My worst enemy is me? Inspired by someone I know.

My worst enemy is me? Inspired by someone I know..
   When it comes o enemies,,We all know the ones at work that hate us or the ones that hated us in school or even family. But how about if your the worst enemy in your life?
   ok.. Lets say theres this guy one moment hes the coolest guy around and then something words, phrases, songs, what makes him go beserk.. crazy just say crazy thoughts or feelings. Would you be friends with them , would you empathize with them.. or just tolerate them.. I know this guy deep down inside is this shy insecure , kid that longs for love , longs for companionship.. whats ironic is that he tells his friends I don't want to be like his dad.. a drunk, lying , son of a bitch, a cold hearted man that is selfish and self centered and needy. Whats tough,, after a lifetime of living my friend had become his worst enemy he became that dad that was flity that was drunk at parties and seeking attention with his navy stories, some funny some disgusting.. But because this guy loves attention so much.. attention whore was the label his wife called him.. but lets think about the wife..She had to endure a lifetime of heart aches of embarassments of insincerity of lies, of being whatever.. patient , oh hell yea,, understanding , maybe? Now what to do? Well what do you tell a guy or girl,, that knows the way they are is destroying their relationship , marriage, bonds with kids, because its tearing apart trust , love and respect and once thats gone? What to do?Counseling sessions, prayers, self reflecions , big changes are needed ad this guy seeks advice , but the problem is everyone he talks too has different personalities and opinions,, so instead of deciding what to do,, he gets more confused, more frustrated, more crazy? He seeks advice because he doesn't trust his own judgement or maybe because hes so insecure he cant face reality? Or maybe or more likely he has such a great ego,,, he cant face the facts , he neglected , and took for granted the best thing in his life. his wife, I know when he first met her , he thought the world of her and to be honest he still does,, But because his ego, his pride his stubborness is holding back how they feel about one another , they say mean things they threaten each other with actions and then have resentful feelings about things thay imagine ir not is happening,,, games people play when in love? Or is it more two people that are so hust from the past relationships they are taking out on one another because they are still there? WHY? MAY BECAUSE THEY ARE CRAZY AND MENTAL,.. BOTH trying to seek redemption , seek happiness or hurt the one thats been there for them..I mean. isnt it true the one you love the most is also the ones you can hurt you the most. Why? because they know what buttons or words to say to make them mad and angry. But how much is enough 1 year , 2 years , 3 years of emotional hell? On the guys point he feels he has tried to make things work out on the girls part , once the love and trust and respect is gone,, why bother? I say , we are human we all make mistakes and we all need forgiveness for one another. If not the hate and bitterness will stay with you forever. My friend knows that when his mama died he was angry at God , the world , his life. he had a bitter attitude and often showed with his words and actions,, Yea he may have smiled and joked but when provoked he was a monster. and for years he hated ...that until he let go of that anger and lived again.
   In this case , my friend yearns for forgiveness yearns for happiness yearns for acceptance, He loves his family and his wife, but his ego, his self righteounius m arrogance and prudent attitude has alienated his wife , his family , his friends, he knows he has issues, and has made steps to correct them. But it seems once he takes that step forward , his attitude or inmaturity puts him back more steps
       The lesson learned , is that everyday in life you should look to improve yourself , look to say good things to your wife and family and look to God for guidiance, And when you do argue or fight,,, try to calm it down immediately,, Letting things go only creates resentment , hatred and a break down in communication.. Its tough to learn such lessons so late in life or in a trouble marriage,, Can it be saved,, Only those two can do that and God knows,, whats in store,, My advice to my friend,reach out to God and reach out to his wife and family though a letter through talking , because is the only way to understand whats going on? I feel for my friend because he knows he has issues , but doesnt try hard enough to resolve them.. He needs to make a effort every day and stick to those steps or techniques.. In life , you have opportunities to create good memories,, and as time goes by and you get older those chances get less and less especially with kids The parties, the gatherings , the dinners, the events like concerts or family parties, or playing football video games or shooting guns,, Whatever the activity,,, enjoy them because as they grow older.. Those special times are fewer and fewer.. Taking time out to be with family is so special because time flies by so fast and I'm hoping my friend find his truth or happiness , and not use alcohol , drugs or smoking to relieve the emotional hell he has put himself, his family and friends,, In the end.. everyone wants resolution and a solution to their issues, because its not helping their own state of mind or emotional health,, My friend needs to take a deep inner take on himself and decide if his mid life crisis , his longing to be young again interfere with his dreams of raising a happy family and enjoying what God has given him. A loving and caring wife and wonderful kids that are dying watching their parents fight and bicker. One of them needs to be the better man or woman and reach out and talk.. or the pain and suffering and emotional hell will only tear apart the family and each other.
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