Merry StressMas! Inspired story from family...

Merry StressMas ! Inspired story from Family..
 Its the season to be jolly. Yes.. Indeed.. When things go well.. For Me.. Since MY mother in law and Mama died many years ago.. Christmas time has always been tainted.. and sad.. Ti be honest ,,,, Because of those heartbreaking events in my life.. The season of jolly is actually the most trying and stressful times.. Why? Because of the women I adored and loved are no longer here.. I'm not a jealous person. at all. But when I see or read stories of folks enjoying times with their mama's. make me smile but also reminds me of the void I have had for so many years.. But because I have kids.. I pretend , I act like Christmas time is the greatest time of the year.. I attend all the parties and put up the happy go lucky act.. But to be honest.. Its one of the saddest times of the year for me.. 
 Now.. after serving 20 years in the Navy. I get the ultimate stress,, I didn't get paid on pay.. First time in 20 years.. Its stressful, its depressing and to be honest its scary.. I realize Now.. That I,m a pay check away from being homeless or what? The very people I make judgements on the the streets is a very close to me.. I look at my accounts all ZERO'S.. that's scary.. I have a mortgage to pay.. bills , car note.. food.. etc.. But with no money that I can readily get to,. I'm in trouble.. I mean I have cd and accounts and other investments but they cant be withdrawn without alot of paper work and penalties.. yea.. I'm in shock right now.. How easily> things can change.. But my whole life has been that way.. Family and friends dying , shipmates dying or killing themselves,, 9/11 . the many unreported events overseas as a sailor.. Its can be maddening. Now No money.. and no assurance when this will be corrected.. Now.. I'm worried and concerned.. I know maybe I'm being to overly dramatic.. But tell that to my creditors.. They don't care about mistakes or what.. They want their money.. So here I am.. trying to be happy in the midst of financial issues.. Thus.. Another stressful time.. I know or realize.. now.. That life is indeed unpredictable and unsteady.. I mean the news always has troubling events that make you wonder about humanity.. I know I insulted or pissed off alot of folks in my life and perhaps Karma is coming back on me.. But its not a fun time for me.. I know Life is tough,, But I will re bounce and get back on my feet, But sometimes We need a rude awakening or wake up call at times to be thankful for whats really important.. Family, health , faith and friends.. Material things can always be taken away.. But your family and health is what keeps you going.. I'm in major reflection mode and reality mode and Its truly humbling. Life is the most truthful and honest thing you will ever deal with.. It either makes you or break you. But I have a strong spirit and I will find and search for solutions to my issues. But I also realize.. I take each day at one time and deal with issues one issue at a time. ,, and I also realize that you can solve all your issues by yourself.. We need help.. Don't feel afraid to reach out to those that are close to you.. and Do what makes you happy. Like working out , talking with family and Friends , reading , writing.. We all need outlets,,, and as your favorite blogger.. I know you enjoy the wide arrange of ideas and issues I share with you... Its a journey,, called life.. and together we shall overcome!! Take Care.. and Find solutions and help one another.. Its what humans do for one another!!
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