NEW FOUND FRIENDS- BROTHERS FROM THE MILITARY..

New Found Friends - Brother from the Military...Inspired by Greg and Kai!!

    I have been out of the military now.. 5 years.. wow times flies.. I really thought life after the military would be smooth. But it has been if still the hardest transition I have gone through. I mean think about it. I joined in the 90's in the heat of The Persian Gulf war , and then came Dessert Storm and all the other operations.. I don't miss the long ass watches or the boring lectures we had to deal with. i don't miss the long hours cleaning for inspections or doing endless inventory or painting spaces over and over again. I don't miss the long deployments where I was so depressed and lonely. But what I do mi..ss more than ever is the " Camaraderie, the team work, the brother hood , we had in the Military...,.....The day and nights were we would get o lonely and depressed you could Always count on that one buddy that one shipmate that one person that would listen to your fears and see the tears in the eyes.. Yes.. as bad and as tough as we were taught to be , we are still human and many times those long talks in the barracks or on the ship or on liberty calls.. Would do the trick.. I know through out my 20 years + I had that buddy to carry m through.. Camden .. Tony.. Japan.. Renfroe,,Princeton,, Solo. Coronado.---Rob.... ??haha  Princeton.. Everyone... haha.. Peleliu..Jason.. It was tough to lead people because ,, they hate people that take charge that make you do things , but you need that ass hole.. to make sure things got done.. Sometimes. I let that ass hole come home with me I''m sorry ma.. she went through too much shit wth me,, putting up with that arrogant asshole .. that I'm good at it...
  But now after 5 years of jumping around jobs..I think I finally found a place where I can grow and be happy. I like the new place I work at.. I find the new friendships in G and K.. just initials,,, because I learned too much info is not good. But these two former Marines, have brought out the leader in me. I feel more focused about things. I can see clearly.. what a true man has to be.. Its funny how someone younger can teach THINGS ABOUT YOU,. But THESE TWO guys have shown me that I can be cool guy , a motivating guy that looks to do well at work or life..If anything.. I hope I can truly call them life long friends.. I know if my path goes another way ?!?!,, I know if I have to call someone to talk about things, they will listen.. That's what true warriors and brothers do.. I found out I can trust people again.. I know not everyone is going to like you,, That's my problem.. I always think I can win people over. But now that I'm older,, I don't try to be anyone but myself,, Which is a retired Sailor with a Bachelors degree and tremendous pride in America and my family. I really wish my boys to find their ways,, I know they have disappointed me at times.. But I know they must move on and keep going.. I fighting for them.. As for my wife,, I want her to find her happiness and joy in life.. I know I'm still learning about life.. I know I let my ego take over when I should think about making connections in life.. That's me.. I'm so misunderstood. I'm so hard to understand,, its like I want people to like me , but I don't want to get too close,, its like a protective barrier,, But G AND K have opened me up like no other guys or friends can,, and with that I'm so thankful.. I hope to God we reach our goals in life. Because that's what life is about , going out and achieving what you want.. For me.. I want to better myself mentally and physically and be a better father and husband,, But I know words is one thing and actions is another. BUT I feel my new found friends Greg and Kai.. have shown me that true friendship is truly hard to find. To find people you can laugh with, argue with ,,,  advise is truly unique. and I'm glad I can them Friends for life.. I rarely say that . but because we all went through Boot camp.. beat downs,, long watches.. We have seen death and destruction,, we have fought boredom and loneliness.. We all have been happy and sad and dealt with the hardships of life.. Because of that we have a bind , many men and women don't know about.. Its truly a gift  you can truly call someone a friend... someone that you can turn to when your feeling down.... or just feel comfortable being with.. and say nothing.. I know it must be nice to have such a bond.. But sometimes in life ,,true bonds happen because of common ground,. We all have treaded similar grounds and gone through living hells and now by the Grace of God, brought us together to get us through this phase in my life.. I know it sounds corny to hear or read about grown ass men having a bond. But we just do.. Every day during lunch , we have a ritual.. were we Bring out out chairs and Picnic Mat and we eat out lunches,, and listen to country music.. we talk , we laugh , we take naps.. its the best one hour of the day.. Because the stressors of working... gets to us.. But when we go out there in the parking lot under the sun.. getting our tans on.. Its a bond others at work.. have laughed at. applauded us.. and joined us.. Its what we call " Tailgating" its funny at times we have people honk their horns,, Its like we are camping out .. but its something we all look forward too.. Because we take off our boots , and truly relax for that one hour.. Its a cool ritual a true connection I never had at any of my jobs, since retiring.. Its like for one hour we are reliving our military days.. haha.. I know sounds too funny to be true,, But sometimes reality is so unreal.  But to Greg lander and Kai lander my silly nicknames,,, They call me mele mel by the way.. We have started a ritual , I hope keeps going.. Thanks guys for helping find myself.. For those that took time to read my blogs.. Thank you so much. I have over 31,000 page views they call it of my hundreds of blogs.. Thank you so much.. Its makes me happy to share my life experiences with my Social media friends.. Have a great night and always take Care!!
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