Happy Mothers day - A tribute to my Mama who passed away many years ago!!

Happy Mothers day to All the wonderful Mothers. I love you and miss you Mama!!

   Everyone that is  mother your are truly special and I honor and respect everyone one of you!! 

   I want to thank my beloved mama that gave me the best years of her life, Guiding me , teaching me, lecturing me, advising me,, whipping me , I needed it I was a spoil ed brat. and still am. She molded and guided me into a loving and caring person, Except when I lose my temper and get out of character. What do I mean, Well I'm a sensitive and proud and stubborn person kind alike my male and female twin . We both are very vain, and we both think we are gorgeous and irresistible, we think we are the bomb to men and women, In other words we think everyone loves us and everyone wants us. What a way to think huh? Well anyways,, When i was younger mama and grandma would teach me about treating a women, be kind , be generous, be open,, but I think they forgot to teach me how to to be a man, because that side I learned from a Americanized , curse laden, beer drinking , I don't give a flying hoot who I offend or who I hurt. I'm the center of the universe and your all just puppets to me. 
 Well having such extremes teaching me, has been a battle in life, its lIke Ones the angel and the other is the demon or devil,, its been constant and exhausting. But when My mama passed away,, That is or was the saddest day of my life, because my mentor, my guide, my twin soul, my best friend , perished and it was hard because I spent 30 days with her before leaving for japan for my early navy career. But soon after I got the news mama was gravely sick.. I was shocked because I just spent 30 days and she seemed healthy and strong or at least she showed it to me,, so.. I spoke to her while she was in hospital bed, I said I coming back to see you.. She said I'm ok. but I said I want to see you , we both cried and off I went I had a one day delay in my trip,, and it upset me.. Because when I arrived my family didn't want me to go to the hospital they wanted me to come home first, But I took a cab with my wife Mona and I asked for my mama. I should of know by the looks on their face , it was good news.. But wife knew, and i cried and demanded to see my mama. they sent a priest and my family came, my baby brother Jerry hugged me and we cried our eyes out, and to this day that moment I knew my life would be forever changed. During the funeral arrangements , I took charge , Even though I was the youngest , but I felt I was the closest to her and the one that knew her the best,, In other words I was the mama boy.. I also learned that I was going to be like my mom, spread love and joy to everyone I see and touch, no matter what. I know some men and women took it wrong as being a flirt or what , but that's how my mama was so full of love. Now on Mothers day, I pay tribute to my mama , that took out for lunches , and we played bingo at St Charles Church, and we picnicked at Luck Waller park in South San Diego.. We shared many great times, helping sell her foods at the south bay drive in theatre in IB.. talking walks and catching grunion at Coronado beach or Imperial beach. We shared a lifetime of memories.. with my mom. High school and College graduation , navy boot camp. those are cherished times. I will always remember those times , because that's how she would of wanted it. Not the times of me crying  my yes out at the viewings and funeral. I couldn't hold back or still cant hold back the tears rolling down my face when I think of how much she loved me, when I hurt myself , playing football, when she would cry and pray for me, while rubbing vapor rub or whatever to ease the pain. I wish she would take me to the Dr, but she was filipina , and they like curing their own family,,ha.. I didn't like that , but in hindsight I admired her for raising us and never hurting us emotionally ,, she always supported us even though she didn't understand why we wanted to d things? But she had unconditional love and support and I love her and miss her so much. When I pray I always look to hear and see if shes talking to me and many times I hear her saying , don't lose faith and never give up on anything or anyone ? Even the ones that shun you , disrespect you or hate you. I never understood those words until now. I realize we are all God's children, and shunning or denying other people your love or attention is cruel and un Godly, It makes God unhappy and I know I don't want to do that. But its hard with my ego and pride to lower myself and really humble myself to people who have ignored me or neglected or flat out act like I don't exist. It their way of coping I'm guessing , but to me, I want to live my life free and happy and be around people that love and respect me and also support those around me, A true friend supports and defend one another and helps you be a better person. They are real and tell it like it is, even if it hurts like hell. My mama was that way, she loved me , but when she had to, she let me know what was up,, Like why are you dating that girl. and how come you are always going out? Why do you look so tired ? How come you have so many girls in your life? etc.. It never ended, like Ma, I'm not courting all these girls, they are friend 's or what/ I think she never understood me on that part. ?But I did like bring my girls home, Mama didn't always approve,, but daddy did.. sometimes too much,, you know what I mean? Ha,one of my girls said your dad is perverted old man.. Hmm. ? really? The apple doesn't fall far from the tree? I hope not. ? well anyways, I want to say Mama I love you and I miss you so much and on this mothers day I will pay tribute to you by posting your picture and writing a heartfelt blog about you because you are the best lady I ever had a relationship with. The laughs , the jokes, the drinking and talking about life were always heartfelt and real, and I know God willing we will reunite and have a eternal life of joy and happiness , that we had with your brief but wonderful time on earth. I hope and pray to all the Mothers out there and those that have lost theirs. I want all of you to be happy and joyful and may all the blessings you desire come true!
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