogs..
So my definition of a true friend is someone that is honest and caring ., Some one that doesn’t judge you or make you feel pressured .. sometimes feeling comfortable with people is the biggest key you have a friendship .. one thing a true friend does is don’t take things for granted or don’t appreciate what friends do .. It sounds so simple .. but when you do the little things like ask How they are or how they are feeling .. Just makes the day .. u know what I mean ? It’s the little things that count it shows you care and your important to them ! I know this sounds to corny but that’s what people look for when it comes to friendships.. Some have their face book friends and other have their hang out friends and some have their true friends ., Those are the ones your not obligated to call or text them every day ., Don’t pressure you to do things .. You know you have a true friends when you can csall them for a ride or text them for something .. True friends do things because they want to not because they feel they have too. People do or say things because they feel like their love and caring will be returned ! Makes sense ? Well I feel like I found some good friends at the casino .. I try not to ask for help but if I did too I feel like the friends I would turn to would help me out .. Like I said earlier I’m picky about who I hang out with .. I have to feel comfortable and safe .. Finding true friends are hard to find .. But my advice when you find people you’re comfortable with I suggest you keep them as friends ..To me sharing your interest and spending time with friends is what makes life wonderful .. There’s too much sadness and depression in the world ..’To have true friends that make you feel good is the true gift in life .. So to my hand full of true friends I hang out I’m truly thankful and until my next blog .. Enjoy your life and be happy !
The Source Productions @2020!
Wednesday, February 12, 2020
Love at First sight .. Based on true events..
Once upom a time , when I was a plain clothes security agent at Hotel del Coronado, I was living the single life.. I mean a few years back I went through a messy break up with a lontime girlfreind.. Lets call her lana.. not her real name , but she was beautiful, sexy , love to dance and liked the same things I liked.. We are perfect in love. But as time went by . she dropped the bomb on me saying its over. and I knew it was hard on her to say it but i give her credit and respect that she admtted her new love and I met her.. yes.. I met her, It was devastating I took it wrong.. really wrong I got depressed then I got mad so yes I was a man whore, love them and leave them. tease them and please then.. I was hurt.. so this went on for years.. then.. I met the love of my life.. a simple , sweet smiling girl from the islands.. I was in love,, in fact the girl i was talking to in the parking lot,, I said I'm in love,, she said your crazy,, you dont know anything about her,, if shes married, has boyfriends,, etc.. I said i dont care.. Shes the love of my life... and then I pursued her like a stalker, sent flowers, sent cards , pictures,, but nothing i would walk by smile, but I never intorduced myself,, crazy huh, I mean other girls,, I wasnt afraid to talk and ask them out,, her... I was star struck i was shy? So after 3 months or so. I walked by her in the parking lot,, intorduced myself, and asked her she got everything i gave her,, she said, yes, thank you, I said thats it!! She said I'm taken,, I have a boyfriend,, I was heart broken,, but I said its only a boy friend.. so to speak,,,I said,, let me take you out one time,, and if you dont like me or what,, I wont bother you anymore.. we went out and it was magic. we laughed, we joked, we kissed we hugged,, we fell in love and soon after he broke up with her guy and I dropped all my girls.. was it easy.. fo rme.. it was because they were just party girls they were fun things,, With Donna , not her real name.. I found my soul mate , the one that was going to bear my children and raise them well and be my companion for life and what a life we had,, we lived in washington state in japan, and seen places like hong kong germany , bejing , italy. hawaii.. we saw the world, and we enjoyed every single minute,, of it.. and I still beleive we can still enjoy the rest of our lives. I mean how can anyone throw away over 20 years of marriage over a mistake , over a misjudgment , a weakness in time,, We are just human.. we are prone to temptations and mistakes.. but if you cant forgive someone, then its no use. I mean God gave up his son , so that sinners would be forgiven.. and that we could go on wit life. if anything.I learned that we are only human , we going to do things to hurt one another. but the key is to forgive and move on,, but some,, pride , ego image ,perception, self ishness controls evertyhting, controls wisdom rational thought ,love..Im not mad at the ones that have left me , every relationship i have had I enjoyed and wil chersih it for the rest of my life. One lesson i learned is Love is fleeting its elsuise, its hard to grasp or define its definton,, but its soemthing we all want and yearn for,, it like working out, the endorphins produced is like nothing else in life it addcitbve,, like driving fast.. i do it,beause its a thrill. its a passion that like a drug,, the more you do it the more you need it and the faster you drive,, the faster you need to.. its dangerous , and someday could kill me.. But like love.. when you love someone so much that it kills you slowly,, you cant help it,, its addictive , it manipuluative its deadly.because your rational , practial mind tells you,, its time to move on and enjoy your life, while the imaginative, romantic, poetic , sexy side says,, stay with it.. But if you do it ,and its killing you, mentally , physically ans emotioally,, how the hell can this be love.. ? Its a sick , love that never grew up, its a sick love for someone you fell for many years ago..so you keep fooling yourself and others that you are in love.. but your actions your words say otherwise. its sad ,,to think people in such relationships,, coldnt just stop it sooner.. instead of letting go on for so many years.. to the point,, youcant even be friends , you cant even be cordial,, you cant even stan one another.. what a shame, how deep love,, can become deep hatred and resentment. but it happens,, I know I have seen it I have lived it and I have survived it? or amI.. just slowly wilting away, not eating well , not sleeping , not living,, but just going through the motions,, living that way can get youkilled or someone killed, because you cant see the reality of things,, you imagine how things use dto be annd you think based on your ego,, you can fix anything ..but after so many failed relationships,, and not truly fnding oneself,,it seems being alone and being a lost soul is where I am.. In the past few years no names, but I have atended funerals and heard about clasmates friends that have killedthemselves or died under suspicious matters. For me...I coldnt understand why anyone can do that to themselves,, but living through the emotional hell i have been through,, I understand I can empatize with them,, because the pain and misery of living can be so unbearbale so hopeless , that death seems like the answer. Yea,, I know think about your kids ,your family your firends,,if you kill yourself, look at the lifetime pain and misery you left with them.. and the guilt complex those around would feel especially if you were on bad terms.. Life is great when things are going well. but life can seem like a burden ifthings are horrible.. When your depressed days seems to last forever an that ray of light that spark of hope .. doesnt seem close enough to grasp.. Thus,,, Love at first sight , was the most amazing thing I ever felt, but true love conquers all. temptation, frustration.. I hold no grudges or hatred towards any of the women that fell out of love with me.. I respect the ones that broke it off and made it clear why they did? And I figured ,,, the love of my life would last forever ! But I’ve learned everything comes to an end .. it’s what we call life . Life has no favorites life can be happy . Sad , tragic , etc in other words nothing last forever !? Until my next blog just think about things and enjoy what you have!
The Source Productions @ 2020..
The Source Productions @ 2020..
What ruins a friendship? Based on life events
What ruins a Friendship? Based on life events ..
What ruins a friendship? Well first of all to me friendship is respect , its honoring your friend and having patience and undertanding. A true friend is there to help you like when MY friend's card didnt work at the car wash. I didnt hesitate to pay for it. Its wasnt done to earn trust or love, it was done to help him out and of course he paid me back buying lunches for me or what>
Now to what ruins a freindship,, when a person takes a friend for granted ? What do I mean , is that you think or feel that person will always be there! I know we say it and believe it, but you shouldnt over use it or over stay your welcome. I mean you shouldnt take advanatge of your friends time, like texting or calling at crazy hours. Even if they say its ok.. maybe it is. but when it affects their sleep or rest thats not good, and when they decide to turn off phone or block your number i doesnt mean they dont like or lovr4wwe you anymore, it means Give me a break friend? I know I took advanatgae of my best friend at times when I call him to much .. I mean.. like my dearly departed mama said. Its different when your gorwn up and have family ommittmets.. Its funny how things come back ,, But anyways, being too needy can also hurt a frienship,, I mean as much as you want to help someone ,, you need to control your needs. But thats why frendships end because one or both parties are too needy , too possesive and too unpredicatable.. I mean when your wondering what the hell is going on?. Thats not healthy and it wears at your mind and heart,which in time finally causes one or both to run away , take a break or simply shut down all the way. I know in life its hard to live anyways , so to try to figure another human being out is already a complicated task. Friendships are special when you really find it. Its takes time to really develop a true froendship, but being honest and truthful and open is a start , and builds that foundation ,, but respect is very important to me, what do i mean Like not saying hurtful things , like oh i dreamed about anther guy,, what the heck is that ? Thats a slap in the face , or asking a guy out while in a car pool deal. I mean what the hell are you thinking? I mean totally disrepect? I mean what you trying to make me jealous ? If anything it proves your a very insecure person , and thinking I'm going to get angry about it,? nope why? But thats what a silly inmatire friend does? Maybe because they think they are all that? Based on life experience what ruins friendships the most is taking them for granted because in the end when someone feels used and abused they grow tired they become frustrated and angry and finally they just give up caring and that’s the death sentence to friendships or relationships .. Not caring anymore kills anything ! Yea having true friends are so hard to find in this day and age of fake and phony people that only want people around that can help them . But then again we all use one another on social media , some entertain us , some inspire us , others make you think and some just are there .. whatever the case we all use one another for whatever reason .. Its what life is about .. we all need one another for attention for recognition, for approval .. We are animals that likes to have people around , that’s why we seek companionship , it’s more fun to do things with people then doing things alone ! So get out there and enjoy your friends and try not to ruin friendships but we often do that’s why having true friends are truly rare !Until my next blog enjoy life !
TheSourceProductions @ 2020..
What ruins a friendship? Well first of all to me friendship is respect , its honoring your friend and having patience and undertanding. A true friend is there to help you like when MY friend's card didnt work at the car wash. I didnt hesitate to pay for it. Its wasnt done to earn trust or love, it was done to help him out and of course he paid me back buying lunches for me or what>
Now to what ruins a freindship,, when a person takes a friend for granted ? What do I mean , is that you think or feel that person will always be there! I know we say it and believe it, but you shouldnt over use it or over stay your welcome. I mean you shouldnt take advanatge of your friends time, like texting or calling at crazy hours. Even if they say its ok.. maybe it is. but when it affects their sleep or rest thats not good, and when they decide to turn off phone or block your number i doesnt mean they dont like or lovr4wwe you anymore, it means Give me a break friend? I know I took advanatgae of my best friend at times when I call him to much .. I mean.. like my dearly departed mama said. Its different when your gorwn up and have family ommittmets.. Its funny how things come back ,, But anyways, being too needy can also hurt a frienship,, I mean as much as you want to help someone ,, you need to control your needs. But thats why frendships end because one or both parties are too needy , too possesive and too unpredicatable.. I mean when your wondering what the hell is going on?. Thats not healthy and it wears at your mind and heart,which in time finally causes one or both to run away , take a break or simply shut down all the way. I know in life its hard to live anyways , so to try to figure another human being out is already a complicated task. Friendships are special when you really find it. Its takes time to really develop a true froendship, but being honest and truthful and open is a start , and builds that foundation ,, but respect is very important to me, what do i mean Like not saying hurtful things , like oh i dreamed about anther guy,, what the heck is that ? Thats a slap in the face , or asking a guy out while in a car pool deal. I mean what the hell are you thinking? I mean totally disrepect? I mean what you trying to make me jealous ? If anything it proves your a very insecure person , and thinking I'm going to get angry about it,? nope why? But thats what a silly inmatire friend does? Maybe because they think they are all that? Based on life experience what ruins friendships the most is taking them for granted because in the end when someone feels used and abused they grow tired they become frustrated and angry and finally they just give up caring and that’s the death sentence to friendships or relationships .. Not caring anymore kills anything ! Yea having true friends are so hard to find in this day and age of fake and phony people that only want people around that can help them . But then again we all use one another on social media , some entertain us , some inspire us , others make you think and some just are there .. whatever the case we all use one another for whatever reason .. Its what life is about .. we all need one another for attention for recognition, for approval .. We are animals that likes to have people around , that’s why we seek companionship , it’s more fun to do things with people then doing things alone ! So get out there and enjoy your friends and try not to ruin friendships but we often do that’s why having true friends are truly rare !Until my next blog enjoy life !
TheSourceProductions @ 2020..
Sunday, February 9, 2020
Why I hated the military!
Why I hated the military !
Ok , I know I served over 20 years defending this great nation , I took an oath to defense against all enemies foreign and domestic ! I get rxi
it ! But the military screws with you ! From day one to my last day ! They own you everything you say or do or even wear is dictated by then ,, geez you even have to let them know you want to tattoo your body ! Yes your a piece of property and Uncle Sam owns your ass ! Yup I remember having stood a watch only to stand another one because some lazy ass gets sick or what so the military always punishes or used the gung Ho
Squared away dumb ass like me ! I always stood my watch , never late they always called me for watches or do Special assignments , yup I was a sucker , fell for that honor courage and commitment bull shit they brainwashed us into believing , so much crap you had to deal with long watched , long working hours , constant drills and exercises that drive everyone
Nuts ! I hated work ups that’s when you had to drill and practice fire fighting scenarios until you sweat yourself to death! We were
Always tired mentally physically and emotionally ! They didn’t care if your shipmate killed them selves jumping off the ship or getting into ship board accidents . I saw so many
Injuries and deaths I have trouble sleeping at night , I have nightmares and dreams about the tragedies I witnessed but guess what I survived but lots of veterans are struggling with family , friends and society , why ? Because we endured tremendous stress in the military the time away from family friends and normal life , a lot us have these demons that
Poke at out emotions at times of wr hear certain sounds or songs that
Bring us back to that scenario . At times I like talking to Vets about the old days but other times I cry about the missed birthdays and anniversary and such I missed a lot because
I made a choice to sacrifice my needs and desires to take care of my family ‘ I just wish the military spent more time helping vets before they got out ,, that one week class then
Offer you is not enough time to get you prepared for civilian life ! I struggled when I hit
Out , to be honest I still struggling but I found ways to
Cope like working put , reading and writing and gun collecting and sharing my knowledge with prople, it’s my coping mechanism, but for my fellow vets that are killing them selves at 22 a day it’s an alarming rate , but the news , the media only covers what people care about , the economy, sports , celebrities etc . They don’t care about the watch standers , the bullet blockers , the Pawns ♟ we are expendable in their eyes just give them their pensions and disability checks and have Veterans Day with parades they will be fine ! Hey I’m not knocking military service it gave me a life I couldn’t have if I Stayed a civilian !? But it’s a hard , lonely and stressful life that drains you when
it’s over!
It’s really hard to explain how vets feel when it’s over , relieved , depressed , guilty we lived while our shipmates and marines were being killed or they Killed them selves ! It’s a different
World and somehow through 12 years at sea , 7 deployments various wars and operations I made it but it was not easy and i hated every day about something that was going on! But if not for my great shipmates that helped with out issues on Liberty call yea we were idiots in foreign ports but we had to release our stress .. we hated the inspections , the drills , the exercises , the burial at seas ceremonies, we hated the working parties, the long working hours , the long lines to get off and on the ship we hated it all but in the end I hated leaving my shipmates behind when I transferred to a new command and start the same old routine of bull shot that went on for 20 years!
The military will make you or break you is what that scream at you in boot camp , they pumped us up thinking we are special, yes we are special to do watches to drill us until we fell asleep . We never got enough sleep or rest never got enough food or drink we never got anything but more work if you never complained ! I was a sucker I drank the cool aid I ate it up for over 20 years! But now that’s its over .. I can’t belove I let myself tolerate all that shit .. for that I hate myself for not bring strong enough or tough enough to get out and have a real life with my family , I know they suffered and sacrificed so much for me snd I’m grateful to them and I’m sorry I wasn’t there most of time ‘ All I can do is pray they forgive me and hope they understand the pain and suffering, we military folks have gone through to give them a stable life ! I hated every minute of it but I Did it for my family’s future! In life you deal with many heart breaks and sadness and joy , you have to enjoy the good times and be strong during the bad times ! I hated what the military exposed me to but I love financial stability it gave my family ! Until my next blog be strong !
The source Productions@2020!
Ok , I know I served over 20 years defending this great nation , I took an oath to defense against all enemies foreign and domestic ! I get rxi
it ! But the military screws with you ! From day one to my last day ! They own you everything you say or do or even wear is dictated by then ,, geez you even have to let them know you want to tattoo your body ! Yes your a piece of property and Uncle Sam owns your ass ! Yup I remember having stood a watch only to stand another one because some lazy ass gets sick or what so the military always punishes or used the gung Ho
Squared away dumb ass like me ! I always stood my watch , never late they always called me for watches or do Special assignments , yup I was a sucker , fell for that honor courage and commitment bull shit they brainwashed us into believing , so much crap you had to deal with long watched , long working hours , constant drills and exercises that drive everyone
Nuts ! I hated work ups that’s when you had to drill and practice fire fighting scenarios until you sweat yourself to death! We were
Always tired mentally physically and emotionally ! They didn’t care if your shipmate killed them selves jumping off the ship or getting into ship board accidents . I saw so many
Injuries and deaths I have trouble sleeping at night , I have nightmares and dreams about the tragedies I witnessed but guess what I survived but lots of veterans are struggling with family , friends and society , why ? Because we endured tremendous stress in the military the time away from family friends and normal life , a lot us have these demons that
Poke at out emotions at times of wr hear certain sounds or songs that
Bring us back to that scenario . At times I like talking to Vets about the old days but other times I cry about the missed birthdays and anniversary and such I missed a lot because
I made a choice to sacrifice my needs and desires to take care of my family ‘ I just wish the military spent more time helping vets before they got out ,, that one week class then
Offer you is not enough time to get you prepared for civilian life ! I struggled when I hit
Out , to be honest I still struggling but I found ways to
Cope like working put , reading and writing and gun collecting and sharing my knowledge with prople, it’s my coping mechanism, but for my fellow vets that are killing them selves at 22 a day it’s an alarming rate , but the news , the media only covers what people care about , the economy, sports , celebrities etc . They don’t care about the watch standers , the bullet blockers , the Pawns ♟ we are expendable in their eyes just give them their pensions and disability checks and have Veterans Day with parades they will be fine ! Hey I’m not knocking military service it gave me a life I couldn’t have if I Stayed a civilian !? But it’s a hard , lonely and stressful life that drains you when
it’s over!
It’s really hard to explain how vets feel when it’s over , relieved , depressed , guilty we lived while our shipmates and marines were being killed or they Killed them selves ! It’s a different
World and somehow through 12 years at sea , 7 deployments various wars and operations I made it but it was not easy and i hated every day about something that was going on! But if not for my great shipmates that helped with out issues on Liberty call yea we were idiots in foreign ports but we had to release our stress .. we hated the inspections , the drills , the exercises , the burial at seas ceremonies, we hated the working parties, the long working hours , the long lines to get off and on the ship we hated it all but in the end I hated leaving my shipmates behind when I transferred to a new command and start the same old routine of bull shot that went on for 20 years!
The military will make you or break you is what that scream at you in boot camp , they pumped us up thinking we are special, yes we are special to do watches to drill us until we fell asleep . We never got enough sleep or rest never got enough food or drink we never got anything but more work if you never complained ! I was a sucker I drank the cool aid I ate it up for over 20 years! But now that’s its over .. I can’t belove I let myself tolerate all that shit .. for that I hate myself for not bring strong enough or tough enough to get out and have a real life with my family , I know they suffered and sacrificed so much for me snd I’m grateful to them and I’m sorry I wasn’t there most of time ‘ All I can do is pray they forgive me and hope they understand the pain and suffering, we military folks have gone through to give them a stable life ! I hated every minute of it but I Did it for my family’s future! In life you deal with many heart breaks and sadness and joy , you have to enjoy the good times and be strong during the bad times ! I hated what the military exposed me to but I love financial stability it gave my family ! Until my next blog be strong !
The source Productions@2020!
My favorite firearm in my collection inspired by Mark
My favorite firearm in my collection !
Hello everyone , it’s been over a year since I’ve posted any written material . So here it goes , when it comes to firearms I don’t really have a favorite , because if it stops a threat it’s my favorite ! A shotgun is a potent powerful weapon but only carries 6 rounds so against multiple attackers your gonna be out shot so to speak . Plus it takes two hands to effectively shoot the weapon . Eliminating the use of cell phones to call police or medical Services’s in other words it’s hard to hold a suspect down unless you already gun them down . To me it’s weapon used in e bedroom if all else fails and I’m need stopping power to blow the threat d away ! A pistol like my Glock 17 or Sig 9mm or even my Smith and Wesson shield are better used because it’s smaller compact and easy to use . You can hold down an intruder while calling the police using one hand ! A shotgun makes that difficult to do . Now if your against multiple intruders I would be use my Ruger rifle that accepts Glock 17 magazines and it’s very accurate but a bit heavy under stressful conditions . My Ar15 is light small and easy to carry and shoot and just looks intimidating as hell , just seeing that pointed at you might make you decide to run the hell out of the house’ Now you get my point
About guns , it really depends on situations , but if your unsure about how many attackers you have or if they are armed the best bet grab the gun the has the most magazines , the most power and what you feel comfortable shooting. In my case I’m a addicted gun range fan I go to the range on a monthly basis and I’m proficient in all the weapons systems I own . But under a self defense scenario with unknown specifics I will go for my Pistol which I have a holster with multiple rounds and my Ruger rifle that can share my Glock 17 magazines because I don’t want to much power where my family or neighbors have collateral damage as much as I love my At 15 , I would probably hold off using such a powerful weapon in my house . But under stress I have all my weapons Ready by my side ready to stop any threat to my family and property ! So in conclusion my favorite weapon is the one the stops the threat and protects my family and property !
My advice to everyone buy and own guns that your comfortable and proficient in and practice , practice and teach gun safety to your family and friends because the life you save may very well be yours ! Have a great day until my next blog !
The Source productions @2020!
Hello everyone , it’s been over a year since I’ve posted any written material . So here it goes , when it comes to firearms I don’t really have a favorite , because if it stops a threat it’s my favorite ! A shotgun is a potent powerful weapon but only carries 6 rounds so against multiple attackers your gonna be out shot so to speak . Plus it takes two hands to effectively shoot the weapon . Eliminating the use of cell phones to call police or medical Services’s in other words it’s hard to hold a suspect down unless you already gun them down . To me it’s weapon used in e bedroom if all else fails and I’m need stopping power to blow the threat d away ! A pistol like my Glock 17 or Sig 9mm or even my Smith and Wesson shield are better used because it’s smaller compact and easy to use . You can hold down an intruder while calling the police using one hand ! A shotgun makes that difficult to do . Now if your against multiple intruders I would be use my Ruger rifle that accepts Glock 17 magazines and it’s very accurate but a bit heavy under stressful conditions . My Ar15 is light small and easy to carry and shoot and just looks intimidating as hell , just seeing that pointed at you might make you decide to run the hell out of the house’ Now you get my point
About guns , it really depends on situations , but if your unsure about how many attackers you have or if they are armed the best bet grab the gun the has the most magazines , the most power and what you feel comfortable shooting. In my case I’m a addicted gun range fan I go to the range on a monthly basis and I’m proficient in all the weapons systems I own . But under a self defense scenario with unknown specifics I will go for my Pistol which I have a holster with multiple rounds and my Ruger rifle that can share my Glock 17 magazines because I don’t want to much power where my family or neighbors have collateral damage as much as I love my At 15 , I would probably hold off using such a powerful weapon in my house . But under stress I have all my weapons Ready by my side ready to stop any threat to my family and property ! So in conclusion my favorite weapon is the one the stops the threat and protects my family and property !
My advice to everyone buy and own guns that your comfortable and proficient in and practice , practice and teach gun safety to your family and friends because the life you save may very well be yours ! Have a great day until my next blog !
The Source productions @2020!
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