MY MENTOR FROM THE FAMILY.. INSPIRED BY FABZ AUSTRIA

 My Mentor from the Family . Fabz Austria...
 I have thanked so many people and more to come before the day is out , but one of my favorite family members from my wife's side is Mr Fabio Austria Jr, He is without a doubt the most caring , understanding and knowledgeable logistics specialist I have ever met., His reputation among the fleet and overseas followed him and when ever always I tossed his name around I garnered so much respect and honor from many shipmates. His reputation and impeccable record is second to none,, While In WA,, state he mentored me and advise me and actually trained me to make rank or get promoted at a very fast pace.. No other time in my career did I get as many awards and recognition is when I was under his tutelage, My only regret I wished I had him later and often in my career where my bad habits and youthful emotions got me into difficult situations so to speak. He taught me study skills and that positive energy that he still possess and we share quite a bond whenever we text or talk or what.
 At Parties, He's the maestro and I'm the performer, we work together whether its singing , dancing or telling stories.. we always create such a spectacle..and we always have fun.. I have nothing but respect and honor for the man who helped me start off on the right foot. HIS ADVICE and kind demeanor is a refreshing trait you often don't see in Navy Officers , but his down to earth persona and desire to teach is beyond explanation. I know he doesn't attention or what but I just want everyone in the AUSTRIA AND PARAS Family that this man was very instrumental in getting me straightened out and set on a fast track to promotion. I owe a magnitude of gratitude and honor for him, with out his direction and advice I would of or could of been kicked out or given up.. His strong words of encouragement when I was struggling with the Navy world.. Gave me the extra strength to re-enlist and take orders to Japan. I know it was a rough beginning and I made many youthful indiscretion's but His passion and love for his career just inspired me and I am eternally happy that his wisdom and knowledge were bestowed upon me and Helped mold and guide me when times were tough, He is a mentor a friend , a advisor , a true family member I humbly and respectfully call BROTHER. He never once tried to ridicule me , or insult me or make me feel bad , despite his elevated status in The Navy.. In our teams, We were partners in music making and performing and a true human being I love and respect and I wish him the best during his remaining years in the Navy and Greatly anticipate his retirement so I can embarrass him with a heartfelt thank you for all he has done for me and my family. Thank you Brother , you have impacted my life and instilled the values and beliefs that I still keep within me, The ideals of honesty , hard work and be true to yourself. Don't worry what others think of you,, Worry about how you feel about yourself. THE humble demeanor and low key persona is refreshing and enlightening and to you Sir , I owe a career that may not have happened if I didn't have those private talks in Seattle.. You are a great teacher , advisor and great friend that I'm not afraid to say has been the true inspiration for my career. Even though we went on different paths and progress I feel that together we became assets and true inspirators to the other family members because of our open ness and desire to make people happy and if in need we always offered a helping hand. Its those times were tough and you still reached out to me I will never forget. I know at times I was hard to understand and maybe still am. But one thing is sure,, My respect for your knowledge about life is hands down no contest. I learned so much from you just by watching how you treat people.. Its true ,, Good things happen to truly sincere and hard working people and I salute you not only as a fine Navy Officer , but one of the most talented and unselfish persons I have ever met in my life and I will never take our friendship and bonding we have created for granted.. My many years of success in the Navy is because I followed your principles and teachings and positive attitude that we still share whenever we get together at Family parties.. I never felt you disrespecting me or feeling envious of anything I have or own.. If anything I'm envious of your humility , caring and positive outlook on life regardless of whats going on.. Its those triats I recall when times were rough , which were many in my Navy Career,, Your words of wisdom carried me through,, and Now Its the end of my Military Career and I just wanted to give your proper thankfulness for what you have done for me and my family. Because of you , I stuck it out and made a fine career where I can now share time with my wife and kids that were patient and lonely while I was deployed 7 times and a few times 9 months at a time.. It wasn't easy , but now the benefits and appreciation I get from family , friends and people ,, when I say I'm retired.. But I;m too young to sit back and get fat, and look like a human Buddha, I have a collage degree to complete a job to attain and a secure future for my family .. I will take your wisdom into my new career and life.. I Thank you from the bottom of my heart.. Mr. Fabz.. your are my true mentor and I will never ever be able to repay for all the times I thought inspiring words.. My heartfelt gratitude to you sir and I'm thankful we are going to have more family outings and enjoy.. Each others artistic expressions of performing,.. Take care always brother Fabz and May all you wish for come true in your life. Because you deserve it all!!
THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @ 2013

Thank You ROWENA .. By Mel Paras...

Thank you ROWENA.. By Mel Paras..
 It was Dec 10, 2010, I was on leave ,vacation before reporting to my last Shore duty Commands IN Coronado.. One of my loving nieces moved into one of a couple of empty rooms in MY HUMBLE HOME.. At first . I was hesistant , We had borders so to speak and I went postal when I found out their little yapper dog pissed and shitted all over my rooms carpet,, They had fans and perfume blowing at all times, until the day they moved, of when I forced them too..
 Now back to my Niece - Weng was a heart send a true savior for me and my wife. My wife works long hours at her medical facility and I was about to go on many underway periods , So my kids were in great need of a driver , a cook, a friend , a mentor a baby sitter a true angel..She was and has been so helpful to mu=y kids upbringing. The breakfast lunches and dinners she prepared for them and the rest of us were simple , healthy and above all heartfelt. I can't totally explain how much of help she has been and to that I love what you have done and what my kids feel for you. They were very appreciative for all your efforts , I know they don't say it , but that's youthful pride or lack of really understanding life yet. But I appreciate all your efforts and our many talks about life , careers , people ,, I mean it was like talking to someone from high school, I know even though I was in the military , at home I'm very relaxed and cool, but at work I had to be that bad ass getting on those young sailors to get things done.. IT was fun, because we had some great revelations about one another. We realize that life goes on and friendships are important to us. We also know just because we are family , it doesn't mean we are friends,, I mean its funny how some relatives because we see each other a few times in the year, think they know us.. We all know to really know someone , you have too see them daily and interact with them.. A few party reunion get togethers by not means states we are friends.. I realized that the hard way .. But anyways,, Thank Rowena and I appreciate all that you have done,, and now that MY career has ended I have officially taken over as daily driver , cook, house keeper, gardener , administrator , daily planner, father , husband.. Full time Student,, I'm ready for it. and For your Rowena,,
   I want to simply say thank you very much for all your efforts and time, I know in life we all want more time, and I know the time you shared with us will always be cherished and respected, You have been a inspiration and great role model for my kids.. We all know its now how you started in life , but how you finish, I really wish you well in your career endeavors and I'm looking forawed in sharing more family time with you and the family members that like to dance and party. I always love dancing and for anyone to think it's uunmanly or what , I have no time for you,, I have passions in life and dancing is really a big part of it and I'm looking forward on sharing a great day and night with those people that want to celebrate my retirement dance party at Temecula's Pechanga dance clubs.. Thank Rowena,, and Lets have fun with my great friends Melanie , Lisa, Johndee, and young blood Chris,, and anyone else that wants to celebrate this event.. I'm so grateful that you assisted my family during my last years in the UNITED STATES NAVY,, with out you I would of had many issues to worry about. I know Mona appreciated your efforts and so do we all!! Thank you once again and please enjoy life and be always on alert. Life is learning, you never stop.. There is always things to learn and things that shape our lives.. I know I learned allot about myself and how becoming a civilian would take more than just time , but true efforts in understanding the civilian rat race.. But with your great tales and discussions about everything I was able to get back to the Real World and I',m Ready for the World!! Take care Rowena .. you have my utmost gratitude and respect for all you have done for my family and me!!
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THE SAN DIEGO CHARGERS - REBUILD TIME!

   I just want to thank the Spanos Family for getting rid of NERVOUS NORV, and AJ - a great scout , but lousy GENERAL MANAGER.. Norv is or was a great offensive coordinator , many years ago with the Great Dallas Cowboys, but then again when you have Hall fame Players like Troy Aikman , Emmit Smith and Michael Irvin and the rest of the beasts of that era. Its easy to be called a genius.. I was never in favor of the hiring, and I was more than happy with both terminations,..
 Now the rebuilding years, Yes,. the Chargers are no longer elites, they have too many issue at to many positions,, The offensive line the defensive line.. the corner backs are questionable. Jammer has been a very good corner , and talk about him moving to safety may not be a good idea either its time to upgrade at those spots.. The running back issues,, I hate to say it But Ryan Mathews was a wasted number one pick.. He has spent more time on the sidelines than the cheerleaders, yes hes good when he's in there ,, but he can't play hurt and when he does ,, he cant hold onto to the ball, I know Rivers doesn't like to air things out , but I'm sure he's not pleased with ryans lack of toughness , but also his inability to block properly,, Like I said many times over he looks the part , but is no way a number one pick.. He hasn't been a consistent player or durable,. and he doesn't look comfortable catching passes, thus we bring in a journeymen Ronnie Brown.. I know the Chargers are gonna take a running back that is durable and has the mental toughness and may even take the starting job , because ryan will not hold up.. As for Rivers.. He's gun shy,, I mean he has been tackled sacked more times than Ryan Mathews, but then again Mathews is always hurt , so that's not hard to do..
 The Bolts need major overhauling.. this may bring losing years , but as constructed now, The chargers are 7-9 8-8 ,, teams like they have been for the past 3 years.. I know the Fans want to win , But this team has too many holes to fill and lack major leadership..
 The Charlie Whitehurt experiment needs to end, How many times have we seen him play., exactly,, and he's making Tim Tebow MOney.. now,, Here's my take. Get rid of white hurst and bring on Tim Tebow, this way, defense's have to prepare for tebow,, and at least we can see a back up qb play? As for Rivers, he on his last legs.. He has bad knees and upper chest area issues. He's also lost his mojo. Why,, well try getting killed every Sunday for the past 3 years,, I know he was good , but this is the NFL,, NOT FOR LONG.. Lets face it he's no Tom Brady or Peyton Manning,,, he's a good qb that had a great wide out in Vincent Jackson , Darren sproles and LT .. but look at his numbers since they left. Exactly,, he was  a product of great timing and great players.. I know he has a big contract and we all know the Spanos family doesn't like to lose money, so expect the Rivers contract to play itself out, But the Chargers if not this season , but in the near future need to start grooming or looking for another franchise qb.. I know the fans, are disgusted with the loud mouth , over the top behavior of Rivers abd maybe that's why great players cant stay on the team.. Lets not blame AJ for everything..
 The Chargers are in a crossroads and I know the die hards don't want to hear rebuild.,,, and I don't blame them,,. especially with all the money invested in season tickets or jerseys.. But the Chargers need to start over, and think about this ,,?? If you were hired as GM and head coach,, you think they trust the talent or leadership on this team to win,, It hasn't happened in 3 years under the Rivers and Cryan ryan Mathews years,, and I doubt its gonna happened with this same bunch of good but not talented players. As for GATES .. I THINK h'e;s one of the greatest players but his foot problems and father time is catching up to him faster than we all realize. I hate to say it but we have seen the best of gates and what is left is only glimpses of a great player.. 
            THE Chargers are going to draft linemen both offensive and defensive and they will use the free agent market more this year than any other year and they will also get involved in trades,, I see great changes and growing pains wit this team this year , but the much needed changes and new leadership from the New coaching staff and conditioning coaches will manifest itself,, NFL = NOT FUN LEAGUE,, the realities of winning and losing is evident in the NFL.. You lose too many times , your fired!! The Chargers made the right moves , but the time of transition will be tough for the fans , because once upon a time This team was a elite and talented team.. Now its a mismatch of talent that doesn't fit the schemes this team wants to go in.. I applaud the new coach and he will turn this team around, Maybe not next year , but in the future of the franchise.. Nothing great is built in a day and the chargers will undergo a massive over haul of talent and personnel.
 The bottom line is the Bolts don't have the talented players on this roster to compete against the big boys of the NFL. Heck they cant even win the wild weak ass division .. But things are changing and we as fans need to be patient and expect growing pains next year, But then again, the AFC WORST is a injury away from being any ones division.. The Broncos in my view is still the team to beat , while the Raiders , Chiefs and Chargers are the step sisters fighting to get to the top.. Its a rebuild time , and Lets tear this roster up and bring in strong young talent that will grow and play as a team.. Right now we have combination of potential and has beens that are surviving and bringing us losing season's the past 3 years. Whats a another couple of years of losing to get this team turned around and become one of the elites of the NFL.. Be patient Charger fans , expect a lot of changes for the better and I'm looking forward to the draft when the bolts go for those Big uglies to block for Rivers and pass rushers that will harass the other teams.. Its a rude awakening for the fans, But te Bolts are not a good team, The past 6 years of neglect and bad decisions has created what the DISCHARGED , SPARKS . THE laughing stock of the NFL. 4th and 29.. blowing a 24 pt lead at home,, Yup,, good teams never do that?? The San Diego Chargers are a team in transition or rebuilding time/!!
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My FABULOUS FOUR - THE BOSSES THAT I HAVE TO THANK..INSPIRED BY

THE FABULOUS FOUR BOSSES I HAVE TO THANK.. INSPIRED STORY..
  Well , I have a day and a wake up and I'm officially retired from Active duty US  NAVY.. during my time four great men shaped or saved me from myself , because of youthful indiscretions , bad temper and bad decisions. I owe my career and life time benefits to them because of their concern , care and strict high standards on me..
 My first boss was MASTER CHIEF LAGUREN from my first ship USS CAMDEN..  I was a youthful , passionate and awfully naïve youing sailor , yet he guided me an tried to work with me , but my zeal for the bottle and fist fighting and arguing was my down fall. He did what he could do , and I listened at times, but because I was young and dum and full of fun. I made more poor decisions than good ones,  But his passion and great work ethic carry with me throughout my career...
 My next boss was MASTER CHIEF FOX - He was a definite leader by example , he saw the potential in me and always gave me the support while I was the Ships Mailman on the Mighty Princeton.. I really enjoyed his vigor and strict attention to image and perception. His thoughts and ideas were heartfelt and I admired his dedication and his words would carry a lot of weight with me the remainder of my career!!
 My boss in Japan was MASTER CHIEF RIVERA  a no non sense seabea's  drove me hard and expected great things, He admired my heart and good will and made me a shiny example for the rest of the division,, but once again my battle with anger management and the bottle , hindered my progress and at times  at odds over those issues. I had terrific work ethic , but my after hours duties were less than to be talked about. But I admired his strong desire and passionate will and I used his advice and words of wisdom to shape the rest of my Navy career. There is no doubt,, I learned many things from him and his famous " CAN DO attitude was a motto I would share in my many lectures or rants some would call it during my Navy Career. Thank you MASTER CHIEF RIVERA , I learned so much from your kind and strict standards and I became that GUNG HO , no nonsense sailor..
 Last but not least .. One of my favorites of the Fab FOUR, is was MASTER CHIEF SANTIAGO, He is one of the most knowledgeable , understanding and caring bosses I ever had I know we had many close door sessions and every time I knew I was learning lessons from life. I may have not felt that way at the time, But his advice and words of encouragement helped me deal with one of the most difficult transitions I had in My Career I just came off  years of shore duty and had to take every means of transportation to get to my ship that was in the middle of Persian Gulf.,. But I know now.. I learned so much from him and when I had my morning lectures or lessons to my division's I led.. I know I respected his demeanor and how he treated people. He was straight forward and one of the most honest person I have ever met. I know I owe a great deal of gratitude to him.. With out him I don't think I would have the desire to finish out the rest of my career, The lessons of life were very influential and he helped get me motivated enough to go on and become the Sailor I knew I could become.. MY LPOS duties that came after that command were filled with passionate lessons to my fellow crew members and I gained the utmost respect for the way I ran a division and how I treated people. Don't get me wrong when you did well you would receive praise, but if you fucked up , in Navy terms, I would ride your ass!! It was the way that the new generation.. had to be dealt with, I learned you have to have more than the bark,, to get people to respect you, though I know my methods of leading were at times hard core , I felt and still feel those actions I used were and always the best way to get people to work as a team..
 Now my days are really counting down.. and I have thanked the most influential people in my life, My dearly departed MAMA - MARING.. my Loving PAPA,, and the FABULOUS FOUR that helped shape me when I needed it and let me do my thing when I had it under control. I know I will never forget all of their words of encouragement and concern and how they all helped me become the Best Sailor I could have been.. But now the time is coming to a end?? The cycle of life is done for my Military life. .. I 'm sad that I will no longer have the bonds of friendship with many shipmates I worked with and I will no longer go on those long deployments to foreign lands and see those loving locals that find time to greet and please us.. But despite all those pleasures so to speak we had in SINGAPORE , HONG KONG , AUSTRALIA , THAILAND,. There is no place like home with my lovely wife and handsome kids.. I'm finding out I missed so much while I was away on deployments and overseas assignments.. But Now,, I'm enjoying and savoring every moment I spend with my family because I have the time now,, For the time I lost ,, I cant do anything  about that. But I will make sure the time I have with them will be special and precious and I do hope and pray they will cherish family relationships and be a wonderful parent that I believe I have become. MY GREATEST GRATITUDE TO THE FABULOUS FOUR .. FOR MOLDING AND SHAPING ME INTO ONE OF THE BEST SAILORS THAT NAVY HAD.. MASTER CHIEF LAGUREN, MASTER CHIEF FOX , MASTER CHIEF RIVERA , AND MASTER CHIEF SANTIAGO..
May GOD bless you and may you find happiness in all you do!!
UNTIL MY NEXT BLOG ,, TAKE CARE ALWAYS!!'
THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @ 2013

Countdown to Retirement day Feb 28,2013..

Count down to retirement day .Feb 28, 2013,,
 Yes, its coming closer , It seems like it was just months ago , when I went on Terminal - Retirement leave,, Now, in a wink of an eye I will be retired from active duty, and I know the stories about beauty and my personal daily happenings have been dramatic, funny weird , unreal.. But one things is for sure I will soon be a civilian.. My hair is long now and My face looks younger and less stress riddled. I'm getting more quality sleep , well at times I have trouble sleeping, Not because I'm worried or not, Its just I have so many plans and errands I want to do each day.. My days are filled with a lot of activities, driving kids to school and back.. Doing errands, working around the house, the chores and of course my own personal education and blogging. Its seems there isn't enough time in the day to accomplish all that I want to do.. I know I have plans of attack , but a lot of times, Other things come up.. I didn't realize real life was so complicated and crammed with so many unexpected things, As for me , broken windshields, broken garage doors .. Unexpected repairs on car , the expenses and the other items of life that seem to pope up,.. I'm not complaining , but I didn't realize or recall how time flies in civilian life.. I have been away for SO long,, it seems I'm so excited to accomplish a lot of things,, Finish school,, be a coach for my son,. and of course take care of other things like taxes, and such.. Time in civilian life is crammed with so many unexpected things like buy things for dinner, or you need to fix toilets or do gardening or repair household fixtures.. If its one thing its another.. I feel that has been the most difficult thing to adjust too, The fact you don't really know what each day may bring you, You make plans,, but it seems unexpected things happen,, expenses issues, problems.. 
   I also realize that civilian life is not as structured or disciplined like the military.. I mean time or appts are just like suggestions , I mean I had appt but it wasn't on time, but I wasn't upset , because things happens, and I'm learning to adjust in the military your on time your late, In civilian life, your on time your kinda of early, hehe. But one thing is for sure I'm enjoying my freedom and my ability to spend precious time with my kids. I know as they get ready for prom night , grad night and all the parties.. and of course graduation day. I'm enjoy every moment with my eldest son,, IT some ways I'm sad To see him grow up ,but its life they have too , pursue their dreams and ultimately raise their own family,, I know I have taught them well, even though I sounds like I'm yelling at them. But we all know kids need a push every once in awhile,, heck,, We parents need it too , every so often , Its human nature that's why we post things, or call our best friends to vent , cry or what,, But one thing is for sure, My career in the Navy is really over, Soon, I will get my retired ID card and no longer the flat top wearing mean looking guy... Instead I'm that education driven , job seeking caring parent that has a lot on his plate.. Husband, parent , coach and full time student,, and blog writer.. Wow, I will have to manage my time , between studying , coaching and blogging , but I feel I can handle it and I will. But for now, the clock is ticking and soon I will be a civilian Feb 28, 2013 mu last official day in the UNITED STATES NAVY and the last day for the pope of the roman catholic church.. This should be a easy day to remember.. huh? Oh its also my friends sara birthday.. so what a day for me.. Well time is marching and in the coming days I will continue to Thank special people in my life that helped me during my navy career.. UNTIL MY NEXT BLOG,, TAKE CARE ALWAYS!!
THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @ 2013

NFL COMBINE 2013.. My thoughts ..

NFL COMBINE 2013 ..MY THOUGHTS ...
 Well its nice to see these muscular . well conditioned super athletes in muscle T's and shorts.. But is it really necessary to know how fast you run in shorts , or how high you jump , or hoe much weights you lift.. ??
  Don't get me wrong yo have to have these physical attributes , but in my book,, when it comes to speed , I want to see quickness ,agility , durability,, and of course football knowledge,, I rather see if the player has vision and makes quick decisions under pressure,, The combine is a sterile and unrealistic view of what athletes can do,,
 My biggest example is close to the hearts of San Diego Charger fans,,
 Go back a few years , Ryan Mathews looked the part , huge legs, Muscular arms. Great speed and the million dollar smile and said and did the right things.,. He was a sure bet !!?
 But fast forward to now. He has been injured most of his career , he has fumbling and confidence issues, he's not a good blocker , that's why Rivers is getting killed out there, and the real reason they picked up Battle. The physical attributes are nice , but its clear ,. the other intangibles plats a role in football. The Cryan Ryan Mathews experiment may be coming to an end? That's why as I look at the running backs in the combine, I like to  have a steady , strong and consistent player.. I'M not giving up on Mathews but history says the shelf life of running backs are short and unless Ryan pulls off a Adrian Peterson like comeback.. I don't see Mathews playing too much longer, thus the Chargers will draft a running back , and use him extensively to help push Mathews or at least split time and prolong his career.
 Now back to my views of the combine. Its a nice way to show off PHYSICAL ABILITIES. but it doesn't show case game time decision making or heart or passion. But because the NFL NETWORK sponsors these type  events and guys like me FOOTBALL JUNKIES, I cant get enough of football. So combines workouts and such will continue.. I'm just hoping the Charger scouts look deeper into a players psyche and mental abilities,, because just by the previous example. Some players look the part , but fail miserable in the real NFL world..
 Enjoy the combine , but also take into account they are different attributes you have to think about when deciding what players each teams need!!

UNTIL MY NEXT SPORTS BLOG ENJOY !!
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Thank you Papa. Inspired by Mona's papa..

Thank you papa. FRANCO.. Inspired by Mona's papa..
 My papa is something else.. I mean he grew up in the Philippines and witnessed the horrors of the Japanese invasion, he saw the death of his parents and others first hand and In a way I don't blame him for the hatred he had for them.. Sure it was war,, but sometimes, you must know the difference between fighting for honor , then senseless killings of civilians and raping of young girls.. To this day He has never owned anything Japanese.. Cars, anything.. But hey it was a different time..
 Now the time is thank my papa, I know we had many wars about his views and demeanor. Any one who has a dad especially a Navy raised one ,, knows the old school in your face , punch your face attitude.. I know I was whupped up many times, It made me mean and angry too, Something that later follow me through my Navy Career, But regardless of our past I want to thank him for giving me the strength and fearless heart and mind under any conditions, Because without that mind set,, I would never lasted 20 long years in the Navy. I have seen and done many unmentionable things because of the heat of battle or stress. Am I proud of that? No,, but sailors at times have to do what they have to do to deal with issues..
 I saw shipmates dropped dead in front of me because of heat , stress and lack of sleep.. The heat of the Persian Gulf is no joke, and I also had to be part of rescue crews for downed pilots that crashed their planes and we had to pick up plane and pilot.. The horrors of the Persian Gulf war, even when it officially ended, they're were still scary times back then, No Wonder at Boot camp they were so hard on us,.. and especially me.. I mean My papa was very influential impact in my life he lessons about character and being an example to your men will carry you through not only the good times , the tough times too. A true leader manifest themselves when times are bad.. He was so right it's easy to look like a good leader when things are going well.. But its the true leader m motivator that can lead in times of trouble,, and many times My superiors would ask me or order me to take over teams or crews to get the taskings done..
  But most all all..  I just want to give thanks for my dad for always being a hard ass and helping me develop that hard mentality , that I needed to survive the stresses of military life. His over the top positive attitude m some call it arrogance or pride , but those qualities for better or worse helped over come many tragedies and hardship's that I witnessed first hand. Its funny how TV or the movies dramatize death,, but let me tell you , those images and incidents of death with shipmates I knew were haunting and life changing.. I know its the past and I must go on.. But the seen of death and the feelings of losing shipmates under battle and non battle conditions still wears heavy on my heart. I know I shouldn't feel bad for them, we all knew what we signed up for,, the dangers , the threats, its just the families , because I have a loving family,, to lose a loved one , is the most devastating thing that can happen to anyone,, I know I lost my grandma , and my mother in law mamang and my loving mama Maring , at very young ages,, and I must be honest still haunts me and make me sad at times. I mean I love them all so much , and for them to leave so early in my life was tough.. Its true only the good die young , and they were everything you should be in life.
 LOVING , CARING , SHARING and above all just being there.. They were strict and sometimes unbearable , but the love for me was un approachable. I love them all and miss them dearly.. BUT ..MY PAPA was the one to teach me how to be a man,. not just the tough minded and mean when you have to man,.. But Also instructed me to be a gentlemen,., Respect women and don't ever lay your hands on anyone of them .. I know my papa is suffering through the ravages of age related issues , but he still has the fiery heart and passion for life and I admire that , because I know my destiny will be similar, but for now ,, I will continue to live life as he preached to me..
 PRAISE GOD
 DEFEND AND SUPPORT THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA
LOVE MY WIFE AND FAMILY
BE THANKFUL FOR TRUE FRIENDS AND TREAT THEM WITH RESPECT AND HONOR
TREAT OTHERS HOW YOU WANT TO BE TREATED..
Lastly.. Always be thirsty for knowledge and skills, You will never stop learning..

Its those words and advice is what I embedded in my mind and life and helped me carry through all the stresses of life and Navy..

THANK YOU PAPA FRANCO.. I will always respect your teachings and I will make you proud of the man you help create and eventually become and pass down those ideas to my sons and your loving Grand sons.. Brandon and Martin..

UNTIL MY NEXT BLOG TAKE CARE ALWAYS !!
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Job fair II - Inspired by my Navy Vets..

JOB FAIR II- INSPIRED BY NAVY VETS...
 Well my first job fair ,, I was not prepared , No resume , no references , no idea what I was really doing.. But today,, I wore a classy suit and tie, I had the resume on fancy resume paper and of course professional and personal references.. But.. wait. All those qualifications and skills I attained and were so proud of.. In the Civilian world,, means nothing!! Yea , thanks for serving the Nation and protecting us, But you don't have the civilian qualifications.. Are u serious? I'm trained much better than any of those clowns who interviewed me or advising me I need to get civilian quals.. What? Really? To be honest I felt so insulted and disappointed .. But its ok,, I will stick to my plan of my IT degree and seeking employment in the Hosptial industry.. Its just I worked so hard last night to get all my RESUMES  ready,, and now this? To be honest I was cautious with optimism,. But I saw I looked at spoke and My resume looked really good, Now whether it was , is another question? But it was such a long process you stand in line, you sign forms and then you are directed to separate lines. But whats frustrating I know I'm better qualified and more skilled than the person interviewing me.. Am I arrogant , perhaps but I guess for my second job fair in 4 or 5 months, I think I improved a lot. But it was just hard to take when they saw my experience and qualifications and they still couldn't figure out where I belong ? Maybe  I put too many qualifications or maybe I have been away for so long that maybe its a good idea I'm returning to school.. I shouldn't feel bad , but I guess I got too hyped up.. Disappointed ,, and frustrated , but it's ok.. I know my true calling in life is coming. I know I will succeed but to feel the disappointment an feel awkward was a strange feeling? But atleast they took my resume and said they employer will make a decision. Oh well.. I know My ego took a blow , but I ALSO know..that I have many skills and talents the civilian world is yearning for,, and I;m not going to sell myself short.. So , back to the drawing board,, Work on resume.. Specialize more and have business cards made and also, Look into entry level jobs while I'm attending school full time. Its a plan and a strategy I will use for the next 2 or 3 years ,, until I complete my degree plans.. But today was exhausting and brought me down to earth,, Perhaps I needed a Real world shock , that the job market is a battle and I need to prepare better for the next job fair.. The hospital has other job fairs and I will be ready for them as well as other job announcements that come my way.. JOB FAIR II.. a lot better than my first one in San Diego.. But bottom line, I wasn't hired for what I wanted to do, so I'm back to the drawing board and I'm looking forward to the next Job fair or job announcement's.. Until My next blog.. Take Care and keep focused!!
THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @ 2013

Thank you mama.. Inspired by Mona's Mama..

Thank you mama, Inspired by Mona's Mama..
 Now that I'm retiring in about a week or so.. I'm gonna thank the people in the next 8 days or so that helped me get through 23 + years of Reserve and Active Duty .. It wasn't easy < I mean I was sick with shits the day I left for boot camps.. I was also scared about starting my new life,, But one thing I knew was my beloved mama was so supportive of me. She was my heart and soul and when I finally graduated that fateful day in San Diego, The smiles and tears rolling down all our faces was something to behold.. She hugged an kissed me like no other time in my life, I was so happy that day,. She pulled me to the side and said " Son, No matter what always love your wife.. I wasn't married at the time,, But I knew what she meant, I'm so proud of you , but a true man takes care of his wife, no matter what? Let her be .. Women are moody , and at times hard to understand , but no matter what Love her and Never put your hands on her , in anger.. Just walk away, even if she is hitting you,, I hugged her and I promised her.. And like so many times when I felt so angry with my wife, Those images of my mom's face and words always calmed me down.. Its those tender moments I feel helped save my marriage many times.. Its too bad I didn't apply that to my arguments with my navy guys,, Lets just say,, the anger or punches that I may have had for my wife I unleashed on some of my Navy shipmates,, I mean this was old navy,,, We had counseling sessions,. where we take you to the empty space,.. storeroom and gave you edification's of sort,.,. and if you came out with some bumps and bruises during these heated exchanges , Its funny how you can lose you balance on a small ship and rough seas.. Hehe. But anyways, Those were tough times, and I was in the middle of it all. Its one thing during my career I never backed down, Maybe I should have, But pride m ego and craziness made me engage in battles that were senseless. But think about the times. The navy was not as strict with recruits back in the day , then they are now.. Back n the day a lot of the navy members were border line criminals and horrible beings.. I know it was hard dealing with the dirt bags that didn't or wouldn't take showers, and then you had to sleep near them. and then me.. Tell them go take a shower and when they didn't you grabbed their ass and took them,.. and then,, because he bumped his head , rough seas.. I get blamed for physical abuse,, or fighting,.. But hey.. I'm not going to say I was always politically correct or what ,but I was a passionate person that told it like it is. I mean after a long day in the Persian gulf sun , sweating and oil and gas fumes all over the air, Don't you think ,, I need to take a shower?? But I recall one of my punishments was make sure the very dirt bag I beat up,. Now I was tasked to make sure he took a shower, Yes.. Go to the stall turn on the water and hand him soap and make sure he was taking a shower,, Yes watching a grown ass man,, taking a bath.. I know it sounds gay or what, But I had too, so I would get more restriction time, , and people restriction sucks.. It means your time is no longer yours, It means you have to do your regular job and at the end of the day do others people shitty jobs,, Yup, in other words you were a slave a bitch boy or girl,, But I had too, do it, Like so many other crappy things to do I Had too, But My mama's wisdom and support help me get through my early years, in the Navy and I want to give her special thanks because I was doing alright when she was alive and well,..But when she passed after my first enlistment all the kind words of wisdom,. were no longer applicable and I became a raging drunk m alcoholic in Navy terms,. But it was way to survive the pain I was feeling with the loss of Mama.. But that another blog, But for now, I want to thank my Mentor , My favorite lady of all times, My mama Maring.. She was my angel and my greatest supporter and with her love an support she helped me get through the early years and of course the remaining years of my career and now that my career is at a end, I want to give her full credit for what I have become and what I will continue to improve as a human being.. Her love , her wisdom and her zest for life is what traits I have inherited from her and I plan to keep her wonderful spirit alive by being just like her, Loving sweet and caring, and above all honest and funny.. TO YOU MAMA MARING , I LOVE YOU AND I KNOW SOMEDAY WE WILL REUNITE AND I WILL SHARE ALL THE MANY EVENTS AND STORIES I HAVE BEEN A PART OF, AND I THANK YOU FOR WATCHING OVER ME, BECAUSE I DO FEEL YOUR SPIRIT AND LOVE EVERY TIME I DO SOMETHING SWEET AND WONDERFUL..

UNTIL MY NEXT BLOG TAKE CARE ..
THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @2013

My before I kick the Bucket List .. Inspired by Rowena..

My before I kick the bucket List .. Inspired by Rowena.. 
  At the last family gathering My favorite Niece, I saw that to all my nieces,, hehe, But for reals she sweetly said add this to our bucket list Uncle.. so with that I'm gonna create the The Girls bucket list .. with Me as the Tag along token guy,., ?
Not in any order or preference Just the Top Ten things to do>>>

1. One night go to any night club LA .. and take over the dance floor, My favorite Uncle does his best Michael Jackson and pop locking routines..

2. Spend a week in Palm Springs and do the best karaoke and shopping spree ever!!

3. Go to Venice Beach and watch my favorite uncle show case his best pop lock moves with the other street dancers..

4. Visit the Grand Canyon an take scary pictures from enormous heights with Black Beauty as the model for all the pictures..

5. Spend a week at the Greatest Party In America. Mardi Gras in New Orleans..

6. Miami Beach with Black beauty cruising the strip and of course Uncle , doing his awesome dance moves on the beach strip..

7. Cross Country trip -- taking turns driving beauty SAN DIEGO,CA TO NORFOLK ,VA-
VISIT THE ALAMO , VISIT MOTOWN, VISIT NEW YORK CITY.. ALL THE LAND MARKS..

8. INVITE UNCLE TO AWARDS SHOW AND HOPE AND PRAY THE NETWORK CREWS CATCH HIM DANCING ??/

9. Watch my Favorite Auntie and Uncle Renew their wedding vows at the place they met.. The HOTEL DEL CORONADO with all of the Paras - Austria family attending !! and the greatest party with pop lock dancing \, break dancing !!

10. Attend and watch My Uncle say his farewell and retirement speech,. Making all of us cry with his very passionate and honest thoughts about serving in the Navy and how Much He loves his beloved wife and family..

Special Mention - Attending the weddimgs of his two sons Brandon and Marty ..
and watching them both having their first kid.. ...

Attending MY uncles nephew Presley winning a music video award at any Music awards show??

Well its a strange list huh? well if anything I hope you all will create a list and share it on facebook.. I know A lot of these things can happen in a heart beat and others will take time. But one thing is for sure,, I'm game to all these !! Thanks Wena . You gave me a goal to aspire for and with your help , we can make some of things happen.. Until My next blog,, Enjoy !!'
THE SOURCE PRODUCTUONS @ 2013

My Mid life crisis? Inspired by the Mrs. Obama..

My mid life crisis - Inspired by Mrs Obama..
 First of all I must say for someone who is  50 years old, she looks very good, after raising kids and living such a fast pace life of a Presidents wife. But I admire her because she still has the kind heart and smile we all love and adore and her kids are growing up to be very elegant and beautiful women,., Just like their mother.
 Now for me.. ?? I have been on retirement leave since Nov. 2012 and I have posted many stories about my past , the daily beauty stories , the sports blogs.. My mid life crisis issues. But now that the leave or vacation is about to end.. Feb 28 ,2013 ,, Becomes my official retirement day from the Military and it also falls on one my fb Friend's Sara's B day,, so in essence her birthday and my retirement will be forever be marked.. Now,, like I said I have the Muscle car, I have let my hair grow and I'm lifting weights again as well as dancing and martial arts training.. I'm listening to newer music and enjoying every day likes it Saturday.. The many episodes of beauty stopping traffic and my party antics have either entertained you or say" What the fuck? I mean I'm a middle aged man with grown up kids and a loving wife that is so careful about her image and perception even at parties.. But for me, If its party time. I'm all out.. I know when people first meet me.. they are trying to figure out ? Whats does this guy do for a living and when I tell them I'm in the Navy,, oh,, with that long hair? They are baffled, But I tell the story of being on leave and I'm just transitioning to civilian life. I must say,, at first I thought it would be a easy transition, I mean before I joined the Navy I was a civilian, But then again I was a kid back then, and times have changed.. I mean I still remember 45's records and cassette tapes, in fact I used to own a 8 track system.. hehe, and of course the long feathered back Farrah Fawcett hair, the bell bottoms pants,, well once upon a time the Navy used to issue Bell bottom Dungarees, Man, those were the days,, But times have changed I mean, Now its a different time, and I realized how much I try to bring back the past.. Its over,, the music was good back then.. But today's music is fresher and better.. Maybe not the musicianship , but the sound quality and creativeness is more abundant.. I know I had fun, reliving the past , growing my hair long and driving the retro muscle car.. But now,, I need to be more realistic.. I will soon cut my hair and be the hip guy that I know I am.. I mean I have changed the way I dress, I dress more dressy and less like a teenager, I also take care of my face and hair better. I use all the girly products my wife and best friend use, Why? well why not? Whats wrong with a man with a nice complexion and shiny thick hair.. I know you might be saying,. What happened to Bad ASS paras? well DONT GET ME WRONG. I CAN STILL THROW DOWN IF CALLED UPON,. BUT it so fun being less threatening and more approachable, I feel happier and more content now, then all the years in the Navy, I know wifey Liked the flat top Manly look,, and at times I miss that look, But for now since I'm beginning a new phase in my life,, Learning new things and becoming a new image and perception.. I need to take into account the New Mel.. What is the new Mel,. A thoughtful , more compassionate man with concern for his family and Friend's and a passion for life!! I realize that after all those years lost at sea and way from family. I missed out on so many things.. I mean ,, I realize that civilian life is a different pace and you cant expect things to be resolved quickly. patience , patience and realizing that its moire cut throat and uncaring , whether its friends , family or creditor's or bankers.. They are always wanting and as a military veteran,. I was away from that aspect of life.. I now know that Life is gonna be a challenge the rest of my years. In the military,, I was so in tune with being in charge and getting my way,, Now I'm starting all over developing new contacts and creating a new persona , Even my neighbors are shocked in how my face and hair looks.. In fact a female neighbor said.. " its not fair you look so good after 2o years,,? Well,, I think the rejuvenation of my hair and skin and my psyche is because I no longer have the stress of the Navy,, hindering me,..
  Now is the moment of truth.. I will retire and get my retired id card, I will no longer have to have military standard hair cuts and I will now be the civilian I was Manly years ago.. Am I ready,, at times I am. and other times I miss the Navy regimen and strictness , but after being under those stressful conditions I feel so young and strong and ready to pursue my next career? I know college will take a lot of my blog time and I will be focused on learning a new career as well as assisting my son in tackle football and witnessing the growth and maturity of my eldest who will go off and became a avionics mechanic and make me so proud.. Not that I'm not but to see my boys mature and earn so many things about life is uplifting in my middle age years and mid life crisis.. I know they wonder why papa is letting his hair grow and Why is he lifting weights to get bigger and more muscular, I mean the Muscle car needs a Muscle car driver right? But for now? who knows how long my thick black hair will continue to grow strong or how clear and smooth my face will remain and how these old muscle maintain its size and muscularity.. But for now I'm really enjoying the rebirth and rejuvenation of my spirit and passion for life.. and I know the dedication and passion I had in the Military will carry through on my next career choices and friendships.. I know my family is dealing with my rebirth of sorts , but I ask them to be patient , for we all know Mother Nature and Father time is lurking and all the youthful and spirited energy I have ,,. will soon be a slower and less than spirited spark , but my heart and my desire to be youthful Will always be there ans for that I'm sure my beloved Wife and kids and other family member will pray and hope I continue to be that spark in their lives during  parties and reunions.. I know they live through me and I live through them and I enjoy being the actor , the dancer m the martial arts practitioner and jokers , story teller.. Its my destiny and my role in the Paras - Austria - Abubo - Clan.. and I'm looking forward t keeping it strong and alive... My mid life crisis ,. is actually a mid life rejuvenation and rebirth. that many of my family and Friend's are enjoying either by clever postings or creative dance move routines on you tube or face book.. !! Until my next blog.. Take care and Enjoy!!
THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @ 2013

True Love Connection.. Inspired by my Ex-girlfirends..

True Love Connection.. Inspired by my Ex-girlfriend's..Darlene..
 A true love connection is something we all yearn for.. A lot of the times we think Physical attraction is enough to make a connection.. But after years  of broken hearts and lies and deceit,. Its not really the case,, Physical attraction only last for moments or a one night stands.. and after so may of them.. I feel so shallow and empty.. Its not Real love.. I found after years of trial and errors.. The way to make a connection is.. First. You must develop a friendship. You must have similar thoughts and ideas.. In other words,, you must be best friends,, in heart , in mind and in spirit.. Before you can really love someone You must like that person.. Don't fool yourself.. You must like before love. Not the other way around.. Too many of us feel the physical attraction, and don't worry about the personalities. I recall one time I say this very pretty girl in high school,. and I said I really like you,, and her reply was?? what ? we just met? You don't know what music I like or my hobbies or what? needless to say that went no where, ? and I wondered why? Well I realize that in order to build a base or bond of love,, you must like the person first than go onto to love and perhaps.,. Marriage AND KIDS.. but TOO MANY OF YOU . including myself,, Get caught up in looks and neglect to look deeper into a persons Psyche.. To me.. I'm more attracted to a persons , persona , their image the perception and how they carry themselves. For me. I don't like Mini skirt wearing chicks,.. well I did back in the day,. But now . I like the sophisticated , humble and caring lady that doesn't draw attention TO HER SELF OR ME.  I love a woman that doesn't yearn for attention through fACEBOOK RANTS OR POSTINGS or seductive wearing clothes.. I want a woman,, kind like my MUscle Car.. Curves in the right spaces and great performance and handling. I love a woman that doesn't need to tell people she is sexy,, Its like the old saying.. A beautiful woman , doesnt need to say it. Its is shown by her smile m her confidence and how she takes care of her self.. A well dressed woman with class is what I like.. But like I said,, I developed a great friendship and bond with my wife. WE were best friends before anything else.. and because of that formula.. We developed a maintained a strong love affair and connection. We have a sense of humor and positive outlook on life that you need in a relationship.. WE DRINK NOT to drown our sorrows , like many do. W e drink to socialize to be happy and joyful and share great times with people that love us and respect us, and have unconditional love for one another. A true love connection is not forced m but a a fluid exchange of ideas, thoughts , feelings and love for one another. I know after years of misery and suffering in wrong relationships.. I know now and I appreciate the love connection we have build over the years. Theirs is no doubt we have arguments or heated discussions over trivial things. But in the end, Our Love m our respect for one another and our sense of humor is what has truly kept our love connection strong and growing. I'm so happy that despite all my mistakes and misfortunes with crazy girls,, I now have my true Love and true connection, she tells me everyday she loves me and I say the same, . But I also say I love you because you make me feel special and wanted.. These simple expressions every day is what strengthens our love and our sacred Marriage.. I know I'm not perfect and she isn't too , but together we are enjoying life as it comes and sharing tender moments with the true family that loves us.. You cant force a love connection and bond.. Those are established over time by the deeds we have done and the little reminders of love, Like birthday wishes before the day.. Those special dinners when it wasn't expected and of course the protection of one anothers image and perception among the ones we care about. To my wife , you have nothing to worry about..I know there are women that desire married men with established ;life stylers and financial stability.. But I only want my true love that has been with me,, in great times and in very sad times.. I know the support and love we shared during the deaths of our mama's and the losses of our dear friends is what created and established bonds that I could never recreate with any other women.. I know temptation is all around and I'm not going to say ,, Its easy to resist?? But I choose to not be in that situation.. For example.. The best way to not get fat.. is Don't get put of shape.. If you don't want to get into a wreck,,You simply drive carefully and be wary of others.. and when it comes to temptation.. Don't put yourself in that area.. Like being alone , or  in uncomfortable scenarios? They avoId issues you simply stay away,, Simpler said than done. But if you really love someone , you will do what needs to be dome on a daily basis. Like a growing tree or garden.. if left unattended, Ultimatley it will shrivel up and die.. NOTHING in life is guaranteed than how you treat your loved ones and yourself.. Nothing else in life we have no control over.. But our own feelings passions and true love for the people we care about.. I pray and hope all you continue harnessing the love you have and for those still searching , don't lose faith.. You have other things in life you need to attend to... True love when come when you are ready for that phase.. But for now, enjoy the freedoms of single life and for those blessed with marriage .. cherish that a bond no matter what the haters and jealous demons out there try to mock you.. Because people hate what they cant have or desire.. Thus they choose to make you miserable. But my motto in life is " Its Mind over Matter, I don't mind because you don't matter.." take care always and be happy!!
THE SOURCE PRODCUTIONS @ 2013

Manifesto for Life- Inspired by people I knew..

Manifesto for Life- Inspired by people I knew..
 My Manifesto for Life.. I have had a unique life growing up in Norfolk, Va,  Oakland - Bay area, Long Beach , South San Diego, Ca.. Pensacola Fla.. It was tough moving throughout my youth , and I know I got used to moving because I later joined the Navy I went to Washington State, Japan, and finally back to San Diego.. for finish of my career..
 But one thing is for sure.. I'm not eager to move anymore.. I'm happy where I live , in So cal.. but it just troubles me how life in the civilian world is so much more stressful than the military life. Its seems I get less sleep , eat less and have more stress now then when I was on a ship? I mean go figure ? I'm not used to hardships on accomplishing things. In civilian life you cant yell at people to get things done. I almost got arrested for that. His words in civilized America , that's now how we handle things.. Ok. True.. Life in the civilian world takes patience. Something I have been struggling with for all my life. As well as forgiveness and forgetting wrong deeds.. I know life is a journey , but my many years of harsh treatment and mean words has hardened my compassion for people, I know I should be more compassionate , but because I have seen death and suffering , Its hard a lot of times to care what others think. Its a tough thing to overcome ,. that Military thinking.. If someone disrepects you ,, you beat them up,, or at least maybe not physically but through verbal and mental fatique.. In the military , you have to be strong mentally and physically..
 But in the civilian life.. You have to be patient about getting things done. Nothing gets resolved over night or what? That is the toughest aspect of civilian life.. and something my fellow veteran had issues with.. The idea , the civilians don't understand honor , courage and commitment. Civilians think . everything is ok,, as long as we get along and just turn your cheek.. But life in the military, you have your clicks, your gangs so to speak,. You know who to turn to and who will Born you.. Its sounds twisted , but at least I knew how to handle military life., The civilian life has been difficult for me  acclimate to .. I really don't understand how dirt baggish civilians are. They lie , cheat , they deceive you, they use you and they embarrass you,, Then they expect you to forgive them.. Maybe it me. But I rather have a few friends than the hundreds I have now on fbook.. And anyways, do I really need to be friends I never met. ? That's has been a burning issue for me. I mean if we relate or have the same interest , does that make a connection or as friendship.. Or how about. People that get agitated and want vengeance , is that the kind of friend you want. For me. as I Get older, I really have no time to explain my views or how I was raised, People should show more respect for one another, because we don't really know what each of us can do. ? My manifesto for life is simple. Be true to those who are true to you. The ones that protect you and the family are the ones you love. the ones that have selfish needs are the ones you should stay away from.. I stay away from rude people and arrogant people because it shows me they are insensitive and think they are too good for people.. People are people and no one is above another, regardless of race. Unless whites or blacks have six arms. I see everyone as equals.. But what makes me separate you from others is your character your image and how you relate to others. If you have trouble in marriage or relationship's or friendship's, there is a reason you lack true character and for those I don't need your company.. But in life . you can't hate everyone because they have different ideas or point of view.. But a true person with character accepts your lifestyle and encourages you , instead of ridicule you.. My take is that if you have to explain to someone about rude comments , then that person is really clueless and probably not the person that can be your friend.. In life we all have things to do,, and goals to aspire for. We should not waste our time apologizing and explaining yourself.. My manifesto for life is simple.. Be compassionate and empathize with people. If you want respect you give it, if you demand it , its not real , real respect and honor is earned and a lot of civilians don't realize that or Care about that. But for those friends that do I respect you and honor you with great joy.. I always thought when I retired , Life would be so much simpler,, But in reality, I realized the Military is a great way of life and I miss it so much.. But I am a civilian and Now I deal with low life, cheating and lying scumbags in larger numbers. I see the disrespect in people eyes because with my long hair and baggy clothes, they see a slob, or a bum.. But they don't know how proudly and honorably have served this great nation.. Its funny , I'm more American than these Americans that were born and raised in America.. If anything , That's what's bothers me about the civilian world.. But I must over come and be patient,,, If you want people to change or respect you , you have to educated and well spoken and display humble and respectful vibes.. It hasn't been easy , in fact its daily struggle , But My bestie ,, My true friend has helped me deal with this transition and I hope she understands that I appreciate and Love her so much!! I don't even think how much love I have for her,, I mean you can only say and write so much,,A True friend doesn't judge or ridicule or kick you when you are down. True compassion is felt and not said or written. My Manifesto for life is simple , if you don't like how people act or dress than simply go hang with others that fit.. MY take variety is the spice of life. Accept people on what they are, not on how they look or dress. True character comes out under all circumstances. Everyone can be a friend when things are going well, but a true test of character is when things are down and you see if they help you or keep you down or make fun of your misfortune..? Until my next blog, Take Care!!
THE SOURCE PRODUCTION'S @ 2013

IT'S TOUGH TO BE MEL !?!? INSPIRED BY FRIEND MEL...

ITS TOUGH TO BE MEL !?!?INSPIRED BY MY FRIEND MEL...
 Its tough to be Mel? Well think about having talent at being a showman or woman and having such charisma and charm that people and family always want you to perform.. Whether your in the mood or not? But I guess we deserve it. Because of how we act and present ourselves, If you post beautiful and handsome , cute pictures and or post videos of cars, dancing and fighting skills. Well what do you expect? I mean people are people and if you put yourself out there. Expect the best and worst from people,., We all know we have haters, those are the ones that are quick to criticize and quick to make judgments, until they get caught in their hatred to comments. Then they of course apologize and become good for awhile, But we all know bad habits are hard to break.. So in my own life experiences, If people have been a certain way for a long or majority time of their life. Then don't expect them to change over night,, Because old tricks are hard to break.. I mean they might be good for awhile, But as soon as they feel comfortable , they will revert to their old ways?? so why bother? I mean forgive the person, But in reality, I expect them to revert back to their insensitive and insulting ways, So,, MY way to deal with .. is.. Forgive , but don't forget and be cautious with them..
 Now back to being Mel.. When you want the attention,, and people give it to you,, then why do we think otherwise,,I mean .. If I or my other family member didn't want attention or be the life of the party and,, the energy force. Then what do you expect?
 Yes, its tough to be the party maker , the joker, the dancer , the singer the life of the party,, We all know that some people are really gifted at those types of activities. and My great friend and family member is just that , An Amazing friend and amazing talent,, I mean , tell a joke or story , or dance and sing he has it all. Looks good, , friendly , out going and most of all sweet .. Yeah its a tough role to hold . But the Mels .. are just that. We are the stars of the family , the energy force,. as one member said, a family gathering is nothing without the Mels.. But it would be nice to just attend a party or gathering and just chill,, But because we displayed our talents and skills,, we are destined to perform and perform we do,, I know we may complain openly,, But deep down inside, We want all the attention and adulation we get from family and friends.. and Because of that.. Its tough to be Mel.. But because we are attentive grabbing , over the top achieving hosts and Ego maniacs that desire your adulation and appreciation , regardless if such acts hurt our physical aspects in our health conditions.. To be a Mel , means to be the clown, the entertainer , the host, the actor,, the Mel. Its not easy to be us, But our family and friends desire , demand and above all love the way we are and we thrive on such emoticons form our fans.. To have such talented individuals that are not ashamed to show case their skills is refreshing at all the Family outings. Its tough be Mel,,or our case the Mel's,,But we enjoy the attention and we love the adulation , which makes us, what we are,, We are the energy force that others admire and marvel at our passion, desire and endurance at parties or other public functions.. Its tough be the Mel's but my sidekick, the other Mel, put on great shows,.at every event they attend!!
THE SOURCE PRODCUTIONS @ 2013

Why we dance ? Inspired by my son Brandon and friends.

Why we dance ? Inspired by Brandon and Friends...
 Why we dance? It seems like a simple question? Am I right> But actually dancing is not just intricate movements , or hours of stretching and practicing moves.. Its more than just listening to music or interpreting music.. Its a way of life. its a way of self expression. What intrigues me about dancing or movement or what ,, is that the very people that love to dance,. They love the music , the feelings of emotions when we dance especially in front of people, I know at times when I see great dancing ,,, It makes me smile and laugh.. Yes, Laugh,. and your pondering what? I mean, some dance is so great or creative its a laughter of astonishment and joy,, and like what a move or what a trip,, I mean you have to really love dance and the whole scene to have that feeling.. I know when I dance whether is hip hop, ballet , or zumba,, I like the feeling of dance, the loud pulsating music and the energy my legs and arms re generating.. I know a lot of men,, straight men,, think dancing especially for a guy is less manly, not tough or what. But ts ok.. I could care less for these old fashioned, , John wayne like mentality , I mean I don't blame them they grew up in small backward boring small towns in north Dakota or Texas , or whatever boring small town communities, I know I shouldn't make such stereotypes, But hey,, they are making those same judgment's about us, So cal Pretty boys.. you know guys that like to wear tight fitting shirts or pants and like to pamper them selves with lotions and creams.. Pretty boys, as they like to call us.. But you know what ? I'm ok with that, I mean, Pretty boy or not I''m also a trained Martial Artist and Boxer and also have survivor military mixed martial arts skills and a life long weapons expert in Arnis , Nunchuku and knives and swords,, and my new weapon the tomahawk.. I know I have the ability to hurt people very easily. But.. Because of my talents and skills , I decide to be more happy or funny and not try to be a bad ass. But don't get me wrong. if you,, yes, you or ANY OTHER person harms me or my family,. I will do whatever means necessary to defend my family,, and if that includes, severe bodily harm or death.. Believe it or not I would not have second thoughts,. Its the way I was brought up. I have a very extensive experience and training from My father and older brother and cousins.. My back ground and training is quite impressive , but I choose to not reveal those talents ,, because I want people to like me , because of me,, Not because they are afraid of me, ? I know that's doesn't make sense or does it..
 But back to my point, Like the MARTIAL ARTS, DANCING is a form of expression a sense of belonging to the dance,. Every time we dance we expressing our selves, honestly and truthfully. By dancing ,, we release our creativeness and energies that help us cope with life. Many times when I'm upset or need to release my anger,, I use dance remove my anger and create something wonderful.. I dance for my family and Friends , for the pure joy of sharing my talents and skills with them,, I know the pains in my knees and joints ,, are painful after each performance or practice, But I enjoy it and that's just the collateral damage I accept to do what I love, If one day , music was banned and writing was too.. I think I would be the most depressed guy in the world.. But that's such a far fetched idea,, So with that.. We dance because it makes us happy and to see people and hear them compliment us, makes us, hunger to learn more moves,, create more routines and show off our skills at every given opportunity or not, I know many times. in the mall , walking the streets hanging out. I hear music,. I dance and dance,, Just go ask any body that has worked Christina , Understand my feelings, When we hear the music , forget about the troubles we are dealing with or frustrations, when great music is on, We are on.. !! so with that,, That's why we dance, its not because we know how, Its because we can, and we feel the beat,and anyone that truly calls themselves a dancer., Knows we dance because it feels so good. and  besides we look good doing it, Its a way of life, its way of dealing with stress, Its a style we have, in our clothing m speech and even our cars , The music we listen to, the styles of clothes we wear, and the image we wish to portray displays , dancer, and lover of life, But I know we have those square \peg,, boring I only like rock music , dudes that think,, dancing is gay and not manly,, Well,, who cares,, ? I don't need your comments or opinions because opinions are like ass holes, Everyone has one and they all stink!!! I treasure my dear friends like Glen , Holly , Mel , Pua, Sara, Sal , , Stev, and Arlene, and many others that support and encourage me to dance or post blogs, Because in the end,. A true friend protects you and honors your friendship m not chastise or embarrass you.. But that's ok. I don't need negative Nancie's or Debbie downers, from small town north Dakota or whatever? I love the friends I have and I love my desire to share my dancing like many of my dance friends,, Why we dance? Because its us,, and its fun,, and its an expression of our selves,, We dance because we can, and because we enjoy sharing our skills,, Its more than movements, its a way of life and a life we plan to pursue well into old age,, Don't be surprised you see some 70 or 80 year old Me, or Sara  Jeremy or Brandon,, still hip hopping our ways across the dance floor,, Because we live to dance and we are gonna dance until the day we die.. !! UNTIL MY NEXT BLOG..

THE SOURCE PRODCUTIONS w@ 2013

My Secrets for a Happy Relationship>Inspired by MONA..

My Secrets for a Happy Relationships.- Inspired by Mona..
      My secrets for a happy relationship is quite simple.. You have to feel communicate , whatever that is.. ? Once communication is broken,, Its line a cable or phone line.. Once its broken,. You don't get a clear signal or view.. MISUNDERSTANDING'S happen because one person thinks one thing and the other another.. How I do I know because once upon a time I was a young and dumb dude that thought I knew everything. But it wasn't true, I was a good laconic guy that had the charming smile , the engaging chatter and of course sense of humor,, Those qualities certainly open the doors for relationships. But what happens next? Is that what you used to get the girl or boy.. ? WE tend to take things for granted. Advice, Don't do that. Because Love is like a garden,. If you tend to it every day and take care of issue before they get of  hand. You have a great yard and relationship.. Nothing in life or love just happens.. Everyday we all need reassurance , we all need Love, What we did yesterday is appreciated , but often times its forgotten. Its about what have you done for me lately.. Women or men are the same, We want to feel the love , not read it or say it,. We are feeling peoples, the couples that feel it the love , are the ones that last.. I'm thankful that even though the long separations because of military deployments, those times when I called or what I made sure she felt my love? How. Simple , just share your feelings and reassure her or him.. Its what we all want. I don't care how cocky or confident you ,, because I'm that, I still have those feelings of.. I want appreciation and love and respect,.. We all want to wanted and needed in a relationship.. When you stop reassuring one another and instead do destructive things like binge drinking and disregardful posts on fb,, That's when you lost respect and concern for that person.. IN MY opinion when that happens it might be too late.. Yea, I know I'm sorry and I wont do it again. But we all heard that and done that. Words ans actions hurt more than a slap in the face,.. and the intention of those words causing more harm than any physical abuse.. and Though we may forgive that person.. But the anger or issue is lingering in the back of people's heads,and once you continue to fill up that pail.. as my bestie would call it. One more argument or issue could cause that pail to tip and once that happens. It may be too late to recover .. The human mind and heart are complicated and  simple.. But so many couples ruin thins by being rude , and vengeful.. Today's couple's have to deal with so many issues, the social networks, the perceptions and images of society.. In today's world .. people are more sensitive to how they are being portrayed. The days of making fun and beating up one another and then be best friends, are long gone,, and Now its all about perception and image. If you post stories about drinking , and bad feelings about family and friends then people think your a unhappy and disruptive force that if I was an employer would not consider you for employment. If you are constantly posting things , just for the mere fact you want attention, Then I would say your a attention seeker and not a team player,, Yes, I would  not hire that person.. Now if there is a person that post about advice , and past experiences and perceptions about life,. I would hire that person, because they have a grasp about life, a maturity and a gift to help his family and friends. I'm not saying I'm perfect, but I do observe things and realize we all need reminder in life., That's why we feed off each others post, I enjoy the daily spiritual postings or the funny acts at work postings or My ride rules posts or the football or sports vents,, its keeps us going. We need reminder's and support from one another. But most of all Its the sense of humor postings that make me feel the best. Because those people that can laugh at themselves and others , and share their love with the world, Like home improvement stories , or the kids doing well in sports or making that big sale or winning that big case.. I enjoy all that and The love and respect we have for one another is the key to our relationship as fb friends.. I know for many of you I haven't seen you since jr high , high school , college or Navy days, But it doesn't matter , the bind or connection we established were strong enough to survives the years , months weeks we have been apart, and when we do make contact whether through posts or comments ,, I can feel the connection, If we really had a bond , it will stay forever.. if the bond was established because of forced necessity or convenience , then those relationships will fail.. True relationship last the test of time and their is unconditonal love.. I found that having jealous , envious or hateful thoughts in a relationship or friendship are disruptive and emotional and psychologically draining, so that's why I found out early in life , Its not worth feeling that way.. If I want something I make plans and start making actions. That way I have a desire an inspiration to attain to,.. My Career , my marriage , my parenting ,, has been my driving force , and all other thoughts of I wish I had that or I regret I didn't do this,. Why think that way, It doesn't help you or the relationship or friendship your trying to keep.
 Lastly , I just want to say that A sense of humor will help any relationship build bonds and break the chains of anger or what? IN addition you need to communicate what your feeling , what you like or don't like or what, if that person ignores or simply doesn't care about your feelings or concerns, Than why bother? That's one thing I don't do is compromise or settle for less, I don't stay in a relationship or friendship , Just because I don't want to be lonely,, I stay in because I have true feelings and love,. if that's nit the case ? Why stay and why torture or demean yourself by betraying your own emotions and psyche.. In life , nothing is guaranteed , but One thing I make sure every day I wake up is that I make sure my wife and kids know I love them , because I tell them. They may seem like I;m being too corny or what , but You never know if that .. your loved ones may not see you.. again, because we have DRUNK DRIVERS , or Serial killers , or jealous rages from family and friends., Or Natural disasters,, In other words. Shit Happens .. then you die.. !! I live everyday likes it Saturday night, Enjoy my friends and keep those bonds with family and friends strong by sharing funny stories or jokes and sharing your true feelings, but most of all just be there for them.. Alot of times, we all just want someone to listen.. not to solve or advise, just let us vent , cry or bitch about life or what.. My secret is simple. Just be there , in happy and especially bad times.. TAKE CARE UNTIL MY NEXT BLOG..
THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @ 2013

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY.. Inspired by the Legend of St. Valdentine

Happy Valentine's Day - Inspired by the legend of St. Valentine..
 According to Legend of St, Valentine , he was this Roman Catholic Priest who was sympathetic to the young couples that fell in love. But at the time The Roman Empire needed young men for their battles and conflicts , thus banning young love for the use of war and domination. St. Valentine would illegally and with full understanding that his actions would and could lead to his death. But nevertheless he continued to marry and encourage young couples to marry.
 The Roman empire soon after jailed , imprisoned him and sentenced him to death..
 While in prison .. it is believed that Valentine fell in love with the kings beautiful and young daughter , who visited him during his confinement. Thus , because of such a dangerous connection,. The King ordered his death sooner than later and was beheaded in front of her..
 It is alleged that before his death , he wrote a romantic love letter .. and signed it....
 " From your Valentine.." An expression that is still used today.. and the legend and mystery of young love and the creation of  all Love among couples.. proper, young, and forbidden..
 Happy Valentines day in honor of a Martyr that even after his death his legend has grown stronger than the empire that tried to stop his vision and beliefs.. Until my next blog,, enjoy!!
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THE PAINS OF LIFE.. INSPIRED BY LAPD OFFICER CRAIN.

THE PAINS OF LIFE.. INSPIRED BY LAPD OFFICER CRAIN...
  Everyday for 20 years I had to get up early and prepare what my career bestowed upon me. I was thrusted in a patriotic world , but a harsh , and strict world. I was told what to do what to eat what to think.. What to wear , when to wear it.. It sounds like a doting mother. But no it was service to this great nation and all Service members and law enforcement and homeland security understand its a oath , that just stays while in your service  its a lifetime oath.. I realize that now.. No matter how long  grow my hair , or what clothes or patterns of speech I choose to maintain.. I'm a a man that many years ago took a oath of office to support and defend the Constitution of the United States of America.. I see a lot of youth and young kids doing their things and I pray and hope they realize , freedom is wonderful , but its not free ,, Many of my comrades and ancestors and your have cried , died and worked at protecting these freedoms. The world is wonderful place , I have see the beautiful and the kindness of local people.. But I also have seen the ugly world.. The mean one that wants war. that wants death to Americans and their Friends. Its a chilling admission to know We Americans have dedicated enemies.. We don't realize that because we are going through life's struggle, the kids futures your financial situations.. We are dealing with our own pains of life. But there is a another world I liked for many years . I had to mean, I had to kick ass and kill as commanded. Its not a civilized way of thinking , but that's the way we had to train.. We had to battle fires, and piracy at sea.. We dealt with our own pressures and the issues of the world seem to be so far away. We were deprived of our own freedoms, because we were busy defending your.. Its funny The Military defends democracy , but we don't practice in our own world.. Yes.. their is unfairness , favoritism.. corruption.. and even down right bigotry. The images and perceptions of the clicks in the Navy are so deeply entrenched that even when you say your not a part of that group.. If you look like it , if you talk like it. then you are it.. I know when I joined the Navy , I had a different perspective on life and what I wanted out of it. My many stress filled and heart breaking years in the Navy has at times made be cold blooded about pain and misery , especially others. Because we cant let emotions dictate how we conduct missions and duties. I know a lot of civilians can never understand a veterans pain. But I hope in my future blogs will help you understand if not for a moment take into account the many stressors we veterans faced and still trying to overcome.. The images of death on tv.. is nothing like seeing it up close.. The tragedies I have witnessed and accidents causing great bodily harm will never leave my mind.. I know now hat Post traumatic syndrome is for real.. Because I still have troubling getting restful sleep and to fully concentrate and remember things is difficult to But I also know times does heal all wounds.. But the scar and memories remain.. My career is winding down. I have less than 3 weeks remaining in my honorable Career, and God knows how Much I dedicated my passion and love for this great nation I call THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA.. I know I'm not white and I can never be.. But I have the American Spirit that I want to teach to my kids and his friends.. Nothing is ever free. If you want freedom , you must defend it every day , you must preserve it and encourage others to do the same.. Its our god given right ,, and we must as a nation follow, Because my fellow fb friends.. The world is painful and I have seen the poor and the wretched cry in the streets begging for me to buy them anything and because I'm so soft hearted and caring I would but all the time. I say to myself.. NO matter what pains and suffering my kids think they go through,,They will never see the pains of life I seen in the streets of Thailand , Bali , Hong Kong, Africa..and other exotic lands,, It will would break my heart to see pretty young girls in Thailand to sell themselves to dirt bag folks,,, just to eat.. They would do anything for money,, and I mean anything. I would feel so sorry, because they would sell their souls for easy money.. Some times I would just hand them money... or buy them food and my fellow shipmates , why? I said because .. because.. they are humans, and for a young girl.. 11,12 , 13 OR WHATEVER age was disturbing.. But my shipmates and laugh.. What a waste of money.. At least get something out of it.. Hmm.. Really who's wrong ? But it doesn't matter , I know I'm a one man army surrounded by monsters and evil doers,, and I will continue to fight those folks .. and for those that really  know me. I'm a honorable and passionate man, that looks to women ,, as fellow humans , not sexy toys or objects, don't get wrong.. I love looking at beautiful woman,. But I'm more impressed with women who are beautiful inside,, Humility , sincerity , honesty.. and true compassion is what I call a beautiful woman,,. and despite the pains of life.. My Favorite women are My dearly departed mama.. who passed away way to young.. and My bestie who after many years of pains has helped me transition into this different world.. Then last but not least.. MY loving wife who is a loving and caring woman that has let me choose free will and do what makes me happy and also cherish the times we share together.. I know those are only 3 ladies , but all of them have helped me shape my ideals and personality and discover my real self. I know the Military pains of life were very hard my my heart and soul,, But My time is done and now I have another mission in my life,. Which is to assist my kids to do well in their studies and encourage them to find their way. I know life is not easy and often times we don't realize how fast time goes.. I will cherish my time with my family and true friends , because times does fly so fast. The pains of life is never ending,, But I know that for every obstacle I face or my family and friends , I pray that we take time and a moment.. to decide what we need to do.. Our actions always have a affect on the ones we love whether we realize that or not.. I know that Nothing in life is guaranteed , but is better we don't know our true destiny's. the idea of not knowing when your gonna die or when your gonna face issues. Each day , is gift.. That's why they call the Present?!! The Pains of life is strong and wear on us. But if troubles ,, haunt you , take time out and think about what's important to you.. Be true to those that are true to you and reach out before you freak out.. You owe it to your loved ones and society itself.. I have seen too many pains of life and Today,, can be the difference maker,, BUT as a human you must love each day and embrace your relationships,Never take anything for granted,, I know I did and I lost many family and friends,, suddenly and unexpected.. The Pains of life.. will never end. its a part of life.. But do what makes you happy , but leave a legacy that your family and friends can be proud of.. I hope and pray my legacy of love, compassion , humility and advice can not only be words.. But plans of action all of us can practice every day of our lives.. If you don't trust humanity or family and friends or my writings.. Then look to GOD.. he there always , it just we all because of the rat race of life , we take him for granted and sadly ask for help in dire needs.. Why not thank him every day for each day you live and be thankful.. for loving family and friends.. The pains of life.. you cant run away from it.. WE have to face and deal with it. ... Until my next blog.. Take care..
THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @ 2013

The Military injustice.. Inspired by fellow veterans.

The Military Injustice - Inspired by fellow Veterans..
 The Military has been a very good experience for a lot of us veterans. It provided a steady financial future , fellowship among men and women, life long friends. A chance of lifetime to see exotic lands and see exotic people , eat wonderful foods and to live among all types of people..
 But , we also have faced or dealt with many years of stress, pressure and anxiety about standing watch , ling watches in dangerous lands,. To be on alert,, at all times because of the nature of the job.. We don't have a set schedule,, Every day is a exercise in unpredictability.. A lot of the times we are fighting one another , but in the end We make up and go on,.. We have too. But the stress is always there and the fears of coming home alive is a constant thought.. Sure we have taken the oath to kill the enemy of the US and protect Government assets.. But we all are human , we want to go home and be with family, we want to see our kids grow up and have kids. we want to be happy with our wife sharing tender moments and of course sharing time with Friends , that has had to deal with long deployments and separation.. I know any separation does something to your Psyche and bonds with family and friends.. A lot of family and friends cant or don't want to deal with such separation's , and with that I'm sorry that a lot of my family and Friends cant or don't want to deal with someone they lost touch with in the past 20 years or more.. I mean.. I don't blame them.. I have dealt and seen horrible things and I wish I never did.. THE ugly scene of death is awful and to lose a shipmate no matter what the circumstances is painful.. But we are all taught to be almost robot like,. unemotional machines that  have to dust them selves off and go on.. ? But really? Its not that easy and the military doesn't provide the assistance or the time for healing.. They wonder why? there is so much drinking and fighting , abuse,, hazing , etc because of these issues.  We are only humans but too many of the old school military including myself , we were brainwashed into thinking we are bad asses, we seek destroy and overcome. Sure it works,, but what happens when you retire and you have trouble sleeping , like I do, have trouble concentrating , like I do.. what then.. Sure they are many services, but a lot of Vets are not getting the word.. Or in most cases based on they way they were raised in the military.. To admit weakness or pain from military duties , is.. less than manly.. But.. the more these men like Manifesto of Murder suspect.. These types of outburst will continue//./. Its a injustice that needs to be addressed. I mean , to wait a full 9 months to get disability assistance is ridiculous , for men who have served and protected this great nation. We have suffered for many years , of long and lonely separations and deployments.. and whatever judgements ,, you civilians may have on the military men and women.. We did and done we do on deployments to cope and survive,, You may think we are weak,, But imagine, every 18 months you are getting ready to do long separations with your loved ones. Just imagine,, bad food. good food. hot spaces, cold spaces.. ignorant misguided people and you have to sleep near them.. You have dirt bags.. and loser's, and they are in charge of you,, YOU HAVE RACIST AND HATERS and they are leading you.. You argue or explain their issues and you get demoted, or black balled. You get labeled a whistle blower, a trouble maker ,, a rebel.. But in the eyes of your peers you are respected and feared,, But they don't follow suit because its a lonely and scary road to speak your mind and have passion about how things are supposed to be done in the Military.. But Their greatest injustice is that .. The civilian world.. doesn't recognize or care feel for the abused and stresses Veteran.. They think we are crazy , hell raising baby killers.. Well , War or conflicts are not pretty , and collateral damage will always happen no matter what. But the perception and image of Veteran's are not good. The latest incident with my fellow veteran isn't helping matters and I do hope he stands down from hi mission so to speak. He has created a chaotic feel for everyone involved and the USA.. I understand his pain and I feel for him. and his injustices throughout his life and career. I have been exposed myself.. But we have other ways to deal with that and I want to make that transition from Military to Civilian a smooth one. and Perhaps be a Veteran assistance representative so I can assist Vets like myself who are struggling to make that transition.. IN the military we knew who were the enemies and we had clear objectives.. In the Civilian world.. Its is truly a jungle , where its cut throat.. You don't know who to trust and who to believe in. Its a tough road, and a lot of us are fighting that transition every day. BUT . we must go on and educate and comfort our fellow vets about the services that are being provided. The injustice that has been applied to us, is appalling and unsatisfactory. But with time and continued pressure to the federal government , we will overcome and be productive citizens.. We Veterans have been unjustified labeled and persecuted , but through time , action and being strong we will change the mind set and be the productive member to society that we proudly showcased during our Military service and pride in protecting the USA..
THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @2013

Life is too short to have hate and anger.. Inspired by Family..

Life is too short to have hate and anger.. Inspired by family..
 Life is too short to have such hate and anger over what? A rude comment or comments.. Sure it may have lingered for years but its your fault for not letting them know sooner.. Your a great guy a lot of the times.. But this time. I feel that your kind of out of line.. I mean,, He's sorry and he's attempting to be the man by apologizing, but instead , you go on this long tirade that is vicious and mean.. Gosh.. I wonder what would happen if he really said or posted something awful and mean!! I think or I know your too sensitive,, You admit it , but give people a break.. People make mistakes.. People say and do dum things drunk or not. But you cant expect everyone to say or do the right thing all the time. I mean we read about all your encounters and situations .. Its clear you have made a lot of mistakes and did a lot of shameful things,. Now,, someone forgave you and gave you a chance.. Why cant you give that guy another chance.. I mean.. Its clear you like him a lot and you enjoy the many talks about cars, women. old times.. life .. But to let some fb posting to ruin that bond is foolish.. and childish,. Yes. I said it or wrote it.. Your being childish regarding this matter. Its a shame. Your such a sweet person.. But in this case you are dead wrong.. You need to let by gones be by gones.. and  live life happily,,. We all know time on earth is fast, and to let a cool bond be spoiled or destroyed because of a frivolous and useless post,, that if your ego maniac , testerone fools think was offensive,, so what? You say you admire these people,, Really ? Then maybe your friends are not all that? But I'm your counsin that loves you dearly and I wish you well in your life , but in this case I had to speak out.. Because it seems you have all your fb buddies under a spell , where THE SOURCE IS UNSTOPPABLE ,, but guess what... Nothing in life is perfect , nothing in friendship is perfect. The marriage ,, deal,, come on now ,, don't tell me you never argued,, Of course you do.. Its part of the process , but I thought you knew that? But I guess not.. Maybe it you that has issues , Too much pride, too ,much ego,, too much .. Your not all that.. even though you think you are.. I think your a legend in your own mind,, and Right now,, I don't like the way your handling things in your life.. The rants about drivers. the stories of speeding . and the oh.. its always me.. Just shows me your the insensitive , mean and self centered person.. Perhaps that's why you were friends with this guy.. Both of you share the same triats,, But he just came up a better joke that you couldn't counter back.. Thus ego hurt , thus,. I don't play anymore.. Now who sounds like a spoiled brat? Hey.. I respect and honor the many years you served and protected the UNITED STATES OF AMERICA. But that doesnt give you the right to dictate or make the rules. Your just a man like the one you chastise , you both have lived and learned about life, and to see such true characters.. fight over comments that were made in jest.. Sure ..maybe they were posted with bad intentions.. But so what,. They are just words,.. Shouldn't the years you laughed with him be enough to overcome a brief lapse of stupidity,.., ? Oh well I hope you realize a lot of people like you and respect you, but there is a lot of people hoping you turn the cheek , even for once and lower your ego.. so the family and  friends don't feel uncomfortable for future get togethers,..But everyone has their breaking points,.. I just thought after all those years in the god forsaken Navy.. You would have a thicker skin,.. that what you have displayed in the past week.. But all I want to say.. Is Be the bigger man and let it go.. Im sure he feels terrible.. But if you think its fun to see another person suffer,, Than counsin.. Your not the sweet guy or counsin I thought you were. I have faith in you cuzz. and I hope you come to your senses.. Maybe you just need a little more time,. and I praying and hoping you finally let go of that anger.. Its really not you.. Be sincere and be the cousin and friend I love and miss. . We all miss that guy!!??!!?
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