True Friends are ? Inspired by life events..

True Friends are ? Inspired by life events..
   My life continues to be a story book, some are like fairy tales and other times its A  horror film or tragic comedy.. Once upon a time MY new found friends . G, K , E , B etc were tail gate buddies at work.. What is that? Well it all started when K would listen to music with his expensive ass sitting chair. This chair can be a back pack m a mini storage , a table,, Its expensive , but hey to each is own.. Then we had G , my best friend now? My brother from another mother. Man, we are 2 peas in the pod.. We just clicked,, we laugh , we know the same songs,, the same movies,, Its like we grew up in different lives but we experienced the same damn things,, from hard ships , to break ups to losing friends. I love that guy,, not in a gay way , more like a brother.. We had it all , we were laughing , telling stories,, sitting out in the sun.. and just chilling.. watching everyone drive by or walk by ,, was always a trip.. we would see happy smiles,, or joyful laughter. I mean grown ass muscle building, military vets.. sharing time together. That's one thing I really miss about my military days,, I miss those steel beach picnics,, the parties,, the talks.. we bonded because we had too. Our lives depended on it,, I haven't had that feeling since I retired,,??/
   Until now,, I finally Home, I like where I'm at.. Its a great feeling ... to be somewhere where you feel such love and respect .. I mean I can see it in many workers eyes.. When I decided to buy treats on Friday.... Lets see Donuts, Bagels , Pastries, Muscle Drinks , Peanuts, They love me.. and I love my co workers.I Talk to everyone,, even the ones that maybe bitter or angry.. I don't know I like to see all people happy whether or not people like me or not.. Its a curse I guess. I like happiness in the work place,, But having that " Curse" can be troublesome.. explain.. Well One morning ,, I was really tired in fact my car pool buddy called me to say I'm not coming in.. I said cool,, I actually just woke up and I was tired myself I said I need a break.. But... it seems too many people need me to be at work? I never ever missed a day,, I miss one day,, the whole place goes crazy,,I mean.. I can get sick , I cant get tired , depressed.. Its the Curse I have,, because ever day no what or how I'm feeling I put on my smile, my laughs the jokes , the singing,.!1 Does it get old, Yup,, I am the most unselfish , most unconditional person you can meet. I will go way out of my way to help people.. To please people, even though I haven't slept for days , or I'm worried about things in life,, I get to work,, since whenever I have to be this Magical guy that spreads joy and energy,,,
  Now True friends,, based on what has happened in my life. True friends,, don't fight over petty things, they don't dis respect you or think things that aren't true,, like copy cat. or copying me,, really ??friend,? . I was damn tired!! ,, you knew I was tired!!, but like I said.. Most people really just think of themselves.like you did !!!. Take care of their needs,, in other words, use people,, But to be honest we all use people for something.. Like for attention , for love, for support , comfort,, especially if your not getting it from your loved ones? I mean its funny how the closest ones in our lives hurts us the worst.. Why? Because we have opened our hearts and minds to them and they know how to make us happy , but they also know how to hurt you too.. That's why,, true friends are rare to find. I have maybe a handful of friends in my life. Jo, Tony , Colin , Greg.. Annie , and maybe another one? I believe she is , because I opened my heart and wrote my life story to her.. But I guess like the other girls I opened up my life story to them.. They did it for entertainment , or attention , or as one girl said,, I felt sorry for you,, Really is any of that is true??, I don't want your friendship.. That may hurt , but playing with peoples emotions, or only leaving oneself available when you need it? To me is not true friendship.. Like I have found,,, True friends . have unconditional , unselfish , and unlimited love for you. They don't get jealous , or feel pressured to do things for you because they owe it to you,, True friends do it because they feel it , they want to and they know their efforts will not go unnoticed.. That's why those names I mentioned are my true friends, they don't judge me, or make fun of me,, they feel with me..they laugh with you , not at you.. I know maybe I'm too harsh on people, I just like to give all my love and affection to people, Anyone that knows me.. I go full throttle,, I know that has scared many people, and so be it.. Its just the way I am... ? Maybe in time my friendship with that special friend will recover or what? But you know life is too short to deal with friends that don't want to share things with me. I will be there for them if they want it, I mean ,, why did I do to cause anyone to run away from me.. I know I'm loud , proud ,, even embarrassing , but its me.. Its what I am..anything else would not be me..Maybe what we had was just a foolish dream , a foolish time in our lives,, well it felt like real.. the tears I cried , the laughs , we shared those were real.. But like I said,, some people are scared to get close to anyone because they are afraid to open up their failures in their life.. or insecurities... Its ok... Like I said ,, I have faith in God,, and I look to him to guide me and point me in the right direction,, Because IT seems at work,, i haven so many disappointments , misunderstandings.. and broken friendships , over rumor, gossip , perception etc.. But hey , I'm not worried about what people think.. I'm living my life and I will share my love , affection and friendship with those that are cool with me.. ? 
  Bottom line.. I will be more careful with people that seem too good to be true ,, because I found out the hard way , If its too good to be true,, it is,, ? If something feels good , in time it fades away if its not based on true friendship.. I mean who am I kidding? How close can you get with anyone? for 2 weeks and 1 hour talk.. its just a dream ride , like my best friend said ,, So true my friend.. Its like will I ever learn.. Perhaps , this is time to live and learn and protect your heart , because some people could care less and it hurts only you,, and believe me. I have hurt too may times,, I know my time on earth is ending.. I mean. this is the final chapter in life, I don't need to be around people that are negative and don't really feel happy for my accomplishments.. I realize that now,, The ones you though had your back, ends up being your betrayer. I hope my betrayer doesn't kill me.. ?? Emotionally?because ,, I cant take anymore heart aches in my life.. right? I mean..we are only human.  strong as we think we are.. We need to be around people that loves us unconditionally with no unselfish or jealous thoughts .. and of course unlimited Patience and care that your rarely find.. True friends are patient and let things be.. 
   But based on what I have seen.. The True friendships at work have aligned and the losers, betrayers, the jealous ,and haters are hating on me. But sometimes,,you have to say "Its mind over matter  I don't mind , because they don't matter!! Until my next Blog.. Be happy and be with those are true to you!
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