Biggest fears . Based on life experiences

Biggest fears based on life experiences .,
HELLO everyone another blog from the source .. ok one of the biggest fears I have or have had in my life is the fear of rejection , Once upon a time I was an aspiring actor , but at my first audition in college for a professional job a commercial for tv ,, Taco Bell ad ,‘ok I was so nervous and scared I really wasn’t into it . First off I was with 5 other actors that had experience over me they dressed the part had portfolios with current photos resume etc , I had my high school grad picture and a resume
Full of college experience, Well they had you introduce yourself
, do a cold reading , which is read a poem or monologue of some sort , we walked down  around the stage then we sat in a room waiting ,. That was the hardest part then our college teacher came in and told us we weren’t hired ? None of us .. it was devastating to my ego and probably ended my career right there and then , I mean I went to more auditions , more rejections and finally decided acting wasn’t for me , Yes rejection is my biggest fear , whether it’s selling me or products or services I just took things too personal . 
   Next is getting close to someone and you muster the guts to tell them how much you love or like them only to be rejected , like oh I’m flattered but I don’t see you in that way ,, Boom for guys it’s a ego deflater and makes most guys get angry or upset and may say or do things in haste , but that’s how guys think we feel if we hurt them it won’t hurt as much,, bull shit it hurts no matter what you try to hurt them , Why ? Because its feelings , it’s personal it’s you , but I know when I get hurt I do stupid things like that ., We guys never learn , we react With our pride and ego in place and many times ruin a friendship that could of developed into something ,, oh well it’s life .,
  Next is fear of being Embarrassed like if your debit or credit card doesn’t work at the register , instead of letting it go we often times try to validate things but saying I know there’s money in there or something must be wrong with the register, thus creating a bigger scene if only we just used cash or another card ,, haha it’s the truth right ? 
   My next fear is of that , fear of the unknown or unexpected like getting a flat tire at night in unfamiliar place ,, yes I know it’s America but then again there criminals killers
Drug addicts , mental s that roam  the streets so being in an unfamiliar place can be scary , Maybr that’s why I change my tires regularly because I don’t want to be in Oakland Ca o Long Beach at night .. just saying I used to live in those places they’re crazies out there ,,
  My biggest fear is something happening to my wife and kids , I can only imagine how that would feel to lose one or all family members but accident or murder that’s why I’m so protective at home locks on doors , motion detector lights , security system cameras . A barking German Shepherd and of course my arsenal of weapons , Heaven forbid someone manages to bypass the lights alarms and my dog ,, Like I says there is no logical reason to be in my house at 2 am .. unannounced ,, Your looking yo get 5.56 caliber rounds in your ass., Because I care about my family ! 
 Now these are biggest fears in life some you can laugh about especially the debit cards or embarrassing moments but other things like fear of the unknowns will always be fears I have to deal with .. Am I right ? 
  Well until my next blog be safe be good to people and work on your fears in life ,!For me it’s buying new tires all the time , not opening up yo people too soon and safe guarding my family and home ,to deal with my fears . Have a great day ! 
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