My favorite woman... Mama.. story by Mel Paras

My Favorite woman..MARIA " SLIM MIM"  inspired story from some one I know..
 Many years ago,, My beloved mom passed away.. I was early in my Navy career, in fact I just spent 30 days of my vacation time with her before leaving for my overseas duty in Japan.. Those days were fun filled , she would get up and cook me all the goodies I grew up.. Suman. a sweet rice delicacy,, Lumpia.. vegetable and meat style.. babinka. a sweet cake.. Empanada... a bakery good filled with meat or beans.. and of course the other great foods she cooked like Tenola.. a great tasting chicken based  broth  , adobo.. chicken, barbeque chicken.. yummy.. Its amazing I didn't get fat when I was young// Secret.. I ran 10 miles + back in the day plus a boxing and martial arts workout.. but that's another blog.. 
 My mama and I had a blast , I took her to church , we ate at seaport village , and visited all the Asian stores for goodies.. It was one of the best times I had with my beloved mama... 
 Before I left.. for Japan.. I took one last look at my mama... and for some unknown reason I cried.. and people that know me. I'm not that type.. unless its really personal... and for that moment I waved good bye.. I felt it was going to be my last time ... silly thought right. God I wish.. 
 Months later.. I got a call from my eldest brother.. he never calls me. and it was 4:00 am.. and he said.. Mama is really sick,, she has been in the hospital for weeks.. I said " What!" weeks.. Why wait until now.. I was pissed.. Because out of all the family members , I was her favorite... I know parents are not supposed to have that.. But I know and I would bet I was.. I was sweet and caring and helped her do her home business.. Sure I was spoiled with new cars and fancy clothes.. But I felt I earned it,.. even though my brothers and sister thought I was a con artist.. Sure I was the total good boy. I mean I dated alot of girls.. and drank and partied with surfers that smoked... the smokes.. But .. hey I was young wild and free.. 
 Now .. back to the story.. After my convo with brother. I speak with my mom on the phone. She sounds great.. and I tell her I;m coming home to visit her.. She said. she's ok.. But I insist.. I start to cry.. its the strangest and loneliest feelings I ever felt in my life.. I inform my command, and they tell me.. Do what you want leave now or later.. I think about it and I say.. fawk it.. I need to go right.. I leave the following day with wife and 2 year old son.. Get this.. My flight is delayed one day because of a snow storm in one of the connecting cities.. The airline puts me up for a night.. I cant sleep a wink.. I'm tired,. I'm anxious.. I'm Pissed. Finally we are off and hit San Diego.. Instead of going home,, I decide to go straight to Balboa Hospital.. only to find she died a day ago.. yup a day I was held back because of a snow storm.. needless to say. I was devastated.. I was angry and I was confused.. I mean. she sounding strong on the phone. But I realize . then and and now.. That life is fleeting.. you never know when is your last breath.. So you need to be happy every day and never take things or relationshps for granted.. But the damage was done.. I was emotionally upset for years.. When I returned to Japan.. I became a raging alcoholic.. I had emotionally issues.,. I picked fights and challenged everyone. I hit one guy so hard I broke my hand.. I was counseled.. disciplined and threatened.. about being kicked out if I didn't shape up.. But my attitude and trouble continued.. especially when I drank.. It was the worst time of my life.. I didn't know how to cope and like a stubborn sailor.. I felt i needed no help.. But eventually through trials and tribulations. I recovered. But advice... Damage is done. the words and actions can be forgived.. But not forgotten.. But I have no regrets.. I did what I was supposed to do.. I overcame an adversity that everyone will face with a loved one.. But in this case My mama was and still is MY FAVORITE WOMAN.. I LOVE YOU AND I MISS YOU MAMA AND SOME DAY I WILL SEE YOU AGAIN.. that's what keeps me positive about my life on earth.. the idea I will see the woman who shaped and molded me into the man I am now.. 
Take care everyone.. and don't take anything or anyone for granted.. Life is fast..
THE SOURCE PRODUCTIONS @ 2012