Black Beauty Updates .. May 2017..

Black Beauty Updates May 2017..

   Its been awhile since I've told stories about Black beauty, as a quick reminder Black Beauty is the name of My Late model 2012 Dodge Challenger RT. HEMI, its a powerful car with a jett blackpaint job with red hash marks on the hood. It eye catching to people and the cops.. 
  Well the other day after work , some foolish dude with a beat up Honda actually wanted to race me.. What a dreamer , I ignored him. I have been better at letting challenges go,, . But anyways.. Its weired what the car does to people, at a stop light a girl was looking at my car and maybe me. and she forgot to turn.. I laughed or grinned at her as she drove by after people honking their horns.. But for whatever reason Black beauty just attracts attention.. Sometimes its fun other times its annoying. But it comes with the territory owning a bad ass muscle car..
  Now do I take chances,, Most of the time,,no, but other times especially if I'm tired and I'm in hurry to get home like today.. I will weave in and out of traffic with only a few feet to spare.. I know my best friend tells me , be careful because it only takes a small mistake , by the car or you to kill yourself,, Its weird when I drive people around I'm safe, mainly because God forbid I killed my sons or my friends like " G " and " B" if I hurt them . or were killed by my own account I would not be able to live with myself ...Meaning I would take my 9MM  AND BLOW my brains out , or shoot my heart, Since it would be messy funeral if I blew my brains out.. But Then again I would cremate my self anyways. But like I said. When I drive by myself.. I take deadly chances.. Why? Because when your adrenaline is pumping and fear and excitement vibrates in your body,, Its euphoria that sets in.. If you never drove a car 120 + then you don't know the feeling. Like I said  I drove 140 + to Vegas... and it was fun.. Like i said when your driving that fast in a big ass heavy car. the ride feels like a boat.. Am I right? But also at that speed .. the road gets smaller and the view does too.. and with my bad eyes , its not a good or safe idea.. But like I said when I get into black beauty its like the bad ass paras . or Mel comes out. i think I'm a race driver , rock star/.. I feel like I',m in fast and furious movie with the Rock or Paul walker.. Its a thrilling experience to have such horsepower, But I also know that having a safe reliable economy car would be practical,, But as much as I think I am.. deep down inside,, I'm that Rebel Mel. that doesn't give a fuck.. what people think? Because,, Its my life right? I know its sounds selfish , but aren't we all,, don't we do things to satisfy our own needs? Well I know when I drive black beauty I enjoy every moment.. Because I also know , one bad move 
I'm dead.. I know my friends like Jo , G and B .. always tell me to drive safe and I say yes. But I dont and that's foolish,, because if I did kill myself.. they would be so hurt . why because they love me so much... At work.. I goof off and sing and dance with G, and on breaks I smile and chit chat with B.. shes a cool girl,, but that's another blog.. But back to black beauty.. Its like I become a different persona when I drive that car.. Its a adrenaline rush.. I know i should calm down , carry on.. but I believe because I have seen many people die , commit suicide , drink themselves to death or drug overdose. I feel guilty. that I didn't die with them.. Every day and night I struggle wit that guilt, thus I'm not afraid to die, because I feel I cheated death so many times..Thus Black beauty is my vehicle for death and destruction.. Yea.. but with my luck I will become a cripple and leave that burden to my family,, but then again, f I should get a near fatal accident,,, Please do not resuscitate me. Okay family and Friends.. Greg Ferrer my dear close friend these days,, as much as I love life , I don't want to be vegetable or a coma like state,, if you truly love me and respect my wishes,, just let me go,, let me die, for Gods Sake That's for My bestie Jo Callera, My brothers and sisters.. Let me die,, I know that sounds morbid,, but I feel this depressed .. so to speak when I have all limbs and relatively healthy.. then I cant or wont imagine myself..  staying alive being a burden.. right.. Lets see,  Oh yea,, B.. you know who you are, as hard as it might be to let me go,, if you really believe and understand me like I know you do,, Then let me die,, don't revive me..because its my last wishes on my blog, on my mind and my final wishes.. thus.. my Black beauty blog,, the car has been through alot.. and I have seen it all, from near fatal crashes to rear end accident to nearly getting killed while attending a WFG meeting in San Diego,, thus close calls did make me think about life and death and because of those near death experiences as lessons to learn.. Enjoy each day I live because it might be your last.. and if I die,, tonight . I know that the blogs, the videos , the enjoyment i shared with everyone in my life will be appreciated. But as my Friends Greg and Benz say. you have alot to live for and alot to offer to people.. We would be devastated and saddened if you would die unexpectedly or by some dumb accident you could of avoided. Which is true.. I should think about the people who love and care for me. and I'm thankful to those people that have saved me from myself.. so to speak.. Until my next black beauty blog.. Enjoy life and if you see the beauty on the road.. honk and wave.. I will return the favor. haha.. 
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