WRITTEN WORDS HURT MORE THAN VERBAL.. inspired by all TEXTERS AND FACEBOOKERS

WRITTEN WORDS HURT MORE THAN VERBAL.
    Why? Because its there forever, its permanent and at times has more meaning to it than a verbal , response. Many people consider written to be more truthful and more revealing , because it takes a bit more time to write than speak.. Then why do people keep the texting thing in style? I mean what happened to talking , talking only gets down to the real emotions or feelings.. Writing is so hard to interpret.. because you cant tell if the person is joking , serious or just being playful.. I know now that any type of writing is hurtful,, even if its the truth. Perception is so strong in today's society, People see or read something and they immediately make judgements , whether they have proof or intentions with the words written. One thing is for sure , a good writer sometimes evokes feelings or emotions , they never thought possible. I mean most writers , write because of the love of expressing ones feelings and thoughts, but then others write to entertain and cause stir or reaction good or bad. What kind of witer am I , I'm a mixture of everything good and bad. often times , the good is seen , but the bad also is exposed and as we all know , the truth to the matter is,, we are humans , with emotions and no matter how strong or devoted we think we are , we still get jealous , we get envious ,  we suspect things , Its just human nature . Life is hard , nothing comes easy , whether its school , job, marriage , music, if you want something to work.. You have to work at it.. but at times some of us.. think , asking and asking for things that you think are well off , it not always the case.. Everyone is struggling in today's economy , high gas prices, high sales tax, food is expensive, entertainment , everything.. We don't have enough time to do things and we all have so much to do., We don't get enough sleep or rest and yet we still strive for more,, Well most of us do. Theres a few that don't work , ans ask for things and expect these generous people to keep giving.. Guess what I'm not rich or that smart and wise , but I do realize that nothing in life is easy , love , earning money , having a good family. I know i have taken things for granted and I'm willing to accept the consequences for my actions. Its called learning by living.. I know you cant go back in time , i mean I loved the good old days with classmates , but those days are gone.. We have to live in the present and take care of the things that are important. For me.. It's My family , My hard working and loving wife , who nearly died giving birth to my youngest child and of course my two wonderful sons, that are not the cleanest or neatest boys around.. I mean I grew up spoiled,, Mama did everything , so that passed on to my boys , but they do love their mama.. and care about here well being.. As I said or written earlier , the written word is so powerful that sometimes a good writer under estimates the power of the word. Word of warning : be careful what you write or post ,because depending on their moods or feelings at  the time, you may get a response you may not want or expect!! THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @ 2011

I love to show off!

I love to show off!! inspired story from someone you all know !!
  As you can tell with my twitter accounts , blogspot(thesource0001.blogspot) and youtube"Mythesource"  and fbook, I love attention! I Love to show off and entertain. A Natural Performer - clown - Artist? Well it started a very young age , 4 0r 5 performing Martial Arts stunts like leaping or doing nun chucks my favorite weapon next to the baston or Filipino Arnis sticks. I love the flexibility and the showmanship of these weapons.But I have suffered and will suffer many injuries , bruises and so on, because of my excessive use of these weapons. But I love it because it gives me a sense of expression and a sense of accomplishment and pride. To be in Martial Artists or fighting , you have to believe in yourself and the Art , and when you become a Master , like I consider myself, you no longer think about what your doing , it just becomes natural. What do I mean ? Well , you can improvise on techniques or moves and even make up ones that fit your physical perfections or ,limitations.. I love hand techniques more than foot , because The hand can move so much faster and be so fluid , compared to foot techniques. Well anyways , performing whether it Boxing , or dancing requires dedication and a commitment to the movements. People , will not believe in you if you don't trust in yourself, But whats odd ,I'm never satisfied with my performances , I always believe I can do 
better and I'm my own critic. But that's what makes a performer tick. They always want to perform no matter what circumstance , whether they feel good or not. A performer - performs ,, a talker - talks , a bull shitter - well You get the point. I've seen too many people , relatives who say or write things and its all non sense. But that's ok, they have to deal with that someday. As for me I love life and I consider every breath as a gift from God. That's why I have so much energy and charisma when I perform or teach people about Martial Arts , Law enforcement , boxing , life. I tell the truth and most people like that , Everyone hates liars or pretenders or even dreamers, because in this life , Its what you can do that counts , not what you say or think you can do.. People want action over words.. The old saying Action speak louder than words  Its so true. I walk the walk and I talk the talk as evident with my blogs and my you tube entries. Say what you will ,. I'm conceited , I'm cocky ,, But it what makes me the Confident person who fears only one thing the wrath of God. Nothing on this earth or by man , can our fear in me. I laugh at senseless fear and embrace life's journeys and adventures. In other words " I LOVE TO SHOW OFF! THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @2011

WHY ME? inspired from co workers...

WHY ME?
    I've been working for a long time, customer service, security , etc. One thing is common.. ?? Yes, complainers , whiners , in other words losers. I mean its one thing to be upset about policies or rules , but to complain about work itself.. Is idiotic. Why complain , when you damn well know the job needs to be done. But people just don't get it. Then when I lower the boom, yell or write people up suddenly I'm the bad guy. Well guys, it's me or you and 100% of the time I'm looking out for me .. So deal with it. But it has never changed it seems every job or place Ive been theirs haters.. People who just love to hate or complain.. Then No matter what you do they just don't like you.. I mean for a long time I tried to be friends with my co workers , it has worked the majority of the time , but I also have had my ordeals with people questioning my authority or decision making. one thing I learned once you make that decision , stick to it.. right or wrong people will respect consistency over wishy washy decision making. I know I've made mistakes in judgment but that's life , we live and learn and go on. My only wish is why cant these dumb asses get the point , the idea , the game plan. To be honest I rather work with a hand full of great workers than a large amount of people with to many whiners.. It just makes work place a miserable and tiring experience. Then again Why me? It seems throughout my career I had the opportunity to deal with misfits and out casts that are sent to me for correction or most of the time baby sitting. Yea, isn't that a shame grown men and women need to be reminded about the basic daily takings. But it happens daily .. and to be honest I'm tired of it. But what can I do quit.. I cant and I wont , but I just wish today's youth would get the idea of whats expected of them. Whose to blame ? Me.. Maybe , but I say its the way they grew up or didn't grow up . Parents , friends , teachers play a big part on how a person develops , and the many youths I deal with I see a large disconnect and false reality about life. Life my friends is no joke and the more you prolong growing up and realizing time waits on no one , the better today's youth will be able to handle life's struggles and journeys// Once upon a time I dreamed about being a Movie Star and auditioned for TV commercial , but I realized quickly that they're alot of good looking , talented people out there willing to do anything to be that star.. I knew I didn't have the spark , sure I had the dream , more like a fantasy,, But I quickly , came to my senses and became a good father and husband and friend who loves to share his life and experiences for all to learn..Why Me ? The Source productions @2011

NFL DRAFT 2011 is Coming!!

NFL DRAFT IS COMING !! 
  Yes, football is just around the corner , I know the Lock out , the CBA Agreement, but at least This Thursday April 28, 2011 , we get our first taste of football news and activity. Exciting , hell yeah , for those who love this game and have our favorite teams.. Right? Chargers, Raiders , 49ers , Rams , Saints , Patriots , are some of the favorites around , but whatever team you root for your eager to see what players your team is selecting. I know not every year produces a Peyton Manning or Ladainian Tomlinson , Barry Sanders , well of course not these guys come around once in a lifetime.. But you can find players that can help your team. So whats the theory or idea about drafting a player. Do you take the best player available ? Or do you look for team needs? Do you trade picks for more picks , or to move up in the draft like the Chargers did for Ryan Mathews, a nice kid , a solid athlete , but LT , perhaps not, but that's unfair to compare him to one of the greats. But to be honest it's his fault for wearing his number in college and telling people he idolizes LT. How funny the guy he idolized for so many years , he ended up replacing him.. But MATHEWS  doesn't need to be LT , he just needs to compliment the mini natrone Mean.. Mike Tolbert.. Thunder and lightening , it can work.. will it? Time will tell. Now back to the draft . The teams that need Qb's Carolina , San Fran , Raiders ? Should go after them while other teams should go after needs. But what happens when its your turn and the best player is still on the board , but you don't need a line backer or defensive back? Do you pass and take a marginal player or go for the star.. Me.. I say no matter what you take the best player available and build from there , but then again I'm speaking on a fans stand point , not a seasoned scout or team associate. I will always vote with my heart and my fan feelings. What makes the draft so exciting is that the experts are always wrong , it's like the teams listen to all the draft talk and decide the opposite of the experts so that they feel they made the decision , not some draft nerd spending all the night and weeks reading analyzing etc.. I mean just think about it, no team is going to show their hand or their intentions , but then again that's what makes the draft exciting. So kick back , relax and when the draft rolls around , get happy , upset , pissed off and realize that no one really knows what your team does or any other team and to be honest Be thankful for that , because it adds to the drama of the whole event and we all know the NFL loves drama and attention more than any drama queen out there , more than terrible Terrel Owens or Chad ocho cinco.. etc.. Quick pick Cam Newton , not the best player , but a needed player will be the Number 1 pick and then after that I see defense all the way,, The Chargers will select a Defensive or offensive Lineman.. and will take a Wide receiver in the second round , and draft more line backers or linemen to protect Philip Rivers.. If not expect a long season for the Bolts , because they need some impact players to start now and be a part of the special teams , that was so horrible and cost them many games last year and a shot at winning the division. I can't wait.. Can You ? The SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @ 2011

HAPPY EASTER 2011- inspired by "Our Saviour"

 Happy Easter - inspired by " Our Saviour"
    I would like to Say Happy Easter and all Religions of the world a glorious season to enjoy! Its important that we all celebrate life and encourage others to follow suit. I know Every year we all need a reminder , a relearning of what Jesus did for all of us. Whether your a Christian , Catholic or what I feel we all can appreciate or recognize what an ordeal he went through. Heck , the other day I had to sit on a steel deck on a cold ship for over an hour and it was uncomfortable and painful. But imagine being beaten and tortured , to the point of bleeding nearly to death and still be forced to carry a heavy cross to your final destination where you would be crucified and left to die while your family and friends watch this unimaginable site. I feel we all can learn from such a ordeal and take in account that we should be thankful for life. I love to take this part of the year as the Resurrection of the soul and a restart to continue our journeys through life. It's more than putting on your Sunday best and greeting one another at church or other social gatherings , but its important to recognize your faith and be strong and true to those who believe in you and love you. To celebrate your faith and your life to your family is friends is a moment that needs to be practised more often. I know in our hustle and run lifestyle , we often neglect , forget or just take for granted the gifts of life , I say every day take the time to reflect on whats important and what makes you happy. I know when I do that , the stresses , issues or problems in our lives are not so troublesome. I'm not saying it will solve your problems , but I feel you will have a better perspective on how to deal with them. 
   To my Loving Family , friends , I wish you a Happy Easter and a wonderful joyful year full of Journeys and memories to last a lifetime.. A SOURCE PRODUCTIONS@ 2011

BLOWN ENGINE - FORD - with Dad.. inspiration from Marco and The Mustang Crew..

Blown Ford Engine..
  ok, It wasn't a Mustang or any other race sports car back in the day . Ok it was a Pinto / Mercury Bobcat, remember guys? Well theres a reason they don't make them anymore , they sucked! I mean I spent more money fixing my car , than enjoying it.. All those hard night washing dishes at Chang's rice bowl.. ended up going into this Money pit I called the FORD - Fix or repair daily or Found on road dead!
  No, back to my horrible story , first off I rarely do anything with my dad, unless it was sport related like boxing or watching Padre or Charger games back in the day. But anyways, I was supposed to wake up early to drive him to work , it was summer break and i didn't mind other than the fact dad leaves for work at 6:oo am. even though work doesn't start until 8:oo a,m.. early bird . he was.. ok.,.
  Now , we are all set to go , but my gas tank is low , but before IO let him see that I start up the engine really quick, and step on the gas , guess what I blew out the engine on my street and the yelling and the insults rained down on me like flies on shit.. I mean, he was SO mad I think he wanted to kill me.. Well I was at a loss for words.. First time.. well I felt bad I blew out my rides engine , more than my dad being late for work., He wasn't.. But I was such a selfish self centered kid.. kind like the kids today. I mean kids want things now , the ability to wait , is gone because of the this high tech age of Internet , texting , TV, cell phones, blogs etc.. Kids today are not like us in a sense that we had to make our own fun back in the day.. Today's kids want satisfaction , right now , right here , and for that type of thinking good luck in the future with wives or husbands,, enough of that.
  Back to my story , needless to say , I never let the gas tank get low ever! and I learned that I never wanted to own a ford ever .. I mean later in life I worked in A Ford Dealership , but the experience I had was embarrassing and humiliating to say the least. Lesson learned , Patience and honesty , if I would just told daddy I was low on gas , and what , I could of avoided the tongue lashing , insults and the costly rebuilt engine that pretty much took all of my savings I had for my real dream car.. 1970's CAMARO, but because I was a hard headed , stubborn young dude , I suffered monetary loss and my chance at my dream car that I hope someday , maybe when i retire ,, I will get the ride I should of had many years ago... oh well you live and learn and this case , was a costly mistake that made that day and incident one of the most dreadful days of my life that affected my pocket book and my relationship with Papa.. Until the next story .. THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @ 2011..

Wrong outfit - Wrong concert ? inspired story from best friend Jo C..

Wrong outfit - Wrong concert ?
  Back in the day , after Montgomery's high school days, My buddy Jo and I were concert maniacs you name it , we went , Van Halen , Scorpions, Ozzy , Journey , Rush , and for those of us to rock , we know what to wear and how to blend in.. Right ? ok.. Now imagine this skinny Filipino kid with long hair dressed in tight ass jeans and bandanna's all over his pants and arms and head and looking like he should be a lead singer for some rock group..ok.,.
  The problem or the laugh on me was , The Concert was at The SDSU outdoor arena , for a Carlos Santana,, ok, That outfit probably would of worked if it was 1970 IN THE HEIGHT and fame of Carlos ,, not in the late 80's at a older crowd. Lets just say I was a massive distracion,. the looks and the murmurs and  the laughs and smiles was " priceless" , but did I care ? Of course not ,because this young blood dude wanted attention and still do. Maybe not as much , but I still like people looking at me.. Whether its in my tricked out truck , ot performing my Filipino Martial arts stick fighting or pop locking old school style , I love the attention. I mean when I get it , and I make sure I entertain people.. Well any one that knows me , realizes at any moment I could do  dance move at a restaurant , or after school play or football game , or better yet at a Charger game.. in front of thousands of people .. haha. But back to the story , the concert was awesome and the fun I had was great , but the greatest memory was how ridiculous  I looked dressed the way I was. But hey , When I was younger i wanted the attention and more times or not I got it. Did I do it again.. Of course i did,, I love drawing attention and being part of the scene, for those you have seen it at Montgomery Jr or High school or now called middle school and senior high school.. Those were the days,.,. Yeah , crazy outfit how about wearing a Charger Jersey at Oaklands Black hole.. needless to say I was sprayed with popcorn nachos and beer and all the curse words known to man,, but i survived , barely,,, Lessons , Be sure you wear the right gear , and be sure you have big dudes around you , to dare wear such outfits. But like the attention grabber that I was , I dared to be different , like the " Black Sheeps , the Barakada's , The Cholo's , The Surfers, Rockers of South Side - San Diego.. We dared to be different and lived life to the fullest , in other words : Be true to yourself, whatever that may be.. Until the next story take care and Live it up!!!! THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @ 2011!!

20 YEARS OF SACRIFICE - LIFELONG PAYCHECK!

20 years of sacrifice = lifelong paycheck - inspired story by Jacob Realzola...
  First off , I was very fascinated by my friends comments on FB.. Is it worth it? At first < i thought no way in today's Navy. But as My retirement nears , next year to be exact . I'm going to be very happy to get a Navy pension plan and a Disability rating due to my many injuries from Navy Service , Bad eye sight , hearting issues, back , foot and torn leg muscles and sleeping problems as well as high blood pressure and high cholesterol. Due to the high fat content I enjoyed at many at sea breakfast's.. But the real bottom line deal. After all this years of deployments , away from family and being in hostile environments and conditions. Long under ways, broken down toilets,, broken ventilation systems , no water , shower hours, liberty port restrictions, etc.. I must say it was worth it.. I didn't enjoy the arguments i started or were a part of. I didn't enjoy the passing over of promotion opportunities and the issues I raised about that. The stress of being a LPO at sea and handling Mail , as well as LPO on shore duty , and being somewhat overzealous at certain command functions. Yea,, a little alcohol and a hyper guy makes big trouble.. But do i regret those jokes and actions that I did ,, Of course not.. I enjoyed every moment - even though my loved ones and higher ups thought i was out of control.. But to be honest , I had a hell of run in the Navy.. I enjoyed the wild drinking parties at Thailand, Hong Kong , Australia.. and of course the sand box in the Gulf.. But it was something we all had to do,. to cope with the stress and life of a sailor.. Sure I said and did things I should not of said or done,. But hell. I enjoyed my liberty buddies and the good times I had .. I would never trade those memories or moments.. especially now,, The Navy has changed . We get constant training and reminders aout saying the right things or being sensitive to the feelings of others. Are they serious..? Yes,, That's why the Navy today is different , for better or worse it's different and because I grew up in a different culture and back ground.. I feel like a dinosaur in today's Navy. I,m ready to roll,. Its time for me to move on and be around people more my age,,, Because today's youth have no idea about real work or stress, shore duty stress , are u kidding me? But I must say , the actions I have done my shipmates will always love , to the Newscaster on my first ship , to the invention of the Source on my last ship to the creation and celebration of the SOURCE at one of my best Commands,, in regards to developing friendships and relationships. I want to thank Jasmine , Allie , Joe , Chris , Corey , Steve , Junel , Jereno , Troy , Michael , Action Jackson , Pua, Civiian Joe , Mr. B, Steve , Elva , hernand, and everyone else at ASD CORONADO.. I miss u guys and I wish you well and thanks for enjoying my writings and my rantings while I was working and dancing my way through my tour at ASD.You guys and gals made my last shore duty a fun and memorable experience i will never ever forget!! thanks a million... TAKE CARE ,, THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS.. @2011

OC SPRAY - GET BACK ! inspired story from some one I know..

OC SPRAY - GET BACK !
 ok, I'm told ,, that even though I gone through this two times , first in Japan Physical security program during the 9/11 attack < New York,, and again as part of the training on a small boy ship back a few years. Well anyways,, I go through the armed combat training , which according to my shipmates , said, I was happy and smiling.. why? I love fighting and showing off my moves.. I was the loud mouth , motivating guy,.,.we had top say " get back !  and my reply " You get back!' Yea, I was the leader , the motivator.. for that day..
  Now OC SPRAY day.. we had maybe 100 students. But when we take roll call and show up on the field of dreams.. we have maybe 60 or 7o ,, What the fuck happened to the others? Mad.. Yes,, why go through all the physical training and not step and finish the deal.. For me.. It makes u weak , and I hate to say it.. I will say your a weakling , a coward,, I mean I want guys or girls we had 3 that did it I not only admire them but I respect them with all my heart. I know they will do and protect me if choose to do,.. as for the cowards that freaked out.. Those fears you try to run from will always haunt you and Lord help u and me if a dangerous situation arises on the ship or real life.. Ok.. Maybe Im being to dramatic or even too hard on these guys , but it a mental attitude and a mental edge that separates us from other nations or armed forces. I still consider the United States Navy and our other services Marine Corps , Army , Air Forces as the best in the world.. I know , i see other countries with bigger armies or navies,, but I still think we win and I expect our training and desire to still win out. I still see some bad ass guys in the military and I hope I inspire those that want it to get it.. As for the others,, I suggest you leave the military and try something less violent or less mentally draining. Today's military guys and gals have to be adaptive and have to be motivating..
       ok.. Back to the day.. I was the last to get sprayed, During the day I motivating everyone to make it through. no one quit and i feel proud I kept everyone in the game so to speak.. I yelled instructions and encouraged everyone to succeed,, The Girls.. I'm very proud of you,.,. You are awesome and I respect the fact you did something , alot of guys are afraid to do,..,I expect great things from these girls.. as for me.. I yelled and screamed my way to finish the course,, it hurt,. my eyes was burning , and my body ached,, My heart and pulse was beating like crazy and because the sun was out. I was sweating and the spray was spreading all over my face and ears, and everything.. I was hurt. and My over zealous attack got to me at the end. I was so exhausted, plus being the last guy,, the made it alot harder , but it was a cool effect to have the whole crew watch me and cheer me on at each station.. sure it helped me finish,.,.and I must say.. I'm so fucking glad , it's over.. Afterwards my pinoy pares, helped me wash my face , buy me a soda and laugh about how fucked up it was to have such a painful spray done to us.. Afterwards,.,, we ll sat around laughed and waited, medical and safety reasons, so we have a diploma 's or certs presented to us.. and we all drive home.. What a day ? It was nice to see wifey and kids and telling them what i went through.. They all looked horrified.. I mean my face and eyes were red and I was still hurting... In fact it hurt until the next day.. and yes, I had reflash.. pain.. pain.. I'm glad its over , but I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy.. But beware if a Security or Armed forces police or any police orders you to obey him and he go for his OC SPRAY.. YOU BETTER SUBMIT.. because if you don't.. you will wish you had.. and you will suffer a pain..that is unbearable.. get back.. !! ha.. OC SPRAY IS NO JOKE.. !! TAKE CARE FOLKS.. until my next story... THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @ 2011

WILDEST UNDERWAY EVER ! AS TOLD BY someone I know...

WILDEST UNDERWAY EVER- Mar 2011..
     Ok, Guys and gals , its been a while since I posted anything . I've been busy, sea sick, suffering migraines and overall misery. Yes, Ive been in the navy or armed forces for a long time. But I have never experienced the head aches or the heart aches my last underway went. I wont say what ship or what command or even give names . I will say this , What the fuck makes a person want to jump off a ship in the middle of the night , when the water is cold and land , though you can see it . The freaking land is still far to swim too. Unless your a seal team guy or super strong dude, but when a skinny ass , dum ass kid tries it , damn me.. Whats worse or terrible I'm his immediate Supervisor, and of course they ask me whats up.. But heaven or gods way , he blames someone higher up , and why he did a stupid ass , fucked up thing like that. First off, I thought , What a fucking  idiot.. I mean if no one see him in time , he drowns , for what ? For a girls heart , or problems with a relationship. I mean this dude went 100 days straight underway time just last year and he cant last a five day underway time.. Go fucking figure.. excuse my language , but I'm a sailor who is old school and sometimes the curse words feed the effect , you know what I mean. Maybe not,, you have to be at sea on a ship with loud noises , and leaks every where , a cold sleeping area and bad food to really understand. I mean , if you haven't been on a ship and living the lonely life , its hard to imagine. But believe me,, time at sea is basically lost time.. Its time you cant bring back or earn back, the stress , hardships.. etc last a freaking lifetime...
   Bottom line.. I seen a lot of things , but the insanity and the weirdos I work with is amazing , whether your Chinese , Mexican , Filipino or what , to see such non sense is truly amazing. I cant explain how I feel other than I'm glad he didn't blame me at all, but it still bothers me , that this generation is too sensitive and look at life with such honor. I mean to take a chance like jumping off a big ass ship is crazy and dangerous . He could of easily broke his leg or knocked himself out , or what , but God was watching , thank God , but I hope I don't get first hand experience like that again.. I mean.. Not soothing . But I went on.. I have too. I have guys to supervise and inspections to pass.. But my next story.. Oc Spray.. wow.. what a experience that no one should ever endure.. Take Care.. THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @ 2011..