FAREWELL LUNCH WITH MY DEAR CO WORKERS GREG, RICARDO, GUS, AND BILLY ..

FAREWELL LUNCH WITH MY DEAR CO WORKERS .GREG, RICARDO , GUS , BILLY ..

   I don't like good byes , but I thought it would be nice to say good bye to the guys, at the first break , Sammy, Jaime , Luis and Kai. and Art. It was funny running from across the street and greeting Ricardo and Greg. These guys the past 3 months have been my heart and soul.. I mean Greg, is me years ago,, and Ricardo is my pinoy side.. now.. It was to talk.. about nothing. that's what we do , just talk and laugh about silly things,, Its what buddies d to relieve stress and believe me I have been through alot of it,, of work and at work.. The past few months I have been through alot The rumors, the perceptions, the reality of the situation, I was like in tail spin about the work place, I mean I thought at one time my position at work was a sure thing,, But I should of know based on life, that nothing is a sure thing and being humble is important, Not just say t by practise it. . I had such a whirlwind time there I mean I thought I had true friends there , but in the end. My motto,, 
   Be true to those that are true to you,, I mean,,  I thought that one friend I spent time with over the last few months would be my friend for life. Why ? because we shared so many things in common,, I mean we ha may great talks or at least I thought I did maybe its was me doing all the talking and the other person was just listening and Reading.. I mean , My fault for opening my heart and soul  it was a big risk, But that's what I am. I'm a big risk taker,, I have been hurt many times by lovers and friends, Like My best friend JO ,,, he said I'm too eager to please people and too eager to trust,,Protect your heart . But like bull running through the streets I was full throttle ahead and once again, hurt and disappointed by the outcome,, But enough of that.. ..
  Now to my dear co workers who I truly believe are my friends for life.. My dear Friend Ricardo, Man what can I say about you, you fought so hard for me and I respect you for that, you advise me on what to do , but because I was so insecure and fearful. I didn't follow through and because of it , I guess it will haunt me forever. But then again,, Maybe it was meant to be, you know what I mean, Yea, we spent times texting and talking to each other before e, after work , and at breaks, man he really cared about me. Why.? He said I could see that kind heart and spirit your rarely see in people in life, But because I was so open and transparent,, Its seems I always get burned,, and it happened again. But like all the disappointments I have had in life. I pick up my head and move on I have too, But I must admit , the stress the whole month drained me and he kept me happy and focused,, Same with Gus,, this guy really pays attention when he speaks to you and he listens to what you have to say, I didn't have alot of talks but each one I ad was special, like today sharing about his family member in serous health issues,, I know the feeling,, I lost My grandma , my mom, my mother in law, within years of each other and each of them affected me, Because I loved them so much, they molded me ,, when I was younger,, that why I had feminine qualities,, But I'm not ashamed, its what makes me a special person that people love, well alot of people who appreciate what I do.. Yea,, IT was a great lunch I mean I only knew Billy as short while but we clicked because of the similar back grounds and just living life.. Its too bad the younger cats in the warehouse and office ,, could of understood the pain and misery I went through ,, But they think they way they think because they walked different paths, and I doubt they could walk the same path I did . I mean the racism in my younger days before the navy and in the navy, the deaths I seen, the burials at sea, the tears for family members, the hundreds of flag draped coffins , it was like a living  hell to see so may shipmates die, kill themselves or try to, or what, Its a deal I would not wish on anyone, But,, life went on and though I know I'm ok , It still hurts when certain songs come on or what just reminds me of shipmates or marines I knew in my navy times,like i said it was a lonely and scary life to live,, But I did.. 
    Last but not least my male twin Greg, I have wrote so many great things abut him in so many blogs, So your probably thinking how can you have so much love and respect for someone in only 3 months,, Like I said we clicked from day 1. we joked and laughed like were brothers . Which I believe we are. I mean we like the same songs, the same movies, have the same twisted humor and love attention, We both take pride in looking good... We enjoy making each other laugh and others at work, Because we know life is hard, and we make the point to make people laugh well most of the time, Its funny , but I realize some people aren't just happy no matter what you do, and people are jealous and envious of you ,, So if anything stay humble because not everyone is on your side, It took me life time to realize that , but better late than never. But I now know that to really have true friends that you connect with is really rare and people that are authentic and real are rare. To really have true friends is rare so when I can call Greg, Ricardo , Jo , Colin , Tony ,Joanny as true friends that's a true treasure, Because I have heard that we will be friends forever and despite my mistakes or foolish words, I find out some people are bull shitters or maybe they are just afraid to be around people that really know them, I mean its scary to be around people that will call you out an Say don't do that ot stop being that way. But that's what true friends do. They keep you grounded , they kep it real and don't try to say what you want to hear. Instead they beg tou to stop or ask you to wake up and advise  you to do whats right. Believe me I know I'm not a east friend to be with. MY moods, my attitude and my unpredictability can make anyone say that's enough. But I feel I have grown up and my dear friends that I mentioned are guiding me to be a better man. And for those that have given up or about to, I must say that I understand , and I realize some people are like tumble weeds, they come  into your life for awhile and then go away and others stay forever  LIKE my BESTIE joe, it has seen and felt the best and worst of times and is still there. He is truly a gift from God and I'm Thankful. and to my 2 new found friends Greg and Ricardo.. I love you guys , you made work fun and bearable. I wish you both the best of luck in career and life and I know we friends for life. We just have the chemistry and connection from the get go,, 
The luncheon taught me that good Friends take time out to be with and support and and don't judge you or make fun you and accept you.I;m thankful for wonderful people in my life and I Thank God for watching over as well as my dearly departed mama who I miss very much , All of these people are my treasures in life and to the friends I have lost through death , suicide, or just walking away. I pray for you and May God be with you as you go  through this journey we call life. We never who stays and go's in our life , but one thing is for sure I cherish the moments and lessons learned because every person that touches our lives do make an impression and its up to us to value their time with us. May all of yo find true treasures in your life and be kind to one another and understand that some people are just there for a moment and everyone has their own journey and agenda to follow.. 
Once again Thank you Ricardo , Gus , and Billy for spending time at lunch and I wish you all well and to my Brother form another Mother, you know how we feel about each other , respect , honor and care and love that most people would love to share but don't have, I know whatever our paths in life we will always have a bind for the times we had and the experiences we shared , because like I have said, its rare to find people that really click with you and I thank God the people in my life are making my life enjoyable,.. 
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