Not afraid to be alone .. inspired by life events

Not afraid to be alone , Inspired by life events ..

    Hi everyone , I just want to say thank you for reading my blogs if anything my blogs are heartfelt and truthful.. because it’s life experience based ., Now about being alone , I like my alone time . Because I enjoy writing and just thinking and to do those things it takes time hours to think about what I’m going to write , then do it . Writing to me is therapy it’s a revelation at times and most of it it’s humbling . When I write it’s a journey through thoughts which eventually has a conclusion or moral to the story , that’s why I
Love writing it helps me think about things and through fact finding and emotional response I get
Out my feelings and thoughts about my own feelings . Some say I’m an emotional writer that likes to get the reader hooked on every word , others say I like to paint a picture of what I’m going through. To me I’m a writer that wants you to feel like your there with me experiencing everything I’m going through ..well writing helps me deal with my fears , my happiness , my search for the truth . At times it’s scary to talk about things that have happened in my life because it’s personal and painful ..it’s a journey at times I share with my readers .. I try to make my blogs simple and easy to read like I’m talking to you .. it’s a unique style I have used since high school my teachers say it’s a different style that is appealing ,, but not always grammatically correct , but isn’t telling at times the sane way ,, 
   As for being alone .. I have many hobbies one of them is guns , I enjoy shooting them , cleaning them taking them apart , there’s something to telling a gun a part to see how it operates and making sure it’s working at it optimal level , It’s a thrill to go to the gun range and fire off rounds on my rifles and pistols . It’s like a ceiling affect to my mind .. An afternoon of shooting is like session of therapy that frees my mind and relaxes my soul , The smell of gum powder the rounds hitting the ground and just being in a open area .. is a very calming scene , I know how can you say shooting bullets that make a loud noise .. being so calm . But anyone that goes shooting outdoors , you know the awesome feeling , 
   I also enjoy martial arts training ., I can spend hours practicing my boxing or martial arts moves , I use the moves that are fluid and easy to do if I have to think about the move , then it’s not really me .. I know it’ sounds boring , perhaps it is but I think loners are like that they enjoy being alone so they can think , write or practice their martial arts ,,! I’ve always enjoyed time by myself . Like I said I’m not afraid to be alone .. But when I do decide to go out .. I’m a very like able and social guy .. and maybe that’s why girls and guys like men I know how to have fun or be the life of the party ..But like I said I’m not scared to be alone .. 
   I feel being alone is not as bad as you all think , because having a relationship or friendship can be exhausting because the other party wants a piece of your time , your heart your time and if your a loner with hobbies at times what they want your attention ,, You can’t accommodate them because your busy with your gun collection or writing or working out .. Like I said I need a lady that doesn’t need a lot of attention and is alright spending quality time then quantity time because  I’m the type that has to do his thing which involves writing , working out and my gun collection , It my alone time and I need to have time to pursue my hobbies .. That’s why I enjoy my alone time and I’m not afraid to be alone .. I guess the funniest thing I ever heard was from my best friend, he said if you could you
Would marty yourself because you love yourself more then any women you ever met or loved, no
On in this world can match the love  you have for yourself ., If that’s true then I’m never gonna be happy with any women and I need to just be alone and just be a free will that enjoys being alone so enjoys entertaining people for the rest of my life . 
  I’m not afraid to be alone because I enjoy my own company and I enjoy doing things that don’t need people around .. like writing .. working out and shooting guns .. But for that woman that can handle me .. Then you got a guy that is complex but loving if you let me do my thing . 
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