What would you do if you love and hate your job !

What would you do if you love and hate your job ? 
Well imagine working at a place that’s full of gossip and rumors and people talking good and bad about the department you work for . Imagine a job where you go out of your way to make the place a safer place to be . Your asked to protect people from harm and you tasked to provide services that require time and effort , But people think your job is easy , well that’s a job of a public safety Officer your asked to be a escort when patrons are scared of being robbed . Your asked to be a judge when patrons argue so you have to be peace maker . But if you do too much Force you get talked to and if you dint do enough Force .. you get talked to .. in other words it’s a thankless job .. A lot of the days your wondering whose going complain about what your doing ! Imagine a place where if you talk too much you get written up and if you don’t talk enough your timid .. What gives ? Your Damned if you do and vice verse .. yes it’s a thankless job people curse you out call you nigger or jap or Hispanico whatever that is ..? I’m not sure if the words piss me off or Their attitude ., well anyways this is my plight one day your the hero by kicking out a drunk .. then the next day your fucked about stupid ass other shit .. it’s kind of a job most people would leave .  Like I said I admire people that like doing this job .. the stress the bullshit is overwhelming at times .. but for some reason myself and fellow officers come back every day .. But  it’s not easy ..  then of course we have females that talk shit about you and you have to deal with it .. imagine being told the girls think
Your gay .. why because I chose not to talk to these bitches .. You act professional
Then they say shit like that .. but I laughed it up but it still affected me .. But one thing I learned about people and life ., People at work places size you up or judge you in the first weeks your there and some will change their minds ..and others will stick to their original feelings about you ..would you like working at a place like that .. Sounds frustrating and crazy .. The problem
With public safety your fighting boredom most of the time ! There’s so much walking around and standing around waiting for things to happen.. The thing Is when things go down you Have to be ready to go .. yea it’s a crazy place to work especially people says shit about you and have  no idea who you are .. So the best thing to do is do your job and go home , but any work place is full of drama and gossip and just pisses me off when you’re cool with someone one day the next day your on their shit list .. I don’t know maybe guys just have friendships with guys because we don’t care about bull shit stuff unlike girls that worry about shit .. In other words bitch bitch bitch .. this and that !! Is there a Lesson in this ..? Not really you have to deal with people ..you can’t be in a plastic bubble immune to things ., life doesn’t work that way .. So we work out we watch movies or play video games or you take it out on patrons that get too drunk and you have to remove them .. It’s sounds bad but I did that In my military days and it’s doesn’t stop right now !! Just imagine a place like that , perhaps it describes work places around the world ..Maybe that’s why we have road rage issues or work place violence , people are emotional especially if someone accuses you of something or assuming your gay or what? What would do if you had to deal with shit things like this .. ? To be honest I’m freaking fed up and ready to work some place else .. !! But like my last blog I  found some cool friends but I wonder now if they are truly friends or just setting me up
For dissapointment that seems to follow me at every workplace ,,is it karma or just the fact every workplace has its ups it downs and it’s up to to deal with it or leave .. its just life .. you live on you move on ., I choose to live on and move on ., which could mean should I stay or should i go
What would you under these conditions .. well it’s the weekend .. I’m gonna enjoy things I live to do work out 🏋️‍♀️ Play with my guns and just relax until
The next week where the same damn cycle rolls on by !
Until my next blog take care and be strong !
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