The tragedy of life.. Not letting go. Based on life experiences..

The tragedy of Life . Not letting go.. Based on life...

    One of the things I have found hard to do is let go.. Whether is girl Friends, pets, things , cars. It seems I get too attached to things.. Sentimental , foolish or just a dreamer. All I know I have lived and loved and been to many places around the world, I loved seeing the friendly people Hong Kong or Singapore or Australia, I have seen the world and I have experienced the best and the worst life has to offer But one of the things I have issues with is letting go.. I'm a prideful , stubborn , hard headed man that often cant let things go.. Whether its material things or relationships and friendships that aren't meant to be? ok What do I mean? Well I'm sure everyone has friends and some are better than others and others seem to be troublesome, needy , hard to understand. For me, I tend to keep them in my life, even though it may affect my professional or private lives.. To me a true friend doesn't try to harm you or cause pain joking or not? I mean , sometimes sarcasm or jokes are just ways to show their real feelings or dislike of you without being straight forward. But then again everyone has their own way to apologize and say sorry. But it still troublesome when some friends seem to know how to make you feel bad. Now that I'm older , wiser, and lets face it time is running down. It seems each day goes faster , each week, month and years seem to fly faster than the next. So , my point is is,, I want to surround myself I can feel comfortable with, where I can share my thoughts and feeling in an authentic and real way. I do things because I want to expecting nothing in return except respect and love. I don't do things to gain favors , kiss ass or brown nose,, I do it out of the kindness of my heart. Its something I learned from my beloved mother. I was raised by My Grandma and Mama, and I admit I have female qualities, sometimes I think like a women,, maybe that's why women like hanging with me, I understand them? In some cases I do,, I know they want to have connections , and they want to feel love,, Buying gifts and such are fine, But without the feeling it means nothing to them.. I learned that the hard way,,When I courted women in the past,, That Flowers , cards candy are fine, but if I don't even know you well, it means nothing. NOW,, I realize when I Buy something for a friend , its done because I want to , I feel a need to,, its like a inner sense that I need to get this for her, shes gonna love it,, because I know them.. Its mutual respect , its mutual understanding its unconditional love.. Its hard to find that connection in life, I know Many times i thought I had it only to find out it was just infatuation? I mean ,, we are going to meet alot of people in life , and connect with them. some for awhile maybe even more forever. But I realize now,, that You can force things,, you can people to like or love you,, It  just happens,, like a lightening strike,, hits you out of now where? You can plan everything else in life,, work , school, career, kids,, but Love is special and it can start and grow when you least expect it? Make any sense? Well , the moral to this blog is this,, Learn to enjoy people in your life and if they leave by choice , by death or by other means, Don't take it personal.. Life is too short to analyze whatever you did or said the right things to them. Life is meant to be lived and looking back and not forgiving yourself is only killing yourself.. I know now that I have faith in GOD, he has been there many times in my life when I said,, oh boy ,, I need your help. Having faith and no fear of the future is the only way to live these days. If someone comes into your life and then leaves,, Take that as a life lesson. That's cherish every moment with anyone in your life and be thankful they are there, because true friends stay with you and want to be part of you're life, if not daily but in other ways  by keeping in touch via face book , snap chat , etc.. Cherish and take care of your family and be thankful the friends you have really care , because life is fleeting and fast. That's why I enjoy every day with smiles and laughter and treat everyone with respect and love. Nothing in life comes easy , especially things that are worth it.!!! Its like  a garden.. YOU plant seeds, your fertilize it you water it, etc and it can be beautiful. The same goes with friendship's , relationships. you have to build a solid base of trust , faith and understanding. before anything else. Once that's established then Love just comes easily.. Well Have a great day and always love yourself, your family , your friends and your life.. A smile can open up so many doors for you because it shows you are happy with oneself and and your life. So go out and smile at people , it will make a difference!!
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