THE PAINS OF LIFE.. INSPIRED BY LAPD OFFICER CRAIN.

THE PAINS OF LIFE.. INSPIRED BY LAPD OFFICER CRAIN...
  Everyday for 20 years I had to get up early and prepare what my career bestowed upon me. I was thrusted in a patriotic world , but a harsh , and strict world. I was told what to do what to eat what to think.. What to wear , when to wear it.. It sounds like a doting mother. But no it was service to this great nation and all Service members and law enforcement and homeland security understand its a oath , that just stays while in your service  its a lifetime oath.. I realize that now.. No matter how long  grow my hair , or what clothes or patterns of speech I choose to maintain.. I'm a a man that many years ago took a oath of office to support and defend the Constitution of the United States of America.. I see a lot of youth and young kids doing their things and I pray and hope they realize , freedom is wonderful , but its not free ,, Many of my comrades and ancestors and your have cried , died and worked at protecting these freedoms. The world is wonderful place , I have see the beautiful and the kindness of local people.. But I also have seen the ugly world.. The mean one that wants war. that wants death to Americans and their Friends. Its a chilling admission to know We Americans have dedicated enemies.. We don't realize that because we are going through life's struggle, the kids futures your financial situations.. We are dealing with our own pains of life. But there is a another world I liked for many years . I had to mean, I had to kick ass and kill as commanded. Its not a civilized way of thinking , but that's the way we had to train.. We had to battle fires, and piracy at sea.. We dealt with our own pressures and the issues of the world seem to be so far away. We were deprived of our own freedoms, because we were busy defending your.. Its funny The Military defends democracy , but we don't practice in our own world.. Yes.. their is unfairness , favoritism.. corruption.. and even down right bigotry. The images and perceptions of the clicks in the Navy are so deeply entrenched that even when you say your not a part of that group.. If you look like it , if you talk like it. then you are it.. I know when I joined the Navy , I had a different perspective on life and what I wanted out of it. My many stress filled and heart breaking years in the Navy has at times made be cold blooded about pain and misery , especially others. Because we cant let emotions dictate how we conduct missions and duties. I know a lot of civilians can never understand a veterans pain. But I hope in my future blogs will help you understand if not for a moment take into account the many stressors we veterans faced and still trying to overcome.. The images of death on tv.. is nothing like seeing it up close.. The tragedies I have witnessed and accidents causing great bodily harm will never leave my mind.. I know now hat Post traumatic syndrome is for real.. Because I still have troubling getting restful sleep and to fully concentrate and remember things is difficult to But I also know times does heal all wounds.. But the scar and memories remain.. My career is winding down. I have less than 3 weeks remaining in my honorable Career, and God knows how Much I dedicated my passion and love for this great nation I call THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA.. I know I'm not white and I can never be.. But I have the American Spirit that I want to teach to my kids and his friends.. Nothing is ever free. If you want freedom , you must defend it every day , you must preserve it and encourage others to do the same.. Its our god given right ,, and we must as a nation follow, Because my fellow fb friends.. The world is painful and I have seen the poor and the wretched cry in the streets begging for me to buy them anything and because I'm so soft hearted and caring I would but all the time. I say to myself.. NO matter what pains and suffering my kids think they go through,,They will never see the pains of life I seen in the streets of Thailand , Bali , Hong Kong, Africa..and other exotic lands,, It will would break my heart to see pretty young girls in Thailand to sell themselves to dirt bag folks,,, just to eat.. They would do anything for money,, and I mean anything. I would feel so sorry, because they would sell their souls for easy money.. Some times I would just hand them money... or buy them food and my fellow shipmates , why? I said because .. because.. they are humans, and for a young girl.. 11,12 , 13 OR WHATEVER age was disturbing.. But my shipmates and laugh.. What a waste of money.. At least get something out of it.. Hmm.. Really who's wrong ? But it doesn't matter , I know I'm a one man army surrounded by monsters and evil doers,, and I will continue to fight those folks .. and for those that really  know me. I'm a honorable and passionate man, that looks to women ,, as fellow humans , not sexy toys or objects, don't get wrong.. I love looking at beautiful woman,. But I'm more impressed with women who are beautiful inside,, Humility , sincerity , honesty.. and true compassion is what I call a beautiful woman,,. and despite the pains of life.. My Favorite women are My dearly departed mama.. who passed away way to young.. and My bestie who after many years of pains has helped me transition into this different world.. Then last but not least.. MY loving wife who is a loving and caring woman that has let me choose free will and do what makes me happy and also cherish the times we share together.. I know those are only 3 ladies , but all of them have helped me shape my ideals and personality and discover my real self. I know the Military pains of life were very hard my my heart and soul,, But My time is done and now I have another mission in my life,. Which is to assist my kids to do well in their studies and encourage them to find their way. I know life is not easy and often times we don't realize how fast time goes.. I will cherish my time with my family and true friends , because times does fly so fast. The pains of life is never ending,, But I know that for every obstacle I face or my family and friends , I pray that we take time and a moment.. to decide what we need to do.. Our actions always have a affect on the ones we love whether we realize that or not.. I know that Nothing in life is guaranteed , but is better we don't know our true destiny's. the idea of not knowing when your gonna die or when your gonna face issues. Each day , is gift.. That's why they call the Present?!! The Pains of life is strong and wear on us. But if troubles ,, haunt you , take time out and think about what's important to you.. Be true to those that are true to you and reach out before you freak out.. You owe it to your loved ones and society itself.. I have seen too many pains of life and Today,, can be the difference maker,, BUT as a human you must love each day and embrace your relationships,Never take anything for granted,, I know I did and I lost many family and friends,, suddenly and unexpected.. The Pains of life.. will never end. its a part of life.. But do what makes you happy , but leave a legacy that your family and friends can be proud of.. I hope and pray my legacy of love, compassion , humility and advice can not only be words.. But plans of action all of us can practice every day of our lives.. If you don't trust humanity or family and friends or my writings.. Then look to GOD.. he there always , it just we all because of the rat race of life , we take him for granted and sadly ask for help in dire needs.. Why not thank him every day for each day you live and be thankful.. for loving family and friends.. The pains of life.. you cant run away from it.. WE have to face and deal with it. ... Until my next blog.. Take care..
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