THE ROCK CHURCH TEMECULA VALLEY- INSPIRED BY GREG AND JOANNY!!

THE ROCK CHURCH TEMECULA VALLEY - INSPIRED BY GREG AND JOANNY!!

  Well I want to thank you Greg and Joanny for inviting me to attend your church.  I must admit , I was nervous and even scared to go? I mean , I have been going through alot.. ??But I took the big step and attended. It was great to see them in the parking lot , they greeted me with big smiles and hugs,, of course i was over dressed. I haven't figured out what to wear sometimes.. But anyways, we go in and I meet Greg's sister , and her husband and another family Friend.. So we went in and sat down at first , I was next to joannny but later switched to siting next to Greg.. Well anyways,, the church setting is very relaxed and you can feel the love.. The singing is what got me,, I felt the emotions and feelings of the songs they sang. I felt good and uplifted with their songs.. It was awesome,,
  Now to the lessons learned. " The Power of Mercy - and  that God can use anybody..."

                          Well it went something like this , Never forget its all because of God's Mercy! You have to be authentic. Remember its not about me! , so how true that was when I heard it.. and the 2 things that happen when you forget its not about you: 

1) Going to get bitter from my problems .. 
2) Going to get prideful from blessings.. 

In other word God is interested in your motivation than your methods, ok,, I got that , why did you do those things, did  you do it because you want to famous , you want to be a celebrity? , did you do it because you want approval,, did you do it because your so insecure , that buying treats for the work place is your way to make you feel appreciated and love? Thats not a true motivation, you should do things because you want to share good feelings you have, you have God's love.. I mean we should do things because we want to share GOD'S love with his children.. We are all children of God.. We should love one another , but I know some people cant accept Gods love or kindness. so they shun you.. It hurts but I realize that some people just cant accept kindness or true love , because they have been hurt before or they fear they will be hurt. Make sense?
 On humility.. Humility is not denying your strength.. My take , be prideful of your talents and if you do share them , be open and honest with them, for me I 'm very good at boxing martial arts an when I teach people I feel enlightened think about it m when you teach someone something  they look at you different , they look to you as a teacher , preacher , its not ego boosting , but its tremendous fulfillment when your able to share your skills and talents.. am I right. False humility is when you say I'm not good at something , then you show off anyway,,That way people look at you as a faker , a teaser, and phony,, In other words you have to true , and be authentic.. Make sense? 

Humility is being honest about your weakness.. My take is don't be afraid of talking about your weakness.. like for me , I have the tendency to hold things in instead of letting it out at the time of the events. That's why I freak out when I let these things stay bottled in,.. But I will learn how to speak out my mind when something happens.. I need to fix it now because its making me tired . when I keep holding things in,, It keeps me up when i keep things to myself,, Its a weakness I need to work on. 

Another lessson I learned from today's sermon . is " Use my pain to help others." ,,how true that is, I used to help many young people in the navy when they hurt about being lonely , or being heart broken, or being disappointed, and every time I helped a shipmate or Marine, survive the moment,, it made me feel good.. Its god's way to help each other.. We are God's children.. We should help one another , but I also know ego's , and pride can interfere with relationships,.. and it shouldn't be that way? But I know that helping others is like releasing your own pain you had. your helping them know , that I feel your pain I was there and I got through it and I  Will help you get through it.. That's a great feelimg to know that others have pain and we all have to deal with problems. For me, I always put on a smile and joke around, maybe too much and I know people must wonder how can this guy who has seen death , destruction , killings, accidents , misery and yet I still smile and be happy ! I know people enjoy that , like Greg,my brother from another mother, together at work, we laugh , we sing and dance and show happiness.. Sure it might look gay or awkward. But its our way to deal with the many issues and problem's we have dealt with. I really believe God works in mysterious ways,, and I cherish our bond and friendship,, and of course Joanny is a sweet heart , My goodness I appreciate what you do, I have bombarded you with all my stuff and to your credit , you held off judgment.. until you heard it all? But sometimes things just have to be played out.. ? Both of them have taught me .. that be kind to those that are true to you and be true to those that love you! I know God is great because I have 2 of the best friends I can ever have.. 
   As the sermon went on I learned about the 3 kinds of suffering :

1) Suffering because of my poor choices ,,My take is that you knew the things you were getting into , was going to lead to heartbreak.. Am I right? Like you know that girl is bad for you , but because she is giving u attention , You go for it and then when it fails,, sure your hurt , but deep down inside you knew.. but regardless you suffered needlessly by engaging n that relationship? But we are suckers to attention or ego o=boosting.. ? Am I right? 


2) Suffering because of someone else choices.. My take is here is when feel suffering based on other people choices you are empathizing with them , which is ok, but hen you let it affect your life too much. Its unhealthy suffering. Everyone makes choices and no matter how hard you try to help them , if they make the mistake,,, they must learn form it ,,But people like me, tend to feel guilty that I didn't do enough for them.. But I now know you cant feel guilt because someone suffered based on their poor choices,, We as a friend can only do so much which is true and something I learned today... Let things go and let people live their lives and if it hurts them. so be it..at least you tried.. You did your best! 

3) Suffering where you chose to put up with pain and problems in order to help others ..When you put up with peoples actions or hurtful statements because we feel comfortable with one another.. that's why we dump on each other and because we love them or we think we do, we put up with the harsh treatment.. even though taking those hurtful words and actions is actually killing ourselves, emotionally and physically.. Don't allow anyone to do that. Pray for them and wish them well , but you need to let things go.. I know its hard to do, but sometimes people need time and space to heal themselves and recover. That's something that took a lifetime to finally understand,, ? At times letting people go is just a way for the both of you to heal and grow, and through time, if you guys return , it means it was meant to be.. 

Make sense? Ok.. as the sermon went on Stay focused on Eternity!! All the problems we have faced in our lives , is nothing compared to living in eternity. This is where I broke down, God places us or puts us in many trials and tribulations, because he knows you will become stronger and use each event as a growing pains as signs that you can survive anything. I know each test ..I have gone through it seems it gets tougher and tougher , and my faith gets tested . and though I want to quit. I never do, and each time I overcome the issues I feel closer to God, even though temptations are always around . Its takes tremendous strength to fight evil and to fight deceit and horrible thoughts, But I have survived and become stronger , even though it looks like I'm gonna fail.. The idea that heaven exist and that peace and  harmony will be our by being patient.. Is a wonderful idea we all must think about? In other words don't dwell on the bad times , because they last a moment ,its the thought of eternal life, that should guide us to be happy and share happiness to others. My heart feels better when I share happiness instead of hate,and when i heard these words, I broke down crying, and the more I tried to control it or stop it ,, It became a waterfall .. of tears. MY god,, My dear friends Joanny and Greg are wonderful,, they patted my head and back and kept me somewhat composed, the church staff was so helpful and thoughtful they gave me tissues for my waterfall of tears,, But as hurting as it was to cry my eyes out, it was also soul searching and revealing that I have neglected God for so long and I was thinking I could deal with the issues by myself. But I now know I need people and support in my life..
  The final lesson from the sermon.. " The key to staying focused : Small groups..  My take on this is that there is strength in number . when you have 2 people on your side , you can fight back to back , if you have 3 on your side.. you can fight even better. I know I have the best of friends in Greg and Joanny , they have been so supportive of me , and guiding me to be a better person. I know they have differing opinions about what I should do? But I respect them both very much, and they have encouraged me to better myself and focus on whats important in my life. Like my family , my dear friends , the job, my future,, I now know that I have true friends for life..I really believe that and my deal with twin flame connection.. We both know how we feel and we both know whats best , and I know God has a plan for everything and we meet people for  reason. I feel blessed that I had connections with people.. and those that have helped me I love you very much and those that are still with me. I love you very much too.. 

I had a wonderful time and I thank God I was able to release my tears and feelings of guilt , and pain and misery I have been feeling and from this day on I want all of you to find time to talk to God and release your guilt or pain and also stay with people that make you feel good. Mind games, drama , or or insecure thoughts an actions is unhealthy and unproductive,Like I said , Pray for them , wish them well , but let them go,, Its for the best. If they recover .. maybe that friendship can come back together , but if not,, Then reach out to those that are true to you. have a great day and I hope you liked the lessons learned from the New church I call home now.!!
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