THE FIRST AND THE WORST .. underway period in my career,,

The first and the worst underway period in my career...
  Yea, I've been through some tough times , but this past week or three days have been the most embarrassing , most humiliating , most irritating and aggravating time ever at sea. It bad enough to be at sea , but when your bitched at and praised at the same time.. It gets ,, well yea, old. I mean my guys and girls when asked to get things done , we always get it done. Whether its showing for ceremonies or doing a job that should be planned out better instead of last minute,. But that's when you have a emotional leader that takes everything too personal. But hey that's the new age , and to be honest I feel for the new age military guys that have to deal with this. For me,, I never wanted to be a ass bite or a jerk, but sometimes I know you have to do it. But to always do it , and expect your guys to be happy. But then again who cares if guys are happy , right? Today , the bosses care about did the job get done , who gives the rats ass if the troops are happy. The key is job done.. But when you constantly stress your guys and threaten them to do things , eventually it will back fire , people are only human , emotions can only stand so much stress , before you see negative reactions , like health issues , even emotional issues, I mean I'm not saying bad things as in violent behavior but we are only humans and sometimes the logic and reasoning people deal with is hard to understand. Am I right ? I mean we hear news events about deaths, killings sprees , happen all the time.. I mean the human psyche is hard to understand, How much stress can military folks take? I mean , I ve seen in my long career , guys almost kill themselves , fighting , or just doing over the top things because of stress,did I ? Of course I did, I mean alcohol abuse is rampant in the Military , underage drinking , come on.. it happens and it will always happen, The leaders stress don't do this , do that,, but do they really practise what they preach. I mean I'm a led by example , but I don't say or advise things I don't do myself.,. I use drinking to relieve stress , and un wind.. now we all know alcohol is the truth serum, your true emotions come out... That's why people who don't want to drink with you , don't want you to know their true feelings.. That's why my papa , always said to me " BE careful who you drink with , it might turn violent.. I have made those bad choices while I was younger , but these days,, I definitely very careful who I drink with.. ok,, 
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