What Kind of girl can hang with me? Inspired by life..

What kind of Girl can hang with me? Inspired by life...

  What kind of girl can hang with me.. To be honest I really think theres very few girls that can be with me. I'm a laid back guy, but also a guy who is a social butterfly. I love to meet all kinds of people. I'm the type of guy when you first meet me,I  make you feel I've know you forever.. But some girls and guys take it as a hit , or flirting? A curse? A blessing ! Or just a guy who feels he needs to meet people and make an impression. I'm sensitive and overly proud. I feel like I'm a King , like my Zodiac sign Leo the Lion. I feel like I'm King of the Jungle. The life of the party.. If your a girl that can handle that challenge.. then your in.. One thing you cant be,,is be too quiet , or too old fashioned. You have to be with it, You have to be able to handle all situation.. You can be possessive , or too jealous, because I'm a flirt ? A friendly person, but it just harmless fun. But if you cant handle the attention I get or desire , then you cant be with me.. Am I afraid of being alone? Hell yeah, But I rather be a owner of a lonely heart than owners of broken hearts. Believe me I have had my heart broken by lesbians, quiet girls , loud and mean girls, white , black , Latin , Asian.. you name it, I have been hurt. But if anything I'm honest , maybe too honest.. But its the way I am.. and to the many women I have hurt or the ones that I have hurt. Its all good and I forgive you..Because life is a journey , we are all looking or searching for happiness. At times we feel , we found it and other times we are just fooled but infatuation or the sense of a new relationship. Am I right.. Anything new always feels good, A new Car , new clothes.. But as time goes by... You realize the girl isn't what you thought? To me..I;m happy with my Friends males and females, Its hard sometimes to deal with life , but I know that just be yourself and enjoy life,, Because time flies by so fast. 
  Back to the blog. The girl in my life has to be spiritual , needs to believe in destiny and faith, the girl I want has to be happy to her herself..If shes flirty, if she's happy then show it.. What about the bad moods, or the bipolar events? To me.. If you really love and care for a person, you accept them for what they are. If they are social,, you let the be.Because I learned that trying to change someone, or changing for someone is not only fake , but insincere, and besides why be something your not. Like Me.. I have to be the life of the party the talker ,, the gift of gab .. Its me. For anyone, wife, girl friend , whatever , tries to change you, Is a waste of time, because your denying your true self, I learned that the best way to be happy is to be authentic, be real. That way your not surprising anyone and no one feels faked out. As life goes on. I now know I will be myself, and be Mele Mel.. even if it means a end to relationships , friendships,, I don't  need people that are angry and resentful towards me. Because, no one is perfect. God knows,,, How I am. but if he can forgive me.. Why cant the others in my life,, do the same? But I'm good now , I'm not afraid of anything anymore,, I want to be happy , because happiness or true happiness is really hard to find and finding that special someone is really a treasure hunt. I hope that everyone reading this blog finds it,, Because its rare and I hope and pray I find that happiness I deserve, because to be honest its tough living life right knowing I'm just living each day .. wondering about things. But I put on my happy face and do my job and pray that  God is guiding me , because its tough to live life alone? But if there is a girl that has the sparking personality and is not jealous and not envious or resentful about things I cant take back .. Then I welcome that girl in my life and God knows I will treat you like a queen.. Because being hated and resented has been the hardest thing to deal with. The pain and misery I'm feeling is unfair and I deserve better. But I will take care of boys and hope and pray the pain I'm going through Will soon fade away, and I will find true happiness, and if this gets back to that special someone,,, I just want to say. Its time to move on and I'm ready to let you go. if that's whats best for us.. Because living in limbo has been the most degrading , disgusting and painful thing I have felt.?
 My lesson is this, Don't let anyone dictate how you live your life if they hate you or break you down, why bother with that bitch or asshole.. The best thing is move on and find someone that will not hold grudges or resent you and make you happy.. Because life is too short to try to change someones mind.. One thing is true girls know what they want and once they decided on you its over.. The problem Nice guys with egos and sensitive personality think they can resolve things. Because I have most of my life,, But its hard to fix something that has been broken too many times.. Yes, there is a point of no return, when the heart has been hurt or broken into too many pieces. A wide person, learns that .. you have to know how to walk away and start over.. May God Bless everyone and please be good to everyone , even your ex's because no one should hold hate or grudges in your heart. It just makes you a bitter old man or woman. 
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