My Christmas I knew.... By Mel Paras

My Christmas I knew... By Mel Paras...
 Back in the day when I was a youngster , I recall my beloved Mama. baking great goodies and always treating like a King. Yes , I was a Mama Boy and proud of it.. Sure I got teased was I was youngster, got into fights because of it ..But My mama was the greatest.. She always came through with goodies and taught the spirit of Christmas..It wasn't about what was under the Christmas Tree is was the fact we were together sharing good times.. Alot of the times it was only my Mama and my brothers and sisters.. Because papa was a gung ho always at sea and workaholic papa... But those were the best of times.. The birth of Jesus Christ and the spirit of sharing and giving time to one another I will always cherish.. She never taught us the Santa Claus Christmas or such.. My mama was deeply religious.. and my papa is not.. Me,,. I'm in the middle not to much either way.. In my personal experience I found that the majority of people I know are not too religious , but are so caring and giving..I mean I don't like hanging around self centered, arrogant , ego maniacs.. I mean why do i need to hang around someone like me.. haha.. But seriously.. I love people that care for one another and not competitive.. But the life I lived in the Military you have to put on a facade,, A image of uncaring ,, and hard nose attitude to get where you need to go.. You also cant rock the boat and go along with the plan. In other words to get along you have to get along.. 
 But back to my memories with Mama.. I miss those goodies she baked and her love for me.. I always loved my mama kinds words and encouraging words. She always worried about my temper and tendency to lash out.. But it was a phase growing up.. Now.. I use my Martial Arts skills as a extension or expression of myself. I love sharing or showing off my skills to family and friends.. Its like therapy.. I mean everyone needs a outlet.. and that it for me.. I like working out.. Every day.. and Its a form of relaxing and stress releasing  .. My only regret is that my mama didn't see what a wonderful son she raised.. I became a career sailor and loving and faithful husband and caring parent and concerned citizen.. I love the life I lived and how I live.. I practise what I preach like the way she loved.. She would say: Treat people with respect and how you would like to be treated.." But of course there is some people that no matter how well mannered you are,, People hate you because of color, looks, religion. etc.. Its sad to have hatred.. I have seen it too many times in My Navy career and it ruined alot of lives.. I don't like to Hate people.. unless they try to harm my family or myself..if that happens.. All bets are off. I'm a very protective and loving family guy.. and the REAL FRIENDS i have.. they know How passionate and caring I am.. Yea.. I miss the Christmas days I had with my Mama.. She didn't live a long life, But the memories and love she shared with me will always make me happy... I miss her dearly.. and to be honest,, Christmas has never been the same since she passed away.. But the smiles I see in my family these days makes up for that void.... that will never be filled.. I miss my mama,, and through the years .. I have matured and become the man ,, she always dreamed that i would become.. I know in Heaven you are smiling and watching over me.. Because I feel your presence every time I get near danger.. You always set me straight.... Thank you mama.. I miss you and the Christmas days you spent with your loving son.. 
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