Self - Revelation - based on life experiences..

Self - Revelation - Based on Life Experiences..

    Well Hello everyone , Life is a struggle no doubt ,but we must go on, and I want to thank all my Source fans some 500+locally  and the many thousands around the world..  , and the many around the world. As of today   I have over 35,000 views and readers from all around the world. It has been a long road from the beginnings of the The Source , at first a angry in your face blog about anything and everything , to now a more critical and analytical view on life and its trials and tribulations. \
  On thing is clear , I learn ed alot about myself lately or the past few months, I realized that true happiness comes from within and what your doing. You must do things because you want TO and  not allow others or anyone to dictate your happiness. Its a tough thing ti do that is take a critical look of oneself, ? But I found out that I have a over inflated ego? Which means that you cant change people's minds about anything by writing , by talking , by singing by acting by anything, You just have to be yourself, and you cant be too sensitive about things, I mean everyone does dumb stuff right > Or say the wrong things, But if a person has your back , you should have theirs, but being older like I am.. I need to work on that. I mean when I was younger like teenage days, I would get upset when people mistreated me, or even told me truth,, I mean, the truth hurts when I blog or say something , so why should i be so judgemental on people. Lesson learned , I need to chill out and let people be what they are ? I mean now that i'm older like over a half century old, I have no time for games or what? I mean life i so fast guys,, I mean I retired in 2012 and it still feels like it was last year or what. I'm still struggling with the transition and still struggling in finding a work place I can settle down and be productive. But like anything else , you get up shut up and live on. We have too , God has not out us here for anything else or less. During these past few months I learned how to be happy and be appreciative of people, I was in a long funk , depressed and out of it before Meeting my dear friends at work that helped me mature and grow up they all showed me that I'm special and loved , and that I have alot to offer to people and the world. I'm not upset anymore abut anything, I went to my Mama;'s grave site and I prayed and asked about what to do .She said or I felt her  thoughts in my mind that said " Be true to those that are true to you and love your family and dear friends.." Simple enough advice , but everytime I go there and I pray I feel my mind relaxes and those negative thoughts and ideas seem to fade away. But today really felt different because I'm calm right now and I feel good about myself, something I haven't felt in a long time. I know that God is with me just like the rest of us that believe or not believe in him.. In life your always going to have troubles that happen , like deaths to classmates or family. Heart breaks in career or relationships, or just struggling wiht the daily grinds of life. Life is not easy , but when you decide to be happy and don't let negative vibes bother you,,then life looks so much better. I know the people that pumped me up over the Months I wil always Cherish those times and I will never forget you. I know I have alot of work to do regarding dealing with people.but I know God and my family and dear friends will guide me and keep me focused. Its a great feeling knowing the people I meet or have meet will always feel special because  I Made them feel that way. Am I right? Its like the old saying your as happy as you want to be,, I decided today that ..  I will treat each day as a lifetime , because it is, we all never know when its over and we have to be happy and don't judge others so much..If you get hurt ,, absorb it and let it go,, because it doesn't do anyone good to keep sadness or anger in you, it eats you up and tires you out. I know I have had the feeling for months.. until I met the wonderful people at work. Thank you Greg , and Ricardo ,, and B,, you know who you are. They have been the best of the best and kept me going when at times I wanted to quit. But they kept me focused and positive , like My blood type, B positive.. like my twin, ,,oh well like I said , When you enjoy life and don't harbor bad thoughts , life and your mind feels better. I know I use writing to talk out things about sports , daily events and what but a blog about myself, and my inner self is something I know all of you enjoy too. I mean life is a journey and we all have to face obstacles and trials and its how we handle it and how we move on that makes us stronger and smarter. To open up to the world that I need to grow up a bit and learn how to control my ego  and pride and think about whats important in my life,, Like Wife , boys family , friends my health , God's love. Its all there for me to appreciate and love Because life and love is fleeting , you should never take those things for granted and be happy every day,Because God loves us all and he know when and how to bring the right people in your life or back into your life. I have faith and trust in him and I know now from this day on.. to be appreciative of everything and Never take anything or anyone for granted, ? Life is too short my friends,, If you feel like calling someone do it, of you feel like texting someone , then do it.. 

My lesson learned is this, Be happy with what you do and if your not , then go out and do things that make you happy. I have met and developed great friendships with people and though I may have stumbled , and I need time and space to heal wounds, I know The friends I have found , are there forever and rooting for me, but most of all I need to love myself and root for myself,,, so I can share my love and affection with those that want it. I also know that I need to be careful about saying things or doing things for attention, At times those words or phrases can hurt people and to those that I have hurt lately. I'm sorry and I meant no real harm. Its just my in mature side,, which needs lecture , which needs tutoring , and self reflection..  I know its gonna be a lifetime journey of learning , but at least I realize i need to work on my inflated ego , and my attention seeking vibe so I can be the man , the father , the person that is productive and caring and setting the right examples for his family friends. IN other words, be a good man that I know I am. It took meeting people and finding out about my weaknesses and faults to help me grow up. Growing pains at my age, But everyone of us, has alot to learn about ourselves and it starts by self revelation ,self reflection and self discovery. For me ,it took a new friendship with cool similarities and traits that mirrored one another and often scared one another to see whats the real deal. Its scary to see how you really are under stress or under duress. Its the ones that over come those obstacles and learn from them , that has helped me grow as a person and man. I cherish those times wit my friends at work that helped me deal with disappointments, rumors, pressure and perception from people. I know now I cant please everyone " Pleaser" , you just have to be yourself, try your best and let your friends be who they are and let them reach their potential.. Its hard because we all are selfish and want our Friends to stay with us? But we all have our own path and roads to follow and to hinder or stop any ones growth , is not a true friend,, I found out that because I think a certain way, doesn't mean my thoughts are correct. Sometimes you need to step back and take a hard look at what you did or said and see if that action was real or not. Make sense? In other words slow down ,smell the roses and take a look around , keep your eyes open and don't get set in your ways. Because what seems to be the truth ,, at times is only a partial truth and what seems to be fake or phony , is really very true and beautiful.. I found out about how to love and how to be loved. I learned how to treat people right and how not to. I know we are only human and we say and do things out of anger , but jumping to conclusions and making assumptions about what people might be thinking is not only stupid but not healthy. I learned that hard way that if you have issues with someone , you talk it out and if they need space and time ,give it to them. But above all you need to give everyone respect and honor and unconditional love, if they are labeled a friend, Its easy to say or write it out, but actions do speak louder than words, and I learned about that the pas few months. I will talk to people if I have issues, I will resolve any conflicts then and there and most of all I will not come to quick assumptions without valid proof or what. Because all of those actions leads to anger , frustration and hatred , and believe me its not a good feeling to be that way.. So 
Be good to everyone and help one another, I learned when I smile and help people I see happiness in peoples eyes, and that's the greatest feeling you can pass on to people, that is happiness and fun. I had had enough months dwelling in misery or feeling sorry about myself, I'm gonna be happy and share with those that love me.. My family , my friends and most of all myself, Love yourself and spread it around , many doors open when you smile and share your happiness.
HAVE A GREAT DAY AND OR NIGHT.
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